019 Decision
The bouquet of flowers in the room was placed on the registration table next to him, and the loneliness spread in this reception corridor, lingering. I tilted my head to look at Zhang Jiatong who was standing next to me with an indifferent face, and there was a slight fluctuation on my unsmiling face.
The long stream of memories slowly rolled forward with my eyes, and I sighed faintly when I recalled the sadness and hardship of the past ten years.
Zhang Jiatong has been standing quietly in front of me without urging me, as if she also knows that I need time to consider the final result.
"Sister!"
Just when I was still thinking about how to answer Zhang Jiatong's question, a girl wearing a blue dress similar to Zhang Jiatong appeared in front of the banquet venue. The girl's eyes were large, she had a cute little dimple when she smiled, and her long black hair was scattered casually over her shoulders.
Zhang Jiatong and I raised our heads at the same time to look at the girl, the girl walked to Zhang Jiatong's side, stretched out her hand and grabbed her arm, and said with a smile: "What are you talking to Uncle Wang Bo about again!" ”
"You girl!"
Zhang Jiatong raised his hand and pinched the girl's face, and I also frowned and hummed at the girl: "Little milk, you call Zhang Jiatong sister, but you call me uncle, am I that old?" ”
Saying that, I deliberately made another pose, but I was already "old", but I accidentally flashed my waist and let out an oops.
"It's okay!"
Zhang Jiatong hurriedly stretched out his hand and pressed the place I twisted just now, revealing concern between his words, Xiao Milk stood in place and looked at me and Zhang Jiatong with a smile, then covered his eyes with his hand and said: "Oh, I'd better hurry up, the scene here is going to torture a single dog!" ”
Little Milk jumped into the wedding banquet venue again, and I grabbed Zhang Jiatong's wrist with my hand, and the two of them looked at each other and smiled.
"Are you feeling better?"
Zhang Jiatong helped me to the registration desk and sat down, I gently waved my hand and said: "It's okay, it's just that I may sit in the office all year round, my waist is a little wrong, and my spine is not very good, all in all, I am not young!" ”
"Now that you know you're not young anymore, do you want to continue? You know, the people around you aren't young anymore! ”
The meaning of Zhang Jiatong's words was obvious, and I glanced back at her only to find that she was biting her lip and staring at me with bright eyes. I grinned and pulled a cigarette out of my arms and lit one for myself. Smoke slowly exhaled from his mouth, and then he smiled at her next to him and said, "How can I say it, I'm sorry for you, I shouldn't have said that to you on that day ten years ago." ”
"But I don't regret what you said!"
I listened to her indifferent words and felt a little sour in my heart, is the ten-year journey a hard journey or a sweet one? The characters who have traveled through the past ten years have been in a hurry, and there are also characters who have left a strong mark......
But no matter what, the only woman who is still with me now is Zhang Jiatong.
She is a stupid woman, so stupid that she has loved a man for nearly twenty years without changing. I am a man who has silently made a woman love for nearly twenty years, but has never promised her.
I used my mistakes to delay her youth, and when years passed, and ten years passed, when the woman came up to me and asked me for the answer, I hesitated.
I can't make a choice.
"What if I say...... I ......" After a long silence, I silently looked up at her with apologies in my eyes.
After Zhang Jiatong saw my eyes, he stretched out his hand and directly interrupted my words, just smiled at me faintly and said, "Okay, I'll wait!" ”
Ten years have allowed us to have too much tacit understanding between the two of us, and she can understand my words with a glance, but because of time, I know her too well, and I hear too much sourness from her indifferent voice.
I'll wait!
I don't know how many years I'll have to wait!
But we are no longer young, how can there be so much youth to waste.
Bai Weiwei is married, Li Ruyao also has her own children, and even Situ Mingyue's little girl has found her own Ruyi Langjun, but people of our generation are still hesitating, with pain in their hearts, waiting for another person to redeem themselves, but this is a general chain reaction of Huang weakness, there is no starting point, where there will be always.
I was silent, just smoking a bitter cigarette one after another, and Zhang Jiatong also walked away from me, walked to the end of the reception corridor, and looked through the turnstiles, looking at the world outside that was completely different from ten years ago.
Suddenly, I looked up and saw her wiping the corners of her eyes, I knew that she was crying, she shed her most sad tears, but she didn't want the tears to fall in my eyes and increase the burden on me. She still thinks about me like that, and I wonder if I should really make a promise of redemption to her.
We can't go down anymore, we're really not young anymore.
"Zhang Jiatong?"
"Huh?" Zhang Jiatong raised his hand again and wiped his eyes, and after a while, he turned around and walked over to me. Although she had tried her best to hide the tears just now, her crying red eyes and the tears in the corners of her eyes were all confiding in me that she was really crying just now.
I squinted my eyes and didn't mention anything she had cried about, just got up from my chair, reached out and helped her brush her hair and said, "We're not young anymore, are we?" ”
"Hmm!"
"In fact, you can find a partner on your terms and live happily ever after!"
"Do you think I'll be happy without you?" Zhang Jiatong's eyes stared at me tightly, without hesitation, "If you think I can let you go, do you think I won't go to other people in the next ten years?" What do you think ......"
"Okay, I've got it!"
I reached out and patted her on the shoulder, a smile on my face, I don't know why I smiled so much today, even more than I have in this decade. Maybe it's because today is a festive day, so I will make myself smile a little more.
"The publicity work of the film is about to end, and the film will be promoted and broadcast around the world, and the broadcast cycle is three months, what is the future road, then use these three months to decide, it is up to fate to decide!"
It's been ten years, and it's the first time I've made such a decision.
Zhang Jiatong looked at me with a hopeful look on her face, and then she stood up from her chair and walked gently past me, leaving only one sentence that moved me.
"Okay, I'll wait for you!"
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