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October 5, 2010, Saturday, fine. Pen × fun × Pavilion www. ｂｉｑｕｇｅ。 ｉｎｆｏ

After the show ended that day, Liu Mengshan didn't say a word, and left inexplicably.

Since then, I haven't seen Liu Mengshan for a long time, and I haven't received a call from him, and I haven't called him.

Because I'm thinking that since a person's behavior is completely beyond the logic of normal people, then he shouldn't like to explain anything to others.

The show has been doing it, and the response has been okay, but the reaction has not been as enthusiastic as it was that day.

There have always been listeners asking, why are the people who sing differently? When will that man come back that day?

A listener sent a text message - he was driving that day, the light was red, it was raining, the sky was gloomy, and he had a sense of panic in his heart, and when his voice came from the radio, he suddenly wanted to go home.

I read this text message twice, and it was natural to read it twice, because it completely spoke to the heart.

Liu Mengshan's voice was full of camouflage, and all his emotions were concealed by an almost precise technique, but his emotions full of camouflage could still be deeply moving.

I can't understand what the hell is going on, all I can say is that he's a strange guy.

Before I knew it, more than a month had passed, and when the audience had become fewer and fewer to ask, and I began to believe that he would never come back, he appeared in front of me again.

"The white-collar salary has been a long time, and Brother Guohai is going to send me to the United States on a business trip." When he suddenly appeared in front of me, he reached out and scratched the back of his head and said with a shallow smile.

At that time, I was in the recording studio to choose a singer for the next episode, and his sudden appearance caught me off guard, so that I didn't know what to say to eat, so I could only be stupid for a moment, "Well, okay." ”

Immediately afterward, he stretched out his hand and drew a circle in the air, explaining, "I wanted to buy something before I left, and suddenly I came here, so I came up and had a look." ”

"Let's ......," I realized that I had just said something a little too cold, so I quickly smiled apologetically, "How about going to my office and talking?" ”

"Oh......" he nodded, turned to leave, then turned back and looked at me and said, "Actually, I came up to see if you need me to sing for you again." ”

Of course, I couldn't ask for it, but before I recorded it, I said to him, "Can I not play Mystic Disappearance this time?" How about giving me a chance to treat you to dinner? ”

When Liu Mengshan heard me say this, he looked sorry and said, "I'm sorry, I was rude last time." ”

Seeing him look so serious, I hurriedly said: "Don't do this, make me feel like I'm going around the corner to blame you, I'm not so insidious, okay?" ”

The ensuing recording went very well.

This time Liu Mengshan asked me to give him a chair, and I gave it to him, and he sat on the chair in the most comfortable position, and then sat there, singing the songs ordered by the audience one by one.

Today is probably the most relaxed since I started in the industry, and in the whole show, all the words I said added up to no more than thirty sentences, and all the time was given to Liu Mengshan's singing.

Because it was too leisurely, I could turn around and look at Liu Mengshan singing behind me.

And when I found myself being watched by me, Liu Mengshan turned his face away a little shyly, it was really cute at that moment, I didn't expect that a guy like Liu Mengshan would have this kind of expression at all.

However, the more I heard it, the more peculiar it became to me, as if a wolf was singing in front of me.

No matter from any point of view, I couldn't see any resemblance to the wolf, but for some reason, I always had a stubborn intuition in my mind, and I always felt that there was something fatally similar to the wolf.

Oh, if the wolf comes back one day, you must introduce them to you. Maybe they'll become the best friends.

Towards the end of the show, I made a closing remark while looking behind me with a very insecure look, for fear that he would mysteriously disappear like the last time.

But luckily, he was there. When he saw that I had turned my head to look at him, he smiled apologetically again.

At the end of the show, when the two of us walked out of the broadcast studio, Liu Mengshan said: "It seems that the shadow left on you last time seems to be still deep. ”

"That's it, it hurts a lot, you have to invite me to dinner." I said with a smile.

"No problem." With a slight smile, he said, "It just so happened that Brother Hai sent a business trip allowance." ”

said that they would go out to eat together, but when they walked to the door of the radio station, Liu Mengshan said again: "It's not five o'clock now, is it early to eat?" ”

"It seems so." I smiled and said, "Do you have any other arrangements?" ”

"If your boyfriend doesn't mind, go to the movies." He said.

"My boyfriend is a very jealous guy, but let him go, the guy who hasn't appeared for seven years is not qualified to say anything, it's up to him to be jealous today, let's go." I said with a smile.

He stood at the door of the radio and thought for a while, and asked, "Aren't you worried that I will pursue you?" ”

"Alright, you still make me feel safe in this regard." I patted him on the shoulder and said, "Don't pretend, you have the person you love in your heart." So, we're going to be best friends. ”

He was stunned for a moment, then smiled and winked his glasses, "You can see it." ”

"Let's go, we have to hurry up, go to the cinema for fifteen minutes, watch the movie for two hours, then it's almost seven o'clock, if you can't get the time, maybe it's late, just thinking about it makes me feel hungry."

And so, at my unceremonious urging, we went to see a movie.

Originally, I wanted to watch a comedy, but because none of the films on the painting were comedies, there were only two films to choose from, one was a so-called martial arts blockbuster, and the other was a romance film, which was made by a little-known director.

People my age, most of whom have been poisoned by blockbusters, couldn't bear to break their hearts anymore, so we chose to support this little-known new director.

The story of the movie is actually very simple, about a mermaid who encounters a disaster at sea, floats to the shore, and is rescued by a young man, and they gradually fall in love with each other. But the merfolk have different paths, and they have never been able to be completely together.

In order to be together forever, the mermaid vows to find a plant called Chichigusa. Legend has it that as long as you get this plant, a mermaid can become a benevolent person.

It is a path full of thorns, full of hardships, and the most cruel tortures of body, mind, spirit, and even faith.

However, for the sake of love, this mermaid persevered all the way without regrets, and in the end, she finally got this thousand thousand grasses.

However, when she got Chichikusa and happily returned to the village, what she saw was that the young man was married, had children, and had a happy family.

At the end of the movie, the mermaid holds the hard-earned thousand herbs in her hand and lets it gradually disappear in the wind.

A very special, very sad story.

There is no greater sorrow in the world than to find that what you are holding on to is meaningless after all the hardships you have endured.

When the movie ended, and an ethereal female voice sang an ethereal and sad ending song, I couldn't hold back my tears.

However, to my surprise, when the lights came on, I saw that Liu Mengshan was already slumped in the chair.

He was even lying on the armrest, his body curled up in a ball, trying to control himself, but he couldn't help but tremble.

Just as I can't understand a lot of Yoo Mong-san's actions, I can't understand why this movie makes Yoo Mong-san so emotional.

However, not only then, but even now, including in the future, I don't think I will ever wonder why he was so deeply touched at that time.

Because, whenever I think of that scene, I have a feeling of palpitations to tingling.

I've never seen an adult cry like this in my life.

At that moment, I suddenly had a wonderful feeling that Liu Mengshan was like a precocious child, who had not yet understood what the world was going on, and was forced to face the cruelest side of the world.

He tried his best to disguise himself as strong and uninhibited, as if he didn't care about anything and didn't care about anything. It's like a cactus, not only does it not need to be taken care of by others, but if you give it too much water, it will rot.

He never showed any weakness, and tears seemed unbelievable to him.

I don't think he would have been able to cry if he hadn't been in the dark of the movie theater, right?

I can almost imagine how his mouth opened uncontrollably and tears flowed freely on his face when the cinema was still dark and no one could see the expression on his face.

However, when the lights came on, he immediately buried his head so that no one could see his face or tears.

This posture is lonely and stubborn.

At that point, I really wanted to hold him like a scarred child.

However, I didn't do it, not because I was worried about any suspicion between men and women, but because I was afraid that Liu Mengshan would not like me to do it.

But now, as I sit here and begin to write this account, I have a vague sense of regret.

Because, when Liu Mengshan finished crying, wiped all the tears on his face with his sleeves, and raised his head to look at me, I knew that I owed Liu Mengshan a hug.

Perhaps, this is a hug that can never be returned.

I thought about it for a day, and I couldn't think of any words to use to describe his expression at the time.

Then, I heard Liu Mengshan say to me, "Miss Su, I wish there was really a god in the world." ”

I smiled and said, "There is a god in the world, and everyone is their own god." ”

Liu Mengshan laughed contemptuously and stood up, and at that moment, he seemed to be back to his usual appearance.

After that, we went to eat, and Liu Mengshan suddenly became normal again, as if everything in the movie theater just now didn't happen at all.

During the meal, we chatted, and I was immersed in the atmosphere of the cinema all the time, and I seemed to be particularly emotional, but he seemed to be extraordinarily reasonable, and the words he said were so organized that it made people feel a little cold.

I said, "Sometimes I really doubt the meaning of life, and the older you are, the harder it is to be happy." In addition to the fear of death, what else is there to sustain us to live forever? ”

He said: "A lot of times in life, it's like reading a long novel, maybe we're tired of it, but we can't help but keep reading it, because we all want to see the ending. ”

Later, we talked a lot, and later on, I tried to seduce him into talking about his beloved, but he always avoided it, as if he had some hidden intentions.

In the end, I had to give up, I am a professional visitor, my profession is to let others answer the questions I want to ask, but with Liu Mengshan, I can't bear to do this.

He's a real man, and in that respect, he's a lot like a wolf.

I've changed a lot in the past seven years, but there's one thing I've never changed, and that's not playing tricks on real people.

Eventually, though, at about ten o'clock in the evening, when he took me home, I told him what was on my mind.

I said, "You know what? Today is my birthday. ”

Liu Mengshan didn't look surprised, just nodded.

Then I went on to say, "I want a birthday gift, is that okay?" ”

Liu Mengshan nodded again.

I said, "I don't know why you left your beloved, but I sincerely hope that one day, you can be together forever." Because I don't know who that girl is, or what kind of person she is, but I know that you love her with all your might. ”

"In a person's life, not everything is decided by himself." Liu Mengshan said.

I said, "Maybe men's world is different from us women, in my opinion, love is to be together, this is the simplest truth in the world." ”

"Do you read Auden's poems?" Liu Mengshan asked me.

"I've seen a little." I say.

"Auden has a poem called 'Walking,' and at the end of the poem he writes - an alley where no one can walk, where all the footprints that do not fit the soles of my shoes have looked for me, and are always left by my beloved."

After speaking, Liu Mengshan smiled at me, turned around and left slowly.

I don't understand what that means, but I thought, maybe one day, I'll understand.

(To be continued)