said that he was tired and wanted to rest, but in fact, Yahan didn't sleep on the whole road, sitting there lazily watching Jiaming drive, and didn't know what he was thinking.

The rain was heavy, and the sky outside was gloomy, but it also washed the world thoroughly, so that everything became clear in this heavy rain, some neighborhoods lit up with street lamps, the light was shining, the cars that drove by turned on the headlights, the flower beds and trees on the roadside were all verdant, and before long, the familiar scenery came into view.

The Sacred Heart College is in the summer vacation at this time, everything is cold and deserted in the heavy rain, the road and residential area surround the whole school, and the main entrance square of the Sacred Heart College is separated on both sides, one side goes to the small building where Jiaming, Lingjing, and Shasha live together, and the other side goes to the villa where she lived in the Sacred Heart, and the two sides are not far apart. When Jiaming was in high school, the four of them often moved around, and then Jiaming had a relationship with her, and then Lingjing and Shasha left, and the two lived in the villa, Jiaming went back to do the final cleaning of Xiaolou, and she also went over to help, and the scenery now looks like that year.

Once at the Sacred Heart, there was not much left to do, and when we arrived at the villa, the house still looked the same as before, with the rain washing away the exterior walls. When the door was opened, the key in Yahan's hand was not aligned with the keyhole several times. When the door opens, everything covered in white comes into view.

"Mom said this is where Taotao was born." The little girl looked curiously at everything in the room, and then hopped in front of her, where she had not been very often. If the time is a little earlier, I have forgotten about coming, although no one lives. But there is not much dust on the floor, and all the furnishings are still the same as they were a few years ago.

"Come and clean every six months......"

Yahan pulled out the white cloth covering the sofa floor and spoke softly, Jiaming also used to talk about these things and opened them again, Taotao occasionally went over to help, occasionally sat on the sofa, and rolled a few times. Upstairs and downstairs, ask, "Mom, in which room did I give birth?" Something like that.

“…… That year, I was pregnant with Taotao, and I fell out with my family, so I invited an aunt to come and take care of me...... It's okay to be pregnant with Taotao for a few months. I didn't vomit too much...... It's just that I always kick my ......" Speaking of the pregnancy, Yahan showed a gentle smile on her face, "I didn't cause anything to be pregnant in October, but I was born half a month earlier than the due date, and this child ...... That afternoon, I suddenly felt that I was going to give birth, so I called the doctor, and when the doctor came, he simply delivered the baby in a clean room prepared here. Because of the fast birth, two hours later, Taotao came out and cried so loudly......"

While cleaning up, Yahan said this. Taotao listened with wide eyes. This kind of thing is fast, more than ten minutes. Up and down had already returned to their original appearance, and Yahan took a lot of pillows. Putting on the pillowcase on the sofa in the living room, Taotao sat in the soft pillow pile and whispered to the big white bear, she naturally has no shortage of dolls, but I think Yahan or others will not give her this kind of toy that is two or three times larger than her, which is quite novel for a while. Jiaming went to the commissary outside to buy a few packs for easy return, boiled boiling water in an electric kettle and ate them, and put two ham sausages in it.

"I didn't eat at noon, make do with it."

Xiao Taotao looked at him with bright eyes on the other side.

Instant noodles are not a precious thing, but under Yahan's care, Taotao has grown so big, and naturally there is no chance to eat this junk food. Yahan couldn't help but smile when she looked at her daughter's gaze, and then brewed a bowl for Taotao, and in the steaming heat, the little girl held the big bowl and gulped down the noodles she had eaten for the first time.

After eating a small half bowl of instant noodles, Taotao talked with Bai Xiong on the sofa for a while, and fell asleep. She was bored for a long time this morning in order to accommodate her mother, and although she arrived in a new place, she couldn't find anything to play after all, and after she was full, she took sleeping with the white bear as a pastime. When Yahan went to the inner room with the sleeping little girl, Jiaming finished eating the remaining noodles from Taotao and went to the kitchen to wash the dishes. The room was quiet, there was Yahan's small singing voice coaxing her daughter to sleep, her footsteps were slight, and after a while, the familiar woman was close to his back, her hands went around her chest, and hugged him. The atmosphere became quieter, neither of them spoke, Jiaming slowly put the porcelain bowl back in the cupboard, and Yahan held his two hands back, allowing him to hug her.

"Your hands are still wet......

"I don't care ......," the voice was as soft as in a dream.

"Huh."

Jiaming smiled, wiped the water stains on his hands with a new towel, and then turned around, reached down his knees and picked her up, although he went to the sofa and let her lie on his lap, the winter four years ago, every night, they were often like this, Ya covered the blanket, hugged the pillow and talked to him, always unwilling to go to bed early. Jia Ming hugged her, and after a while, he spoke: "In the past few years...... It's been a hard time, isn't it? ”

"If you have Taotao, you won't be bitter." Yahan took a pillow in her arms and curled up gently beside his lap.

"I'm ...... thinner than before"

"I often go to exercise." Yahan looked up at him, "Remember how heavy I am?" ”

"Remember you're sturdy here."

Fingers passed through the hem of the shirt, gently pressing the skin of her upper abdomen, the first skin contact four years ago, there was like a fire burning between the fingers, Yahan's body trembled, closed her eyes, and then opened it, and one hand was gently attached to the back of Jia Ming's hand: "I have already given birth to a child, where is there still the same as before." ”

"Taotao was taught well by you."

"I used to think that this life was for her...... she was silent for a moment, "just like the song you used to sing to me, I hope to grow up with her all the time, watch her finally get married, live happily, and want to live longer." Give her the best of everything, maybe...... You can still be seen in her. Before the illness is cured, I will do maintenance more regularly than before. I can't be willful, and I can't cry in front of Taotao, sometimes I go to your grave and cry for an afternoon......"

Her eyes were tightly closed, and she pressed Jiaming's hand on her lower abdomen, and it took a long time before she whispered: "The night you left...... I know...... Crying on the balcony watching you walk ......"

"I understand ......"

"I've been so tired in the past four years, Jiaming ......"

"I understand...... It's all right......"

A soft whisper, a gentle comfort. Yahan recalled all these things, and talked in Jia Ming's arms, as if he wanted to tell everything about the past four years.

“…… After you left, I didn't dare to tell anyone about the pregnancy, so I resigned from the Sacred Heart Academy. I can only live here, and my family doesn't dare to go back......"

“…… After my father found out about the pregnancy, he forced me to beat Taotao, but I still thought about being strong, and I almost died to show him......"

“…… Taotao was angry, and after seeing her, my father didn't have anything to say, so he asked me to go back. Forcing me to tell me who you are......"

"Taotao Qizhi ...... early"

"Then I went to work in the company......

"Taotao is always my shield......"

"Get up every morning, sing to her, and learn to talk to ......"

"A lot of messy things, but every time I see Taotao, I feel that everything is worth ......"

It was close to five o'clock. In a faint murmur. Yahan finally fell asleep as well, and Jiaming looked at the sky outside. hugged Yahan for a long time, and finally carried her to the room next to the master bedroom. Let her lie down on the bed and cover her with a thin blanket. He sat on the edge of the bed and watched the woman sleep, then got up and left.

When she came to the master bedroom, Taotao also took one of the white bear's hands and slept soundly, and the little girl's sleeping position was very quiet, which was like a mother. This is his daughter, Yahan and his daughter, thinking of this, he has a rather unfamiliar emotion in his heart, and he feels a little unrealistic.

In any case, he didn't think about what would happen to him after he became a father, and the reunion with Yahandi was what he expected, but this daughter, even though he had known about her existence before, still felt a little at a loss when they met.

It's a little troublesome for small people and children. It's not that kind of caring person, Jia Ming, who used to be more annoying to children, thought about it and pulled the quilt for his daughter. This is a brand new person, like a blank sheet of paper, you are responsible for her future, there is no pattern to follow, there is no chance to repeat, all kinds of past experience are useless in front of you, and you have to ensure that she can be happy - he doesn't like this feeling, it is foreseeable that the future will become extremely troublesome, he is not the material to be a teacher, the last student who put him in charge of Kaoru can only be said to be a half-finished product, and the prospect he once expected, it is really very different.

"No way, this kind of thing ......," he thought, and finally sighed and muttered to himself, "There is a difficulty to go, there is no difficulty...... Creating difficulties must also be carried out...... "This is the result of sowing seeds......

I didn't want to disturb Taotao's continued sleep, and I didn't want to worry about this anymore, Jiaming walked out of the room and began to sort out some daily things, although sofas, beds, cabinets, electrical appliances and other things can be used by lifting a white cloth, but many things, after all, are still unusable at this time. Toilets, bathrooms, garages...... After walking around the place, about half an hour later, when he came to the storage room on the second floor with a few things, he suddenly noticed that there seemed to be some slight movement in the room where Yahan was resting at this time.

Gently pushed open the door, only to see that on the big bed, Yahan's body was moving restlessly, his eyebrows were frowning, and he didn't know what nightmare he had, and his originally neat hair was messy on the pillow at this time. He glanced twice, ready to put his things back in the storage room and come down to take a look. The things were just put away, and suddenly Yahan shouted below: "Jiaming!" ”

Walking quickly to the staircase, what she saw in her eyes was the scene of Yahan suddenly rushing out of the room, the sound of opening the door was very loud, she looked anxious, her face was covered with beads of sweat, she glanced left and right, obviously swept over the top of the stairs, but she didn't seem to see Jia Ming standing there at all, she stood breathlessly for a few seconds, she opened the doors of the rooms downstairs, her eyes swept out the window a little blankly, and then ran to the door of the villa.

Jia Ming was stunned there, he could almost clearly hear the murmuring and shouting in Yahan's mouth, it was all his own name, he was standing in front of her, but she couldn't see herself, just crying like that, while looking in the room, pushing open the door and running a few steps, about to enter the rain curtain before stopping, she cried in the rain looking for the figure she wanted to see, and after a while, she ran back again, ran towards the stairs, probably going upstairs, until she went up two steps, she suddenly stood there, looking at him above the stairs.

Jiaming suddenly understood that on the snowy night she left four years ago, when she left in a state of headache to nightmarishness, what happened in the room may be everything in front of her, she then went to the balcony and watched the scene of her leaving in the snow, she could only cry, but she couldn't catch up. Today, from the meeting to the later narration, she was trying to calm down and suppress her mood, and in the dream at this time, everything finally broke out.

After four years, she stood at the top of the stairs, her eyes finally separated the past from reality, she saw the figure above, with tears and beads of sweat on her face, reaching out and grabbing the placket on her chest, for a moment, the face full of tears struggled out of a smile, this relieved smile finally collapsed in the deepening grievances and palpitations. She knelt down on the stairs and cried out with a "...... ha", but this time, she couldn't hold it back any longer.

Slowly, Jiaming hugged her.

"It's okay, I'm back, it's okay, it's okay......"

"Don't leave me again......"

A sad cry that went straight to the soul.