When Yan Li walked into the ward, Yan Bonian was arguing with his wife Zhang Wanfen about something, and when he saw Yan Li enter the door, he stopped talking. [Ran^Text^Library] []

"What's the matter, I heard my father's loud voice in the corridor just now, what is it that makes you unhappy." Yan Li asked Yan Bonian softly, walked slowly to the bed, looked at the liquid in the infusion tube seriously, silently calculated the quantity, and then turned her head and asked her mother: "What will the doctor say after the examination?" ”

"How to say it, how else to say it, it's just a common cold, just rest at home for a few days, at most take some medicine, just come to the hospital, take a taxi to the outpatient clinic to see if it's okay, but let your mother show off her horse and shoot her gun, the whole world knows about it, as if I Yan Bonian has some incurable disease, it makes chickens and dogs jump."

Before Zhang Wanfen could speak, Yan Bonian grabbed the conversation and said dissatisfiedly: "As soon as I came to the hospital, it was a blood test, an electrocardiogram, a liver, spleen and stomach ultrasound, and a chest X-ray. I said go back, your mother is still in a hurry with me. ”

"I'm anxious with you, or are you anxious with me." Zhang Wanfen stopped doing it, and said reluctantly: "I was fine last night, but I had a bad cough, and it was normal to turn around in the morning, but I was a little lazy and didn't want to move, but when I answered a phone call at almost ten o'clock, I suddenly agreed to come to the hospital." You're reckless! You believe in your Chinese medicine! How can I come over when I come to the hospital without calling the old cadre, and when I come, I will be sent directly to the small building, can I be blamed for this? As he spoke, he turned his head and complained to Yan Li: "After the doctor examined, he prescribed three bottles of liquid, but the first bottle was not finished yet, so he yelled to leave." I told him that even if I left, I would have to wait for the three bottles of liquid to be infused and prescribe some Western medicine before leaving. As he spoke, he counted Yan Bonian slowly, "You let Xiaoli comment on the reasoning, am I messing around, or are you confused?" ”

Yan Bonian could only stare at his wife's unrelenting counting, with a tiger face, but he just smiled and didn't say a word of rebuttal.

"Okay Mom, don't be angry, hasn't my dad already admitted his mistake!" Yan Li hugged her mother's shoulders affectionately, and coquettishly persuaded: "My dad is a typical machismo, let's have a family meeting to criticize him when we go back." As he spoke, he winked at Yan Bonian mischievously, "Don't say that my mother protests, you always waste national public medical resources and don't respect the fruits of doctors' labor. ”

"Or my girl can speak, after all, she has been doing group work for many years, and what she says is justified." Yan Bonian deliberately praised Yan Li and angered his wife, "It's just that she has a better level of speaking than the old woman." ”

Zhang Wanfen glared at Yan Bonian unhappily, wanting to say something to refute him, but after thinking about it, she endured it.

"The point is, it's too much work." Yan Bonian saw that his wife had nothing to say, so he looked at her distressedly, and couldn't bear to stimulate her again, he knew his wife's kindness, but his wife didn't know the secret behind it, and now in front of Yan Li, he simply said it bluntly, "This hospitalization is small, but it's not simple." First of all, your mother not only told you, but also told Xiao Yong, and you must have told Tianxiang, and Xiao Yong will tell Hongxia and Xiaobei that this will be time before noon, which will affect your work and increase the busyness. In addition, the authorities knew that I was sick and hospitalized, and they would come and show their concern if they should have come and not come, not including many visitors who had other purposes. Although I have retired, some old comrades will still come, and the provincial party committee and the provincial government will also send people to express their concern, which is nothing, your unit, Xiaoyong's unit, don't all have to come over to condole, the key is Tianxiang's current identity, and the position, won't there be more troubles waiting for? It's annoying enough to think about, it's better to go home and be clean, and it saves a lot of things. ”

"What do you care about it, now your main task is to heal the disease, and you don't have to think about the rest so much." Yan Li couldn't help but glance at Yan Bonian with admiration, she had to admire her father's profundity and the depth of her concerns, although her father's hospitalization was a little strange, but she didn't want to say anything at the moment, just simply persuaded her. Yan Li empathized with her father's worries and worries, and was deeply troubled by this.

Since Tianxiang officially appointed the secretary of the Provincial Commission for Discipline Inspection, Yan Li's transfer has also been officially on track, and by the end of last year, all the transfer procedures have been completed, and after the Spring Festival, he officially reported to work at the Provincial Federation of Trade Unions. Entering a new unit, Yan Li faced not only the acquaintance and familiarity of her new colleagues, but more importantly, how to get rid of the halo that Qi Tianxiang had put on her head. Although Yan Li was the head of the Youth Federation Department of the Youth League Committee of the school when she was in college, and she was the director of the Mass Labor Department of the Provincial Federation of Trade Unions, she was only a level-level transfer, or even a department-level cadre, but in the eyes of many colleagues, she was stained with the light of her father and husband, so there was more envy, jealousy, and dissatisfaction and complaints in her respectful and polite words. Although the words were politely complimentary, his eyes could not hide the contempt and contempt in his heart, as if the beautiful Director Yan, in addition to his beautiful appearance like a flower, also had the father of the former governor, the husband of the secretary of the Provincial Commission for Discipline Inspection, he was just a vase, and it was a fragile product, and it seemed that the crisp sound of the vase breaking could be heard soon, which was wonderful and beautiful.

But the best result and label for a beautiful woman, that is, the vase, will be broken without a column, there are no more than two ways, one is the powerful husband loses power, the second is the powerful husband flower, both results are related to the husband, it can also be seen that in the eyes of the world, beauty is extremely difficult to keep fresh items, people are old and yellow is an inevitable trend, if you add the husband to lose power, or the husband empathizes with other love, only loneliness and lamentation and sigh are left, which is the most cruel punishment for beautiful women.

Although Yan Li also faced such stares and jealousy when she was in college, it was just pure envy and jealousy, because Qi Tianxiang's excellence was obvious to all, and more importantly, his status as a professor and vice dean was not so prominent, at least he was just a crowned scholar, Yan Li could face it calmly, and even be proud of it, after all, his choice was not wrong, and his efforts were also worthy of envy and jealousy.

Yan Li is slowly adapting to the situation of the unit, she can only bear it silently, because all the jealousy comes from the shadows, she is powerless to fight back, and she doesn't know how to respond, all she can do is to work hard to adapt to the requirements of the new environment and new work, and complete the transformation from a university league cadre to a group worker cadre of the provincial federation of trade unions as soon as possible.

Gradually, there is less criticism, especially after Qi Tianxiang goes further, only empathy and farewell love are still possible for the two results, but it is not possible to see it in the short term, and the situation seems to have inadvertently entered a dormant period.

Yan Li also started the process of work and life at two o'clock and one line, going out with Qi Tianxiang in the morning, but Tianxiang took the car and she rode an electric car, and at noon she usually ate in the unit canteen, and went straight home after work in the afternoon, often Qi Tianxiang entered the door and served dinner on the table. Although it is just an ordinary homely meal, it is the warmest and most beautiful time of the day. Yan Li enjoyed this kind of time very much, as if she had returned to the warm and romantic period of the academy period, and such a time was often impossible to achieve due to Tianxiang's busyness, but Yan Li still insisted as always. On weekends, I would go to my parents' house to feel the care and love of the elderly, or to receive my brother's family to eat at home, and the happy atmosphere made Yan Li very satisfied and intoxicated.

In her spare time, Yan Li will keep cleaning the house, she is very satisfied with the current house, although it is only an old house of more than 90 square meters in the dormitory of the provincial party committee, but after simple decoration, it is still full of warmth and warmth. So that no matter how you clean up, you will feel happy, and you will forget the unpleasantness of the unit completely.

Everything is very satisfied, except for Qi Tianxiang's busyness, nothing seems to have changed, there are just quiet days and a peaceful home.

"Xiaoli! How's that, the work is still easy! Yan Bonian saw that Yan Li was silent, knowing that what she had just said made her think a lot, and she was slightly apologetic and had nothing to say.

"It's okay, there are not many things to do in the organs, and they mainly focus on the organization of mass activities and the protection of rights and interests, and they can still cope with it." Yan Bonian's question pulled Yan Li's thoughts back to reality from her memories, so she answered her father's question with a smile, trying to speak as easily as possible, so as not to worry her father.

Soon, many people came in and out of the ward like a marquee, just as Yan Bonian foresaw, first the president of the provincial hospital brought several experts to the consultation, then Liang Ping, deputy secretary general, and Song Dong, director of the veteran cadres bureau, came to visit, and several old comrades from the people's congress and the Chinese People's Political Consultative Conference were also busy coming to condole. Each wave of people came in with flowers and various nutritional products, and immediately made the empty ward look like a flower shop, but also more like a gift shop, a dazzling variety of packaging, all kinds of colors, surrounded by flowers, colorful, it seems extremely lively.

The high-level ward of the provincial hospital, in a courtyard with an elegant, quiet and quiet environment behind the ward building, was a leisure garden built by the hospital a long time ago, imitating the Suzhou garden regulations to build different styles of halls, platforms, buildings, pavilions, surrounded by small bridges and flowing water, lush green trees, creating a rare elegant scenery in the city, and it is a good leisure garden for inpatient rehabilitation. The three-storey building in the style of imitation classical architecture is hidden in the shade of green trees, it is difficult to find inadvertently, and it is difficult for outsiders to know the role of the small building. The small building is equipped with complete medical equipment and personnel, so the wards that can be provided are limited, and only a few people can be stationed here for treatment. The wards are strictly guarded, and miscellaneous people are not allowed to enter here. This is also the reason why Yan Bonian is deeply dissatisfied with hospitalization, not only feeling troublesome, but also hating this unbridled privilege.

But at this moment, Yan Bonian could only cheer up helplessly, constantly dealing with wave after wave of visitors, repeating the same words, the same smile, the same thanks, exhausted. It was easy to have a moment of purity, and the two bottles of liquid were almost lost, and Yan Bonian finally fell asleep peacefully.

"Old leader, you have such a strong body, why are you sick." With the loud and magnetic voice, Bai Fengshou slowly walked in, maybe in a hurry, and after walking into the ward, he was wheezing.

"Why is your old buddy here?" Yan Bonian stood up and said hurriedly: "Xiaoli, quickly move a chair for your Uncle Bai and let him sit down and breathe." ”

Yan Li hurriedly brought a chair, put it in front of Bai Fengshou, invited him to sit down, took the teacup in Zhang Wanfen's hand, handed it to Bai Fengshou with a smile, looked at Bai Fengshou, smiled and did not speak.

"Thank you, sister-in-law, thank you Xiaoli." After Bai Fengshou sat down, the dark brown flush on his face slowly dissipated, and his breathing was much smoother, so he hurriedly thanked him, and said to himself: "It's really not good, it's only a few steps to become like this." As he spoke, he turned to Yan Bonian and said with deep feelings: "The body is the capital of the revolution, this is not false at all, just like me, even if I have the strength, this body will not do anything." ”

"You're still young, not yet." Yan Bonian smiled gently and comforted Bai Fengshou, and he also knew what he meant.

Bai Fengshou retired at the beginning of this year when the Commission for Discipline Inspection was resigned, and the original organization was arranged to the people's congress for a few more years, but no matter the position and treatment were unsatisfactory, Bai Fengshou resolutely refused under the pretext of physical reasons, although the retirement of the department-level treatment met his wishes, but there was still some faint regret and unwillingness. After retirement, he was alone, and his son was working abroad, and the evening was a little bleak. Although Qi Tianxiang and others tried hard to make him reluctantly agree to serve as an adviser to the Provincial Commission for Discipline Inspection, he was also well aware of the good intentions of Qi Tianxiang and others, but his physical condition was deteriorating.

"You should still find someone else to start a family, and the children are not around, and you still have to have someone to take care of your life." Zhang Wanfen took Yan Bonian's words and said with concern: "You are just over sixty years old, you are not too old, you should still consider it." ”

"Old sister-in-law, don't give me relief, with my body, I have to stay in the hospital for half a year, who will marry me and serve the sick number?" Bai Fengshou said with a smile: "It's good for me to be like this, I live at home, live in the hospital, and there is freshness on both sides, how good!" ”

"In fact, if the body allows, you should still go out and walk around, this chronic respiratory disease is very sensitive to the climate, if there are conditions, it is best to go to the south in winter and the north in summer, so that the body will recover better." Yan Li lost no time in interjecting, she was very surprised when she first saw Bai Fengshou, in her memory, Uncle Bai will always be a strong man who can put her on his shoulders and throw her up and turn in circles, a man with a magnetic voice that resonates through his chest, and a western man who laughs boldly and rudely. I haven't seen him in the past few years, Xiong's sturdy body has become a little rickety, and his sparse white hair has been dyed with frost, especially his expression looks atrophied and aging, and he can't help but feel sad.

"It's still our Xiaoli who will feel distressed." Bai Fengshou smiled and praised Yan Li, his face overflowing with a happy expression, "Your Uncle Bai is not a person who can enjoy Qingfu, and it is not time to enjoy Qingfu." As he spoke, his expression became stern, and he said in a firm tone: "Don't look at your Uncle Bai hula panting like a waste, but when needed, my old Bai is still a qualified warrior." ”

Bai Fengshou's excited words seem to be said to Yan Li, and they are like expressing determination, in fact, they are more like vows to himself, but no matter how many or complicated the meanings are, they are all showing Bai Fengshou's state of mind.

After decades of career, looking back at the end, there seem to be endless regrets, but also unspeakable unyielding and unwilling, it seems that it is over without doing anything, it seems that there are still some things that have not been concluded, and it is really difficult to distinguish what it is, and it is even difficult to put it on the table to explain clearly. This kind of contradictory and complex emotions, Bai Fengshou also knows that it is caused by the so-called retirement syndrome, before retirement longs for leisure and comfort after retirement, and has imagined life after retirement countless times, but once retired, there is no work, no daily tedious things, and suddenly become an idler with nothing to do, and suddenly feel empty in his heart, I don't know what to do, I don't know what else to do, and time has become a terrible thing, because I don't know how to spend it, and I don't know what life will be like after the continuation. From this, I also began to miss the beauty and busyness of work, and some unpleasantness has become precious and beautiful, and these are even more so for Bai Fengshou, a person's leisure, the daily entry and exit of the courtyard is alone, even if there are some old guys who can chat, they may say that in addition to those things in the officialdom, it is to talk about some weather and other idle articles, and the silence after the excitement is even stronger, and even the empty room is full of boring air.

Along the way for decades, Bai Fengshou has spent his time in busyness, whether it is in the army, or transferred to a local job, or twice aiding Tibet, he has spent it in busyness and urgency, even in the time of the provincial government and the Provincial Commission for Discipline Inspection, without those obvious busyness, it is also a daily busyness, or dealing with entanglements and contradictions from all sides, it seems that they are busy for others, they have no time of their own, and they do not need to arrange time for themselves. Sometimes I think about myself like a wheel on a Mercedes-Benz car, not to run for myself, and without my own consciousness, running or not running is related to the purpose of the car, until I am replaced, there is no meaning for the vehicle, and I don't know what else to do for myself.

Regarding the treatment or position, Bai Fengshou deeply knows that he doesn't care, but his care doesn't mean anything, so he can only not care, or he doesn't care very much. This is the only thing he can do for so many years, when he was young, he could continue to sign up for the second time for these seemingly indifferent moves, showing his inner dissatisfaction and resentment, but the result did not change anything, since then, whether it is the position of deputy secretary general for many years, or the deputy secretary of the provincial Commission for Discipline Inspection, it is not something he can decide, and he has no choice but to accept it, because he no longer has the impulse to gamble, no age, physical advantages, and not caring about it means all. Although I have thought countless times about what the result would be if I had the opportunity and a backstage, I also knew that this "if" was just a hypothesis, and it was just a thought, at best, it was just a meteor across the night sky, a flash for a moment. It is inevitable and necessary, so there is no condition for attachment if you are unhappy, and you are still satisfied, after all, after decades of hard work, you can change to such a position, and a farmer's child can still be satisfied with such a home.

Contradictions and entanglements in Bai Fengshou have spent the days since retirement, of course, he is not idle, and he cannot be idle.

Yan Li saw that Bai Fengshou stopped talking, and Yan Bonian didn't mean to speak, knowing that he was going to talk to his father about some private things, so he exchanged glances with his mother and quietly walked out of the ward together.