Chapter 356 Persistence, Past, Future

Over the years, both of them have their own lives and goals that they need to strive for, but they have secretly found out the goal of revenge for the mastermind behind the scenes and now Li Yan's boss.

One in the light, one in the dark. Although Li Yan is familiar with the third to the nineth, including the young tenth, he has never seen the second child, and the boss has always been in mystery. It is an unrelated person, which cannot be approached, but it will not be guarded, and through his investigation, some gains will be conveyed to Li Yan.

"You now have a wife, a lover, a career, a status, a promising future, and you have no heart for revenge."

made Li Yan unable to refute it. After a moment of silence, he sighed, "You're right...... Maybe I'm sinking."

His professional life reached its peak in the past few years. But this is a killer industry after all, and it is different from the practitioners of general industries, who will grow in scale and climb the peak.

Others have earned a million, marched to 10 million, earned 10 million, marched to 100 million, that is, billions or tens of billions of billionaires, and they are still working hard. But what about the killer? Kill a hundred people with the goal of killing a thousand? Kill a thousand, try to kill 10,000?

Moreover, the killer, like the star, eats the rice of youth. As you get older, your skills will decline and your risk will increase. Generally speaking, they are young and work hard to earn money, and after a period of profligacy, they will start to save, and when they have saved enough money, they will quit the rivers and lakes. If you are a little more high-end, you can go to a foreign country to buy a small island, farm or something to enjoy life; The middle-level can do some business, invest, and travel the world; The low-end ones can also live a small life among the general population.

Li Yan took a vacation in the first two years, and he had already begun to change his focus from saving money to adjusting his body and mind - including studying inner demons and integrating into the lives of ordinary people. At that time, although he didn't calculate how much savings he had, he guessed that it was enough for him and Yueyao to be rich for a lifetime.

And once a conflict really breaks out, Zheng Yixuan and Guan Ziyi should mostly be on the side of the boss, and they will become enemies with these brothers who have always gotten along well and sincerely help each other, which is not what he wants to see.

"You are not sinking, you are a vested interest," Qi said coldly.

Li Yan was the only one among the hundreds of people who survived at that time, and he also got the second stage of training, and eventually became a top killer, accumulating his wealth. This is the same as what Zheng Yixuan said, without the words of the boss, and without their today, the meaning is the same.

"Sort of. My emotions towards him are very complicated, if you want revenge, then do you want to repay the favor? Without him to get me to training, with my original life trajectory, I just relied on going to college, coming out to find a job, and then saving money for marriage and worrying about buying a house...... Can I save today? Can you have the current body and strength? Hey, in today's society, if you want to succeed, everywhere is a battlefield that squeezes your head, and if you want to enter a good university, you have to PK with many people; After graduation, I want to find a good job, and I have to PK with many people who want to be promoted and want performance...... Which one is not to kill dozens or hundreds of people? It's just that it doesn't die directly. ”

Li Yan put aside Zhang Tianyi's layer, because now he has not inherited the wealth of the Zhang family.

"Hmph, that's because you survived your original life trajectory, even if you go out to mingle, it won't let you experience so many deaths, right? What about those who died? Your current enjoyment is piled up by hundreds of people," he said insistently.

Li Yan can understand his excitement, he must have suffered unimaginable pain to survive, and now he is at the peak of his career and the stage when his confidence is the most inflated, and he is already a person from the past.

"So what?"

After Li Yan asked, seeing that he didn't seem to understand, he asked again: "Then I'll ask in cold blood: What is that?" Am I responsible for their lives? Or do you want to avenge them? Kill 'him' for the heavenly way? And then what? Myself apologizing for my sins? ”

This series of questions turned the question upside down. He has always had a strong desire for revenge, but what and for whom is it a little hazy, or he doesn't take it seriously.

"I am not a messenger of justice, I have no obligation to avenge others, if it is because I survived, some people died at my hands, and I am responsible for their lives, then there are many more people, I can't remember how many times I have carried out the entrusted mission and how many people I have killed. Who should they seek revenge on? Li Yan smiled bitterly: "In the past few years, I haven't been a pickle girl, I have also read a lot of books, and even tried to meditate and participate in Zen ......"

This is understandable, his killing aura is heavier than Li Yan, and when he is upset, he will also use this way to calm himself. Of course, there is no meditation practice, just a way of meditating.

"Sometimes I think that we all survived and in some ways gained a lot. The most deserving of revenge are those who are dead. Did we decide to take revenge in the first place, or did we want to have peace of mind? ”

This question is Li Yan's self-question, and it is also the right question. He then went on to state his own answer: "I found ...... I'm more likely to make my conscience a little better, you're right, others die, I survive, and I'm a vested interest. Originally, everyone's fate was the same, and I paid the price of almost losing my life again and again, but in the end, only I gained, and I had to bear the psychological pressure for them, at least those who had died and been injured in my hands.

So we turn the finger to 'he', 'he' is the mastermind behind the whole incident, then 'he' should bear the greatest responsibility. Then I'll just be a pawn in the whole game, I'll just be a lucky victim, and then I'll be at ease and I won't owe anyone. ”

I took a sip of tea, and my face was calm and I didn't speak, but I was a little calmer than just now.

"After so many years, I am really sinking now. To put it nicely, I have already looked down on life and death; To put it mildly, it is that there are too many people to kill, and they have become cold-blooded and numb. I'm still on the opposite side of 'him', but it's not because of what happened to me in the first place, but because of quitting. I'm tired of it and want to live a normal life, but he may not be able to quit at will, so I still can't get along with him. ”

For the beginning, Li Yan has no need to hide it, he is completely telling the truth.

But these words have a greater shock to the beginning

Li Yan has looked down on the past, and what he is working for is the future, while he is still obsessed with the past and has never thought about the future

Although he had experienced the brink of death again and again in the training camp, the last escape from being seriously injured by Li Yan's gunfire and pretending to be dead still made him feel unforgettable. Unlike Li Yan, who went through the second stage of training and then started his career as a killer, after escaping, it took a long time to hide and recuperate, and the gunshot wound that almost killed him took him a long time to recover, and then he retrained his body.

In those broken days, the pain on his body and the scars on his body all reminded him of the inhuman days he had passed, and the flame of hatred in his heart became more and more vigorous Of course, he did not blame Li Yan for the gunshot wound, although Li Yan shot it, but that was their plan. On the contrary, he has survived, and his biggest expectation is that he hopes that Li Yan can also survive in it, because he has passed that level, and he will be safe in the future, and Li Yan, who has come into contact with the small training camp, will have to go through life and death tests again and again.

Different experiences have created a person who seals those years in his memory and does not recall them; And the other is to remind yourself all the time. So after the reunion, the resentment and revenge against the boss behind the scenes are very deep. Even in the past few years, he has become a top killer, gained fame in the industry, and accumulated a certain amount of wealth, but he still can't extinguish his resentment. - He can't spend his money on his family because he can't explain how it came from. I didn't even dare to go back to see my parents. can only choose to be like Li Yan before, lying that he is working outside and sending a little money home regularly.

It is precisely because of his obsession with revenge that everything he does now is just to prepare for revenge. Including money, experience, etc., they all want to be able to help when they are in charge behind the scenes of the decisive battle. Without destroying this great enemy, he did not think about his future.

Now that I hear what Li Yan meant, it seems that I have taken it lightly, and no matter who I am for, the past has become a thing of the past, and that is only a part of the experience, and it cannot become too heavy a burden. Li Yan already has his own vision for the future, what about him?

What does the future hold for him?

"I'll go first......" got up, a little distraught, and jumped out of the balcony

The goal that I have insisted on for many years and is still fighting for suddenly found that it is just an obsession, the meaning is not as big as I imagined, and the huge price of making a comeback may not bring anything to myself. It's a thrill for everyone, like ...... It's like a person who has watched the news broadcast for decades and must watch it every day, and suddenly hears others say that it doesn't really make sense to watch it, but the leaders are very busy in the first ten minutes, the people of the whole country are very happy in the middle ten minutes, and the people of the world are living in dire straits in the last ten minutes.

Li Yan also stood up, wanting to keep him, but in the end he didn't speak.

From the demeanor just now, he could guess that he had listened to the words a little, although he would not necessarily give up revenge, but at least it would make him think more about what he wanted. Maybe the next time we meet, we will see it a little more thoroughly.

Of course, no matter how the two people's concepts change, Qi is still his lifelong friend and his ally. And the boss who makes him emotionally complicated still has to see how the negotiations are after the meeting. If he is not given the freedom to retire, he will still fight after all......

"He's gone?" After a while, Yueyao appeared behind him.

"Let's go......" Li Yan didn't tell her much, because it involved years that he didn't want to mention, "sit with me for a while......

Yue Yao didn't ask anything.

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