Following Tan Pingshan's suggestion, Luan Shi dialed the phone of Bai Fengshou, secretary of the Provincial Commission for Discipline Inspection, and reported the matter of Pingyuan, which seems to be something that should be done, just like Liu Tangzi called himself as soon as he arrived at the office in the morning, he should also report to the Provincial Commission for Discipline Inspection in a timely manner. [Ran^Text^Library] [ ] The mood for this period of time was too bad, and the suddenness of the matter made him lose his soul, and Luan Shi blamed himself deeply.

Luan Shi put down the phone, felt a lot more comfortable, and felt that he had done what he had to do. The impatience and irrefutable chaos just now seem to have been released somewhat, while greater and more doubts linger. Qi Tianxiang prostitutes, or attempted rape, he didn't want to believe it, but he didn't believe it at all.

Although Qi Tianxiang has not had much contact, and he usually only has some contacts at work, he has a good impression of him, especially Qi Tianxiang's elegant and humble bearing, as well as his low-key and introverted way of doing things, and even his low-pitched voice and witty voice from time to time, as well as the focused expression of patient listening, all make him have a different kind of loftiness and arrogance, which makes people have the urge to hope for closeness. Such a person would do such a reckless thing, and in a strange place, at an inappropriate time, it is indeed inconceivable and untimely.

This also made his powerless and helpless mentality, as well as the unsolvable depression in his heart, the first impulse thought of calling Qi Tianxiang to ask about the situation, but soon gave up this idea, one is that he is a party, many things are difficult to say, and it is difficult to say. In addition, Qi Tianxiang's sensitive identity now, and he rashly called with the intention of meeting him, and he thought of Tan Pingshan when he was in a dilemma, but the phone couldn't get in, and for a while he really had the meaning of a trapped beast.

Although it has been a few years since he changed jobs and his work has changed several times, Luan Shi still does not adapt to the local environment and misses the life and work of the army. He used to be the president of the military court of the provincial military district, but because he was a professional cadre, when he was transferred to another job, the army asked for a local counterpart to be resettled, and the political department of the provincial military district specially sent people to coordinate and liaise, and finally entered the Qinghe City Intermediate People's Court against resistance, and sat in the actual position of vice president, which aroused dissatisfaction, suspicion, and jealousy among many people, as well as anger and hatred. He also knew that his appearance had affected the path of promotion of some people, and even disrupted the original arrangement of the leaders and the balance of power in the unit, especially when the dean was about to retire, one of the two vice presidents was suspended at the grassroots level, and the other vice president was not in good health, he came from the military and may have a military background, so he became the most favorable contender for the position of the next dean. Therefore, he has everything to say, he also feels the embarrassment of the situation and the delicacy of interpersonal relationships, and has also thought of a low-key and obscure strategy to get through this sensitive period, but since the army has cultivated a vigorous and resolute work style, dare to take responsibility, and relatively simple principles of doing things, so that he has no time and conditions to hide Feng, especially after the division of labor in charge of the economy and civil trials, he soon won the nickname of "black-faced Bao Gong" in the Intermediate Court, not because of his dark face and unsmiling expression, Rather, it was the "three noes" principle of not being emotional, not listening to greetings, and not looking at the slips, as well as the method of multi-departmental centralized trial that he strongly advocated, which made the trial of cases simple and transparent, and soon won the support of many judges and police officers, and also offended many powerful people in all aspects. In particular, in the case of a joint venture dispute between a foreign-invested enterprise and an enterprise in the city, he adhered to the principle of attaching importance to facts and evidence, withstood resistance from all quarters, and safeguarded the rights and interests of the city's enterprises and the broad masses of workers, which made the principal leaders of the city very dissatisfied at that time, and even publicly accused the city Intermediate People's Court of ignoring the overall situation and not safeguarding the dignity of the city party committee, which made his situation in the Intermediate People's Court even more passive, and once reached the point where he could not carry out his work. Later, Tan Pingshan sent a public opinion to transfer him from the middle court to the Municipal Legal Committee, first as the director of the second office, and then as the deputy secretary of the Political and Legal Committee, and when the municipal party committee was replaced, he was fully recommended to be the secretary of the Municipal Commission for Discipline Inspection.

Luan Shi doesn't seem to attach much importance to his position, although he is also eager to take a step forward, at least to be able to do some work freely, but it doesn't seem to be as he wants, and the work situation of the Commission for Discipline Inspection has returned to the state of the Intermediate Court, and it is more complicated and tangled.

"The work of the Commission for Discipline Inspection is a part of the overall work of the municipal party committee, and is the primary force for the stability of the overall situation of the city's economic work, and it is necessary to obey and serve the overall situation of the city's economic work, and to consciously serve the overall situation from the height of stressing politics, and to have a sense of the overall situation and a concept of the overall situation, and to plan the work of the department." Liu Zheng, secretary of the municipal party committee, and Liang Hui, secretary in charge, have both warned him more than once that although the municipal party committee has undergone a change of office, the more important work is economic development and related data, rather than fighting corruption and advocating honesty and creating a sensational effect. He also told Tan Pingshan his troubles unreservedly, and all he got was a helpless sigh.

"Many of our leaders, especially the main leaders, are in the consciousness that they are arresting corrupt officials, rather than preventing and supervising, and believe that punishing them is not to purify the body and ensure that economic work is carried out in a more orderly manner, but to discredit the achievements of the government, which is a disgraceful thing. Just like cracking down on criminal syndicates and eliminating evil and rectifying social order, it is regarded as a kind of restriction on the prosperous local economy and a kind of suppression or restraint on the investment environment, and the seemingly disorderly market environment and scattered social order are more conducive to economic development. This is either political naivety, or an intentional act of aiding and abetting. ”

Although Tan Pingshan's words can alleviate his anxiety to a certain extent, too much contact will also bring dissatisfaction to the leaders in charge, and he will miss the comfort of working in the Political and Legal Committee even more. He always believed that the period of working in the Political and Legal Committee was the most comfortable and smooth time after transferring to a local job, and recently, this anxiety has oppressed his nerves even more, because a comrade-in-arms of his army, a good friend, committed suicide.

In a medium-sized city like Qinghe, the suicide of an incumbent cadre at the deputy department level is certainly not a trivial matter, and all kinds of discussions have arisen for a while, saying everything, but all the possibilities of the cadre's accident have been mentioned, and they must not be stopped for several days, and only the memorial service that has been decided on the coffin will make the discussion disappear.

Only Luan Shi can clearly know the reason for his suicide, because he finally received a suicide note from a friend, and the most painful thing is that this reason can't even be on the table, let alone what is sacred and noble.

Boredom, that's why he committed suicide, but can this reason be recognized? A deputy director of the Municipal Taxation Bureau in his 40s, a middle-aged cadre in the prime of life, committed suicide because of boredom, no matter how you say it, it means a bit boring.

But he did commit suicide because he was bored, to be more accurate, because he was depressed because he had no goal, and he committed suicide because of depression. This reason also sounds incomprehensible, in today's laid-off laid-off, low-income low-income, soaring prices, livelihood anxiety, he has a lot of income and a stable position, he will be bored and commit suicide, and he will have no goal.

But it is true that he has no purpose, which is clearly revealed in their years of interaction and conversation, and also unmistakably expresses his frustration, unlike daily anxiety, his performance is more of a reflection of confusion and confusion.

During the conversation, Luan Shi also persuaded him many times to be numb and modest, but even his words that were difficult to convince him did not have any effect, these were all understood, and he clearly remembered his distress and expression. The grass-roots tax cadres who worked hard when they first changed jobs had a decent style and effective measures, especially taking the lead and setting an example, and soon brought out a team with excellent quality. After achieving the position of deputy director of the city, he was still high-spirited and full of ambition in the past few years, but in recent years he has been depressed a lot, the complexity of personnel relations, the entanglement of interest relations, the helplessness of being difficult to follow the trend, and the depression and resentment that are difficult to resolve, which exacerbated his depression and distress. originally thought that he was like this, after a long time, his heart was naturally dull, although he also showed the intention of death, but he still thought that he was just talking, but I never expected him to choose such an ending.

He doesn't have too many hobbies, nor too many extravagant hopes and **, he just likes to read and write articles, but gradually he doesn't write. In his words: I am not in charge of publicity, and it is easy to misunderstand when I write press releases, and I dare not write about the people and things I am familiar with when I write novels, and it is easy for people to feel that they are not doing their jobs, and I really don't look down on those manuscript fees. He is not a woman, and he keeps the bottom line of morality and tradition very firmly, which is one of the reasons why they can have a long-term relationship, and it is also the reason why Luan Shi admires him. He is not short of money, he and his wife both work in the tax department, and they are both cadres, it is too easy to pay income and expenses, and there is no need to take bribes to get that money. Although I also read books, I have no purpose, and I can't read books.

There is no goal, no motivation, no passion, some are just depressed, the meaning of existence is not as good as the farmers who are looking forward to a bumper harvest, the workers who are not as good as the wage, and the poor people who are struggling on the survival line, what else can he do except commit suicide?

Without material abundance, it is not terrible, without faith, it is not terrible, and without the goal of life, without the motivation to survive, it is truly terrible, and it is the sorrow of survival, but now there is no meaning in saying this.

The suicide of his friend stimulated Luan Shi a lot, and after dealing with his friend's funeral, he specially asked Tan Pingshan to have a drink, and vented his friend's death, as well as the tears, depression and distress that he endured at the memorial service.

Manly tears will not flow easily until the deepest and most painful time, which is what he has always firmly believed, and the deepest and most painful time is unspeakable helplessness, as well as deep depression and emptiness.

That night, Tan Pingshan quietly listened to him say a lot, but what relieved him was the feeling and persuasion of waiting for the cold weather.

"Tranquility is a state, a kind of cultivation, and a state that is difficult to attain. Perhaps only a Taoist or a woodcutter in the deep forest can do it, or do it partially, because in the deep mountains and dense forests where the material is extremely poor, moderation is a necessity for survival and the basis for mental tranquility.

If there is no temptation, there is no **, it seems that such an explanation is a bit far-fetched, and without temptation or temperance of the desire of the tongue, the mind seems to have a basic platform.

The Taoist people in the deep mountains or the woodcutters in the dense forest, there will be greater goals in addition to the poverty and happiness, the Taoist people do not enter the Taoist temple in the deep mountains for the sake of suffering, nor do they have a pure heart and few desires for the sake of experience, all of which must be borne by becoming immortals; And the woodcutter chopping wood is not only for his own use, nor is it interesting or fun, the income from chopping wood reaches a certain accumulation, or one day out of the mountains and dense forests, the world will also make the mind chaotic.

So, mental stillness is conditional, temporary, and fragile. In the war-torn era, a stable living environment and a calm social order will calm the mind. When hunger and cold are in full swing, having a sheltered roof, a food and drink, and even a steamed bun can make the heart feel like water. And all this is a process, and the heart will not be quiet over time.

After talking about the environment, talking about the state, and after talking about the state, it is natural to talk about reality.

Living in the city, clothing, food, housing and transportation, all aspects are facing great temptations and tests. Not to mention those 'house slaves' and 'car slaves' who owe hundreds of yuan to the bank when they open their eyes, let's just say that the life of ordinary people, going out is multiple impacts, watching private cars pass by when squeezing the car, the distance between rank and income when going to work, the bright lights of the dinner when getting off work, the dazzling fashion when leisure, and the inequality of income and expenditure, how easy it is to balance, let alone calm down.

What is in front of me is these, and there is also the section chief in the agency who wants to be the director, and the director who wants to be the director; If you do business, you want to earn 100 yuan a day, and you want 10,000 yuan if you have 1,000 yuan; In addition to the district focus of schooling, there are city priorities, and after the municipal focus, there are provincial priorities; There is a master's degree after a bachelor's degree, and a doctorate after a master's degree; How can the mind be still, and how can the mind be still?

The temptation of reality is so great, and there are so many trials to face, it seems that you can only seek a temporary peace of mind, there is a family sheltered from the wind and rain, there is a dress to protect against the wind and cold, and there is a person to share the hardships, it is already rare, and the peace of mind is balanced. It may not be enough to resist the heart, think about the sick when you are healthy, think about hunger and cold when you are fed, think about the countryside in the city, and the peace of mind may be compensated.

If there is more comfort, there will be more peace, and when there is less rain, the sunshine will be unsatisfactory. The same is true of the mood, there is a thought of ten, and you have to look at Shu, ** like weeds after the rain, and the spread is only because of the lack of constraints, and the constraints are not only the inner cultivation, but also the power of society.

The deposit of 100,000 yuan is not much, but there are still many people who do not; There are a lot of tens of millions of assets, and there are many billionaires in front of them; luxury cars, mansions, and many more and better; Many people understand this truth, but they still can't resist the temptation of the world.

The scorching heat is unbearable, any means of heat prevention are useless, and it cannot change the reality, the only feasible thing is to wait for the cool weather, because the cool weather is a change in the climate, and it is also a complete solution. It's not easy to be calm, and you have to wait for the weather to be cold. ”

Cool weather can bring freshness, for the climate, but also for the mood, so Luan Shi feels that he should do something, at least he should do his best, for his own duty, but also for his own conscience. Thinking of this, Luan Shi walked out of the office, he wanted to report this matter to Liang Hui, to listen to his opinion, and then decide whether to go to the plain or to the provincial capital, he had already decided to wade into this troubled water