Nancy Gu's Monologue (34)
Although the matter of his and Ji Xinyao's upcoming wedding is not widely known, it is already well known to many people around him.
After all, he is in a high position and has many things that he can hide from the public, but he can't hide from the people around him.
Shan Lao wanted to talk to Gu Nancy several times, but Gu Nancy pushed him back, and it was just two days before the marriage, in the afternoon, before getting off work.
"Mayor Gu, Director Xu and Deputy Bureau Li have arrived, should I arrange for them to wait for you in the conference room now, or do you have something to deal with at hand? I let them go to the lounge first? ”
Su Tezhu knocked on the door and entered, Gu Nancy glanced at the time: "Let them sit in the lounge for a while, and I will go to the conference room to find them in ten minutes." Yi"
"Okay." Su Tezhu nodded, turned around and was about to walk out of the mayor's office, but he paused, and looked at Shan Ying who was standing outside the door with some surprise.
"Miss Shan?" Su Tezhu was stunned for a moment, not knowing who asked her to come up, why didn't she report it to the secretary and the special assistant's room.
But thinking that she was Shan Heping's granddaughter, no one dared to stop her, but even so, the process of leaving must be gone, so Su Tezhu looked at her stunned for a while, and then turned his head and looked at Gu Nancy who was sitting in the office looking down at the reconsideration report with some embarrassment.
Gu Nancy heard the voice, raised his gaze from the reconsideration report in his hand, and saw Shan Ying in front of the office door, his eyes did not change, but he just glanced at Su Tezhu and motioned for him to leave first.
After Su Tezhu left, Shan Ying walked in with a smile in his hand, holding an invitation card in his hand.
Shan Lao met for a few days, he avoided it, Shan Ying or Shan Lao would appear once before his wedding, this is inevitable and inevitable, although Gu Nancy has tried to keep a distance from them, but it seems that this conversation is really essential.
"Nancy, do you remember when we were studying at Haval, there was a girl of mixed Chinese and Russian descent? She and I were very good sisters back then, and at that time you invited her to dinner for my business. Over the years, she returned to Russia from the United States, and followed her parents to settle in China, I heard that she is now doing business with her parents, and has businesses in various cities, she recently invested in a private opera house in G City, and tonight is the first performance after the investment, she knew that I was in G City, so she specially gave me two VIP tickets, let the two of us go to see it together, Nancy, you go with me to cheer her up, right? ”
Shan Ying walked over, put the invitation card in his hand on his desk, and sandwiched two VIP tickets in the invitation.
Gu Nancy glanced at the invitation card and the two tickets on the table, then closed the reconsideration report in her hand, hooked her lips, got up and walked around the desk, walked to the other side and poured some water with a disposable paper cup, and then put it on the coffee table over there, and stretched out her hand to signal her to go over and sit.
Shan Ying saw that he seemed to have something to say to himself, hesitated, and was about to say something, Gu Nancy looked at her: "You sit down first, let's talk." ”
"Nancy, I ......" Shan Ying thought she knew him, he had avoided him for so long, and she still felt some hope in this, because if he really had no feelings for her, he would not have avoided her so deliberately.
But now he was going to talk to her, and finally made her feel that the confidence and strength she had been full of were crumbling little by little.
"Sit." Gu Nancy looked at her patiently, and her voice was soft.
Shan Ying looked at him for a long time, then turned around, walked to the sofa, sat down, but lowered his head slightly, looked at the paper cup on the table, and said before he spoke: "I'm not pestering you, I also know what my grandfather is thinking, and I haven't stopped some of his practices, because I really want to start over with you, Nancy, are you going to talk to me, do you want me to let go?" ”
Gu Nancy looked at her, smiled slightly, and her voice was calm and warm: "Shan Ying, I plan to talk to you now, because although we have been separated for more than five years, no matter what happened in the past, at least now, I am respecting you." ”
Shan Ying turned his head and looked at the pile of essays on his desk, his eyes were a little sad, but he obviously understood something, and he laughed lightly in his mouth, but did not speak.
"Even if you and Shan Lao stop this wedding, what use can it be? Xin Yao and I are already married, and we are already legally husband and wife, not to mention that we already have children, this wedding is nothing more than a process that I think I owe her and want to make amends, so why bother to stop it? ”
"I have no intention of stopping it." Shan Ying's eyes fell straight at him: "I just want to see you regret it, I just want you to turn around!" ”
Gu Nancy chuckled, and her voice was faint: "Shan Ying, we can't turn back." ”
Shan Ying raised his hand to stroke the top of his hair, biting his lip and saying nothing, but his eyebrows were slightly wrinkled: "Gu Nancy, maybe in those years in the United States, I did entangle too much in some aspects, too willful and too ignorant, I know that there is a question I always pestering you, making you very helpless, at that time I asked you if you love me, you always kiss my forehead when you are not busy, but you always don't answer." Now, as time passes, I ask you to tell me, have you ever truly loved me? Even if only once? ”
There was a touch of persistence in her eyes, as if it was a gamble, and she was still gambling.
bet on his love for her and his indulgence with her, in fact, in her heart, she always understood that he was serious about her in the past, but he was young and frivolous, and he liked to drill too many horns, and finally did something wrong, and then suddenly woke up.
Gu Nancy just smiled, but was silent.
Shan Ying stood up: "You just asked me when we were together in the past, this answer shouldn't make you feel like you would betray your wife, right?" Let's be honest, okay? Or, you Gu Nancy don't have the courage to admit that you never let go of me in your heart? ”
At this time, Gu Nancy's mobile phone rang, and he answered a call, it was Su Tezhu who felt that Shan Ying was in the office and it was inconvenient to come in, so he called to ask him when he was going to the meeting.
Gu Nancy promised to arrive in two minutes, then put down the phone and put the phone on the desk.
Shan Ying was always looking at him, looking at his every expression, but his expression was always so flat, as if no matter how turbulent her heart was at the moment, in his place, it was always calm.
Gu Nancy put one hand into her trouser pocket, looked at the clear light in her eyes with a calm look, and looked at her quietly for a long time without squinting, before saying, "At that time, I thought that feeling was love." ”
Looking at the fading light in Shan Ying's eyes, Gu Nancy said lightly: "Maybe from the perspective of experience and psychology at that age, at least in those years, I did love." ”
Shan Ying immediately frowned: "I don't understand." ”
Gu Nancy sighed, walked over, walked in front of her, raised her hand and patted her shoulder gently, her eyes gentle: "Because we were too young at that time." Someone was waiting for me in the conference room, and I had something very important to discuss, and I couldn't delay. Take Xiaoyu back to the United States for treatment, here, the father's love that is not suitable for her can't do anything miracle in the disease of brain tumor. ”
With that, Gu Nancy turned around and walked out of the office.
Because they were too young back then, they thought that qiē was the love in people's mouths, they were serious about it, they were persistent about it, they were even crazy about it, and after years of tossing and turning, they may not be able to deny that kind of fiery feeling.
But at least now we all know what love is.
Trust, respect, support, tolerance, warmth.
Shan Ying stood in his office, staring at the closed door for a long time, I don't know how long she stood there, until her feet were numb, she retracted her gaze, sighed imperceptibly, turned around and picked up the bag on the sofa, and was about to leave quietly, but suddenly heard the mobile phone on the desk after he just took the phone and rang.
Even though she clearly understood what Gu Nancy meant, and knew that he really wouldn't look back, there was a feeling that drove her, so she looked back at the mobile phone on the desk, walked over, picked it up, and saw the two words on the caller ID, wife.
Perhaps, no matter how rational and arrogant a woman is, at this moment will be full of jealousy, possessiveness, and unwillingness.
There were a lot of pictures in front of her eyes in an instant, many years ago, Gu Nancy took her shoulders and helped a group of children release white pigeons on the street, at that time, Gu Nancy loved her, spoiled her, and indulged her qiē, at that time he didn't like to eat ice cream, but every time she would buy a large portion, forcing him to eat two bites, and he would keep laughing when he looked at him frowning at the sweetness......
At that time, at that time, at that time......
A qiē is just staying at that time.
But all the kindness he had to her at the beginning was now given to another woman, looking at the words on the mobile phone screen, Shan Ying's hand almost trembled, and finally couldn't help but connect the phone, even if he knew who the other party was, he still asked with a smile: "Hey?" I'm sorry, Nancy can't answer the phone right now, who are you? ”