The commotion came, the commotion went, and after the little ones left, the treatment room was quiet again.

The sun was shining outside the window, and occasionally there was a bird's cry of unknown name, so quiet and peaceful, it made people feel unreal.

"Kiln"

There was a very light footstep sound outside the door, so light that it was difficult to notice, Lu Yan turned his head to look, and there was a young man standing at the door with an embarrassed demeanor, who was cautiously trying to knock on the door.

Lu Yan smiled when he saw the comer, "Haozi, just come in directly, why are you still so polite." ”

Chen Hao is here.

In fact, Chen Hao has been here a few times before, and he has already come today.

Chen Hao went back to report the news that day, there was chaos everywhere, a scene of the end of the world, he stopped a soldier halfway, and after reporting the situation, he was forcibly taken back to the shelter.

Back at the refuge, Chen Hao fidgeted, and he didn't know if the information had been conveyed to the lieutenant general, or if the soldier had died halfway through, and whether the reinforcements had arrived in time, Ah Yan ...... Is it still alive.

The day of the refuge was the longest day of Chen Hao's life.

Later, when he learned that Black Earth City had successfully repelled the alien army, Ah Yan was seriously injured, and Chen Hao blamed himself and regretted that he almost stabbed himself twice.

If Ah Yan is gone, he doesn't want to live anymore.

They have grown up together since childhood, trained together, and fought together.

The pain of having to leave behind your comrades on the battlefield and survive alone is something that no one who has ever experienced it can understand.

The war dead pay for their lives, and the price paid for those who survive is the burden of a lifetime.

Later, when he learned that Ah Yan's life was not in danger, Chen Hao's heart that had been hanging fell down, and in just a few days, it felt longer than his life.

From that day on, Chen Hao was like a different person, going to bed early and getting up early every day, starting to practice when he woke up, resting when he was tired, eating when he was hungry, and continuing to practice after replenishing.

Chen Hao continued to implement Lu Yan's previous arrangements, prepared for the big exam, and sharpened himself.

I heard that Lu Yan woke up today, but for some reason, Chen Hao was very worried on the way here, and when he arrived at the door, he didn't even dare to enter.

Only then did he know what he was afraid of, he felt ashamed, he felt ashamed of Lu Yan, ashamed of his brother.

He felt that it was a complete shame for him to be afraid to flee that day.

This shame weighed him down, and he couldn't hold his head up.

Although it was also an extremely important thing to run back that day to report the news, there is no doubt that he was scared that day and he fled.

If he is bloody and he is a qualified warrior, he will kill him desperately after reporting the news, go back to save his brother and his comrades.

But he didn't.

He hid in the shelter and fidgeted, shivering.

It's ridiculous, he calls himself a warrior reserve, but when the battle comes, he looks like a coward who doesn't know what to do, not even as a woman or a child.

He doesn't deserve to be a Initiator warrior, nor does he deserve a brother like Lu Yan.

In the past few days, the sense of shame has deeply impacted Chen Hao's heart, as if there is a knife that stabs his heart all the time, making him regret it every time he thinks about it.

When I saw Lu Yan, of course, I couldn't face it.

He is sorry for Lu Yan's friendship with him, and he is also sorry for Lu Yan's dedication to him.

Lu Yan told him about the secret energy, and also helped him understand life and death, break through cultivation, and teach him to practice, but he became a coward on the battlefield.

He didn't know how to tell Lu Yan about all this.

Chen Hao was wearing a black military uniform, it seemed that he should have been practicing just now, Lu Yan looked at Chen Hao, who was different from 10 million safe, and saw that Chen Hao was embarrassed and worried, and he could probably guess Chen Hao's mood.

Lu Yan sighed in his heart, in this troubled world, the living are not much easier than the dead.

"Haozi, why did you wilt? Lu Yan joked.

"No. Chen Hao grinned, revealing an extremely ugly smile.

Seeing that Chen Hao's smile was more ugly than crying, Lu Yan stopped joking with Chen Hao, and pointed to the bed next to him: "Sit down, help me peel a peace fruit." ”

"Eh!" As soon as he heard that he had something to do, he immediately distracted Chen Hao, who was already at a loss, relaxed a little, sat down and peeled the fruit.

"Haozi, in fact, you don't have to blame yourself...... Lu Yan took the initiative to provoke the conversation, "We all know what this world was like originally, don't we, no one can choose how they live, but living according to their own wishes is not a mistake." ”

Chen Hao buried his head in peeling fruits, he couldn't see the expression on his face clearly, listening to Lu Yan's words, Chen Hao was silent, just nodded his head heavily, but big tears fell.

Chen Hao raised his arm and wiped his face fiercely, and suddenly collapsed, crying: "Ah Yan, I've been ...... for the past few days." It's so sad. ”

"The thought that I would never see you again after that day would make me feel like I was going to die. ”

"I don't think I'm so angry, why don't I dare to go back and help you. ”

"That day they carried you back, I looked at you, and suddenly I felt that the whole world was so strange, and I realized that life is like this. ”

"Ah Yan, can you forgive me, I really don't want to run away, but I don't know why, I'm just afraid..."

"I feel so useless..."

Listening to Chen Hao's heart-to-heart outpouring and watching Chen Hao cry like a child, Lu Yan felt a sigh in his heart, and couldn't help but be hooked into tears.

After all, they are just teenagers, and in the face of such cruel things, a few can bear it.

"Ah Yan, can you forgive me?" Chen Hao raised his head, his face was full of snot and tears, and he looked at Lu Yan expectantly, like a poor little beast who was homeless.

Lu Yan: "Then can I ask you a favor?"

Chen Hao hurriedly said: "You say!"

"It's okay to forgive you, can you not let me forgive your mother. ”

"you,"

Chen Hao was caught off guard by Lu Yan's joke, and blew out a snot bubble with laughter, and his heavy mood suddenly improved most of the time, but he still felt guilty, and said with a curled corner of his mouth: "Ah Yan, I really feel sorry for you." ”

"Haozi, it's actually okay, don't blame yourself too much, cheer up, it's not life that is smooth sailing,"

Lu Yan said,

"No one is born a good fighter, no one is born perfect, you can see your weaknesses, it's already very good, just train for weaknesses in the future. ”

Chen Hao stood up excitedly, wiped a handful of snot, and said firmly: "Well, Ah Yan, I have thought about it, I want to overcome my weakness and inertia, I will follow you to practice in the future, and you will train me fiercely! I will say that I am unwilling, I am your grandson!"

Lu Yan sneered, grinned with disgust: "Just practice you, I'm not interested in you." ”

"Hey......

Chen Hao was ridiculed, and he didn't get angry, just smirked.

"Ah Yan, what do you say we are trying to survive so hard in the cracks?" Chen Hao has been suffering a lot in the past few days, and he has also been a little confused in life, adolescent teenagers will not ask their parents and teachers, but will always ask the brothers who are at the forefront around him for advice.

In the hearts of the teenagers, Lu Yan's ability far exceeds that of his peers at the same level, he is better than his teacher and parents, and he is a peer, with no sense of distance, so he is more suitable for asking for advice and solving doubts.

Lu Yan thought for a moment and raised his head to look at the sky outside the window.

"Nothing makes you regret more than not being able to protect the people you love, if we are destined to be born in the dark, at least we can choose not to give up and look for the light, people have to live for something, don't they. ”

Chen Hao held the fruit of peace and thought thoughtfully.