Ron got home around 6:30 p.m. local time, and it was already sunset, and the dark red sunset was hanging lazily among the lush branches of the large maple tree not far away. When the car turned an intersection and bypassed the steady and lush maple forest, several buildings appeared in Ron's eyes, including the two-story building with gray walls and red roof, about two hundred meters from the road, which was the home of the original owner of the body. Ron was reluctant to come here. Coming here always brings him a sense of guilt like a liar. He also knew that if he suddenly gave up visiting his family for no reason, it might bring more trouble. But he tried to delay the visit, so much so that a few days after Ram's wedding, he began to leave for the United States.

In fact, there were other reasons that made him make up his mind. The day after Ram's wedding, there was a flight back to the United States, but Ron didn't catch the plane in time under the pretext that he was drunk. But since then, Ron has been shocked to find that the original owner of this body does not seem to have left, and those memories that originally belonged to him suddenly come alive. For example, sometimes Ron was walking along the seaside highway while recalling the scene of taking pictures with Xie Na here, but the scene of the original owner of this body saying goodbye to his parents before leaving for the Philippines suddenly popped up in his head: it was a rainy noon, and it was still a time of peace, so the people who saw him off did not have any worried looks. The two nieces even {one + book{read} novels YBDU envied their uncle for being able to travel far away, and in their opinion, going to serve in the Philippines seemed like a good outing. Of course, my parents don't see it that way, but there's nothing to worry about. It's just that my mother nagged a lot when she was parting.

Ron shook his head, as if trying to shake the memory out of his head that didn't belong to him. So, this memory sank and sank into the depths of the sea of consciousness, but at this time, the memories about Xie Na also fell into fragments that could not be picked up.

This similar situation keeps appearing and even getting worse, especially at night. Sleeping in bed, Ron kept dreaming. In the dream, he was Ron for a while, Gao Tianxiang for a while, he seemed to be watching the story of Ron and his family and friends as if he was watching a movie, and for a while he dreamed that the head of the unit was asking them to stay after work to rehearse the red song so that it could be used as a gift for the party's 90th birthday on July 1. And all this seems to have another person hiding in some corner that no one else knows, watching silently like watching a movie.

This situation is just too dangerous. Sometimes when he woke up in the middle of the night, he couldn't even figure out who he was for a long time, whether Zhuang Zhou dreamed of turning into a butterfly, or whether the butterfly dreamed of becoming Zhuang Zhou. Ron knew that if this situation continued, he would definitely be schizophrenic. When he was in college, out of interest, he also dabbled in some treatises on psychology, especially some theories of Freud and Jung. After these circumstances, he made a special trip to the library to look up information in this area.

Sigmund Freud once said that the human spiritual world is like an iceberg floating on the surface of the sea, most of which is hidden below the sea level. This part that lurks beneath the surface of the sea, unnoticed and unaware of itself, is the subconscious. Although it is pressed down by conscious consciousness, it is the basis of consciousness, and its requirements must be reflected directly or indirectly from consciousness. If the channels for this response are disrupted, the person is likely to have mental problems. Jung's doctrine is more mystical, believing that there is a deeper layer of human unconscious, and that the ancestors left us some of the most basic things that constitute consciousness in the form of instinct through heredity. For example, a child will instinctively be afraid of the dark, even if he has never heard any stories related to darkness such as big bad wolves and vampires. This fear arose when the ancestors were attacked by predatory animals in the dark night, and the ancestors passed it on to us through genetics.

This tells him that these things cannot be destroyed unless this body is destroyed. In fact, in the newspapers of the 21st century, he has also seen a lot of such news, such as someone who was originally an introvert, and then after transplanting one of other people's organs, his personality began to change, and others became more and more like organ providers. Just one organ has such power, not to mention that he is almost equivalent to transplanting an entire body, including the brain, and it is a brain that has not been thoroughly formatted.

Ron, no, Gao Tianxiang now understands that nothing has happened to him before, just because of the fierce battle life, all his mental power has been used to focus on fighting and survival. It's just that Gao Tianxiang is also the common requirement of the subconscious left by Ron, so he was normal at that time. And now, apparently, his brain is on the verge of division and civil war. Now, he, Gao Tianxiang, must reach a compromise with the other him, the subconscious left by Ron, in order to save himself from falling into madness. The first point of compromise is to admit that Ron is still alive and that he has the right to go home.

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"Thanks, this is it." Ron said to the driver of the car as he lifted his suitcase to get out of the car. Just as the door opened and Ron was about to get out of the car, several black men crowded in the back compartment also began to rush to the front compartment to grab a seat.

"Ah, the heinous apartheid system." Ron thought, "Now Martin Luther?? King's civil rights movement had not yet emerged, and the rule on American buses that as long as a white person got on the bus, all blacks had to go to the back half of the carriage. Years later, it was this regulation that sparked the civil rights movement that swept across North America. Fortunately, I was a white man when I crossed over, and if I was a black man, I would only have to consider whether to let "I Have a Dream" come out in advance. ”

The place where the car stops is on the other side of the road, and the person who gets off the car is not visible from the direction of the house. After Ron got out of the car, he put his suitcase on the ground, tidied up his clothes nervously, and looked at Xiaolou through the dust raised by the car when it left.

As the dust cleared, Ron lifted his suitcase, hesitated for a moment, and walked towards the building.

From the small building to the main road, there is a thin path paved with coal dust. On one side of the road is a vast field planted with corn, alfalfa, and wheat; On the other side of the road is a small pond with water lilies. Now, the water lilies in the pond have long since gathered their pale yellow petals and turned into small flower bones floating on the water. As the sun sets, a cool water vapor rises from the surface of the pond, and pure blue, vigorous oil green, hazy dark gray and ambiguous purple are all rippling in this water vapor. An indescribable light reflected from underwater, and the surface of the water became as transparent as a blue sky; The changing light made the water ripple and ripple, and even the slightest breeze blew and the water lilies shivered softly. There is a secluded tranquility in this blue-gray coldness, everything has slept peacefully like water lilies, only the light and shadow are moving slowly, like the dance of underwater elves.

Ron paused by the pond and looked at the silent and even mysterious water lilies, and he thought, "Don't hesitate any longer, since Ron is coming back, let him come back." Only a consciousness that satisfies the subconscious can be a healthy consciousness. ”

So Ron, this time the real Ron, although not 100 percent, but at least after letting go of the knot, a seventy or eighty percent Ron walked briskly towards the small building, first a normal cadence, then a trot, and then a gallop. Just as he was about to leap up the steps in front of the door, the door opened. A joyful voice came out, "Is it Ron?" ”

It was Ron's mother who opened the door. In fact, before coming back, Ron, who was in a mental crisis, did not write to his family, but apparently, the family had been prepared for his return. As soon as the door opened, the mother hugged Ron tightly, as if as soon as she let go, her son would grow wings and fly away or become a mass of soap bubbles and dissipate.

Ron raised his free hand, hesitated slightly, and then gently patted his mother's back, "Mom, I'm back." ”

To his own surprise, the word "mother" came out of his mouth so smoothly.

"I said Lucy, you've got to get the kids to put things down, right?" It was Ron's father, a spirited little old man, who spoke. He said as he waved his right hand, clutching a large pipe tightly in his hand. The sharp-eyed Ron could clearly see that there was a tooth bite on the pipe.

Hearing the old man's reminder, the mother quickly let go of Ron and wiped her eyes, "Look at me," she smiled a little embarrassedly, "I forgot to let you put things down." As he spoke, he took Ron's suitcase and placed it on the edge of the table. Then he looked him up and down carefully, then turned his head, looked at the old man, and said, "Old man, our son has grown up, really grown up." As he spoke, tears rolled down the wrinkles that lay in the corners of his eyes.

"Mom, Daddy," Ron felt a little hot in the corner of his eye, "I'm back." ”

"It's good to be back, it's good to be back. Sit down, don't stand still. ”

"Haha, it's Ron who is back, I have heard that you are coming back, why did you only come back today?"

As there was a knock on the door on the left, a tall man walked up. It was Ron's older brother, Henry.

"Why did you only come back today, we've been waiting for you for days." Henry came over and gave him a big bear hug.

"How did you know I was coming back?"

"Your comrade-in-arms who came back first sent us a letter saying that you were going to carry out a special mission. You'll probably be back after the mission. Two days ago I saw a picture of you in the newspaper again - you have become a hero! Well. Yes, yes, it's a lot more energetic than before. Yesterday I met Miss Hailan again, and she asked about you, and according to her, you should have come back a long time ago. Tell me, what's stumbling you up? Did you meet some girl? ”

"Big brother, how do you know Hailan?" Ron was willing to use this question to sidestep his brother's previous question.

"Oh, her father is one of the shareholders of our company. You're not going to be interested in this woman, are you? I can tell you, this woman is unusual. ”

"This woman is unusual? Isn't this the word in "Shajiabang"? Could it be that this brother also crossed? He looked up at his brother suspiciously, but he couldn't see anything unusual, probably by coincidence.

Probably seeing Ron's puzzled eyes, Henry continued to explain to him, "Hailan's father is an important figure in the triad, does the triad know?" Anyway, it's the underworld organizations in Chinatown, and the mafia and the like. Later, when I heard that I was making more money, I began to think about whitewashing. It must be said that this guy has a lot of vision, and a few years ago, he seemed to have seen the possibility of war, so he invested in the arms business through a white man. Now, with the repeal of the Chinese Exclusion Act, he has appeared directly as a shareholder. ”

After introducing the background of Aqua, Henry paused slightly, as if trying to organize the language.

"Not to mention her background, this woman herself is not simple. She sometimes looks like a cute little girl who doesn't know anything, but that's pretending. She is ostensibly a journalist, but in fact she is an arms salesman, she has been to China, she has been to Yugoslavia, she has been to many dangerous places, and she has brought a lot of business to the company. ”

This sea blue also has such a background, which is not what Ron expected. But he didn't take it too seriously. Because fundamentally speaking, he has only met Hailan once, and in each other's eyes, I am afraid that he is just passerby A and passerby B.

Speaking of the arms company, Ron happens to have some designs to offer them, which can also improve his brother's status in the company. I just don't know if such a small company can take it. This is also a part of my heart. But this is clearly not the time to talk about that.

At this time, Ron's two nieces also ran into the living room.

"Uncle Ron, Uncle Ron!" The two little nieces jumped over and grabbed his hand, "What about the coconut candy you brought us last time?" ”