Chapter 460: A lifetime of dependence

In the gusting evening breeze, I turned my back to the guardrail, drank the half can of beer that I had not finished in one gulp, and then looked at the sky on the other side of the city, the lights reflected it in a dark red, and on the highest building, the neon flowing, like two lines of tears, I seemed to not be able to see anything that could make me positive, and I was defeated by the depressed side of my heart. So, I tore open another can of beer and shifted my eyes to Qiao Ye, who was answering the phone not far away...... I'd like to have a good chat with him, but he always gets calls.

After drinking another half bottle of beer, Qiao Ye walked over from the other side of the rooftop, and then turned off the mobile phone and put it on the railing. He seemed to care more about the city than I did, and when I turned my back, he leaned on the guardrail and looked at the city so big that I couldn't see the edge again. After a few moments, he said to me again, "Do you want to hear a story?" ”

I shook my head and replied, "No, your little thing is already a cliché, and I don't think there's anything to say." ”

Qiao Ye took out a cigarette from the cigarette case and lit it, took a deep breath, and then smiled and said to me: "It's not my story, it's someone else's, don't you listen to it?" ”

"I'm willing to listen to other people."

Qiao Ye nodded, and then said: "I have a cousin, who is 32 years old this year, when she was young, she loved to cry, and her mother scared her, saying, if you cry again, the police uncle will take you away!" She didn't dare to cry when she was afraid. When she grew up, she really fell in love with a policeman, and they were together for six years, and they quarreled for six years, and in the end, the policeman chose to live an ordinary life, and he married an equally ordinary nurse lady. On the day he got married, my cousin was sitting at the door of the house, and she suddenly thought of something, turned back to her mother and smiled and said, you say, I'm crying now, will the police uncle come and take me away? ......" Speaking of this, Qiao Ye took a deep puff of his cigarette, he smiled again, and said, "In the end, her mother cried......"

I felt uncomfortable for a while, and only after a while did I reply: "Why didn't I know you had such a cousin, you made it up, right?" ”

Qiao Ye shook his head and said very seriously: "It's a distant cousin, not close." ”

So, I felt even more uncomfortable, and he said to me, "If you think it's made up, then you can make it up for me." ”

I didn't want to smoke too much, so I calmed myself down with a throat candy, and then said to him: "I went to the supermarket a few days ago, and suddenly a girl's laughing voice came from behind, she seemed to say to a man on the phone, then come out and break up with a cannon!" I was shocked, curious about what such a shameless and carefree girl looked like, and when I turned my head, I only caught a glimpse of a crying face with makeup......"

Qiao Ye looked directly at me for a while before asking, "No?" ”

"Well, no!"

Qiao Ye sighed, he wanted to say something, but in the end he chose to shut up again, and he didn't say a word until the cigarette in his hand was finished. It makes me feel that we are not the same thing, because we are all rubbing each other's wounds with stories on such a not-so-good night......

After a while, Qiao Ye suddenly slammed the beer can in his hand to the ground, and then yelled at me: "What kind of fucking friend are you, telling such a hanging story, which makes me so sad to listen to, do you want to see me jump from the upstairs and die?" ”

I also burned a nameless anger in my heart, smashed the beer can on top of him, and said angrily: "You started the conversation, what the hell are you angry at me?" …… Do you really think that the stories you make up are very small and fresh, and I won't feel bad when I listen to them? ”

"Fuck you uncle!"

"your grandpa!"

On this night, Qiao Ye and I became two extremely nervous men, and we were on the rooftop made by the moonlight and various lights seem to be imaginary, and you punched me and kicked each other. After the fight, the two of them lay on the ground, and my heart was a lot more comfortable, presumably Qiao Ye felt the same way. Otherwise, why would he go to such a great lengths to fight with me?

After humming for a while, Qiao Ye asked me in a low voice, "Jiang Qiao, tell your buddy a heartfelt word, do you have confidence in your own marriage with Jin Qiu?" ”

"Faith or not doesn't change anything...... Now, I have figured it out, and what I am facing now is nothing more than choosing life or love...... To be honest, I don't love Jin Qiu, and she doesn't really love me, but we are good marriage partners for each other...... This kind of compromise may be a little more mature than you and Qin Miao back then...... Because I won't go crazy to Su Han like you back then, I'm almost thirty years old, and I have a little adult restraint! ”

Qiao Ye nodded and replied, "It's been more than a year, and you finally have a few words to me...... If it were Qiao Ye now, I would have weighed many things clearly before making a decision, I was too young and frivolous back then! ”

I smiled and didn't speak, but I still wanted to smoke a little bit in my heart.

Qiao Ye was silent for a moment, and then said to me: "Jiang Qiao, there is something I don't know if I should tell you or not. ”

"Say something and say what you shouldn't do."

Qiao Ye explained: "Because of this matter, saying it is not in line with the principle that I want you to marry Jin Qiu, but if I don't say it, I feel that it is unreasonable in my conscience." ”

"You don't have to worry so much about my affairs, just say whatever you want, you can't change my decision anyway."

"If you're going to say that, then I'll just say it."

"Say it."

This time, Qiao Ye pondered his emotions for a while before saying to me: "Actually, I don't say it, you yourself understand it a little bit in your heart." Otherwise, you wouldn't have made up a story with me...... The girl who seems to be free and easy, wants to break up the cannon, but can't cry behind her back, is actually a metaphor for Xiao Ai...... You also feel that she is not what you see now, and all the strength is just a disguise for her self-preservation, but she is unwilling to tell you the truth behind her departure. ”

I stood up from the ground in an instant, and then looked at Qiao Ye......

He said again: "So is there such a possibility, before you met Yang Jin, she had already gone to Xiao Ai in private, and then asked her to leave you...... But there is a preconceived inertia in your brain, and all you can see is everything that happened after Yang Jin appeared in your world; Unexpectedly, she would appear in Xiao Ai's world sooner than in front of you...... I think that if this possibility really exists, everything can be explained, and Yuan Zhen left with Xiao Ai, and her treachery to the record company was also settled behind her back...... If you think about Xiao Ai's situation at that time and your situation, it is still very likely that she will leave, because she doesn't want to burn the evil fire that can kill people on you in Jinding Real Estate's struggle for power and profit, and she also feels that a blind self will become a drag on you...... And the only truth I don't know now is that she and Yuan Zhen are really married, or just a pretense made to make you die......" After a pause, he added: "Even, Mr. Xiao Xiao Mingquan can be released from prison early, and there is a certain degree of interest trading in it!" ”

My mouth opened unconsciously, and it was only after a while that I said to Qiao Ye: "You can eat indiscriminately, but you can't talk indiscriminately...... Do you have proof that all of this you say is true? ”

Qiao Ye also stood up from the ground, then shrugged his shoulders and replied: "If I had evidence, I wouldn't say so many ifs and ifs, this is just my personal speculation, and the person who really wants to find evidence is you...... Do you understand? ”

I turned around and lay on the guardrail again, and after a long, long time, I nodded and said, "I understand, as you said, I will only see by inertia everything that happened to Yang Jin after she appeared in my world, but I would never have thought that she might have appeared in front of Xiao Ai a long time ago...... If that's the case, I think it's scary, because for the past two years, my fate has been controlled by others...... Although life is getting better and better, I don't want to be a puppet who has no decision-making ability! ”

Qiao Ye glanced at me, then patted me on the shoulder again, and motioned for me to go back to the room and slowly digest all that he said. And I looked at him again, and then I became alert, and I felt that he had not come up with all this out of thin air, and that he must have been given some information. Otherwise, after so many years, why pick this day to tell me today, which seems to be almost settled?

……

After drinking the rest of the beer, Qiao Ye and I went back to our respective rooms, but I had no intention of sleeping, I have been in an unsteady state, because this is a world full of secrets, just like Qiao Ye, he himself may not know that when he ran away from home a few years ago to open the "Suhan Hotel", he borrowed money everywhere without success, and finally Qin Miao lent Chen Yi's hand to give him the money.

I told myself that I had to live carefully for the rest of my life, because I only had a pair of eyes and a heart that was not sharp, and I couldn't see what others were doing behind my back. And in all that has been done, there is sacrifice, there is fulfillment, and I am afraid there is also conspiracy.

After standing alone in the room for a while, I saw the two guitars sent from Nanjing in the corner, and then picked up one of them and went to the balcony.

After standing still for a while, she realized that she actually knew how to use a guitar, and that learning the guitar was all for her. I had dreamed of the day when I would hold my beloved guitar and play a tune in front of her that would tug at our heartstrings. And today is the day I have been looking forward to......

I gently plucked the strings, and the prelude to "Coming to See You Across the Sea" emanated from between my fingers, and I didn't open my mouth to sing it all the time, but the sincerity of the lyrics had occupied my heart at the moment. I remembered that back then, she gave up her stable life in Taiwan and returned to Nanjing, and she must live with me.

"For you and I used half a year's savings to travel across the ocean to see you; For this reunion, I even practiced my breathing when we met; Words have never been able to express one ten-thousandth of my affection. For this regret, I thought about it at night and refused to sleep, and the memory always accumulated slowly and could not be erased in my heart; For your promise, I endured not to cry when I was most desperate! In a strange city, in a familiar corner, we have comforted each other, hugged each other and sighed, no matter what kind of outcome we will face; In the wind and sand, looking at you far away, I can't be so sad that I can't help myself, I hope to send you thousands of miles until the mountains and rivers are exhausted, and I will depend on you for the rest of my life...... I will depend on you for ...... rest of my life."

At the moment, I want her in the next room to hear!