Chapter 39: Death and Life
"Mu Yun, are you feeling better?"
Li Muyun was flattered by Xiao Ruo's visit, he threw aside the document he was reading, and a carp jumped up from the bed and quickly got out of bed. Seeing that he was still in a nightgown, he was quite embarrassed to tighten his belt to make himself look more formal, and then stood there stunned and at a loss.
"Uh...... I...... Well, I'm already fine, well, okay, you're really good at medicine, haha. Li Muyun ended his very unnutritious answer with a haha.
Xiao Ruo was speechless about his performance, but he couldn't help but laugh. He usually looks normal, why did he suddenly become like this when he saw himself? Thinking that she couldn't let this situation continue, she hoped that they could get along more naturally, instead of making it look like she had abused him.
"I'd better take your pulse." Not knowing how to speak for a while, Xiao Ruo could only find a couch to make and say to Li Muyun.
The rooms of the Wen family are not small, and the various facilities are also quite complete.
Li Muyun took a deep breath and tried to make himself normal, but sitting next to Xiao Ruo, his breathing was still involuntarily a lot faster. He could even hear his own heartbeat when her fingers came together.
"Keep your mind calm." Xiao Ruo was helpless, but he was sure that this guy was all right, and his pulse was so strong.
Despite this, Xiao Ruo still gave him a careful pulse after Li Muyun calmed down, and only withdrew his hand when he was completely sure that he was fine.
"Ruo Ruo ......" Li Muyun, who calmed down, quickly reacted that something was wrong. He smiled bitterly in his heart, he was about to be kicked out so soon?
Xiao Ruo sighed and said, "Mu Yun, you should have your own business, right?" Waving his hand to signal him not to speak yet, "Moreover, we are friends." I don't want you to always react to a word I say. Friends should get along with each other from the heart, naturally, and you don't have to go out of your way to please me. Besides, I'm not that stingy, am I?"
"Huh?" Li Muyun grew his mouth. Feelings: Xiao Ruo said that being friends is true? Also, doesn't this girl feel anything? He's so obvious.
"It's not. If so, I said......" A sense of powerlessness surged into his heart, and it was stuck.
Agree? Then it's really friends.
Disagree? Well, my friend probably won't be able to do it.
Li Muyun racked his brains to think of a way to break the situation, but he was hit by Xiao Ruo just now, his mind was blank, and he didn't say a word for a long time.
Xiao Ruo has been listening to his ears. But the other party did not react for a long time. Seeing Li Muyun's tangled face again, he suddenly had a bad feeling.
This reaction? The alarm went off in her head.
"If so, I'...... I want to say, I don't want to be friends with you. Xiao Ruo, who wanted to escape, was frozen on the sofa by such a sentence and looked at Li Muyun suspiciously.
She's not that miserable, is she? Or did he do something that made him angry?
Xiao Ruo, who was puzzled, met Li Muyun's eyes, and was frightened by the burning heat in the other party's eyes, and the feeling of wanting to run away was even stronger. "True Induction" wanted to use it, but she forced it down.
Li Muyun is heartbroken, bold and thin-hearted, and he can see it. The woman didn't take him seriously. Okay, then I'll just say it, see where you run. Anyway, he's a gangster, so what's the point!
"I said, give me a chance." Li Muyun repeated the words in the garden last time, and then didn't give Xiao Ruo a chance to speak, "I want it." It's not just friends, I think we go one step further and have a more intimate relationship, you know, Ruoruo?"
He still didn't want to push her too much. Even the final questioning was extremely weak.
But Xiao Ruo was stunned.
She's not a fool, of course she understands. Maybe she's deceiving herself, but his usual behavior is already telling. But she really doesn't have any thoughts about her feelings, and it's not bad to live alone. What's more, she was about to start cultivating, and she didn't even know if she would be able to cultivate in the lifetime of her relatives to the point where she could find a way for the Azure Star people to cultivate.
Xiao Ruo didn't want to lose her relatives, but that didn't include Li Muyun, she always regarded him as a strange "acquaintance", even if there was some relationship, it was because of the children. Even if they get along well now, it doesn't mean that she has to accept him as her partner. What's more, her life, and his life, are not equal at all, and their time is even more so.
Her life may be very long, for her who has been a cultivator for thousands of years, loneliness has been deeply rooted in the bone marrow, she can't imagine the life of two people, at that time, she was afraid of Mu Feng's closeness, or it would not have taken so long to accept him.
Now to ask her to accept Li Muyun, although he is the father of her child, but in her heart he is still a person who has nothing to do with her, and he is still a man, this is simply an impossible task.
But looking at each other's eyes, Xiao Ruo couldn't say anything. In both of his eyes, there was a shadow of himself, and the affection like the sea, no different from her eyes when Alice mentioned her grandfather.
She admits she was blown away. She panicked and was a little strange. Why did he take a fancy to himself?
And this kind of strong feeling is completely different from the feeling Mu Feng gave her. Mu Feng is just like his name, like a breeze without the slightest aggression, making her feel comfortable all the time. But Li Muyun, contrary to his name, this kind of unscrupulous, obvious and bold confession made her not know what to do.
It was the second time she'd been messed up by him.
"I ...... I don't know, I have to think about it. Xiao Ruo first shook his head in confusion, and then reacted and wanted to leave.
Will Li Muyun agree?
"Ruoruo, may I ask, why don't you accept me?" Pulling Xiao Ruo back to his side, Li Muyun held her hand tightly to prevent her from running again.
Xiao Ruokong had a lot of kung fu but couldn't use it at all, she bit her lower lip and raised her head to meet Li Muyun's eyes.
"I'm not at ease." Xiao Ruo said, "I have always been alone, and I don't know how two people should live. ”
"I'm one too! We can learn together. Li Muyun comforted her, "But people have to have a companion, the children will grow up, the elders will also have their own lives, only a partner is someone who can accompany you through a lifetime." ”
"But I'm used to it." Xiao Ruo shook his head, "I've always been here like this, and I don't think there's anything wrong with it." ”
"Ruo Ruo ......" Li Muyun felt distressed for a while, and couldn't help but take her into his arms again, "I will accompany you in the future, and I won't let you be alone, okay?"
This embrace Xiao Ruo was already familiar, which reminded her of Mu Feng's embrace back then, which was so warm at the beginning, but later ......
Xiao Ruo shook his head, broke free, and said to Li Muyun with a wry smile: "I'm sorry, Muyun." There are some things that you don't understand. ”
"Then you give me a chance to understand!" Li Muyun also stood up, he was slightly taller than Xiao Ruo, and at this moment he was condescending, so that Xiao Ruo didn't dare to look directly at him.
"I ...... I ......" Xiao Ruo covered her chest, and suddenly felt out of breath, and the scenes of her previous life passed in front of her eyes again, especially the expressions of the last two people in the end, which were still so clear.
It turned out that the wound had never healed, but it had never been so visibly revealed.
"If you ......," Li Muyun was shocked. At this time, Xiao Ruo's face was pale, his fists were clenched, and his black eyes were full of pain, how similar was it to the first time he met her?
Xiao Ruo refused Li Muyun's support, sat down on the sofa by himself, and slowly eased down after a long time. And she was surprised to find that she was much better when she remembered her previous life at the moment. What is more in my mind is the various people I meet and the various happiness I get from being reborn in this life. It seemed that all of that had vanished with the deep pain just now.
Oh, all kinds of things in the past, such as yesterday's death, and all kinds of things in the future, such as today's life.
She finally understood this sentence today.