After a while, Chen Wen and I had two bottles of beer, alcohol is a good thing to catalyze love, and our topic also talked about my love life from Chen Wen's career. After Chen Wen touched the wine glass with me, he said: "Jiang Qiao, you and Xiaoyi have a relationship, I don't doubt this at all...... But even if Xiaoyi moved out of the house for you, I didn't think you would be together, of course it's not your fault, let alone Xiaoyi's fault, it's wrong in this not particularly good world...... Just like me, when the media company was running smoothly, the family relationship was very good, but when it was really difficult, even my wife was in trouble and wanted to divorce, didn't we ever love? …… Really, I'm quite disappointed in this married life, but now I understand that it's human nature to choose better, after all, no one wants to live like garbage, right? ”

I suddenly felt sorry for Chen Wen, he was very traumatized in this incident, and his understanding contained too much pain and helplessness, but I was not much higher than him, and I also saw through it.

Chen Wen said again: "Seriously, I don't hate Qiu Zi'an, in the modern business society, people like him can succeed, for Chen Yi, he is a good choice, after all, as a man, he has today's achievements, but he has not acted emotionally, which is quite rare...... As long as he is sincere to Xiaoyi, what is a company like me? …… Actually, it's good now, you don't have to work as hard as before, and there is a year-end dividend every year, and you will have no worries about food and clothing for the rest of your life...... Hehe, that's good! Isn't that great? ”

I sighed, "You're just so good!" ”

Chen Wen raised his cup and took a sip again, then replied: "I'm not too good, but my ability is limited, and I don't have much choice...... Jiang Qiao, if you are willing to listen to the advice of me, don't believe in any bullshit love, what women need most is not love, what they want is a life that can make them worry less and suffer less, love is bigger than life...... Don't be miserable just because Chen Yi is not with you, a woman like her has the ability and should choose the best life, and you will one day meet a woman who is suitable for you, her income and conditions are destined to understand your world and understand your pain, but these are difficult for Chen Yi! ”

I stared at the ceiling of the restaurant for a long time before I raised my beer and said to Chen Wen: "Brother Wen, don't say it, let me still have some thoughts about this world......

Chen Wen nodded, then touched the glass with me, drank all the wine in the cup, and I drank it all, feeling that I was really pathetic in a cold and biting chill, even if Qiu Zi'an calculated Chen Wen, but in Chen Wen's heart, he still thought that Qiu Zi'an was more suitable for Chen Yi than me.

I don't know when the world began to care less about right and wrong, everyone only sees the pros and cons, maybe just like Chen Wen said, no one is wrong, it's just the social environment that affects our value system.

But I will still wait, waiting for the scenery I want in my heart! I firmly believe that there will be a woman waiting for me on the beach before dawn in this world, although it is bitter now!

……

In the night, I walked alone on the way home, and I came to the "Suhan Hotel" that Qiao Ye once opened, and I saw a kind of sadness that things are not human, because the door of the hotel has been posted with the transfer phone, Qiao Ye is gone, and he really won't come back.

Qiao Ye is a thug and a reckless man, but his existence makes me believe that there is really love in this world, I closed my eyes and smiled bitterly, and there were no cigarettes in my pocket.

When he opened his eyes, a Maserati stopped at the entrance of the alley, and then Qiu Zi'an stepped out of the car, he opened the back door of the car very gentlemanly, Chen Yi and Qin Miao also got out of the car one after another, it turned out that the person who went to the airport to pick them up this night was Qiu Zi'an.

Qiu Zi'an dragged Chen Yi and Qin Miao's luggage towards me, and we inevitably met......

I have a hatred for Qiu Zi'an, I don't want to have a so-called demeanor towards him, so I chose to turn a blind eye, and of course what I am most concerned about at the moment is Qin Miao, so I asked her with apologies: "Are you okay?" Qiao Ye's matter, I want to say sorry to you. ”

Qin Miao's tears flowed uncontrollably, she closed her eyes, her hands were so painful that she sometimes clenched them, sometimes they loosened stiffly, and her mouth repeatedly muttered: "My child has no father, no complete family......"

I knew that Qin Miao would be very sad, but I didn't expect that her mental state had reached such a collapse, and I was a little overwhelmed.

Chen Yi hugged Qin Miao, and Qiu Zi'an also comforted softly at this time, I seem to have become a person outside their world, I have never been so embarrassed in my life as now, although I am facing Chen Yi and Qin Miao, who have known each other for many years, but I still feel embarrassed at this moment.

I suspect that Qin Miao has transferred his hatred for Qiao Ye to me at this moment, because it was my negligence that gave Qiao Ye the opportunity to meet Su Han. I didn't dare to stay any longer, but when I walked towards the alley, I was hit by a leather bag, I turned around, Qin Miao looked at me with a look I will never forget jì in this life, that kind of hatred made my heart tremble, and that handbag was hers, my head ached faintly!

……

I left the place of right and wrong, and I ran towards the alley where I lived, and the uneasiness that permeated my heart made me want to smothered myself in the quilt and sleep hard, and I seemed to have become a problem to the whole world on this night.

I ran too hard, I didn't get to the mouth of the alley and I already felt exhausted, my steps became heavier and heavier, I leaned against a tree and gasped, in my gasp, everything in front of me became very blurred, I seemed to have left this world, I saw the familiar light getting farther and farther away from me......

I asked myself, was my pain because of Qin Miao's hatred, or because I couldn't stand Chen Yi and Qiu Zi'an being together?

I finally realized that everything had changed, and before Chen Yi returned to Nanjing, he contacted Qiu Zi'an instead of me Jiangqiao, and the distance between us had completely widened.

I have been mentally prepared for this scene for a long time, but when I really face it, it is still so painful, and the road we once longed for together has finally come to an end by us in the most regrettable way.

I raised my head and smiled, telling myself over and over again, the pain will definitely be there, and the great time of birth will slowly heal the pain in my heart, I don't want to see Chen Yi again, and I don't want to hear anything about her anymore, I want to close myself off for a while until I really don't love her anymore.

The world gradually became clear in my sight, and below the third street lamp in the distance was the grocery store where I used to buy cigarettes. I've spent a lot of cigarette money there over the years, so it always gives me a lot of unexpected intimacy when I'm sad.

I should have gone buy a pack of cigarettes this night.

……

At the convenience store, I took out all the change in my pocket and bought two packs of Red Nanjing, which I had been smoking for many years, and I walked towards the door of the convenience store while looking down and unpacking the film on the cigarette box.

Just as I was about to open the door, it had already been opened by someone outside, and we almost bumped into each other, but luckily she was able to close her steps faster than me.

I never imagined that Xiao Ai and I would have met on this road even without prior agreement, but I should not be surprised by this kind of encounter, because I would come every day to buy cigarettes, she would come to buy corn to eat, and we would have had many opportunities to meet, and this was the first time we had met here since she came to Tulip Road. Come to think of it, this can't be far-fetched as fate, because this is a chance encounter after hundreds of misses.

I turned sideways to give way to her, she looked at me, saw that I didn't say hello, didn't say anything to me, I held on to the door that was about to close, and then walked to the outside of the convenience store, we met, and in an instant we parted.

I just went home, I wasn't even in the mood to wash up, I took off my shoes and the heavy clothes on my body and got into the quilt, and my world was dark in a room with no lights on.

I don't know how long it took, I heard the sound of the door being opened, I knew that Zhao Mu had returned, the room was no longer quiet, and I heard him walking back and forth again. After about an hour, his room was out of light, and the night was already late, but I still couldn't sleep, and the quilt was not hot in my tossing and turning.

I simply sat up from the bed, and I lit myself a cigarette, hoping to calm some of the troubled mood at the moment.

At this time, the phone vibrated slightly, I knew that there was a WeChat message prompt, I didn't guess who sent it, but mechanically picked up the phone from the cabinet, and then opened WeChat, it turned out to be the person who sent it, his (her) username is a butterfly-shaped pattern.

"Jiang Qiao, you should have already verified the information I told you, right? …… Hehe, but I want to know if you sued Chen Yi. ”

"No, I don't know how to sue her, I don't think such a truth means much to her."

"Really? You didn't even give Chen Yi a chance to choose, how do you know if she cares about such a truth? …… I think you're pretty self-righteous! ”

I stared at this message for a long time and didn't reply, I think what he (she) said makes sense, but I still have a little obstacle in my heart.

At this time, the other party sent another message: "Since you are so unruly, then I will help you do this matter, and I will talk to Chen Yi now." ”

I frowned and replied, "Who the hell are you?" Why is there a contact between me and Chen Yi? ”

The other party did not reply to me, my mobile phone fell silent again, and I couldn't find an exit in this myriad confusion, I was worried that this seemingly well-intentioned information was actually a calculation......

However, if the other party wants to take the initiative to find Chen Yi now, then this matter has nothing to do with me, and there is no calculation, but what I wonder about is this, if it is not a calculation, then what is the purpose of him (she) doing this?