"Uncle, am I the only guest today?" Park Ji-yeon sat down. After asking, I felt a little frozen in my hands, so I opened my mouth and breathed hot air into my palm.

Su Gaofei was boiling the decoction, and smiled when he heard it, but he was blocked by a scarf, and Park Ji-yeon naturally couldn't see it. At this time, she puffed out her mouth and complained dissatisfiedly: "Uncle! I've discovered all your secrets, do you still want to pretend to be dumb here? ”

Su Gaofei shook his head and picked up the medicinal casserole, walked to Park Ji-yeon and sat down, "Let's eat it for you, or something else?" ”

"Below! I'm going to eat two eggs! Park Ji-yeon's eyes lit up when she said that she was eating, and she clapped her hands and shouted.

Su Gaofei held back a smile and nodded in response: "Okay." ”

Roughly calculated, it has been more than two months since I set up a stall here, and practice makes perfect.

After a while, the pot will be boiled and a bowl of steaming noodles full of feelings will be served.

Park Ji-yeon was unambiguous after entering the battle form, and the noodle soup of "Hula Hula" bottomed out immediately in a few blinks of an eye.

Park Ji-yeon took the time to burp, and when she looked up, she found that Su Gao Feizheng was also pinching her nose and drinking something. I stepped forward and sniffed it, and frowned for a moment, "Ah! Uncle, what are you drinking? It smells bad! With one hand, he hurriedly pinched his nose and did the same, while the other hand was fanning the wind frantically in front of him.

"Medicine." Su Gaofei drank it cleanly, and also burped like Park Ji-yeon, but Park Ji-yeon turned her head in disgust, and the taste of this medicine was really unbearable.

Su Gaofei took off his scarf when he drank the medicine, this was the first time Park Ji-yeon saw his face, his eyes immediately turned to his face, and he stared at him with wide eyes for a while, the uncle didn't look much older than himself! I wiped my eyes, and the more I looked at it, the more I felt novel.

"Hey, I have flowers on my face?" Su Gaofei quipped.

"Huh? Yes! Uncle, what is this medicine for? Park Ji-yeon's face turned red, and she quickly turned her head, and then hurriedly changed the topic as soon as she spoke.

"Let's eat my throat." There's nothing to hide, Su Gao Fei said truthfully.

"Ahh I remember! Park Ji-yeon clapped her hands and was shocked: "The medicine drunk by the seniors in the company seems to taste like this!" It is said that many singers will use it. ”

"Huh? Is Uncle also a singer? Park Ji-yeon tilted her head and asked suspiciously.

"Oh, how could I be?" Su Gaofei smiled and planned to avoid this topic.

"How can that uncle take medicine indiscriminately! I remember that my predecessors said that except for insiders, few people will use this medicine. Ahh "Park Ji-yeon, this little guy, is sometimes just a material who worries about others.

Su Gaofei was stunned by her, and looked at the empty medicine bowl and was stunned.

"Well, it's time for me to take my medicine!" Park Ji-yeon flicked up her index finger and shouted as if she remembered something, it would be more vivid if she had a light bulb next to her little head.

She hurriedly took out a packet of yellow-brown medicinal juice from her bag, tore it open, and stuffed it into her mouth with a frown and bitterness.

"What are you drinking?" Su Gaofei waited for Park Ji-yeon to drink it all, and asked in her example.

"It's a tonic. We're about to make our debut, and the president wants us to control our diet, and if we can't keep up with the nutrition if the training intensity is high, we have to rely on it. ”

Is that so? Su Gaofei took a deep breath: "Since it's so hard, why do you want to make your debut?" When he asked this question, Su Gaofei's eyes were staring at her tightly, as if he was uneasily confirming something.

"Why?" Park Ji-yeon was stunned by the question, as if she had never thought about it. At this point, the index finger was on his lips, and he was torn and pondered for the answer.

"HOHO~ Actually, I don't know." Park Ji-yeon scratched her head a little embarrassed, and laughed silly, that laughter was really unique. "My sisters say it's for their dreams, but I don't know what my dreams are. I just thought it would be a good idea, so I did it. In the end, the little guy stuck out his tongue, and he felt that he was too confused to be such an entertainer.

Do you want to do it?

"Uncle, do you have a dream?"

"Dreams...... Everybody has it. Su Gaofei stood up and stretched, waved his hand and shouted, "It's closed, it's closed." ”

"Huh? Uncle, is it so early today? ”

"Well, tomorrow - maybe not coming." Su Gaofei narrowed his eyes and said with a smile.

"Uncle, is there something going on tomorrow? Then I'll come back the day after tomorrow. Park Ji-yeon sat and packed her bags.

"Let's go, let's go, we're done." Su Gaofei urged.

"Uncle, after you don't become dumb, you are so impatient."

Su Gaofei saw that she was still leaning, and he was about to smoke the small bench under her.

"Okay, okay, don't rush! I'm gone! Park Ji-yeon stood up with a puffed face, waved her hand, and said goodbye angrily.

……

In the middle of the night, Su Gaofei thought a lot, and finally tossed and turned and couldn't sleep. He sighed and suddenly slammed up from the bed.

When he entered the cubicle, he didn't turn on the light, so he reached out and stroked the lid by the faint moonlight.

In the past year and a half, he has been full of guilt and has escaped infinitely; I went to China and couldn't find any traces of existence.,An otaku personality who completely denied because he couldn't prove himself.。

In addition to this, a third personality is slowly taking shape.

……

Su Gaofei sat in front of the piano, sighed and shook his head, secretly laughing that he had really lived to a dog for more than a year and a half.

The question of "who am I" has never been able to figure out. Is it because of an inexplicable crossing that you have to pretend to be a philosopher? I don't even know if it's a real crossing or a dream.

I am me, do you still have doubts? Do what you want to do, do what you are happy with, and other than that, everything is fake.

Su Gaofei opened the lid of the piano, he didn't dare to touch it for so long, and he didn't know if he was rusty. It's been a year and a half, and I've been so hard that I'm finally tired of it. Just when Park Ji-yeon asked him why he was using the medicine that singers only could use, he should be sober. I'm still looking forward to the day when my vocal cords will be restored, but now, I'm back to it.

The moment your fingertips touch the keys, it's like you're back to the old ways. After a year and a half of accumulation, pretending to be deaf and dumb and putting too many emotions in my heart, it seems that I have imprisoned and suppressed the music cells for too long, and everything in my body has been fermented into musical notes. At this moment, it is as easy as creating a finger.

When it is played, it becomes a song.

"Just shout at the world like this one at a time

Just fade away from the self that is always afraid

Embrace the dream I've been looking forward to

Just put on a different expression at a time and live

It's a little late to look at the sky for a while

Seeing yourself tonight is just a small part of life

Close your eyes and use your heart to find that lost self

……

Just put on a different expression at a time and live

Don't stop crying, even if you forget your original self

Tomorrow I will show my transformed self

Don't limit yourself and don't regret it

Forget your yesterday self and stretch out your arms as best you can

What is the new direction (to the sky) in front of me?

It's like there's something in front of you, like there's something

No longer hesitant to approach. ”

A song that slopes and cleans like mercury on the ground, and it seems that it can't stop yet. As soon as the melody changes, it's the next song.

"Knocking on the door of the heart's dreams, those conversations that talk about the future

A vague scenery that stretches out your hands and can't reach

BecauseI‘mweary.‘ causeI‘mweary.

BecauseI‘mweary.‘ causeI‘mweary.

It was like running out of breath

Cover your ears and hum songs from your childhood

In memories that have not ended and never begun

Circling around, soothing my heart

BecauseI‘mweary.‘ causeI‘mweary.

In today's exhaustion, the beating sound of the fast heart

An unforgettable feeling of apprehension

BecauseIloveyou.‘ causeIloveyou.

BecauseIloveyou.‘ causeIloveyou.

……”

Hollowing out the year and a half was written into a song, and by the way, all the negative emotions were driven away.

Su Gaofei stretched his waist greatly, and then neatly took out a pen and paper to quickly record the two tunes.

Sure enough, anything that can give up music is false. Then start tomorrow and live again!

(PS: My God, when I look at it at night, the reward is still powerful, you don't give the student dog a chance to be lazy!) Try your best after the wee hours of the morning, yesterday really tossed me enough. This book is honestly a long time of running naked, and you don't know what to do without it. In short, thank you thank you~)