21 January 2004, Vienna, capital of Austria.

I had a dream, and when I woke up, a cold feeling pierced my bone marrow.

It was probably the summer of junior high school, she and Sha Sha participated in a martial arts competition, Jiaming followed, Cao Dongfeng was still there, turning around like a fly all day long, the three of them were unanimous to the outside world, pretending to be very intimate to show him, in fact, it was really intimate, during that time, I kissed Jiaming for the first time, fake public and private, and my heart was beating wildly, and the little self with very cute braids was still tied ......

Obviously they are still small children, but at night they sleep in the same bed, three people huddled together, covered with a thin blanket, body touch together, very cool summer night, each other is also refreshing, but the three of them refuse to close their eyes to sleep, no sleep, lying on the bed and looking out of the window, what a beautiful moon on the treetops. Sha Sha got up, saying that she was going out to play cards with things to play, and there was a sound of small footsteps coming back from the corridor, but when she came back, she took a few strings of marshmallows, and the three of them sat on the bed and licked and licked, and the marshmallows soon began to melt and stick to her hands, she lowered her head to eat, so together with her face and hanging hair, Jia Ming and Sha Sha were laughing at her, she tried to get rid of those sticky marshmallows, wanted to open her eyes, and then ...... It really opened its eyes.

So sorrow ......

The light came in through the white curtains, and she was used to turning off the heat before going to bed at night, only to feel the cold in a daze, and when she wanted to find a warmer body next to her, she gradually woke up, and she looked at the ceiling, and the sour pain on her nose lingered. More than three years have passed, and this body still retains its original memory, sad like a maggot on the tarsal bone, stubbornly fighting against time.

The hair that was as long as it was when I was a child had long since been cut off, and now it barely reaches to the shoulders, and few female students in the music department do this, unless they take the individual route. But she is not, her beauty is always soft and traditional, and this kind of hair seems to be some kind of symbol of tenacity and independence. Some people say that she is a maverick, but not many people understand. Every day here, she gritted her teeth.

In the three and a half years since she came to Vienna, she has grown two centimeters taller and lost four kilograms, if you just look at the data. Not much has actually changed. But in reality she has become more slender and thin, and she is more beautiful and mature, and in the first two years there have been many suitors, in all kinds of ways, both implicit and unrestrained, and there have been chauvinistic boys who feel good about themselves who use her rejection as a means of trying to get away with it. At the beginning of the year before the beginning of the year, a guy with a wild personality took advantage of saying a few words to do something to her, and was forced to break her hand in front of many people in the corridor outside the classroom, even if this kind of person who plays art looks strong, he is also vulnerable in front of the joint skills specially selected by Jia Ming, and a group of people are stunned, no one knows that she looks soft and weak and gentle like water, she actually has such a side, from then on. There are far fewer such troubles.

More than just pursuit. Over the years, she has rejected a lot of things. Rejecting too many college contacts, rejecting too many memories, refusing to go home or even refusing to hear about Jiang Hai, she always allowed herself to maintain a certain hope, hoping that the previous breakup was due to some special reason - she knew Jiaming, even now, she also decided that this understanding was not illusory, this is self-confidence, and it is also necessary, otherwise, all the good things built on the memories of the past are bound to fall apart and disappear.

If Jiaming has been in a relationship with another woman for more than a year, he will never say it suddenly, whether it is true or not, there must be other reasons in it.

She hoped that Jiaming was threatened, that he suddenly encountered something that he couldn't solve and refused to say, and even hoped that - even if it was like a bloody romance TV series - his real reason was because of the pressure, in order not to delay her future, he deliberately let her study abroad, so he chose to break up. No matter what the reason is, there is still half a year, when she completes all this and completes the things he expects to let her do, she will go back to Jianghai, throw these things in front of him, and say to him: "You misread me Ye Lingjing, you broke my heart......"

In any case, she can only look forward to it like this, after the breakup, memories and hopes are the only things she can grasp......

During this period, Dongfang Lu came to her once, and the two chatted for a while, but in fact, there was not much to talk about, as if sensing her mood, the other party did not say anything about Jiaming or Jiang Hai. The contact with the family is a few phone calls every year, and the parents seem to avoid the topic of Jiaming and Shasha. She avoided everything with such a wooden mind, the only sad thing was that she couldn't contact Shasha, the previous phone calls were no longer available, Jiaming was with her, went to Beijing to go to college, or Jiaming was separated from her, otherwise she would definitely call to find herself. But after getting on the phone, she couldn't think of what the two should say until now......

"The man we like dumped us ......" or "He's a bastard...... Sasha likes Jia Ming more than herself, she definitely can't stand it......

She turned on the air conditioner with the remote control, and sat up from the bed after a while, her hair was scattered, and there was a photo album on the futon, and she fell asleep last night when she looked at it, and put it on the bedside table, she looked at the alarm clock, and it was already twelve o'clock after noon, and she rarely slept lazy.

Today, the thirtieth year of the Chinese New Year's Eve, because of the time difference, the family should be more than seven o'clock in the evening, she sat on the bed and dialed the phone at home, and talked to her parents for more than ten minutes, and couldn't help but have red eyes. In the past few years, her parents seem to regret her decision to let her come to Vienna, and they don't dare to mention letting her go home on the phone, but in fact, she feels sorry for them, and she can't even see them for the sake of Jiaming, which is too willful. Love is not the whole of life, everyone knows this kind of thing, but when we are young and frivolous, who can really suppress such feelings?

After the porridge was over, she was getting out of bed, there was a knock on the door, she walked to the cat's eye and looked out, the man in the white suit outside the door was about thirty years old. Light blue eyes, silver thin-rimmed glasses, blonde hair shawl, looks quite handsome, hands in front of chest, holding a document bag, seeing that no one is talking. Rang the doorbell again.

"Teacher Julian, give me five minutes."

She said that, and she came back in a few minutes to open the door. I have already dressed up in my winter clothes and washed my face. I also tidied up my hair, but I just had a toothbrush in my hand: "I still have to brush my teeth, please come in." ”

"Hmm, I'm thinking...... Actually, it's nothing for me to see you just woke up, isn't it? That way I don't have to stand outside for minutes......"

"I'm sorry."

replied lightly. Ling Jing closed the door of the bathroom, and when she came out again after a while, she was already in a completely neat state: "Teacher Julian, I want to ...... I took a leave of absence yesterday......"

"Not for it." Julian maintained a charming smile, "I know that today is the most traditional and important New Year in China, in fact. A friend introduced me to a good Chinese restaurant, and there's going to be a party tonight, and I thought you could go over and join in. ”

The room was not big, Julian sat on the sofa, Ling Jing sat on the edge of the bed and thought about it, then looked up and smiled: "Actually, I don't really want to participate in such an event today......"

“OK。 If it's like I'm going to participate. Experience the customs of China, and I hope you can accompany you...... You know. I don't know much about China, and I have a barrier to Chinese. ”

After a moment of silence, Ling Jing nodded: "If you want this, teacher, I will go to the ground." ”

In the past few years in Vienna, speaking of the tutor Julian is the most familiar and recent person to her, this teacher is young and talented, not only participated in the New Year's music performance in the Golden Hall, but also is the honorary piano tutor of the Austrian royal family, helped her a lot, introduced her to the opera house work-study, except for fame, at least the salary earned is enough to meet her living and learning needs, located outside the school This room with quite good conditions and location was also rented by his introduction. The bank cards and contacts that Jiaming gave her when she broke up with her, she kept them there, and one day she was going to throw them back untouched, and asked him to apologize to himself.

Julian glanced at her a few times, then shook his head with a smile: "Just kidding, I just think you should have more normal social activities, since you don't like it, I don't force it, in fact, I came here today to give you these documents." He shook the document bag in his hand, "I talked to you about your graduation last year, and I said it casually, and you casually refused, but I hope you can think about it again, you have a lot of fame at the moment, and several companies have expressed their intentions, I want you to continue to develop in Europe, and I have also contacted some friends, this is a series of plans for you, I will be your local agent until the day you step on the stage of the Golden Hall." ”

"Teacher, this ......"

Julian waved his hand: "You are talented, you have spirituality, as long as you continue to develop, you will definitely achieve great success, because of many things, I have lost my spirituality, there is no way to focus on the piano anymore, so I hope to be able to put it down for a while, maybe I can get this feeling back, these things, you deserve." ”

He took Ling Jing's hand, put the file bag on it, and quietly let go of the other party before he reacted with rejection. Ling Jing frowned: "Teacher, I won't stay in Europe......"

"You don't have to reply to me so quickly, you can think about it for a few more days, I still have something to do, so I'll go first."

Julian looked at his watch, waved away, and Ling Jing escorted him to the door, watched the figure go downstairs, then closed the door and put the file bag in the drawer.

The album on the bedside table was also stuffed in, and after hesitating for a moment halfway, he took it out and turned a page, looked at it a few times, closed it again, and covered his knees for a long time. The air conditioner in the back blew the curtains, and the white light cast into the whole room, and the figure sat on the edge of the bed, as if it was about to melt into the light......

Julian walked out of the apartment door, took out two tickets to the Chinese restaurant party from his pocket, looked at them a few times, then tore them up and threw them in the trash.

Not far away, my friend's car was waiting there, the man leaned against the car door, saw him, and laughed: "It's coming out so soon, only in front of this girl, you can't always find a topic to talk about, should I say this is a good phenomenon or a bad phenomenon?" ”

"She's too sensitive, and I don't want to be hated by her like that."

The car entered the car from both sides, and then the car started slowly: "So, do you really want to arrange a future for her?" Have you created a goddess of oriental music? ”

Julian smiled: "I should go to China." ”

"Huh?"

"She's very stubborn and won't stay in Europe, so I arrange so much for her first before she will make concessions and let me plan her future in China, and ...... The East should give me more inspiration, I thought about going to see it a long time ago......"

"It's really hard work, I don't think you really can focus on the piano now......"

"I'm more focused on her now."

"It's like every artist falls in love with their work?"

"That's right." Julian nodded, "It's like...... Every artist will fall in love with their work. ”

As the car turned the corner in front of him, he remembered the photo album on the bedside table in his room, the pictures in which he had seen before. It was a wedding photo, a man and two women, and in those photos, Ling Jing smiled sweetly and lovely, or sly and smartly, these emotions were enough to be called happiness, and he had not seen them in the three years he had been her mentor.

Will come back one day......

As the car drove past the beautiful buildings, he thought as he furrowed his brow.

At the same moment, Ling meditated in that light, pressed the album to his lap, and his eyes were blurred. Thousands of miles away, at the corner of the empty city street, the man behind the cart raised his head and looked at the fireworks that were constantly bursting and scattering in the night sky......