I was still in a state of confusion, Zhao Mu had already taken out his mobile phone from his pocket, and then dialed Chen Yi's phone number, and soon I heard him say to Chen Yi on the other end of the phone: "Sister Chen Yi, I have gotten off the train to the train station, where will we meet later?" ”

After saying this, Zhao Mu turned on the hands-free function of the mobile phone, and Chen Yi's familiar voice came from the other end of the phone, and she replied apologetically: "I'm sorry, Zhao Mu, I have a temporary date here, and I can't accompany you to dinner tonight." ”

Zhao Mu's expression was a little disappointed, but he still didn't give up and asked, "Who are you dating?" Why don't you bring it over and we'll eat together. ”

Chen Yi politely refused: "It's a more personal friend, it's a little inconvenient." ”

Zhao Mu looked at me, I didn't speak, I already roughly understood who was dating Chen Yi in my heart, I was a little blocked in my heart, but I still tried to keep myself quiet, and at this time Zhao Mu also understood, and said: "Sister Chen Yi, if I guess correctly, the person you want to date should be Qiu Zi'an, right?" ”

I'm not surprised that Zhao Mu knows Qiu Zi'an, because he and Chen Yi were both studying in Beijing a few years ago, and their relationship was even closer than me and Chen Yi, so he had no reason not to know that Chen Yi had dated a man named Qiu Zi'an when he was in college, and Chen Yi was also very likely to tell him about some things that happened to him and Qiu Zi'an these days.

Chen Yi on the other end of the phone finally replied after a little silence: "Well, it's him." ”

Zhao Mu finally stopped being reluctant and said: "Okay, in fact, seeing you and Qiu Zi'an get back together again, I am very happy for you in my heart, you are really a good match." ”

My heart suddenly felt like I was stabbed by a sharp object, and I never dreamed that one day, it was I who personally sent Chen Yi into the arms of another man, although I also felt that they were a good match, but when the news was really sitting, every minute and second of my love for Chen Yi turned into an incurable poison that eroded his internal organs......

In my pain, Xiao Ai, who had been watching and speechless, suddenly opened her mouth, and she said to Zhao Mu: "What are you happy about for them?" You'd better hurry up and see if the person next to you can still stand tenaciously in the pain of disillusionment......

Zhao Mu subconsciously looked at me, and Xiao Ai asked incredulously, "You don't know that Jiang Qiao likes Chen Yi, right?" ”

Zhao Mu looked at my expression and immediately changed drastically, I hurriedly took the phone from his hand, and then hung up the call between him and Chen Yi, my heart was mixed, I could only hope that the train station was noisy, and Xiao Ai was far away, so that Chen Yi on the other end of the phone did not hear what she just said.

I glared at Xiao Ai fiercely, and then said to Zhao Mu, who didn't know the situation: "Don't listen to her nonsense, she is a typical person who is full of food." ”

Xiao Ai didn't give me the stairs at all, and said without giving an inch: "Then you say, if you don't like Chen Yi, why did you hang up the phone so nervously just now?" ”

"If I don't hang up the phone, will I let you continue to make things out of nothing? ……”

Xiao Ai looked at me from head to toe, and then scolded me with disdain, I didn't pay attention to her, but put my arm on Zhao Mu's shoulder, as if nothing had happened, still with the smile he had just seen him, and asked him again what he wanted to eat.

Xiao Ai, who was snubbed by me, seemed to have lost his patience with me. The next moment, she stretched out her hand to me and said, "Give me the car keys, I'm going back to school, you two can take a taxi back." ”

Zhao Mu asked with some surprise, "Aren't you going to eat with us?" ”

I was afraid that she would cause trouble for me again if she was reckless, so I wished she would leave quickly, and without waiting for her to answer Zhao Mu's words, I took out the car key from my pocket, and then handed it to her, and then said to Zhao Mu: "She is studying art, and there are a lot of miscellaneous things in school, so you can let her go back quickly, and next time you have the opportunity to eat together." ”

Zhao Mu finally didn't say anything more, Xiao Ai didn't talk nonsense, turned around and followed another group of passengers who came out of the exit and walked outside.

……

After Xiao Ai left, Zhao Mu and I also left the train station, I didn't take him out to eat, I bought some home-cooked food at a vegetable market near Tulip Road, and planned to cook a dinner myself.

When I got home, I kept myself busy, I didn't want to give myself room to think wildly, and I didn't want to show my pain in front of Zhao Mu, who finally came back once.

Before my meal was ready, the night was already dark, and the whole alley was rarely passed, and everything fell into silence, and by the time I had moved all the prepared meals to the small stone table in the courtyard, the night was darker, and the wind was blowing a little harder, and then there was some early autumn coolness.

I set the dishes and chopsticks, Zhao Mu also opened a bottle of beer and handed it to me, he asked me, "Brother Qiao, who is the girl who went with you to pick me up just now?" She also has too much personality! ”

I replied evasively, "Isn't it strange that everyone who studies art is like this?" ”

Zhao Mu smiled and was silent for a while, as if he was thinking about something that he couldn't share with others, and I couldn't drink alone and couldn't get emotional, so I said to him: "Zhao Mu, accompany my brother to have a little bar." ”

"Brother Qiao, I have skin allergies when I drink alcohol, have you forgotten?"

"Yo, I really forgot about this stubble!" I said and took back the beer bottle that had been handed out, but subconsciously remembered Zhao Chu in my heart, although Zhao Chu and Zhao Mu are two brothers who can no longer kiss, but Zhao Chu has a like-minded bandit temperament with me since he was a child, we smoke and drink everything, and Zhao Mu is like an ancient weak scholar, so he is also the most talented in learning, I have always felt: under the halo of his study at Tsinghua University, the shortcomings of not being sociable and drinking are not shortcomings, because the real talent is more than a point, when you mix this society, you can have less sloppy and flattery, obviously Zhao Mu is the former.

Soon I had a few beers in my stomach, but before I got drunk, alcohol was a catalyst for pain, and I thought of Chen Yi again, and remembered the night when she was going to cut off contact with me, and I didn't understand: she seemed to be planning to renew her relationship with Qiu Zi'an, but why not only did she not thank me, but she also punished me in such an extreme way?

I opened another bottle of beer, raised my head and drank it in a big gulp, but Zhao Mu finally couldn't stand it, snatched the beer bottle from my hand, and said, "Brother Qiao, you must have something hidden in your heart, right?" …… I'm not stupid, when Sister Chen Yi posted that circle of friends news a few days ago, I noticed that there was a problem between you, and today she is dating Qiu Zi'an again, which is definitely not a coincidence...... Combined with your current actions, I really believe what Xiao Ai just said...... You just like Sister Chen Yi, right? ”

I tilted my head and closed my eyes, feeling tired like never before, because having a crush on someone is really a very demoralizing thing. Over the years, every time Chen Yi has a slight emotional turmoil, my fragile nerves have been stimulated, and today, this pain is doubling and tearing me apart, but I can't do anything, because I really don't match Chen Yi, so even Zhao Mu, who grew up together since childhood, didn't notice my feelings for Chen Yi, but after learning that Qiu Zi'an and Chen Yi were reunited, they immediately said that they were very compatible.

I have seen through that in this layered world, pretending to be crazy and stupid is the best protection for myself, so I have the opportunity to be close friends with Chen Yi for so many years, and if I fantasize about confessing with an idealistic courage, I am afraid that Chen Yi and I will not even be friends for a long time!

I finally said to Zhao Mu: "I only have feelings for Chen Yi who grew up together, and the reason why I want to find some pleasure in alcohol is because the recent work pressure is too great, and it has nothing to do with Chen Yi, so don't use this kind of misunderstanding without factual basis to bring unnecessary trouble to me and Chen Yi, okay?" ”

Zhao Mu looked at me without saying anything...... He couldn't tell the truth of what I was saying.

I sighed softly: "Hurry up and eat, rest early after eating, and let's go to the cemetery tomorrow morning to see your parents and Zhao Chu." ”

Zhao Mu nodded, and then did not speak again, and our emotions were immediately immersed in the mourning of the dead, and the so-called love is not worth mentioning in this kind of mourning.

……

The next day, Zhao Mu and I got up early in the morning, we wore very plain clothes, and then bought some bouquets in the flower shop to send sorrows, we stood on the side of the road with tulips and waited for the taxi, and after a while, Chen Yi drove her red Audi A4 and stopped beside us, she pressed the window and said to Zhao Mu: "I know that every time you come back, you will go to pay tribute to your uncle and aunt and Zhao Chu, this time I will go with you, I haven't been to see them for a long time." ”

Zhao Mu looked at me beside me, but I was not surprised by Chen Yi's appearance, because every time before, she sent me and Zhao Mu to pay tribute, but this time there was no special appointment, but she did not forget this matter