Chapter Twenty-Six: Grief is Unbearable
Bai Fengshou's memorial service was held in the auditorium of the provincial party committee. [Ran^Text^Library] []
In the past few days, Qi Tianxiang has worked hard around the funeral arrangements for Bai Fengshou's funeral, and his heart is full of guilt and apology, always in grief and irrepressible self-blame, difficult to extricate himself, but there is no occasion and opportunity to pour.
He and Xiao Zhang hurriedly walked out of the conference room and rushed to the provincial hospital in a hurry, but they were faced with the grieving Liu Jinfeng and others, and Bai Fengshou had gone forever.
Regret and great grief immediately froze Qi Tianxiang outside the rescue room like a bombshell, so that when Bai Fengshou's body was slowly pushed out, he didn't take a serious last look because of the blurred tears, but just walked with everyone like a marionette, until Bai Fengshou's body was carried into the hearse and drove away, and suddenly seemed to understand something, and couldn't help covering his face with his hands and crying out in pain.
After sending away Bai Fengshou's body, Liu Jinfeng and the others gradually came to their senses, and only then did they notice Qi Tianxiang's irrepressible pain and sadness, and Liu Jinfeng also had the opportunity to tell Qi Tianxiang in detail about Bai Fengshou's illness after his illness.
"The afternoon before yesterday, Xiao Huang who went to Yanbei with Lao Bai to investigate, felt that something was wrong with Lao Bai's body, so he suggested that Lao Bai end the investigation and come back, but the stubborn Lao Bai disagreed, just went to the local hospital for a night drip, and yesterday insisted on being busy for a day, basically a period of backwardness, really looked at it, even contacted the local hospital overnight for rescue, and this morning contacted the ambulance to send back, the situation improved after arriving at noon today, who knew that there was a large area of cardiopulmonary failure in the afternoon, and it was too late to rescue again."
Qi Tianxiang waved his hand, stopped Liu Jinfeng's narration, and broke free from Jing Qian's arm, nodded slightly to her to express his gratitude, and then turned around, and said in a hoarse voice: "Don't say any of this, let's start the arrangements for the future immediately!" ”
After saying this, Qi Tianxiang seemed to be a little difficult to insist on reaching out to support the wall, and said slowly: "Old Tang, Jin Feng, and Xiao Zhang, you divide the labor, first focus on the Commission for Discipline Inspection, set up a funeral agency for Comrade Bai Fengshou, and then coordinate the Organ Affairs Administration and the Veteran Cadres Bureau, and do the relevant work first, and choose the funeral location in Lao Bai's house!" Where is it more convenient, go to a few comrades to clean up, Xiao Zhang is responsible for notifying Lao Bai's son abroad, as well as relatives and friends in his hometown, and arranging a special person to be responsible for the reception, and you can discuss and decide other things! ”
Qi Tianxiang said slowly, panting heavily, as if something was blocked in his heart, watching everyone disperse one after another, he felt as if all his strength had been used up, and he sat down on the bench in the corridor. After a moment of respite, he slowly said to Jing Qian, who had been standing beside him with concern: "Head Nurse Jing, please call my driver over, thank you!" ”
Soon, Jing Qian hurriedly came over with Xiao Wang, Qi Tianxiang calmed down, and slowly said gently to Jing Qian: "You go and get busy, I'll be fine after a while." ”
Jing Qian's concerned eyes were full of warmth and worry, but in Qi Tianxiang's weak eyes, he clearly read hardness, so he no longer insisted, nodded and turned to leave.
"Let's go, too!" Qi Tianxiang looked at Xiao Wang and said slowly: "Go to the funeral home, I want to talk to Lao Bai." As he spoke, tears rolled down his cheeks uncontrollably.
Qi Tianxiang's incoherent words made Xiao Wang very stunned, but he silently stretched out his hand to pick up Qi Tianxiang and walked out of the building together.
In the car, Qi Tianxiang sent a message to Zhao Haonan's mobile phone, and after doing all this, it was as if he had settled down, and he didn't say a word, even in the funeral home, next to Lao Bai's body, he didn't say a word, just sat silently for a long, long time.
Until the memorial service, Qi Tianxiang was always in this state of confusion, although everything seemed to be normal, but it was difficult to extricate himself from the great grief.
The agenda has changed several times, first in accordance with the structure of the Provincial Commission for Discipline Inspection and the Bureau of Veteran Cadres set up a funeral group, because of the participation of all the Standing Committee, the standard suddenly increased, the establishment of the funeral committee, Secretary Zheng Ming served as the director of the funeral committee, Qi Tianxiang and the two Standing Committee members responsible for organization and propaganda as deputy directors, members covered the provincial party committee, the provincial government many departments in charge. Just as Governor Lin Dongsheng emphasized, provincial television stations, radio stations, newspapers and magazines quickly took action, not only reporting on the deeds of Bai Fengshou in a large way, but also reporting on the grand occasion of mourning, as well as various commemorative articles and the study and experience of cadres at all levels.
In order to cooperate with the publicity, especially to create momentum, the place of mourning was moved from Bai Fengshou's house to the small hall of the provincial party committee, and the public mourning time was opened. The organized commemoration activities aroused public attention and enthusiasm, and many people spontaneously came to mourn. Although many people don't know who Bai Fengshou is, they can see Bai Fengshou's deeds and the fact that he died in the line of duty while sick, and feel sorry that he should come to send this good man. In addition to propaganda and guidance, the people's hatred of corrupt officials is also expressed through the mourning of Bai Fengfeng.
At the entrance of the small hall of the provincial party committee, the black banner of "mourning Comrade Bai Fengshou" hangs high and eye-catching, on both sides is the elegiac couplet written by Qi Tianxiang, the upper link is "chivalrous and righteous and loyal to the public, the noble and heroic victory of Langui", the lower link is "soft bone warmth and ambition pure bright festival fashion Ao Meisong", the entrance is full of wreaths and flower baskets on both sides of the entrance, and the couplet is stacked layer upon layer, which looks solemn and solemn.
At eight o'clock in the morning, Zhao Haonan, secretary of the provincial party committee, Lin Dongsheng, governor of the province, Zheng Ming, deputy secretary of the provincial party committee and the provincial government, and other leaders of the provincial party committee and the provincial government were all present. The central government and important news media in Ho Hai Province have dispatched a large number of experienced reporters, and the television media have even driven their OB trucks to the entrance of the auditorium of the provincial party committee, and traffic control has been implemented on the road in front of the small hall, and traffic police have come early to divert traffic.
In addition to the annual National People's Congress and the Chinese People's Political Consultative Conference (CPPCC), there are very few such people and vehicles concentrated, and the provincial party committee has regulations many years ago, even during the two sessions, traffic control is not implemented, and it is not allowed to restrict traffic and disturb the people, but such mourning activities, because it is really difficult to assess the number of people and vehicles, in order to prevent emergencies, although the Hezhou City Public Security Bureau has prepared several plans, but still for the sake of caution, the implementation of temporary traffic control.
In fact, this kind of control is still prescient, at six o'clock in the morning, before dawn, there are masses and social vehicles slowly gathered, to close to eight o'clock, many people have gathered in front of the hall, once formed a blockage, or open the door of the small hall in advance, let the masses enter the venue in advance to ease the state of congestion, so that the convoy of the provincial leaders can smoothly enter the parking lot of the small hall, and the leaders can enter the auditorium decently.
Although the news media carried out a large number of reports, there were still many citizens who hoped to go to the scene in person, feel the atmosphere of the scene, express their sorrow and feelings, and this also gave the news report more room to play. Although there were a lot of people, it was orderly, and the entry and order were calm and orderly, which was also unexpected by many people.
The memorial service was presided over by Wang Tao, Secretary-General of the Provincial Party Committee, and Governor Lin Dongsheng delivered a eulogy, speaking highly of Comrade Bai Fengshou's achievements and contributions in his life, and giving positive affirmation to Bai Fengshou's work and behavior over the years. The eulogy is not long, but it is full of sincere feelings, as well as nostalgia and condolences.
At the end of the memorial service, in the low sound of mourning music, everyone who participated in the memorial service said their final goodbye to Bai Fengshou. One by one, heavyweights walked by, slowly around the crystal coffin of Bai Fengshou lying in the flowers and cypresses, bowed, looked at it, and then walked to the relatives on the side, shook hands and condolences, expressed concern and greetings, and the family members bowed and thanked them one by one, the procedure was orderly and orderly.
Regardless of everyone's opposition, Qi Tianxiang stood in the queue of Bai Fengshou's relatives with Yan Li and Liang Liang to express his gratitude to all the guests.
For his choice, Qi Tianxiang understands very well what it means, after so many years of communication and exchange, he has long regarded Bai Fengshou as a relative, just like the banner he wrote by himself, "Teacher and friend Bai Fengshou go all the way" said, he has long regarded Bai Fengshou as a teacher and recognized him as a friend, not only just like the big brother respect, but also more grateful for his guidance and help in key links and critical times, to be able to send Lao Bai a ride as a relative, not only can you get comfort, but also comfort the spirit of the big brother in the sky.
This is a decision that Qi Tianxiang thought about in the funeral home, sitting silently next to Bai Fengshou's body, and it will not be changed easily, this is not to get the gratitude of Bai Fengshou's son, nor is it to make the thin queue of Bai Fengshou's relatives appear full, he is not so utilitarian, nor is he so shallow. Of course, Qi Tianxiang also knew what shock his actions would bring to the memorial service, and he also knew that many people were not badly and benignly ridiculed, as well as the impact on his own image, but he didn't want to care too much, and it was the biggest purpose to make Lao Bai feel relieved.
Such a resolute attitude regardless of it, but unexpectedly brought a good impact on Qi Tianxiang, first of all, Bai Fengshou's relatives, deeply moved and excited, the younger sister in his hometown and the son who came back from abroad were originally with emotions and anger, and the retired brother or father died inexplicably in the line of duty, and it was a foreign land thousands of miles away, which made it difficult for them to accept it anyway, and they had to ask for a clear explanation for this. But since seeing Qi Tianxiang, they have dispelled the idea of making trouble, because Qi Tianxiang's haggard and irrepressible grief are no less than their relatives, and there is no contrived component, sincere communication and listening, and it is completely from the position of the family, and later I listened to the staff's narration, only to know that in the past few days, Qi Tianxiang has not left the scene, has not returned home, and has not even eaten a good meal, as long as there is time every day, he is with Bai Fengshou. What his relatives can't do, Qi Tianxiang is not only doing it willingly, but no one's persuasion is useless. What I heard and saw softened the emotions of the relatives, and gradually regarded Qi Tianxiang as the backbone, forming a whole, and also clearing some obstacles to the smooth progress of the funeral.
In addition to the understanding and touching of the relatives, Qi Tianxiang's actions also caused a great sensation in the officialdom of Hehai, although there are doubts and doubts, but there are more voices of appreciation and affirmation, and even Zhao Haonan heard that the evaluation was more direct: "A leading cadre, who treats his subordinates as relatives, is willing to surrender his identity to wear linen and filial piety for the deceased, even if it is not to wear linen and filial piety, but this kind of behavior itself is an attitude. Isn't this our party's traditional magic weapon for rallying the people's hearts? ”
Such a statement spread, and immediately spread throughout the officialdom of Hehai, and also became a representative of the mainstream voice, and gradually became the label of Qi Tianxiang's simplicity and pro-people, and also became a topic and hot spot of news and publicity.
Zhao Haonan not only expressed his position like this, but also held Qi Tianxiang's hand tightly in the condolence stage after the memorial service, although there was no too much verbal encouragement, but the affirmation and appreciation transmitted in the palm of his hand were clearly perceived by Qi Tianxiang, and Lin Dongsheng's encouragement came more directly, not only shaking hands tightly, but also speaking more clearly: "Your brother is a real person." "Zheng Ming's feelings are even more charming;" After a few busy days, take a good rest, I am tired and out of shape. ”
Although it is difficult to distinguish between the true and the false, it is difficult to hide the feeling of envy and appreciation.
Yan Bonian walked steadily, and shook hands with Qi Tianxiang without politeness, but left Qi Tianxiang with deep concern and concern, revealing a strong love in his eyes, which came from the worries of the elders were subtle and heavy.
With the surging flow of people, a familiar face came into Qi Tianxiang's eyes, the arrogant look, the big grin, and the conceit in his eyes made Qi Tianxiang feel a sense of hatred in his bones, as if he would vomit after one more look.
"I deeply mourn the death of Comrade Bai Fengshou and am willing to do my best to make amends, please accept my heartfelt greetings." Tian Weiren's voice was humble, but his demeanor was arrogant and full of pity.
Qi Tianxiang coldly withdrew Tian Weiren's tightly held hand, and muttered contemptuously to signal behind Tian Weiren, there was a long queue, waiting for condolences and leaving. Tian Weiren bowed slightly to Qi Tianxiang with interest, slowly continued to hold his hand, and left with a big grin.
Qi Tianxiang glanced at Tian Weiren's back, and the unbearable disgust made him clench his teeth with hatred, and it seemed that he couldn't bear it anymore. When I saw Tian Weiren, I thought of Bai Fengshou, his sick body and difficult steps, and his unfinished regrets. Try your best to tell him that there is no inevitable connection between this, and it is not necessary cause and effect, it will take time to solve the matter, you need to continue to endure, and you need to work hard to finish Lao Bai's unfinished business, only in this way can you comfort Lao Bai's spirit in the sky, and it seems that Lao Bai is looking at himself with a smile in the sky, waiting for their news. For this reason, Qi Tianxiang secretly made up his mind, and secretly mustered up his strength.
At the end of the memorial service, Qi Tianxiang accompanied his relatives and comrades of the funeral committee to solemnly escort Bai Fengshou's coffin to the funeral home, and finally expressed his condolences and sent Bai Fengshou to heaven.
After all this, sending away Bai Fengshou's sister and son's family, Qi Tianxiang's heart was completely empty, and after doing everything, it seemed that he was done with everything.
At that moment, as if there was some sense, Qi Tianxiang, who was empty, was discouraged, a few days of hard work, and great grief and sorrow, and pressed Qi Tianxiang at the same time, his eyes couldn't help but darken, and his body fell down softly like a mountain.
In an instant, Qi Tianxiang felt that he was truly relaxed!
When Qi Tianxiang opened his eyes again, he found himself lying in the emergency room of the hospital, in a quiet space, only the heart monitor was beating non-stop, everything was so quiet, so quiet.
Qi Tianxiang seemed to have slept for a long time, slowly stretching his muscles and bones, although his body was still sleepy and weak, he obviously felt that his energy was slowly recovering in his body, and he always felt a force supporting him, and returned to the abundant old days.
"You're finally awake, but you're scaring us to death." Jing Qian's surprise came directly and so straightforwardly, "Wait a minute, I'll call Sister Yan in." Jing Qian's expression was eager, and some incoherent, obviously due to the rapid transition from anxiety to surprise.
Soon Yan Li and her son Liangliang walked quickly to the intensive care unit, although they were all dressed in sterile clothes, masks and hats, they still couldn't hide their concerned eyes, "Tianxiang, have you woken up, what's wrong?" What's wrong? You want to have three long and two short, what can we do with the two of us? As she spoke, Yan Li swallowed, and despite her best efforts to control it, tears rolled down like beads of broken threads.
"I'm sorry to worry you, I'm just too tired, really tired." Qi Tianxiang said slowly apologetically, wanting to smile easily, but he still grinned a little hard, and could only clench the small hand in his palm, conveying strength and gratitude.
"Daddy, get better! Mom is going to be worried about death, grandpa and grandma have come over several times, but we have blocked them, and if you don't wake up, we don't know how to deal with it, and we don't know whether to tell grandpa and grandma. Liangliang's anxiety seemed to be no less than Yan Li's, and even a little chaotic, after all, such a thing had never been experienced at his age, and he was not mentally prepared.
Through Liangliang's narration, Qi Tianxiang roughly knew what happened after he fell ill, and also knew the shock caused by his sudden illness, so he could only look at his son, as if to him, and also to Yan Li: "It's really not that serious, just rest for a day or two." ”
"It's good to rest for a day or two, your brother's imagination is too simple!" No one knew when Jing Zhenlin walked in, took Qi Tianxiang's words, and said with a little majesty: "The reason for such a sudden fainting is very complicated, although I can't see anything now, but it does not rule out a variety of triggers. ”
"Lao Jing, my old classmate, can you spare me?" Qi Tianxiang looked at Jing Zhenlin, his eyes were full of dissatisfaction, although his tone was gentle, with a lot of ridicule, there were still a lot of subtext.
"I just can't spare you, that is, I want to scare and scare you." Jing Zhenlin suddenly realized Yan Li and Liangliang's worried expressions, and immediately understood the meaning of Qi Tianxiang's words, and said with a smile: "It is to make you suffer some hardships, otherwise you will work hard, how can you not rest well for a few days and nights, not to mention you Qi Tianxiang, the iron man can't stand it." As he spoke, he said to Yan Li: "He is tired, coupled with the accumulation of fire in his heart, he has such symptoms, there is nothing serious, rest for a few days to recover, and he can be discharged from the hospital." ”
"That's good, that's good, thank you Dean Jing, and Sister Jing Qian, it's been so hard for you for more than a day." Yan Li burst into tears and laughed, although she was a little reluctant, she still thanked her sincerely, turned her face and said to Liangliang again: "You go out, hurry up and tell Grandpa, Grandma, and Uncle Xiao Zhang, who is waiting outside, let him tell everyone who cares, don't worry too much." ”
Liang Liang obediently walked out of the intensive care unit and went outside to make a call, Qi Tianxiang asked Yan Li to shake the hospital bed a little, and said to Jing Zhenlin on his back: "You still hurry up and let me get out of here, I don't know what to say and talk about this toss?" ”
"Okay, I'll arrange for you to do a full examination right away, and if you allow, you can go to the ward soon to recuperate." Jing Zhenlin thought for a while and emphasized: "Even if you go to the ward, it is impossible to see too many people and do too much work, so you still have to focus on recuperation." ”
"As long as you can leave here, you can go anywhere, it's all up to your dean." At that moment, Qi Tianxiang smiled meaningfully as if he suddenly remembered something.
At the same time, Qi Tianxiang also seemed to see Bai Fengshou's subtle smile, as well as the figure of the smile gradually drifting away, he knew that the big brother was satisfied with the departure, he used this way to draw a successful end to the intersection between the two, the big brother should be satisfied.
Facing Yan Li, Jing Zhenlin, and Jing Qian's puzzled eyes, Qi Tianxiang smiled very happily, and even had the innocence of a child, but it was difficult to speak.
In an instant, Qi Tianxiang felt that he was already well.