Chapter 123: Heart
"Do you feel like your activity is affected?" Yun Yi sat on the hospital bed and asked Xiao Fei beside him.
It has been almost a month since Xiao Fei's arm was broken today, and the plaster has been broken this morning, Yun Yi is still a little worried, Xiao Fei is a person who practices martial arts, and the importance of his arm is self-evident.
Xiao Fei moved his arm a few times casually in front of Yun Yi's eyes, and said in a low voice: "There is no problem, it's just that it was very itchy a few days ago, and I knocked on the plaster, which made me feel much better." ”
Yun Yi looked at him, feeling very guilty, if it weren't for himself, he wouldn't be hurt, and said in a deep voice: "Don't work hard these days, practice martial arts when it's completely better, you know?" ”
Xiao Fei nodded, looking at Yun Yi, as if he had something to say, but he was a little hesitant.
Yun Yi noticed his strangeness and smiled: "What's wrong?" Have something to tell me? ”
Xiao Fei blushed and shook his head, then lowered his head and said nothing.
Yun Yi sighed slightly in his heart, looking at Xiao Fei, from the time he woke up to the present, he rarely saw Xiao Fei smile, originally he was very cheerful, but now, he said in a deep voice: "Xiao Fei, in front of me, there is nothing that cannot be said, you can say something." ”
Xiao Fei raised his head, his lips moved, but he lowered his head again and didn't say anything.
Yun Yi didn't urge, he waited quietly, but it was a little strange what kind of knot Xiao Fei had.
Sure enough, Xiao Fei hesitated for a long time, but finally couldn't hold back, and asked in a low voice: "Brother Yun Yi, there is something I haven't figured out." ”
Yun Yi looked at him, seemed to be really entangled, and said with a smile: "Then tell me, what is the matter?" ”
Xiao Fei took a deep breath and said, "Brother Yun Yi, did those soldiers want you to avenge my brother that day?" ”
Yun Yi's gaze shrank suddenly, his face was slightly gloomy, and he looked at Xiao Fei with a frown, without speaking for the first time.
Xiao Fei looked at Yun Yi's gaze, and lowered his head in some panic, Yun Yi didn't wake up some time ago, he had been worried about Yun Yi in his heart, and he didn't think about it so much.
But after Yun Yi woke up, he put his mind at ease, he always couldn't help thinking about this question these days, he heard it very clearly at that time, although he didn't understand it very well, but he understood a little.
Those soldiers wanted Brother Yun Yi to avenge his eldest brother, but Brother Yun Yi was unwilling to go, so they forced Brother Yun Yi to go.
In the end, before Brother Yun Yi was shot and fell to the ground, he told himself that his eldest brother had no enemies, but his eldest brother was indeed killed, how could there be no enemies.
It's not that he doesn't believe Yun Yi's words, but he can't figure it out, it's about his eldest brother, and he can't help but think about it.
He had never been exposed to such a complicated matter, so he couldn't eat or sleep, and he wanted to ask several times, but he never asked. He always felt that if he asked, he wouldn't believe Yun Yi.
But this question has been pressing on my heart, getting heavier and heavier, and I finally can't help it today. Looking at Brother Yun Yi's frowning brows, he felt as if he had asked the wrong question.
Yun Yi looked at Xiao Fei, was silent for a long time, and finally said: "Your eldest brother did die on the battlefield, but your brother died to save me, I owe him, I can't repay him, what I need now is not revenge, but to take care of you and your parents, this is what your eldest brother needs." ”
Xiao Fei whispered: "But my brother still died in that battle, and now that the enemy is coming, shouldn't we kill him and avenge my brother?" ”
Yun Yi's hand trembled slightly, he opened his mouth to explain again, but he couldn't explain anything, and a trace of surprise appeared in his eyes, Xiao Fei's words directly tore apart the fragile protective layer in his heart.
Yun Yi actually understands very well in his heart that the white wolf is not that he does not take revenge, but that he can't take revenge, maybe he should kill Lao B, but once he releases his murderous nature, he will not stop, and he will kill more people after killing Lao B.
No one could stop him, and this was what he had been suffering and despairing, so his tenacious will always restrained himself.
In the end, he could only choose to disappear, and now it was Yun Yi who was left behind.
Yun Yi knew that he and the white wolf were actually different, he inherited the memory of the white wolf, the identity of the white wolf, and the skills of the white wolf, but he did not inherit the comprehensive sequelae of the war of the white wolf, and the white wolf would no longer affect him.
In fact, he has always known very well in his heart that even if he kills Lao B and avenges his comrades-in-arms, he will not be sick again.
The white wolf's helpless reason can't be his restraint, but he still can't avenge his comrades, because he has inherited so much, but what he hasn't inherited is the heroic courage of the white wolf.
He has always thought that he is just an ordinary person, he can't be a hero, maybe he dared before this, because at that time his character was not only himself, but also the character of the white wolf was mixed in.
But now, he didn't dare, he was very sure that he didn't dare, the reasons he used to shirk were all the reasons of the white wolf, not his, it was just to hide the cowardice in his heart.
He told himself again and again that he inherited another faith, family, and career of the white wolf, and this was his responsibility.
He coveted the exploits that the white wolf had received, the Guardian Medal, and he was unwilling to hand it over with the white wolf's death.
Although he knew that in the heart of the white wolf, that medal represented more responsibility, and it was because of this responsibility that he went to a dead end.
He kept this medal strongly, and it was only for the honor that this medal brings, and the advantages that it can bring to him and the Yun family.
And for this, he continues to cover himself with his illness, he calculates with the mind of a politician, not the heart of a hero to fight for.
He successfully retained the honor, but he didn't have the courage to inherit this responsibility, this is the honor of the ten of them, he inherited this, and he should kill the old B.
But the battlefield is not just talking, he is afraid of death, he has left a mark here, his parents, Mu Lin, these have become a part of him, if once he is on the battlefield, he is reluctant to leave like this.
The frowning brows gradually loosened, and he looked at Xiao Fei, who was looking at him in confusion, and there was a desire to avenge his eldest brother in the depths of his eyes.
"Xiaofei, your eldest brother died on the battlefield, either you die or I live on the battlefield, that's not hatred, the last thing he hopes is that you can live well and be filial to your parents instead of him!" Yun Yi said in a deep voice.
Xiao Fei thought about it and seemed to want to ask, but looking at Yun Yi's eyes, he finally nodded and said, "Brother Yun Yi, I know." ”
Yun Yi looked at Xiao Fei and smiled, very reluctantly.
Mu Lin walked in with a lunch box, glanced at Yun Yi and Xiao Fei, first picked up a bowl of soup, and said to Xiao Fei: "Xiao Fei, come and drink soup." ”
Xiao Fei walked over and sat down and picked up the soup bowl, it was fish soup again, he was treated like this every day during this time.
Yun Yi looked at Mu Lin's figure, his eyes rejuvenated, life is going to go on after all.
Yun Yi got up and walked over by himself, he was already able to get off the ground.
Mu Lin took out another bowl and handed it to Yun Yi, but ignored him.
Mu Lin had already gone to the rehearsal once, but because Yun Yi made a decision without authorization, she was making an awkward noise.
"Have you eaten yet?" Yun Yi asked.
Mu Lin glanced at him, and it was a reply.
After eating, Xiao Fei went to rest, Mu Lin cleaned up the dishes and chopsticks, and Yun Yi asked again, "How is Mom today?" ”
"It's much better, today's soup is made by my mother, and she will come over in the afternoon." Mu Lin finished picking up the plate and going out.
His mother's health has always been very weak, but during this time, his health gradually improved, and his parents moved back home, so that his mother could recuperate.
But her mother would come over the next day, Yun Yi thought about it and decided to be discharged from the hospital earlier, it was always inconvenient to let them run at both ends.
Thinking of Xiao Fei's words just now, his face sank again, and the burden in his heart would make a person feel very heavy.
"I believe in you, you don't believe me!"
Yun Yi picked up the phone and answered the channel: "Mushan!" ”
"Mr. Yun, is your body recovering?" Mu Shan's voice came.
"Very well recovered, thank you! How is the company doing? "Yun Yi Dao.
"The Family of Gold Powder" has been filmed and is in the final stage, and we will send someone to CCTV to talk about the release of Wang Jing's album after a while. It will be released next week, and the song has hit the charts! "Sing if you want to" is still in preparation...... "Mushan is still the same as before, reporting one thing at a time.
Yun Yi listened quietly, the company is developing as planned, it sounds good, and Mushan's ability is beyond doubt.
"By the way, there is one more thing, Qin Ruo went to Hong Kong and personally served as Wang Jing's agent." Mu Shan suddenly remembered and said.
Yun Yi was slightly stunned, and then a smile hung on the corner of his mouth and said, "She is quite discerning!" ”
Hanging up the phone, Yun Yi let out a long sigh, he has his life, family, and career, these are enough for him to be busy, and the rest of the things should be handled by capable people.