Looking up at the sky, I had never seen such a heartbreaking sunset, and clouds that seemed to have been burned by fire, floating in mid-air, like strips of silk and satin, but this qiē happened in dusk after all, and night might come in the next moment.

I remembered some pictures from the past, Chen Yi throughout, I can't forget the picture of her wearing a ponytail and wearing a little white dress waiting for me to get out of school, and I can't forget the picture of her sitting on the back of my bicycle, looking at the world lightly, but she is so attached to me.

An evening breeze blew the pine waves, and the afterglow of the setting sun clinged to the leaves, as if swaying with them. I finally set my sights on Chen Yi. Her long hair fell on her shoulders, her white shirt was like a soft smoke, she had always been the one I liked, she had never changed. If I had a ship, her arms would be the one I would most like to dock at, and these longings are the imprints of time carved into my bones, and the first twenty years of my life have not been waiting for this day and now.

I stretched out my hand to Chen Yi, and my fingers were about to touch the account book she held tightly in her hand, but my heart gradually sank, just like the old alley has been stored longer than my life, but it still has not escaped the fate of being demolished, and it is not stagnant. Perhaps, at this moment, I no longer know what feelings I want to use to face Chen Yi in front of me.

Married?

My hand hanging in the air just fell, and then I looked at Chen Yi, who was perhaps more painful than me, with great pain.

Chen Yi's hand also fell, she shifted her gaze, and then turned her back to Zhao Chu's tombstone, I saw her trembling shoulders, but said to me with a forced smile: "In the past, we were like a whole, we would think of each other in everything, we didn't have to deliberately get close to each other, but we were already together...... However, as time went on, we met all kinds of people and all kinds of things, so that we became less pure and there were many obstacles in the dark that seemed unforeseen to us...... Actually, since Xiao Ai, a woman, appeared in your world, you traveled all the way to Taipei to find her. I knew that this life had come to an end between us...... The qiē I'm doing now is just a useless struggle, and the facts have proven that it is. ”

My heart was filled with lead, my brain could no longer think, and the reaction was just a weak instinct.

Chen Yi finally put her household registration book into her purse, and with just this action, I felt that I had missed the only opportunity in my life to marry her. It was I who rejected her with silence and recognized what she said, and our relationship was no longer so pure. But I don't know when I regarded Xiao Ai as another woman in my life who couldn't be disappointed.

I looked at Chen Yi's heart like a knife, but I no longer realized the mood of saving myself with a cigarette, I had never seen her so lost, she put her arms on her chest very insecurely, and the wind blew her hair very messy.

She seemed to sense my feelings, and whispered to me: "What you said yesterday should be said yesterday, and staying here to mention it today can only show that it is out of place." You don't have to have any psychological burden, follow the truest choice in your heart, and you are a responsible Jiangqiao ......"

I finally replied, "I know." ”

Chen Yi nodded, she looked at me and smiled, but there were tears in her eyes, and the next moment she turned around and left, so I was the only one left in front of Zhao Chu's tombstone.

I sat down against the tombstone, then lit myself a cigarette and smoked for a long time before taking my phone out of my pocket. Just look at a photo we took before she went to college.

In this group photo, she snuggled up to me and smiled brightly, and behind us was the flowers and plants in the yard that I planted, I still remember the mood at that time, a little reluctant, more looking forward to the day when she returned to Nanjing after graduating from college, so that I could accompany her to go shopping and eat in my spare time.

It's a pity that from the first day she came back, the www.biquge.info of Biqu Pavilion was too high, she went directly into the provincial station, and was soon cultivated as the most potential female host, although I worked hard to integrate into her circle, but I really couldn't fit in.

I also know that Chen Yi has a grudge against me, so she said something like "Follow your heart's choice to be a responsible Jiangqiao". She felt that I was not responsible enough when I was with her, because I deceived her even about the real motive for the breakup, and although I thought it was well-intentioned, it hurt her deeply in the end.

The scenery of twenty years, like the clouds in the sky at this moment, dissipates in the sky with the whistling wind, and it is time for me to go.

……

I didn't want to go back to the hospital, so I went back to my small compound before nightfall. I saw Edamame sitting on the steps of the doorway with a toy gun waiting for me.

He ran towards me, his tone full of joy of rebirth after the catastrophe: "Second bridge, second bridge...... I have seen your head opened, you are not dead, your bell jar is really powerful! ”

I picked up the edamame, but I couldn't make a joke at this time, and just asked, "Have you been sitting here waiting for me?" ”

"Well, I'll see if you're killed, I don't want you to die......"

I forced a smile, and Edamame said to me again: "I just saw Sister Chen Yi, and shouted that she ignored me, she went home and moved a lot of things, and then stood at the door of your house, crying very sadly......"

I seem to have seen the picture described by Maodou, and I can also feel Chen Yi's feelings, but no matter how much happiness and pain we have experienced between us, it has finally turned into a cloud of smoke in front of Zhao Chu's tombstone. Just like the old house can't escape the fate of being demolished after all, the nostalgia left in my heart will never be erased.

I finally said to Edamame: "Sister Chen Yi, she didn't cry, but the wind blew the sand into her eyes." ”

"Then this sand must be very big!"

……

Back in the courtyard, I took out the 100,000 yuan that Zhao Mu had decorated for me before from the cabinet, and then dialed Yu Xin's phone number, I hope she can take the money back to Zhao Mu, and I am not suitable to talk to him at this stage.

Under the parasol outside the "Wutong Hotel", Yu Xin and I sat opposite each other, just took a sip of tea, and the sky rained without warning, although the momentum was not fierce, but it was enough to disturb people's moods, I saw the bus parked on the side of the road, it stopped at the station, first dropped a group of passengers under the tulip road, I kept staring at its wipers, scraped out an arc, two arcs, three arcs...... As if hypnotic.

Yu Xin yawned, and then asked me, "Brother Jiangqiao, do you have anything to do with me?" ”

I took out the Wen Jiàn bag that Zhao Mu gave me from my bag that I hadn't even opened and read, handed it to Yu Xin and said: "This money, you help me return it to Zhao Mu, and then help me sue him, if the old alley must be demolished, I don't want to do anything typical of demolition, I can take as much compensation as I want." ”

Yu Xin looked at me with some surprise, but still took the Wen Jiàn bag, and then asked me, "Did you and Zhao Mu really get into trouble to this point because of the demolition?" ”

I shook my head in denial: "It's not as strict as you think, it's just not suitable for us to talk about these conflicts of interest face-to-face for the time being." ”

"Hmm...... Although you grew up together, you are not from the same world at all, but unfortunately I have never understood what makes you very different personalities. ”

I looked at Yu Xin and didn't answer, my attention was a little sluggish in the rain, so that after the bus left, I kept staring at the two puddles on the ground, which seemed to reflect the whole city, and all kinds of neon, dotted with those hidden in the city of sadness, indignation, helplessness and crying.

Yu Xin gave me a moment of space, and then she suddenly asked me, "Brother Jiangqiao, do you love Xiao Ai?" ”

I turned my head to look at her, and she motioned for me to smoke a cigarette before answering her.

In fact, I don't need much time to think, because in front of Zhao Chu's tombstone, I have clearly distinguished my life from the past and the future.

Yu Xin said to me again: "Brother Jiangqiao, I think no one knows better than you how much Xiao Ai hopes to be with you, and the difference between you now may be just a promise...... But after all this, it's time for you to give her a name! You also understand that what she has always minded most is that the relationship between you and Chen Yi is too unforgettable...... But it's really time for you to get out of that relationship! ”