Chapter 2 If He Was a Woman
72_72998If it weren't for staying by their side, they might have gotten the happiness they deserve, instead of being tortured like they are now, missing out again and again.
"Alas...... I'm sorry for you. ”
Yang Haolong's voice slowly spread in the warm pavilion and reached the ears of the two of them.
Xu Wu and Ah Yue were both stunned, glanced at each other, and seemed to understand what Yang Haolong meant, and each of them was bitter in their hearts, and Xu Yue turned sideways to avoid Ah Yue's gaze, as if it was not from a lover's gaze, but a sharp blade that could tear apart his heart.
"Master, this qiē is our own choice, being able to follow you is a blessing from my previous life, you must not say that in the future."
Xu Wu stretched out her hand and gently broke Yang Haolong's hands that were almost pinched, the white and tender palms were already dissatisfied with the crimson marks, she didn't expect that Yang Haolong would be so excited that he almost punctured his palms.
The thin face was very beautiful under the projection of the light, as if it was carefully carved by God, Xu Wu gently held Yang Haolong's hands in her hands, and her faint voice was like the most gentle hands, gradually smoothing the scars on Yang Haolong's heart.
No matter when, she always has a way to calm down Yang Haolong's feelings.
"Promise me, okay?"
Xu Wu said softly, then raised her head and looked at Yang Haolong with those bright eyes, with an expectant gaze that could not allow Yang Haolong to refuse.
"Woman-in-law......"
Yang Haolong sighed lightly and hugged Xu Wu in his arms, this distressing woman, how could she not be worried!
Although Yang Haolong agreed, he could feel that Xu Hao was still very worried about Yang Haolong's feelings, and carefully observed Yang Haolong's expression while speaking, it didn't seem to make Yang Haolong worry, and the appearance of a forced smile made Yang Haolong's heart ache.
Her sister-in-law is sensible and distressing, and people can't help but protect her.
Seeing Xu Wu so worried about himself, Yang Haolong felt uncomfortable in his heart, and tried his best to lead the topic aside, but inadvertently saw a trace of uneasy struggle in Xu Wu's eyes.
"Sister-in-law, do you have something to hide from me?"
Yang Haolong's voice was faint, although the meaning of the question was in a definite tone.
Obviously, the sister-in-law is hiding something from herself, otherwise, after she says this, those eyes will not dodge herself so much.
Xu Wu also wanted to change the topic, but she gave up resistance under Yang Haolong's unquestionable eyes, and gave Yang Haolong the reason why she came here and Zhao Yinggang's words.
Seeing Yang Haolong's frowning appearance, Xu Wu was a little flustered for a while, and hurriedly said.
"Don't worry, master, my sister-in-law has already thought about it, and after a while, my sister-in-law went back to the emperor, and said that you are unwell and resting, so you can take advantage of this time to leave quickly!"
has been by Yang Haolong's side for so long, Xu Wan knows Yang Haolong's character very well, and for Zhao Yinggang's thoughts about Yang Haolong, she knows that it is not a day or two, if it weren't for Zhao Yinggang forcing herself to write a letter to Yang Haolong with her child, she wouldn't want Yang Haolong to come back.
What Yang Haolong wants is freedom, it has always been, and this time when he came back, Zhao Yinggang's purpose was to keep her by his side, this kind of thing is something she absolutely does not want to see, and she definitely does not want this kind of thing to happen.
If it weren't for himself, maybe Yang Haolong wouldn't have to take this risk at all.
Xu Wan remembered what Yang Haolong had done to protect herself, and even risked her life for herself, saving herself and in danger again and again, almost protecting herself with her life, and she even compromised with Zhao Yinggang because of a momentary threat, and even did not hesitate to lead Yang Haolong back to this trap again.
An indescribable sense of guilt came to her face, forcing Xu Wu out of breath.
With the child on one side and Yang Haolong on the other, such a dilemma is like forcing her to the edge of the cliff, no matter which side she chooses, what awaits her will be boundless hell and painful struggle.
The child is a piece of meat that fell from her body, even if she had that child because of Zhao Yinggang's rape, but as a mother, what she could not let go of was the fate and relationship between mother and son.
And Yang Haolong is the person she can't betray the most in this life, even if it's because of the child, even if it's because of her own flesh and blood, she can't betray it!
Since no matter which side she chooses, there is a boundless hell waiting for her, then she is not willing to push Yang Haolong into the trap that has been set up a long time ago because of this.
She knows that freedom is more important than life for Yang Haolong, and if she chooses a child, isn't it equivalent to taking Yang Haolong's life?
Absolutely not!
Xu Wu clenched her fists, she had already made a decision in her heart, raised her head, and looked at Yang Haolong with a pair of clear eyes, and the corners of her mouth were a slightly poignant smile.
"Master, the sister-in-law has decided, you must ......"
"I'll go find him, and I'll make sure the child comes back to you again! Believe me! ”
Xu Haolong's words were interrupted by Yang Haolong as she was halfway through, how could Yang Haolong not know what Xu Haolong was thinking, so that her sister-in-law chose to abandon the child and protect her, she would rather not have this life.
"Sister-in-law doesn't mean that, I don't want children, I just hope that the master must leave far away, the master can be happy, and the sister-in-law does everything she wants!"
Seeing Yang Haolong's firmness on his face, Xu Wu hurriedly waved her hand and expressed her meaning clearly, she originally intended to do a thing, as long as Yang Haolong can live the life she wants happily and steadily, she can not have children, and she doesn't even have the luxury of asking Yang Haolong to take her away, as long as the master can live happily, she will fight.
Looking at Xu Hao's serious look and wanting to explain, Yang Haolong only felt that his heart was painful and sweet, as if he had been hit by the sweetest candy in the world, and as if he had fallen into a trap full of blades at the same time.
When she received the letter, she had a hunch, according to Xu Wan's character, she was unwilling to drag herself back when she left, how could she let herself come back again after so long, there must be something strange in this.
It's just that she didn't expect that this qiē was all because Zhao Yinggang was doing ghosts!
How important is the meaning of the child to the mother, Yang Haolong can be regarded as empathetic, in the previous life, she lost the pain of her unborn child, even if she was reborn, she often woke her up in her dreams, and now, let alone lose a lively and lovely child!
Because she has tasted that pain, she doesn't want and won't let her sister-in-law go through it again, and once the decision in her heart is settled, she will not change it, this is her!
Yang Haolong straightened Xu Wan's face in his direction and said seriously word by word.
"I will only be happy if you can live happily! Got it? ”
For Xu Wu, she has too much guilt, if it weren't for herself, she would definitely be a thousand times happier than now, not like now, under such threats and persecution, so painful.
Xu Wu wanted to say something, but was stopped by Yang Haolong's stubborn eyes, and could only nod to Yang Haolong with tears in her eyes.
"Sister-in-law, I owe you so much, if I can choose again, I will definitely not let you suffer so much harm again! Definitely not! ”
After finishing speaking, Yang Haolong didn't stop long and left outside the warm pavilion, and Zhang Kai, the chief eunuch who had been waiting outside for a long time, also saluted Yang Haolong with a respectful face, signaling her to follow him.
Ah Yue was about to follow, but was stopped by Yang Haolong and threw a look at Xu Wu behind him.
"Have you forgotten what you're going to do?"
Yang Haolong's voice faintly came into Ah Yue's ears, making the latter's originally indifferent face appear a trace of emotional cracks.
Before leaving the Chu State, Ah Yue once wanted to ask Yang Haolong how Xu Hao had been doing and how was she doing, but Yang Haolong did not answer this question, but asked him to ask it himself.
Presumably Xu Wu has been waiting for this moment for a long time!
Ah Yue's body stiffened, and before he could say anything, Yang Haolong had already pushed the wheelchair out of here and walked towards the corridor in the distance.
And there are only two people left in the warm pavilion, Ah Yue and Xu Wu.
The atmosphere that was originally considered to be harmonious suddenly became a little stiff, and the two were obviously so close to each other, but there was always a transparent barrier, so that the two people could obviously see each other, but they could only separate the two sides of the strait.
The warm light in the warm pavilion and the night outside the window are like two seas that can never merge, touching each other, but avoiding each other.
It's like the two of them.
There is a long silence, so long that it almost gives people the illusion of a thousand years of thought, that feeling is like shuttling through the long river of time, obviously seeing the other party's current appearance, but always floating in the mind the picture of the first meeting, as if time can also be turned back, back to that heart-pounding moment again.
That was their first meeting.
When a green dress appeared in front of him like light smoke, the world seemed to be turned upside down, and since then, it has completely changed.
The originally boring qiē has become colorful, and the originally tiring time for martial arts training has become more meaningful because of that figure.
Ah Yue still remembers that at that time, as soon as it was time to practice martial arts, he most expected to have a cyan figure standing quietly in the distance, even if he didn't say anything, didn't do anything, as long as he looked at it, that was his greatest happiness.
In the life of meeting that cyan figure, in addition to practicing martial arts, he protected his master in his world, and since she appeared in his own world, his life has more colors.
The first time he spoke, it was on the night he was injured, when he was injured by those assassins in order to protect his master, it was she who came to bandage himself carefully, and that smile was so beautiful, beautiful and not eating fireworks in the world, like a fairy coming out of the clouds.
"Does it still hurt?"
She asked herself.
Those clear and bright eyes were like the moon in the sky, like a stream in the moonlight, like the brightest jewel in the world, more beautiful than anything he had ever seen.
"Hmm."
He wanted to say that it didn't hurt, it didn't hurt the moment you appeared, all the pain healed and disappeared because of a smile, leaving only a full heartbeat.
But because of Mu Ne, he subconsciously hummed, and when he came back to his senses, he had already been looked at deeply by those eyes with concern and worry, and at that moment, he would never forget it in his life.
Then there is the gradual approach, the companionship, and, the parting.
Obviously, he hadn't been away for that long, but he felt like a lifetime apart.
Looking at the familiar figure in front of him, the face that was much thinner than in his memory, and the eyes that were filled with pain and sorrow, for a moment, it was like a huge fist slammed into his heart, breaking his heart and making him hurt.
"You, are you okay?"
Finally, he still asked, although his tone became difficult to calm because of the agitation of his mood, but he still asked.
He had a strange premonition that if he didn't ask, he might not have the courage to ask again in his life.
Xu Wu obviously didn't expect Ah Yue to suddenly speak, and suddenly stayed in place in a daze, as if she was very surprised, and that surprise quickly turned into a cover-up.
The slender fingers gently brushed the hair around the ear, gently pinned the black hair behind the ear, and paused for a long time before muttering.
"I, fine. How are you? ”
I don't know if it's his delusion, he obviously heard the trembling and forbearance in the voice, she was obviously not having a good time, but she was so stubborn with herself, maybe she didn't want to see her weakness, or maybe she didn't want to tell herself about the pain.
Ah Yue walked over, quietly did not speak, just stubbornly stared at those beautiful eyes, and his tone was unusual, becoming very serious, even stubborn.
"Sister-in-law, I hope you can live well, and I hope you don't lie to me."
Although Ah Yue's words are a little confusing, Xu Wu can understand them, maybe this is the so-called understanding of the heart! But they can't do it anymore.
Although reason is suing herself, this qiē can't go back, she is no longer innocent, and she has someone else's child, all the while, she has been telling herself not to get close to Ah Yue again, don't get close to it again.
However, when Ah Yue really left, she sadly found that this qiē was just lying to herself.
She's not having a good time, she's not doing well, she misses him so much, she misses him so much!
When she was left here alone, she thought about it every day and night, not only her master, but also Ah Yue.
The figure that can make her feel at ease, the figure that can give her happiness and stability, the figure that makes her smile with peace of mind, now that she really appears in front of her, she doesn't dare to face it.
The love in her heart accumulated more and more, and finally poured out like a wave, almost drowning her, and the valve that lay in her heart was finally broken.
Xu Yue turned around and laid on Ah Yue's arms, as if she had found a home, and finally completely burst out the love in her heart, and her tears were like a river that broke the embankment, and finally surged, and instantly soaked Ah Yue's chest.
The suppressed love suddenly broke out, and in this small warm pavilion, the two people hugged each other tightly, without superfluous words, but they could feel each other's affection as if they were connected by heart.
The night breeze blew, and the orange light seemed to be infected by this crowded feeling, rippling slightly with the night breeze.
In another palace, there was an entire room of lights, which were also drifting slightly with the night breeze.
"Dragon Phase, it's here."
Zhang Kai's voice sounded, and Yang Haolong, who was still immersed in his love, raised his head and looked at the palace in front of him, but Yang Haolong sneered, and a sarcastic smile appeared on the corner of his mouth.
is really worthy of being the king of a country, and he has always been so high!
Under the leadership of Zhang Kai, Yang Haolong soon entered the hall, but the empty hall had bright lights, illuminating the entire hall transparently, and the floor paved with warm jade appeared more and more soft under the warm light, making people feel distressed even when they stepped on it.
A burst of footsteps came, Yang Haolong followed the prestige, and a tall figure was walking in his direction, step by step with great confidence.
"Long time no see, Long'er."
Zhao Yinggang looked at the white figure not far away, there was an unconcealable excitement in his voice, and even the pace under his feet couldn't help but speed up a lot.
After getting closer, Zhao Yinggang's eyes were instantly attracted by the wheelchair under Yang Haolong, and his eyes suddenly hurt, although Bu Yi had already told him the exact news, but when he saw Yang Haolong with his own eyes, he still couldn't stop feeling distressed.
"Long'er, are you okay? Does it still hurt? ”
Zhao Yinggang still looked like an emperor at this time, squatted down and looked at Yang Haolong with a concerned face, his eyes were bright, like the stars twinkling in the sky, just like the simple and deceitful little prince in the past.
Yang Haolong did not react to Zhao Yinggang's approach, after Xu Yinggang's incident, she had no good impression of Zhao Yinggang at all, and her heart was cold or cold.
Regarding Yang Haolong's slightly indifferent expression, Zhao Yinggang didn't say anything, but his burning eyes were like flames that almost ignited Yang Haolong, and even the temperature in the entire hall rose.
After seeing Yang Haolong, Zhao Yinggang completely pasted it up, not caring about anything else at all, just like a small animal that hadn't seen its owner for a long time, always stretching out his hand in the direction of Yang Haolong, but was blocked by Yang Haolong every time.
Seeing Zhao Yinggang's excited look, Yang Haolong didn't feel it at all, she didn't come here to catch up with him, but for Xu Wu, naturally she wouldn't react to Zhao Yinggang's excitement, and once again blocked the hand that Zhao Yinggang wanted to stretch out, Yang Haolong's voice became a little impatient.
"The prime minister is here according to your wishes, shouldn't the emperor also fulfill your promise?"
Yang Haolong's voice seemed a little deep in the wide hall, and his tone also carried a hint of fire.
If it weren't for Zhao Yinggang, how could her sister-in-law be so sad, and how could she be so sad with Ah Yue.
Just because of these reasons, it is enough for Yang Haolong to hate Zhao Yinggang.
Regarding Yang Haolong's words, Zhao Yinggang turned a deaf ear, completely unwilling to disperse his energy, he just wanted to get closer to Yang Haolong now, and get closer.
The night wind blew, and there was a burst of good smell from Yang Haolong's body, Zhao Yinggang's mind had already flown to the clouds, where do you remember what Xu Wu, what child.
Now he just wants to stay with Yang Haolong, and it is best to put everything else far away.
When Zhao Yinggang once again stretched out his hand and touched Yang Haolong's face, the person who had been sitting quietly all this time finally broke out.
"Stop!"
Yang Haolong suddenly opened the hand that was stretched out towards him, and looked at Zhao Yinggang with a cynical face angrily, he talked to him so seriously, but he always looked absent-minded, which made her very annoyed.
Seeing that Yang Haolong lost his temper, Zhao Yinggang finally withdrew his hand, and the smile on his face also subsided a lot, looking at Yang Haolong's eyes with a black wave, I don't know what he was thinking.
Just when Yang Haolong thought he was going to say something, a warm kiss suddenly fell on Yang Haolong's lips, and Yang Haolong was stunned for a while.
The warm snort hit his face one by one, there was a feeling like a blade of grass scratching on his face, and the itch was annoying, Yang Haolong pushed Zhao Yinggang away, and his face was cold, like frozen ice for thousands of years.
"What are you doing!"
Yang Haolong lowered his voice and roared, anger almost erupted from his eyes, and a pair of eyes stared at Zhao Yinggang, who was not far from him.
Because the night was dark, Zhao Yinggang was also ready to go to bed, his hair was originally just loosely tied in a bun at the back of his head, and when Yang Haolong pushed it so hard, the long black hair instantly fell apart, and the scattered hair blown by the night wind covered the handsome face, and he couldn't see the color in those eyes.
"You and I are both men, what are you doing! Do you really want me to loathe you completely! ”
Yang Haolong's voice was like a pair of ice blades, mercilessly throwing towards Zhao Yinggang, and the cheeks that were half-covered by long black hair gradually had a different feeling, and gradually became tyrannical.
"You say you're a man?"
Zhao Yinggang's voice suddenly lowered a lot, because of the hoarseness of the love xù, which seemed extremely deep in this slightly dim hall, making it difficult to guess his love.
"Of course! Do you need to ask this kind of question? ”
Yang Haolong didn't seem to care about Zhao Yinggang's sudden change in tone, but a cold sarcastic smile gradually appeared at the corner of his mouth.
This kind of virtue has not changed at all from when he was a child, he is emotionally changed at every turn, and if he is unhappy in a word, he will cause all kinds of troubles, I thought that with the passage of time, he will gradually become mature, it seems, but she thinks too much.
"Of course you have to ask this kind of question!"
Zhao Yinggang finally raised his head, his originally watery eyes had long since turned red, and the smile on his face had long since disappeared, and all that was left was the stiffness before the rage, and the corners of his mouth were tightly pursed, as if he had been greatly wronged.
Grievance?
Yang Haolong sneered, who has been wronging whom, is it still unclear in his heart?
Just because he rejected his offer, he actually forced her sister-in-law on her wedding night? Just hurt others because of the outbreak of love for a while, so the temper has not changed!
This kind of selfish, ruthless style is really like someone!
For her own selfish desires, she can hurt anyone, without thinking about what the consequences will bring, such a person, how can she be bumped into!
Because the scene in front of him was really like another person, Yang Haolong's heart was instantly filled with indifference and murderous intent, and his eyes became very indifferent.
"It's naïve."
Seeing Zhao Yinggang's posture, Yang Haolong didn't want to turn around and want to leave, in such a situation, it would definitely not be able to say anything, so let's wait until he calms down.
Yang Haolong's action of turning around completely angered Zhao Yinggang, and before Yang Haolong could push the wheelchair, he was dragged back by a huge force, and when he turned around, he only saw a pair of red eyes filled with anger.
"Everybody, stand down! You stay! ”
Zhao Yinggang's voice seemed to be squeezed out of his teeth, hoarse and angry, and the palace maids and eunuchs who served in the main hall hurriedly retreated, and even Zhang Kai left together, leaving the two of them in the entire hall.
The strength of that arm was extremely strong, and Yang Haolong couldn't move at all even if he used all his strength, and he was immediately enraged, staring at Zhao Yinggang coldly.
"Let go!".