After a long time, I didn't return Xiao Ai's first album in my life to Yao Yu, and I kept thinking about some things that had happened in the past two years. And these things seem to have happened yesterday, but who had ulterior motives in these two years of separation, only the one with ulterior motives knows.

However, I still don't want to forget the image of her standing in the cold wind with a corn cob waiting for me. It was the most unconfident period of my life, and she stood like a barefoot man on the wet shore, waiting for me to sail back.

And at that dusk in the "Clear Water Cliff", the wind is very light, the sea is very wide, and the people are very beautiful...... It was a time in my life when I had no burden at all and was just greedy for enjoyment.

And all of these have touched me deeply. But I don't know, what are these past to her now?

I finally said to Yao Yu: "Can I give this album to me?" ”

"No problem, you can send ten."

I put the album in my handbag, and after a moment of silence, I asked Yao Yu, "Why did you come to tell me the news in the first place?" ”

Yao Yu's eyes were a little hollow, and she said to me: "I know that I shouldn't think so, but after learning the news of Yuan Zhen, my first reaction was to go to Taiwan to find him...... But I don't know how to deal with it, it's like a particularly uninteresting person, who cries to the memories of the past and asks others to give a result, but the result itself is meaningless...... Ehashi, can you understand my mood right now? ”

"I understand, of course I understand...... Because I'm in the same mood as you right now. ”

There was finally a hint of color in Yao Yu's empty eyes, she looked at me and said, "Since we have the same idea, do you want to go to Taiwan together?" ”

I didn't respond to Yao Yu immediately, but just looked up at the emptiest part of the "Dream Tree" outside. It was already overgrown with weeds, and even if a night pearl fell inside, it would probably not be so easy to find.

I said to Yao Yu, "What are you going to do?" Is it just watching from afar, or is it heart-rending to ask them for an explanation? …… Yao Yu, I think we should not be carried away by this news, we should be sober...... Then think about how hard-won life is today, and we really have to learn to cherish it. ”

Yao Yu's face was first dazed, then struggling, and she suddenly cried. She grabbed my arm tightly, choked up and said, "Jiang Qiao, I'm just unwilling...... It's been two years, and in the past two years, it's not that no other man has appeared in my life, but I just can't accept it...... I really can't believe that it can be so painful to fall in love with someone who doesn't love me! ”

I sighed and replied after a long time: "Don't try to find fairness in love, and don't look for answers, especially for the outcast like us. Sometimes, silence is our last dignity. ”

Yao Yu finally nodded, and she replied in the "drizzle" drizzle: "I understand...... Even if we were to meet, they should have come to us, not for us to come to them...... We are the victims! ”

……

Yao Yu left, but the "Dream Tree" gradually became popular, as the hotel began to reopen after a week of closure during the Chinese New Year. Therefore, from noon, employees have returned to their jobs one after another, and then received guests from afar with warm service.

Business at Dream Tree was still doing so well, and on the first day of business, the rooms were full at 8 p.m. And everyone who has something to do seems to be living to the fullest.

It's just me, sitting in the corner of the bar, flipping through the album left by Yao Yu and watching it over and over again, but I never have the courage to tear it down and listen to it, because every song in it has the mark of Yuan Zhen.

It was late at night, and there was almost no one in the bar, but the silence didn't calm my mind, and I asked the waiter to bring me a dozen beers...... It seems that only when you drink and go to the bathroom to release for a short moment, you will be in a relaxed state.

I don't doubt that even a year ago, I would not hesitate to go to Taiwan to find her. But now, many things around me have changed, and I rushed to find her, not only will I hurt myself and the people around me, but even Xiao Ai...... Because, some things are obvious, if she wanted to see me, there were countless opportunities to meet me in the past two years, but she didn't do it.

I didn't take the initiative to look for her, not because I hated her, nor because I didn't miss her, but because I was calmer and more rational now. In the past two years, I have learned to rise to the height of the big picture and deal with one thing.

I also know that since she is no longer incognito, we will meet sooner or later.

……

After drinking half a dozen beers, my whole body began to fall into a state of confusion, and a light snow fell outside the window, which were like a string of small pieces of time under the street lamp, full of youthful wildness and unmeasurable regrets. I've seen it all now!

After a moment of silence, my phone vibrated in my hand. The call came from Ade, who was far away in Taipei. I knew he was there to tell me about Xiao Ai, but his news came a little later than Yao Yu.

I answered the phone, and he was so excited that he spoke incoherently: "Aqiao, big news...... Ruyi made her debut in Taiwan, do you ...... Do you want to come here...... There's definitely a chance to meet her with the roar above! ”

I was silent for a long time, because I still wanted to see her, but I had to refrain from it. I said to Ade, "Ade, listen to me...... Nearly two years have passed between her departure and her appearance, and it is instinct and nature for people to choose to move forward...... I really can't go back! ”

"But Aqiao...... Don't forget the roar, when Ruyi left you, he was blind...... Aren't you really afraid that she chose to leave in order not to be a burden to you? …… Maybe you really don't know, how painful the world of the blind is? They can't go shopping, they can't see themselves and others, and they don't even have the right to enjoy the convenience of mobile phones, which everyone can enjoy every day...... If you don't believe me, you can close your eyes and live the day, and then experience and appreciate ......"

After Ade said this angrily, he didn't give me a chance to speak again...... I know that he has a good impression of Xiao Ai, but he has ignored my pain and helplessness over the years...... I'm not having a good time.

……

Not long after Ade's phone hung up, I received another call from Yang Qu. Her tone was also not calm, and she said to me as if a machine gun had been fired: "Brother, I just heard the news that your former girlfriend Xiao Ai made her debut in Taipei...... I know you've been looking for her for a long time, so I'm especially curious to know what you think now...... Don't tell me you're in Taipei by now...... I'll treat you like a beast...... No, everyone who knows you will see you like a beast...... Because you're sorry Sister Jin Qiu...... Think about it yourself, how has she worked hard by your side for more than a year to transform you into the successful person you are today? …… Of course, I'm not using this to morally kidnap you, but I just hope that you can consider Sister Jin Qiu's mood before making any decisions......"

I sighed softly as I listened, and it wasn't until long after she finished speaking that I replied, "Can I be quiet for a while?" …… The news of her debut, I knew earlier than any of you, but I am still dreaming of the tree, and I haven't gone anywhere...... I don't want to do anything now, I just want to be alone for a while. ”

"Okay, I'll keep you quiet...... But you have to promise me...... Whatever the reason, you can't run to Taipei to find her...... It's been almost two years since she's gone, and if she wants to see you, or miss an old relationship, she can find time to come back and see you anyway, but she hasn't done that...... What does this mean? …… It means that she is already someone else's wife...... People have taboos! ”

Stance was a terrible thing, and I was so tormented by it, that I hung up the phone and turned off my phone before I could finish speaking, and that was the only way to calm me down.

However, my other mobile phone was not turned off, and the number of this mobile phone was only known to Jin Qiu...... This is because we have prepared to prevent unexpected situations that may lead to untimely communication...... But the original intention of this number is not to contact personal feelings, but just for office matters. Because there are so many projects in the "Dream Tree", it is inevitable that there will be some accidents, which need to be communicated with her in a timely manner.

However, the person who was supposed to call me the most that night did not contact me. But I don't believe that at this time, she has not yet learned the news of Xiao Ai's debut in Taiwan. At least, Yang Qu will definitely tell her.

And the reason why I don't turn off this phone is that I want to wait for her to hear what she will say to me...... Over the past year or so, she has become my spiritual partner, and it is precisely because I have been with her for a long time that I have really added something called stability to my body.

……

It's late at night, and I still haven't waited for a call or message from Jin Qiu, and I'm really tired. So, I turned off the phone as well, and lay down on the floor of the bar, watching the flickering fire, and soon fell asleep.

This night, I had a dream, I dreamed that I met Xiao Ai, and she was no longer the original Xiao Ai, she became indifferent, became not good at talking, and I seemed to have a sense of distance like a chasm...... The only thing that remains unchanged is that her singing voice is still so beautiful, although she has just debuted, it is only a matter of time before she becomes popular.

However, she turned herself into the person she hated the most...... And that's enough to be incomprehensible.

So, I was thinking about it in my dreams...... What did she experience after leaving?

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