Chapter 378: Twelve Springs

Li Yan habitually took out his cigarette. Of course, he was able to understand the story, not only could he understand it, but also after such a direct reminder, it evoked some memories for him.

Everyone will have years of youth and flying, and those will often become a very precious part of the memories in the future, Li Yan himself chose to forget, and now that he is mentioned by Qiao Huanxuan one by one, his heartstrings are also plucked, and he can't help but sigh a little.

After lighting a cigarette, he took a puff, and saw that Qiao Huanxuan was looking at him, and felt that he should say something, even if he was really listening to a story, he should applaud and scream after listening to it.

"Well, that girl is you, the squad leader inside, referring to me?"

"What do you say?" Qiao Huanxuan asked rhetorically, am I sitting here wasting saliva telling someone else's story?

"Yes......" Li Yan wanted to laugh and ease the atmosphere, but he felt that he couldn't laugh, and if he laughed, it would make people feel too child's play. This thing...... I don't remember very well, and I'm not good at storytelling. So you can't tell the story of the year from the perspective of another person, like you. But there are a few key points, I can affirm......"

"Go on. The first is the issue of crushes. I don't think so, but you were very good at the time, and I was also very good......" Li Yan was a little sweaty, why did this feel like a bit of self-selling and boasting? "Anyway, we should be regarded as sympathetic, at that time everyone was young, and there must be a crush on you and opposites attract, but at most it is a hazy emotion of adolescence, not a secret love. Otherwise, I would have been thrilled to see you again. ”

Although it was a discussion about the things of the year, it was a bit of that, Li Yan still paid attention to her reaction, and saw that she was nothing, so he continued: "Second, it's about other people making trouble for you. I don't think I know, and I didn't ask them to help chase away the other boys who came near you. But after all, it was because of me that it caused you a bad influence at the time, sorry. The third thing is about gifts, I should have regarded you as a good friend at that time, and I didn't mean anything else, so I gave you an ordinary music box. It's just that if you don't want it, I can't give it to others, right? Just threw it away. ”

Qiao Huanxuan was silent for a while, and then asked, "How do you know my birthday?" ”

Li Yan, who had just taken the time to take a puff of cigarette, was stunned after listening to it. It's been so many years, and he doesn't know how he knows. "Uh...... Can the class leader see everyone's information from the teacher? To be honest, I don't really remember. It's possible that you saw your profile from the teacher or something. It was probably told to me by other girls...... No, I remembered! ”

"Huh?" Qiao Huanxuan also asked a question just now, thinking about it carefully, it was not a secret at that time, and many channels could know it. "What do you remember?"

"When I graduated from junior high school, I thought I had written a list of my classmates. What kind of book, write personal information, write a few words of blessing or something. I should have seen it from above.,Wasn't it high school anymore.,I'm not the class president anymore.,I don't have so many opportunities to communicate with you.,Maybe there were suggestions from other classmates.,I bought it.。 I think it should be like this...... "For his past, he has to recall through analysis, Li Yan is really a little sweaty."

Qiao Huanxuan smiled faintly: "So that's the case...... It seems that everyone has been saying that the so-called squad leader has had a crush for many years...... It turned out to be a group misunderstanding of everyone, and some things at that time were also helped by everyone's kindness......"

It was supposed to be like this for a while...... Li Yan said secretly in his heart, but he had doubts again. If it's just rumored that I have a crush on her, after so many years, what does she have to worry about? Why is her reaction now...... Could she ......?

Thinking of a possibility, he didn't dare to say any more.

This year, it seems to be a peach blossom!

But the peach blossom luck is good, but too much peach blossom luck will become a peach blossom disaster.

It's a pity that he pretended not to think of it and continued to smoke, and after finishing this cigarette, he excused himself to leave. But Qiao Huanxuan still spoke: "The story just now, there is a sequel, do you want to hear it?" ”

Her words were a little floating, as if she had no strength. Maybe after what she just said, that is, after today, maybe she will never talk about it again!

Although Li Yan knew that it might not be good to listen to it, it was not good to choose not to listen at this time.

"Well, let's hear about it." He still softened his heart, not for the friendship of his classmates back then, or the friendship of his youth, but for the sake of more than ten years later, people still remember him, and he should listen to her.

At that time, he left, and many of the classmates who came up in the same class in junior high school knew about the birthday present. So, at that time, there was also a rumor that the squad leader was sad because he was rejected by the girl, and in the end he couldn't stand the blow of falling out of love, and it was a torture to look at the girl every day. So running away from home, uprooting ......"

Li Yan is a little dizzy, this is too, right? He was busy refuting the rumors - more than ten years late: "It's definitely not like this, they have wronged you!" ”

Qiao Huanxuan glanced at him and continued to tell the story, although she herself was the heroine of this story, she couldn't tell it in the first person, so she still used the third person: "Because of this kind of rumor, and the class leader has left, the classmates are no longer coaxing and disturbing her, and some people who didn't have a good impression of her directly alienated her." In fact...... The girl herself believed this rumor that the class leader had dropped out of school and ran away from home because of her. This made her blame herself very much for a while, if it wasn't for the return of the gift in a blow way, but with more rational communication, maybe there would not have been such a result.

Since then, she didn't care about the alienation of her classmates, and she didn't pay attention to the boys who wanted to get close to him in this version and other classes. Studying wholeheartedly, in her heart, there is only one wish, hoping that he can come back as soon as possible. She would tutor him to keep him up to speed. I'll talk to him about it too. Meet after the college entrance examination to discuss emotional matters.

It's a pity that until they finished the college entrance examination, the squad leader didn't come back. And she also inquired, some classmates went to the class leader's house, and only knew that he had occasional contact with the family, but did not tell the family where they were.

The results came out, and she was admitted to the ideal university as she wished. But she was not as happy as she expected, because the class president also had the strength to be admitted to a key university, and if he could shift his focus to his studies in high school, maybe they could work together in the same university. Pity. No ifs! Because it is a prestigious university, she receives awards from the school, gifts from relatives and friends, but when she goes to college, she only carries the music box that was returned, thrown out of the building, and broken, but asked her to find someone to fix it......"

Here comes the blood...... Hearing this, Li Yan secretly smiled bitterly, not knowing whether he was happy or sad. To be so cherished by a former female classmate is that a man will feel a little happy and proud, but it seems that it has affected her, and now he doesn't want to, and he can't make up for anything, so he is entangled.

"When she was in college, she studied architecture, and the ratio of men to women was exaggerated, and in school, she also had a lot of pursuits. But in her heart, she always had the music box in her heart, and she always remembered the scene when he threw the music box...... Until she graduated, she didn't have a boyfriend on the grounds that she was concentrating on her studies. At that time, she tried different online methods, and verified countless people who filled in the information on the Internet with the name of the squad leader, but there was no miracle, and she did not find the person who was said to be out of town on the Internet, but did not know where it was. ”

Hearing her say that she hadn't had a boyfriend in four years of college because of his relationship, Li Yan was a little surprised and a little nervous, worried that she said that she hadn't had a boyfriend until now, and the culprit was because of him, so he owed a love debt for no reason. But the latter paragraph shocked him!

A female college student, in addition to studying, when she went online, looked for a person named Li Yan through different ways, as long as the information was called Li Yan, she went to confirm and verify. What a boring thing it is, with little hope, and even the danger of being deceived! But she did, at least four years!

If He Zhexia's sincere attitude of not discriminating and not showing off just now moved him, then what reason could Qiao Huanxuan not feel shocked and moved when he said this?

Other classmates. Maybe only when we get together or contact each other, when we talk about Li Yan, will I think of this old class president who inexplicably dropped out of school, and it was just a casual conversation after dinner. Qiao Huanxuan didn't say it, and definitely didn't tell anyone about it, just looked for it silently in his own way.

Qiao Huanxuan smiled bitterly: "The miracle did not appear, and other students, including those who developed in their hometown, did not have any news from him. It is said that it is his family, and even the money received from him is a bank transfer, and he has no idea where the others are. Time passed year by year, and the girl was disappointed and thought about giving up, so she chose to study abroad. It's just that......

There are some things that have become obsessions, and it is not so easy to let go and give up. He wasn't in the city where she was studying, but he could be in any city, including maybe near where she was studying. Therefore, the girl's escape did not work, and when she went abroad, she still thought that maybe he had gone abroad to work, so it was difficult to have contact with the family......

Of course, she has grown up and matured and will not go abroad to do what she is looking for. It's just that she is used to waiting for news from the class leader, and she doesn't know why she is waiting. Because this is just a boy who may have had a crush on her back then, and after many years, he may have liked someone else, may have already had a girlfriend, and may even be married. She didn't know what kind of affection she had for the boy.

Maybe...... She just wanted an answer, and she wanted to meet him and ask him why. Perhaps, she has walked into a psychological shadow and a dead end by herself......

The story is this year, because of more hard work and hard work than ordinary people, the girl has made certain achievements in her career. No one knows that she has always had a music box story in her heart, a boy's secret. Over the years, she has never been to a reunion of her college classmates, and she has never been to a reunion of her high school classmates. There was only an opportunity for ordinary junior high school classmates back then, as long as she was contacted and notified, she would definitely rush over. for, I just want to see if I can hear the news of the squad leader from everyone's mouth.

Of course, it has never been. It's a little more in touch with the old classmates who were estranged in the past and are now mature and grown.

Hehe, the wheel of history came to the afternoon of a certain year, a certain month, and a certain day, when she came out of the airport, she vaguely saw a familiar figure. But she didn't pay much attention to it, because since she was fifteen, in twelve years, she didn't know how many times she had felt like this. Twelve years can turn a teenager into an uncle, and after countless mistakes, she has calmed down.

It's just that this time, a few classmates came to pick her up, and the figure she didn't care about was noticed by others. As soon as everyone summed it up, they felt more and more that it was possible, and they tried to call it, but they really stopped people. When it was finally confirmed that it was him, she was so excited that she even wanted to put on the sunglasses she had taken off to hide her emotions. However, I don't know if he has forgotten everyone, or because he has two beautiful girls around him, he has always refused to admit it.

In the end, he seemed to be forced to admit it, and he was forced to go to the party with us. I was forced to send someone back to the hotel, and I was forced to pull him to the guest room, and until now, I was forced to listen to the story with my ears open. ”

After a series of sentences, Qiao Huanxuan stood up violently and laughed: "My story is finished, haha, applause!" Then get up and go to the bathroom.

Li Yan's cigarette didn't know when, it had run out, and his people looked at the closed bathroom in a daze. Qiao Huanxuan finally finished telling her story as long and short as possible, and finally explained why she had to let Li Yan send her, why she asked him to come up to the guest room, and why she listened to her story. just told the psychological problem that had been suppressed for 12 years, and told it to the person who had been looking for it, so that her tone was calm, but her mood was uncontrollable, she immediately got up, went to the bathroom, laughed, clapped or something, nothing more than to hide the tears that had spread out.

I guess she's in the bathroom at this time, and she's already in tears, right?

She went to the bathroom to cover up and stabilize her emotions, why not give Li Yan a time to digest? She had just said it, and she was at least waiting for him to answer why.

However, is an explanation of why really enough?

Not to mention that Li Yan can't tell her why, if he wants to say it, it's just a lie. From her story just now, he already understood a little. Maybe Qiao Huanxuan knows it himself, or maybe he doesn't realize it. She is used to loving Li Yan!

That's right, habit. When she was in junior high school or high school, she may have just been a girl's favor, or positioned as a friendship liking, but because of his departure and because of the music box, she felt guilty and felt that it was because of her that caused Li Yan's tragedy. This emotion has always been hidden in her heart. This is also related to the environment at the time, those classmates who came up in junior high school together felt that she hurt Li Yan and let him run away from home. Yes, there is no need for Li Yan, but these classmates around her remind her of this matter every day.

When she doesn't associate with boys and works hard to study, she has slowly gotten used to it. More than two years in high school, she has been used to missing and waiting for someone, and in college, if she really digs it out, maybe it will be fine. But at that time, how could Li Yan be found by her headless flies? That deepened her habit even more, and the boy's attitude of not approaching may be on the grounds that she already has a boyfriend from a middle school classmate.

Deep influences, inner habits, lies about people, crazy searching...... All of this adds up to give her an illusion - there was once a sincere love in front of me, but I didn't cherish it, and I regretted it until I lost it...... As soon as she felt that as long as she found that person, she would be free, and everything would be perfect.

To put it simply, because of many years of time and various reasons, she has made up a fictional "Li Yan" in her heart, and she likes and waits for that Li Yan.

That Li Yan is not the current Li Yan, because she only met Li Yan when she grew up today, it was a combination of Li Yan in middle school, and Li Yan she fantasized and looked forward to. Perhaps this fictional Li Yan, in his college days, study abroad days, and now, is an image that is constantly revising and changing.

Therefore, this is not a problem that Li Yan can solve with one explanation. This has affected her life, and now that she has really seen it, it may not be able to solve her problem well, and if she doesn't solve it well, it will definitely affect the rest of her life.

How to fix it?

I don't know...... Li Yan was thinking.

In any case, twelve years of perseverance, twelve years of searching and expectation, this is a heavy emotion. When it comes to these things, he can't do it without feeling, but he doesn't have a good way.

has already told her that it was not a crush on her back then, and the gift can be regarded as an explanation. But weaving a reason, or simply not saying it, can put her in the past. But she didn't want an answer, she didn't know it herself......

Perhaps, I shouldn't have bumped into it today. If she didn't meet, whether it was twelve years or twenty years, whether she was in love or resentment, there would be hope after all. may be forced by the family, and will find a boyfriend and someone to marry, and then it will slowly become indifferent, and finally meet again, which is sighing and sighing. But the current meeting has made the dream come true, bursting the bubble of fantasy, and the result is that I am at a loss!

No matter how she solves it, she will become at a loss and directionless for the next period of time, and even doubt the authenticity of life and the meaning of life.

There was once a movie about a policeman who caught a big thief all his life, and the two sides fought happily. When he was finally caught, the thief said to the police, why have you been able to maintain so good energy and vitality for so many years? In fact, it's because of my motivation, you want to catch me, it's your lifelong wish. Now that you've arrested me, you don't have a purpose in life, what are you going to do? The policeman was stunned, thinking of retirement, being in a daze, doing nothing, and walking dead......