Chapter 383: I've Decided
was hugged by Li Yan like this, the two and three people were not far apart, almost everyone's heads were leaning together, so he kissed left and right, which really made Zhang Yurong and Yueyao very embarrassed and ashamed.
Yue Yao's words would not resist, even if he almost forced something on the balcony that day, she did not resist. It's just that in front of Zhang Yurong, she is very ashamed, and she feels like she has no face.
And Zhang Yurong's words are even more annoyed! Although she no longer rejects Yueyao psychologically and can accept her, but it's just that everyone is together, even if they really have something, they have to come step by step, or not in front of her, don't let her see it in person. What is this now? Hearing that the two daughters served a husband together, he really thought he was an uncle! It's a little too much, isn't it?
One wanted to be ashamed, the other was annoyed, and they both wanted to leave, but they were hugged tightly by Li Yan.
"I'm sorry..."Li Yan became a little more serious after deliberately frivolous. I feel so blessed and grateful to have been treated like this. Yueyao has been with me for many years, although we have not faced it, but the accumulated feelings needless to say. And Yu Rong, although we are united because of the relationship between the previous generation, but one day husband and wife hundred days, we have been for more than a year, so we should have a hundred years of kindness....."
Hearing his appearance, the two of them slowly calmed down a little, and did not break free anymore, waiting to hear him continue.
"Although I hide a lot of my anger from you, you all know about it. All this time, I didn't take feelings seriously because I left the normal society of people in high school and lived an inhuman life for a few years. Later, I have been living in an alternative world...... So, for women, I've always just faced it with physical needs. Never moved, never emotional...... One is because I don't know much about it, and the other is because I'm insecure! Ha ha. Although I have a very strong self-confidence when it comes to killing, it is often me who gives others a crisis. But I'm actually an insecure person. Because I've seen too many dead people...... In such a peaceful era, even if there are still wars in some areas, the number of dead boats is limited, not every battlefield soldier, military and civilian has seen the dead with their own eyes, and the most seen may not be as many as me!
Those people didn't necessarily die because of me, but they were all people I watched. Including myself, I have experienced many lives and deaths. Therefore, I know better than anyone that human life is very fragile, and it may be lost at once. So I didn't let Yueyao carry out tasks on the front line, so I myself have been living a life of drunken dreams and death.
If you are emotional, you will have concerns. There will be fear.
A woman who cares about herself, afraid that she will be hurt if she dies...... And this will become a weakness and flaw for the killer! It doesn't have to be a death, an injury, a problem, or that she knows her identity..... These are my concerns.
So, in fact, before I met you, I actually had nearly two years of rest, just like ordinary people living in the city, doing a lot of trivial work, and meeting many women, but I never moved my heart, and I didn't let them be tempted, and I immediately changed the environment if there was any sign. Because of this, friends who know my situation think that I am only with Yueyao, which is the most suitable and suitable. ”
Hearing Li Yan's outspokenness, Yu Rong and Yueyao had different expressions.
"However, sometimes if you are too familiar, you may not be able to ignite a spark so easily. I have known Yueyao for many years, when I first took her in, she was just a teenage girl, I taught her hand-in-hand, and grew up with her, over the years, she is not an ordinary woman in my heart, not just a subordinate, a partner, but contains a feeling of relatives similar to my sister.
So I didn't think about developing a relationship with her before, and I laughed at everyone's jokes.
Throughout last year, a lot has happened. First of all, we got married, although it was only in name, in fact we did not become husband and wife, but in my heart, there is also a responsibility and obligation, in the issue of men and women, I have been unfaithful to you, but in terms of protecting you and taking care of you, I have never changed. Some of my situation you know, some you don't, but basically this is what it looks like:
I met Wen Qianyi in the company, and when others despised me as a mixed eater, she chose to be my partner, and taught me all the way and made me motivated. It was natural that she was also someone who wouldn't make anyone feel annoying, so she quickly became good friends.
Huang Ying has known me for a longer time, and she is also a person who looks at me equally, and she will have more intersections, starting from her mother's serious illness, she can't think of a way to raise money, I can be regarded as helping her, enlightening her, hyping her story on the Internet, and then in this name, I secretly found another friend to help her solve the problem. But life is still very difficult for her, and at that time, I learned about the people who wanted to help her from the Internet, and some of them proposed to marry her and bear the burden with her after meeting her.
In the face of strangers, she asked for my opinion, and I wanted to help her, but she thought that I was also an ordinary income person, and she didn't want to bother me, and she wouldn't be able to pay back in a few years. In order for her to accept my help, I had to be a bad guy who took advantage of the fire to rob, and said that I would help her in the form of support, so that she could be my girlfriend while receiving help. Although she was humiliated, she still agreed......"
"Shameless!" Zhang Yurong couldn't help but scold, this guy was clearly using a little money to play with the poor and pure girl. Thinking that Huang Ying was still a member of her own company at that time, T. She didn't know if she didn't help, and let her husband occupy the support, she screwed Li Yan again!
"Listen to me., Li Yan smiled bitterly: "She is a principled person, if she can't give anything, she won't ask for other people's gifts in vain, especially when she thinks that I am doing everything to help her, maybe it is to pay my wife." And she has to choose to marry a stranger, so she believes me a little more.
Of course, I didn't mean to play with her, I just wanted her to accept it first. Settle down, and then slowly help her, so that she is confident and self-reliant, and when she can make a lot of money by herself, she naturally does not need to rely on men to support her. At that time, the only thing I asked her in return was to let her cook a meal or something. And didn't force her to go to bed. ”
When Yu Rong heard this, she felt a little better, "Then you arranged for her to leave the company?" ”
"Hmm. After she was adopted by me - nominally, she was temporarily relieved about the financial burden, and then began to study accounting or something. She's a clerk and wants to get ahead in heaven. It's too difficult, it's different now, and a special case like Haifu's may not succeed now.
Besides, how can my president's wife selflessly cultivate me outside. Parenting, the second mother? So then I suggested that she go to Jierui. Her work has been affirmed and her development has been greater, which has better for her self-confidence and prospects.
Jierui is Li Jie's security company, she is a female bodyguard, and she met when she was protecting Yu Xiaodi. You all know about Yu Xiaodi. My friendship with her deepened (indeed "Jiao, Jiao. Deep, ah), it was on a mission when I was out of town. Jierui's bodyguards were also involved in that mission, and because they realized the danger, Li Jie and her father joined the protection ranks.
Afterward... Anyway, the whole process is thrilling. Including a lot of people who died. After experiencing that time together, the relationship between us is different. However, she didn't know that I was actually a killer, and thought I was a high-level bodyguard.
And then there's Haifu, you've all met, and I'm sure you basically know what happened. And then there is Qiao Huanxuan, when she and Wen Qianyi came back from a business trip to Japan, they met unexpectedly at the airport.
At that time, they had a class reunion, bringing together middle school classmates from several cities in this vicinity, and it happened that Qiao Huanxuan was going to come to City C on a business trip, so they set a time and waited for her to be together. I didn't expect them to recognize me, and then I still had contact with her.., that's basically the case, Matsushima Aoi and Shinohara, the two of them were not exposed, and they were not affected by the distance. and Nian Yufei, who did not involve men and women, of course Li Yan would not take it out for analysis.
This is the first positive explanation after they understand, and it is relatively simple and reasonable, which is also an analysis of his path.
From what he said, whether it was Yueyao or Zhang Yurong, they all listened calmly, and they basically understood one situation, that is, Li Yan has actually been very passive!
Judging from the few relationships he is talking about now, Zhang Yurong is because of marriage; Yu Xiaodi is her initiative; Haifu is born from a one-night stand; Li Jie has experienced life and death together; Huang Ying is a kind help; Qiao Ranxuan has been waiting for him for many years. It is only normal to be with Wen Qianyi, and the opposite sex attracts sparks!
"What's the matter? Are you showing off? Showmanship? Zhang Yurong snorted coldly.
Li Yan smiled bitterly: "Please, how can I show off and show off?" I was just.. Confess to your wife, leniently. The other also wants you to know that although I am a prodigal son and a split-legged embryo in your eyes, in fact, in essence, I am an innocent young man who does not understand emotions......"
"Phew! You're still an innocent boy, do you want to be shameless? "Yu Rong is angry and funny." Belch. A mature man on the body, a young man on the feeling. Li Yan said shyly, "Seriously, if it weren't for Yueyao coming to help us match and help me chase you, I might not even know how to pursue it." I don't know what you women are thinking...... Otherwise, you wouldn't have done the stupid thing of bringing Xiaodi back directly at home. And in the same way, it was also because I was caught between us and had to pretend to be unfamiliar with the polite appearance that I realized that Yueyao was also a very good girl of the opposite sex who had always been by my side. She is not only the person who helps me with the work and helps me deal with everything, nor is she just a loved one who needs my cover, my sister, and a girl who needs love....."
When he said this, Li Yan leaned back on the sofa and pulled both of them against his chest.
This time, Yu Rong and Yue Yao did not break free, but leaned in front of him along his hand.
These words are his confession and introspection, and the two of them are also good concubines.
Yu Rong and Yueyao are not easy to say in their hearts: Even you can say that you are inexperienced pure young men, so aren't we even more emotionless and inexperienced pure girls? That's also numb, fresh, and literary, right?
At such a moment, the three of them vaguely thought of the same concept: life passes quickly, time rushes by, and if you don't grasp some things, the years will pass like this!
Zhang Yurong never thought that she would be like this, whether it was her dream when she was young, or the selection of qualifications when she became an adult, she felt that love should be sacred, the matter of two people, and marriage is the sublimation of this love. It's a pity that she never wanted to enjoy this kind of dreamy happy love, so she stepped directly into marriage. I finally accepted this man. When it becomes more and more difficult to separate. only to find out that he had other women outside, even more than one person...... From the beginning, she knew about Yu Xiaodi's existence, which made her very unbearable; to slowly accept the presence of Yu Xiaodi. Qiao Huanxuan's existence; to Haifu to give her a huge impact, to the point that everyone accepted it almost in disguise; and now willing to share it with Yueyao...... She found that her view of love had become unrecognizable! She didn't know why she was the way she was. But one thing is certain, that is, it has been correcting according to reality, and it is undoubtedly Li Yan who occupies the dominant position.
Do you really want to share it with Yueyao?
With himself and Yueyao, will he be able to take his heart? Can he give up the flowers and plants outside?
If not, do you have to continue to retreat step by step after taking one step back?
What will it look like then? With seven or eight women?
Do you have to take turns when you meet? What will the world think? Is there still dignity?
These questions have been tormenting her in Yu Rong's mind.
It's just that now she has had a great impact and change in her concept, and she is not a one-sided tendency.
If you don't want to go down this path, it's another way: divorce him and break up! Long pain is better than short pain, early death and early superbirth.
In this way, this torturous problem is his business and theirs, and there is no need to worry about it anymore.
But..... Will that really solve the problem?
Even if you divorce him, even if you haven't made it public, it won't have much impact. But can there be no trace in your heart? Since you have to accept the pressure of the world's eyes, others will look at it differently if you don't get married. That is to say, sooner or later, I will have to find another man, fall in love and get married.
So today's men, age matching, are there any people who have never been in love at all? Even if you haven't been married and have had multiple girlfriends, it's common, right? At the same time, it is possible to remain ambiguous, or confidante or something. So what's the difference with Li Yan? Maybe they will draw a line with others, but what about the heart? Can you guarantee that you don't cheat psychologically and don't want other women? If you're disappointed, find another one. In this way, in the eyes of others, he has become himself with multiple relationships and men!
Besides, since I met and married Li Yan, at least a few months to half a year, the relationship has only improved little by little, if I drag on with other men, whether it is my own acquaintance or blind date introduction, it will take so long to transition, right?
Thinking of this process made Yu Rong, who was already a person who had come over, feel uneasy, if it weren't for Yueyao coming over, she and Li Yan would still be living as uncomfortable as before, and she didn't want to start all over again.
And if she doesn't understand it carefully from the beginning, she casually agrees to a flash marriage with a hot person, and she herself can't accept it, and she can't guarantee what the situation will be in the future.
Therefore, after thinking about it, she still felt that instead of spending time and energy tossing from scratch, it was better to use this and Li Yan's flowers and plants to toss! At least Li Yan's parents like him, his parents are good to him, and he is also very good to himself in other aspects, and he is also a filial man.
Since she decided to compete with other women, and Yueyao is a shared alliance, Yu Rong let out and made a bold decision!
"I've decided!" She said suddenly.
"What has been decided?" Li Yan patted her on the shoulder, and there was silence for a while. There was no embarrassment in the cold, but it made him very enjoyable and rare warmth.
Although Yue Yao didn't say anything, she also paid attention to Yu Rong's words.
"Tonight, you live in Yueyao's room., "......!" ”
“......?!”
Back to the beginning of the decision..... Li Yan and Yue Yao were very surprised, it was said that Yu Rong was able to digest this information and accept Yue Yao, it was already a very difficult thing, how could she still say such a thing?
Test!
It must be a test!
Thinking of this, Li Yan smiled a little embarrassedly: "Yu Rong, Yue Yao and I, you both understand." If we really have that kind of thought, we don't have to wait until now, you don't have to test us with such words. ”
Yu Rong broke free of his arm, sat up, and then said seriously: "I'm not tempting, I'm not testing you. I'm serious! ”
"For... Why? Yueyao asked in a whisper.
"Yueyao, you know everything about us. Now it's just the three of us, and everyone has talked about this, and I'm not afraid of any embarrassment. He can sleep with several others, so why can't he sleep with you? Have you known him for less than they did? Do you have less affection for him than they do? Aren't you as pretty as they are? Either way, it's your turn! ”
Hearing Yu Rong's words, Yueyao blushed for a while.
Li Yan was even more secretly sweating, should this matter be taken care of? And how don't you "turn 1 ah ......" this... You don't have to go to bed, cough. Even if you go to bed, you don't have to be that or something. It doesn't have to be that, it doesn't matter where you sleep..."
Hearing Li Yan's words, Yu Rong snorted: "I really don't believe that you don't want Yueyao in your heart!" ”