The nursery rhyme seemed to see my psychological changes, afraid that I would have a burden, and quickly explained, "There are many nightclubs, bars, KTVs, and family planning supplies stores in the vicinity, but it is really not easy to find a pharmacy. ”

When she explained this, I felt even more self-reproachful, and when I saw the trembling nursery rhyme, I put away my emotions and covered the crack in my heart with a cynical expression: "You go and change your clothes!" When you get wet, your clothes are easy to walk through. ”

Tong Yao looked at herself, blushing and looking at me angrily: "Gu Yuekai, I'll send you three words, stinky and shameless!" ”

I stretched out four fingers and counted them one by one: "Confused, aren't you?" Stinky and shameless, you see, it's obviously five words! You're terrible at math. ”

Tong Yao looked at me angrily, took out the clothes from the bag on his wrist, sorted them out layer by layer, took out a few boxes of different brands of anti-inflammatory drugs and other boxes and threw them to me, and said: "I'm going to change my clothes first, you go over there and wait for me, I'll come out later, and help you bring some hot water by the way." ”

"Thank you for your care!"

"Virtue, boredom!" The nursery rhyme was unwilling, and he didn't bother with me anymore, so he left with a few words.

Although I was smiling and holding the medicine that was not even wet in the box, I was speechless for a long time...... I met the nursery rhyme Pingshui, I can't talk about friends, and even a little bit of a holiday, she actually bothered so much, how important is this medicine, it is worth the nursery rhyme to take off her clothes and wrap it up in the rain......

Thinking about it, I feel that I am too easily emotional, these boxes of pills may just be bought by nursery rhymes afraid of owing me favors, after all, we really don't have an intersection that is worth her doing for me.

The drinks poured up, and I suddenly felt a lot of discomfort in my stomach, and my head began to feel dizzy for a while. I sat on my back on a booth not far from the bar, quietly waiting for the nursery rhyme to hand me water.

……

In a trance, I felt that it didn't take long for me to be helped up by the nursery rhyme in a daze, I quietly looked at her who changed into work clothes again, still the same as usual, plain face but surprisingly Peugeot, but the hair was stranded by strands, and she had not yet had time to dry her hair.

I took the cup from Tong Yao's hand, Tong Yao took the pill and capsule and handed it to me, I looked at her, picked up the medicine and swallowed it.

"Lie here for a while, I'll go to work." Nursery rhyme took the cup in my hand and said.

I nodded and said, "Thank you!" Then he closed his eyes slightly and was silent, his stomach churning so badly.

The nursery rhyme stopped talking and got up to leave. And looking at the delicate back of the nursery rhyme in a trance, I have a feeling of indescribability.

……

My head is starting to get dizzy again, alcohol is really not a good thing, it keeps you awake when you want to get drunk and run away from everything. When you want to be awake, it makes you drunk. I don't even know if I'm going to be drunk or awake at this point.

Looking at the time, it was already past eleven o'clock, and I didn't know how my parents coped with the unpalatable dinner tonight, and I didn't know how this would end tonight. And at the moment, I can only deceive myself and get by.

I looked at the nursery rhyme that I was busy with work again, and staggered to my feet. I wanted to say goodbye to her, but I never had the courage to say it, and I didn't even know what tone to use to say those two words.

After hesitating for a long time, I still chose to leave quietly, this place should not come often in the future, as for the wine that Sun Mengwen ordered for me, let her drink it slowly! After all, the Singapore Sling is her favourite taste.

I got up and looked at the nursery rhyme for the last time, but I couldn't see it clearly, her figure began to shake a little, and I didn't know what I was nostalgic for. And thinking of the scene of the nursery rhyme emaciating and struggling in the rain, I actually felt some inexplicable self-blame in my heart, and this sudden self-blame made me want to escape quickly and escape from this world that does not belong to me.

……

I stumbled through the crowd, stumbling several times, but not daring to stop for a second. Finally, I rushed into the rain, and when I went out and suddenly unloaded all the depression in my heart, I realized that this is not a paradise of liberation, but a purgatory in my heart, and I don't know how many people in this are like me, accepting the struggle of the soul.

It wasn't until I stood in the rain that I didn't know how hard it was going to fall tonight, and the dark clouds in the sky couldn't carry the weight, so I released all the oppression through the rain. And me, what should I do?

The wind and rain ran down my head and all over my body, so much so that I couldn't open my eyes, my mouth, and I couldn't even breathe. My lips trembled, and the rain trickled down my cheeks, just like me struggling in the rain, opening my mouth to cry loudly but not making a sound, I could only whimper.

"I'll fuck your uncle's stupid life......"

I yelled vaguely and walked quickly to the platform, there were very few people who came out to pick up passengers today, and several taxis from afar were stopped by people in front of me. Finally, a car stopped in front of me, and I watched as I was wet and drove away.

Scolding a few words in my throat and venting my dissatisfaction, I stumbled and sat on the platform chair, slowly calming my mood.

In fact, I was very angry when the car drove away, but it gave me an excuse not to go home, even if I was in the rain all night, I didn't want to go home now, because I really didn't know how to face my parents who were full of expectations.

I lay on the chair and comforted myself over and over again, I am a well-trained field special forces, what is there to fear from this wind and rain? I think it was trivial to stand in the rain for three hours carrying a log, and a few of them froze to death in the summer, so hot days, the rain is really enjoyable, as long as my parents go to work tomorrow morning, I can go home and sleep beautifully.

It's not cold, it's not cold, it's not cold at all...... I comforted myself, but I couldn't help but shudder my teeth, it exposed my true feelings, it was really cold!

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I lay down, humming Faye Wong's "Reserved" softly in my mouth, learning the transcendent realm of selflessness of the ancients. But in my shoes, I felt that these were all nonsense, and I thought that it was not uncomfortable, but it was still uncomfortable in my body, I was not a saint, I did not have a sacred heart, so I was not perfect!

“…… I once thought that in the lonely night, you finally cared about my room, you closed your eyes and kissed me, without saying a word and hugged me tightly in your arms, I love you, I love you to the end, for the first time in my life I let go of my reserve, let myself fantasize about everything about me and you, you love me, you love me to the end, for the first time in my life I let go of my reserve, believing that I can really love you deeply, love you deeply......"

The rain never stopped, my body was cold, my stomach was burning uncomfortably, my head was tearing like pain, my consciousness was getting more and more confused, and the song I was humming finally couldn't make a sound anymore.

I admit that I am a cowardly person, and even in this situation, I still believe that Ling Xi will find me and put a dress on me.

I deceived myself and waited, pretending that she would come back, but when the lightning rushed to thunder, the surrounding water mist, and the moisture wrapped around my body, I finally knew that Ling Xi might not send rain gear for me, at least for me now.

I searched in the rain, looking for the "flowers in the clouds" that had been destroyed and fallen by the storm, and I missed the few white clouds dotted with the blue sky in my heart, they were so white, as white as the snow that had just fallen to the ground, so clean and moist.

And what came to mind at this moment was that the clouds kept rolling in the sky, like a blue-faced and fanged ghost, opening its bloody mouth to swallow everything, swallow all my good past.

I watched helplessly as it swept past my body unscrupulously, feeling cold all over, the cold wind whining, blowing the branches of the trees, some of the dead branches could not withstand the attack of the strong wind, and fell with a "click", like the sound of heartbreak.

Faith bursts like rain, and how can rain gear cover the wind and rain?

I finally vented all my emotions on this rainy night when no one was around, no longer had any baggage, and cried loudly......

……

I don't know how long later, in a trance, I heard someone pushing me, my red and swollen eyes were misty and couldn't open at all, and my senses became blurred, but I tried to raise my cold hand and touch it, but it was a warm hand that held me.

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