Chapter 040: My heart is in turmoil
Autumn passes, winter goes, spring comes. It's another year of green grass.
In the busy mechanical cycle of preparing for classes, attending classes, correcting homework, and exams, Niu Tiangou is gradually approaching the "older leftover man".
During this time, Niu Tiangou was the most depressed day. books, you can't read them; Attend class, beat the spirit; Grading homework, looking in a trance; Preparing for class, my mind is like numbness.
A few days ago, Niu Tiangou heard Cao Zhengdong say that Su Mohan from the town primary school was introduced to a boyfriend in the county seat; When I got home, my mother said that Miss Peony had found her mother-in-law and was about to get married recently.
"Alas!" Mom sighed and said, "No wonder other girls." People have been waiting for you for almost two years, and we have not heard back, can they wait forever? What a good girl. "Mom is still in love.
Yes, youth is fleeting, flowers are difficult to look like, wait for it year after year, and the big girls who are smart will become old cabbages!
There were originally several people in the village who wanted to match Niu Tiangou, but now those girls who are smart and like young onions have all married one after another.
Alas, "Flowers can be broken straight and must be broken, don't wait for no flowers and empty branches." Niu Tiangou knew that he had missed a "blooming" period.
They no longer wait, they all start to bear their own "fruits", they can't afford to wait.
At night, Niu Tiangou lost sleep again.
He recalled several girls he had met in the past few years: Ma Changyan Girl, Qian Xiaohua, Cao Yanfang, Yang Yuling, Su Mohan, and Peony Girl.
For the long-faced girl, he thinks that this life is destined to be inseparable from her, he hates her horse face and those two thick lips, even if they are tied up, it will be full of endless cold wars and anguish, and his life will be as cold and desolate as winter;
As for Qian Xiaohua, he thinks it's just a farce;
For Cao Yanfang, he thinks she is a clump of pure camellias, a fluttering lotus fairy, when he thinks of her, he feels an inexplicable freshness and warmth, with her, his life will be as brilliant and charming as spring;
For Lucy Yang, he thinks it can only be regarded as a beautiful encounter;
For Su Mohan, he thinks that although she is not beautiful, she has an inner temperament that he yearns for, if he is proactive, it is entirely possible for them to come together, fly together in work and study, and his life will be as fruitful and solid as autumn;
For the peony girl, he thinks she is a gorgeous peony flower, a Guanyin Niangniang from the white clouds, when he thinks of her plump body and toned body, he feels an indescribable panic and restlessness, with her, his life will be as hot and blazing as summer.
Thinking about it, what made him "have a thousand knots" the most was Cao Yanfang and the peony girl, Cao Yanfang's eyebrows were clear, her body exuded a fresh and warm appearance, and the peony girl's moon-like white face and plump and rich figure, he couldn't forget it, the more he wanted to wave it, but the clearer it was, "only to frown, and to his heart." ”
Perhaps, what makes him so obsessed with them is because of their beauty, as Cao Zhengdong's turtle son said, men only love "sofas", not "tree stumps", he can't get rid of "cheesy", he is originally a vulgar little man.
Alas, let's, let's, quit. What has been lost has been lost forever, like a fragrant breeze blowing, like a passing cloud, it will never be reversed again, what is the use of regret?
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After finishing class listlessly, Niu Tiangou rode his newly purchased bicycle out of school.
He was depressed, irritable, distracted, restless, and couldn't stay in his office or dormitory, and he was afraid that if he continued like this, he would find something wrong.
He wants to drag race, he wants to vent!
He wants to go out to see the white clouds in the blue sky, look at the vegetation on the earth, look at the scenery outside, and breathe in the fresh air of nature.
On the highway to Yunyang County, when he encountered an uphill slope, he pedaled desperately, panting, and after going to the top of the slope, there was a kind of ease of venting and conquering; When encountering a downhill slope, he stopped stepping on it, held the "dragon head", listened to the brisk sound of the wheels, and let the soft wind whistle in his ears, and he had a fluttering pleasure of flying.
The warm spring breeze caressed his cheeks, the fresh air hit his heart, at this time, he could think about anything, he could not think about anything, it seemed like a bird flying in the wings spread its wings and hovered easily and happily, and seemed to dance with the rhythm of the wind and nature.
The car was speeding forward, and the scenery on both sides of the highway was also moving backwards rapidly, and the verdant trees, bright grass, green fields, as well as vehicles and pedestrians on the road, and even the birds that occasionally flew in the sky, were all left behind......
He suddenly realized that this is also life: the old scenery around him is gone, and the new scenery in front of him is rushing to his face - just like the trees, grass, fields, vehicles, pedestrians, and birds, just like the horse long-faced girl, the freckle girl, Cao Yanfang, Yang Yuling, Su Mohan, and the peony girl he met, they went, far away, and disappeared, but there were new girls in front of him......
Thinking of this, his mood began to lighten, and his spirit gradually became happy.
He suddenly thought of the emotional intelligence that Uncle Taurus said, yes, emotional intelligence.
Uncle Taurus said that emotional intelligence is a way to understand and control oneself, and then influence and control the emotions of others.
People with high emotional intelligence can detect and understand their own emotions at any time, and are not infected and affected by the bad emotions of others;
People with high emotional intelligence can control and adjust their bad emotions and treat things calmly and rationally;
People with high emotional intelligence can motivate themselves when they encounter setbacks, have a strong ability to resist frustration, and can adjust their mentality in time to rise in adversity.
Yes, he should understand his bad emotions, regulate his bad emotions, and cultivate his resilience.
It is time for him to adjust his feelings of depression, hesitation, pain, and irritability, and become cheerful, sunny, and happy, after all, the sun has sunk in the west today, and tomorrow will be a new morning.
It's time for him to learn to communicate and communicate with others, marriage and love are actually communication between people of the opposite sex.
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It wasn't until he was sweating, until his legs were weak, and until he was exhausted, that Niu Tiangou returned to school.
When you get tired of riding, you don't want to do anything.
The body is tired, but the mood is relaxed.
It turns out that cycling can also vent pain, it turns out that riding can also calm thinking, and it turns out that cycling can also regain confidence.
Sitting in the dormitory and smoking a cigarette, he gradually had a clue about his chaotic mood, he decided not to hesitate anymore, and when he met the rural girl he liked, he would get married immediately, like Teacher Cheng, Cao Zhengdong and most rural teachers.
Presumably, those rural teachers had the same entanglement as him back then, but they never fought against fate after all.
In particular, Teacher Cheng and Cao Zhengdong were both married to rural girls, which shook his idea of continuing to take the Normal College.
Mr. Cheng also studied at a normal college and was assigned to a city like Fancheng, what was the result? At the age of 30, he couldn't find a partner, and in the end he could only return to his hometown to "displace and equalize" with the rural girl, and he didn't escape the palm of the land grandfather.
Are you taller than Mr. Cheng? Is he more eloquent and sociable than him? Will it be the same as him when the time comes? Besides, Cao Zhengdong and the other teachers who choose rural girls are all tall, so are they better off than them? Will you be able to turn out the "flower-footed turtle" in the future?
Alas, the clouds in the sky can't be touched, so it's better to hug the grass under your feet -- since the dream of "double employment" is far away, then simply become a "half-side household", "half a farmer and half a Confucian".
Natural selection, survival of the fittest. No matter how high your ambition is, you have to move with the times and do what you can, right?
Besides, the second brother is married, and the parents still have to worry about the marriage of the third brother. Seeing the gray hair on his parents' heads, he couldn't bear to let his elderly parents worry about him and hurt him anymore.
As for the matter of being admitted to the Normal College, he felt that what Mr. Cheng said was reasonable, even if he was admitted, what could he do? After graduating, he is thirty years away, and he has not become a "leftover man"? Besides, it's not certain that you can't pass the test, then damn English and math are too difficult.
Nima, youth is not often in a hurry to fall in love!
Therefore, he finally decided to give up the examination for the normal college and take the correspondence class of the teacher college instead, because it is relatively easy to take the correspondence class of the teacher college, so that you can get married while working and studying, and work, study, and get married are not wrong.
Thinking of this, he felt a lot more relaxed, and let out a long breath: "Woo ......"