"Allure ......"

"Dongfang Yu, let's leave!"

Mingzhu raised her eyes, interrupted Dongfang Yu's words, and said a sentence on the road.

Around, there was a moment of dead silence.

The sun was setting, and the night was gradually falling, even obscuring the light, but even so, it was still clearly visible...... Dongfang Yu's face was stiff, he looked at her and was silent.

After all, this news came too suddenly.

"Allure, are you hungry? Let's go to dinner......"

After a while, Dongfang Yu opened his mouth.

didn't answer, with a hint of non-refusal, he took Mingzhu's hand...... Turning around, he walked in front, Mingzhu was behind, he wanted to speak and stopped, and finally followed his movements, quietly obedient.

She knew that such a decision was too cruel.

It's just that the departure of the pour made her clearly understand that emotional matters need to be taken seriously...... Tilting in love with her, she couldn't fall in love with Tilt, but in the name of affection, she insisted on keeping him.

Eventually, it hurt him.

Perhaps, the bystanders are clear, and the authorities are confused.

poured into what she once said, let her try to fall in love with Dongfang Yu, she has thought about it over and over again these days...... Originally, between Leaning Zhi and Dongfang Yu, she couldn't choose.

Tilted out, only Dongfang Yu remained.

She knows that she can't fall in love, as for Dongfang Yu, although she has been moved, but when it comes to falling in love, it is really far away.

Perhaps, because of the excessive responsibility on her body, she didn't have the mind for a while, involving love...... Perhaps, because of the feelings she has experienced, the result is not good, and she does not want to touch it again.

All in all, no matter what it is.

If you don't love, it's right to leave, she owes Dongfang Yu, this is a fact...... And, if this continues, she has hurt Tilt Zhi and doesn't want to hurt Dongfang Yu anymore.

Although, leaving is equally harmful.

At the very least, I can feel at ease.

She once thought in her heart that the only way to repay Dongfang Yu was to give them the affection they wanted...... Even if she doesn't love it at all, try her best to cater to their needs.

Now that I think about it, I realize that I was completely wrong.

Affection is not charity, think you can give, just give.

Thinking about the past, I had the answer in my heart, I originally married Dongfang Yu, on the one hand, because of Hua Feng...... And, on the other hand, she had the intention of taking advantage of it, although the use failed, but the original intention was always selfish.

Compared with the inclination, Dongfang Yu is persistent.

Mingzhu is afraid, afraid that if she can fall in love with Dongfang Yu and respond to his feelings, it can be regarded as a happy two...... However, more importantly, if she can't fall in love with Dongfang Yu, it will only deepen his pain.

Harmony is undoubtedly the right choice.

She owes him, he wants anything, she is willing to give him, except for feelings...... It's just that she can't guarantee whether she will fall in love with him in the future, as he wishes.

Just like her, she is with it.

After three years of getting along, if she had the mind, she would have fallen in love with her, but she couldn't fall in love for three years...... So it is destined that in this life, most of them will not be able to fall in love, and for Dongfang Yu, I am afraid that most of them will be so.

She also thought about listening to the words of the leaning and trying to love Dongfang Yu.

However, it was undoubtedly a gamble, and she didn't want to lose everything!

While Mingzhu was thinking, he followed Dongfang Yu absentmindedly, and did not notice that Dongfang Yu's pace was slow...... Ruyu's face was stained with a gentle smile and a faint pain and sorrow.

And, the eyes that have never been stained with earthly impurities.

At this moment, a bit of obsession was born.

Allure, I have thought about forgetting you and sealing it in my memory, in the past three years...... I searched all over Nanliang, but there was no trace of you, little by little, hope was extinguished.

I used to think that this was the case in this life.

You, when it was a brilliant firework in my life, after blooming with extreme beauty, disappeared...... However, you still appeared, and when I was about to forget about you, you broke in again.

Finally, I married you and completed the unfinished wedding of that year.

Allure, you are my wife, I have tasted the taste of you by your side and hugged you to sleep...... Now, how can you let me do it, let you leave my presence, and from now on become a stranger.

The two were silent, their minds very different.

First went to the front hall, had dinner, and then went to the room together, each with no thoughts...... However, in Nuoda's mansion, Forsythia had already left, and the remaining maids, looking at such a scene, did not dare to make any disturbances.

Mingzhu and Dongfang Yu seem to be waiting, waiting for the two of them to speak first and break this deadlock.

Sitting on the edge of the bed, staring ahead, Dongfang Yu, who was reading a book, Mingzhu sighed slightly in her heart, full of apologies...... However, in an eventful time, she has proposed reconciliation and separation, indicating her meaning.

She thought, Dongfang Yu was already clear in her heart.

Now that this is the case, she doesn't want to speak out anymore and force him to do so, with Dongfang Yu's clear mind...... Maybe, when will I figure it out, Mingzhu's thinking is indeed correct, but I forgot a little.

It is unclear, but Dongfang Yu is very clear.

But in terms of feelings, even if you have any seven-trick exquisite heart, you can't pass the word "love" in a chic way...... Some people choose to wait, some choose to quit, but many more choose to force.

Dongfang Yu itself, in the past years, has never forced anyone to do anything.

Perhaps, it is precisely like this, when it is forced, it is deeper than anyone else.

Mingzhu thought about Xiahou Yuan, and although he was a little sure of the words he said, Forsythia was not in his hands...... But after thinking about it, I got up and walked out of the room, but as soon as I stepped out of the door.

Behind, there was a hint of anxiety: "Allure, where are you going?!" ”

Slightly stunned, footsteps sounded.

Soon, a gentle face appeared in front of him, with a little nervousness...... Mingzhu stared at Dongfang Yu, thoughtful, and after thinking about it, he still had the heart to talk to him, and he hadn't spoken yet.

Dongfang Yu lowered his eyes and hid his caring words: "Allure, are you angry?" I...... I just don't know...... What to say......"

After a while, his warm face gave birth to seriousness: "So, don't leave, okay?" ”

Mingzhu's heart, suddenly, was stunned.

Dongfang Yu loves her, she has always known this, but she didn't expect to take care of her so carefully...... She was ashamed of him, before reuniting with Dongfang Yu, she was a hateful person, and she didn't care about anyone.

However, in the past few months, she has gradually become normal.

Especially between him and Jun Mobai, after returning to peace, his mood was restored...... That's it, facing Dongfang Yu with deep affection, she felt a heavy pressure, and at the same time.

Let her thoughts be firmer.

Wei bit his lip and replied: "I'm not angry, and I don't want to leave." Just go out and come back soon. ”

Hearing this, Dongfang Yu's heart was a little relieved and took a step back.

Mingzhu was silent, bowed her head and walked out.

Poured into the house, there were people from Tianya Pavilion to protect the safety of the pearl, and they arrived at a specific place...... Mingzhu confessed to find out whether the forsythia was in Xiahou Yuan's hands, and then turned back.

When she went back, Dongfang Yu was waiting for her.

Another burst of silence, on the pearl. The bed was down, and although it was lying, it was not sleepy...... After a while, the candlelight in the room went out, and Dongfang Yu approached the bedside and lay down with his clothes.

The two have been like this these days, keeping their distance.

Unlike in the past, Mingzhu was lying in Dongfang Yu's arms, with a little closeness.

At night, everything is silent, only a faint moonlight, through the window, drifting in...... Faintly, there were shadows in the room, and the dim light hid everything.

Mingzhu closed her eyes and thought about something.

Until, a pair of hands came up around her waist and grabbed her from behind.

After a pause, Dongfang Yu had already stepped forward, and gently hugged her warmly...... I can't say what it tastes, Mingzhu's body is slightly stiff, I wanted to follow him, but I finally realized it.

If you can't fall in love with Dongfang Yu, you will break his thoughts.

"Dongfang Yu, you know, I don't love you."

Mingzhu's voice was cold, piercing the original calm...... The hand around her waist tightened slightly, Mingzhu felt it clearly, and quickly replied with one word: "Hmm." ”

"Then you ......"

"Allure, don't say it. I know what you want to say......"

Dongfang Yu approached Mingzhu's hair and took her into his arms more and more, filling his empty heart with some ...... He held quietly,

Hidden is to say, Mingzhu feels out, and is also waiting patiently.

"Allure, I have always known that you are not willing to marry me. At first, I just wanted to keep you by my side until you found happiness. ”

The surroundings are full of quiet, and the voice of oriental jade is like a pearl falling on a jade plate, elegant and good.

"I thought I could do it. However, in fact, I couldn't do it at all, and then I thought, instead of waiting for you to find happiness, I should come and give you happiness. ”

Dongfang Yu smiled bitterly, as if laughing at his helplessness.

Mingzhu listened quietly, only to feel the apology in her heart, overflowing, and the arm that was around her waist and holding her seemed to have heat, so hot that she wanted to escape.

"Allure, I admit, I might as well be free. Can...... Trying to fall in love? Even if you can't fall in love, it doesn't matter, as long as you're around, I don't care about anything......"

By the end of the conversation, there was already a little begging.

Mingzhu's heart trembled, and she couldn't say more words for a while, but she felt sad that her heart was wrinkled...... She hesitated, as if she was shaken, but after all, she was ruthless, reached out and pushed Dongfang Yu's palm down her waist.

"Dongfang Yu, why are you doing this?"

Full of apologies, Mingzhu asked rhetorically.

Then, he slowly turned around, and in the darkness, his face was met, and his heart ached slightly...... His words hit her heart, making her more and more disgusted with herself, and provoked Dongfang Yu.

Obviously, when they met again, she thought about avoiding Dongfang Yu.

In fact, she did avoid Dongfang Yu again and again, but later accidents made her selfish...... Now, she is thinking unconsciously, fortunately, she didn't use Dongfang Yu, and she felt less guilty.

However, the thought is also guilty.

Didn't use Dongfang Yu, what should I do? She finally married him, and now she is reconciled with him...... Isn't it another kind of injury!

"Dongfang Yu, I'm sorry."

In the end, Mingzhu said in a low voice.

"Allure, you know that these three words are the most hurtful. And what I wanted to hear was never this ......"

In a moment's trance, with Mingzhu's apology, Dongfang Yu's heart was like being stabbed with a sword.

He couldn't help but touch the murderer and pressed down the place where Jun Mobai had been stabbed...... Even after such a long time, there is still pain coming out, like a flood of sadness, pouring out.

"Do you know how happy I am when you promised to be a real husband and wife with me and have a child that belongs to us in the future! Allure, this is the answer after you think about it? ”

It's quite persistent.,It seems to be getting deeper and deeper.,Can't get out of it.。

"I'm sorry...... I'm really sorry! I shouldn't feel guilty...... I promised you at the time...... Now ...... broken promise"

"Allure!"

Mingzhu's intermittent apologies are not yet fully on the road.

Dongfang Yu's voice was already cold, this seemed to be the first time, and he exuded endless coldness for Mingzhu...... Mingzhu's heart trembled, and she reacted after realizing it, opened her mouth, and was powerless to defend for a while.

"You said yes just because you ...... Guilty?! ”

The next moment, Dongfang Yu pressed to ask, and his tone was hoarse in disappointment...... Mingzhu bit her lip, she didn't want to hurt him, but she still hurt him, I just hoped that the damage at this moment could be less than in the future.

"Yes......"

Mingzhu closed her eyes and admitted it with a word.

"Heh......"

Soon, after a dead silence, Dongfang Yu laughed.

The laughter was mixed with endless loneliness and desolation, and Mingzhu was worried for a while...... But in fact, she promised Dongfang Yu at that time, maybe she was a little moved, but more often she couldn't bear to disappoint him and didn't want to hurt him.

Unexpectedly, he couldn't bear it for a while, but now not only did he not avoid it, but he was hurt more and more.

"I thought you would have a little affection for me! It turns out that it's just guilt...... Are you just guilty......"

The first half of the sentence is self-deprecating, and in the second sentence, it is already a little muttered.

Mingzhu trembled his hand and stretched out to Dongfang Yu in front of him, feeling sorry in his heart, touching his palm...... Holding it tightly, a thousand words can only be condensed into one sentence, the words he doesn't want to hear.

"I'm sorry...... I don't want to hurt you...... Really don't want to ......."

Lost love, the tone could not be calm.

Just as she was at a loss when she was leaning in, she suddenly realized what a stupid thing she had done...... Tilting it into Dongfang Yu, she can't give feelings, she shouldn't get into trouble from the beginning, and she shouldn't make a promise.

Because of guilt, to reciprocate with affection is still a hopeless relationship.

Unless, she's in love with them.

Otherwise, such an approach is simply wrong to the extreme!

"Allure...... Pleasure...... Allure ......"

Abruptly, I only felt that a thought became a demon, Dongfang Yu kept reading it in his mouth, reading the name of the woman in front of him...... This name, how many times when he dreamed back at midnight, it was unforgettable, and it made him toss and turn.

Now, she was right in front of him, giving him infinite hope.

He thought that even if she didn't love him, at least, with a trace of affection, he could still hope for it...... If so, she has nothing to do with him, how can she promise him, think about the future life of the two, and think about having a child with him.

But it turned out that it was just guilt.

In my heart, it seems that there is a fierce beast hidden, and I have been asleep for a long time, and for a while, I woke up...... His heart has never been as light as water, except for something related to Allure, and at this moment, it is undoubtedly unstoppable.

Tightly, holding her palm back.

Inside his body, he was full of longing and shouting, he couldn't control it, and he didn't want to control it for a while, so he let the desire occupy his heart...... Rolled over, pressed on her body, lowered his head to find the source, and forcibly kissed her on the lips.

"Dongfang Yu, what are you going to do?!"

His arms were imprisoned at his sides, and his kisses fell in a haphazard manner.

Mingzhu couldn't dodge, so she could only be forced to let those kisses fall everywhere, and a trace of panic flashed in her heart...... She twisted her body and struggled to escape, but Dongfang Yu lost her mind, and her strength was amazing.

At this moment, it fully reflects the disparity in power between men and women.

Seeing that Dongfang Yu kept going, she even took off her clothes, and the kiss spread...... I can't tell you how I feel, I hate it, maybe I don't hate it, but I definitely don't like it, or anything else.

"Dongfang Yu, if this is what you want, then ...... It doesn't hurt to give you this body. ”

Giving up resistance, Mingzhu quieted down and let Dongfang Yu's go.

A silent sentence made Dongfang Yu, who had lost his heart, stiffen his body...... He stopped there, lying on Mingzhu's body, and for a long time there was no movement, as if he had lost his life.

It took a long time for him to make a move.

Through the darkness, he stared at the pearl under him, and whispered: "Allure, I'm sorry." ”

She said to him, I'm sorry, and now, he's saying to her, I'm sorry.

Between the two, who owes whom is inconclusive.

While Dongfang Yu spoke, his face was full of pain, and all kinds of sourness turned into a bit of crystal...... Anxious and wolf-like, he stepped back from Mingzhu's body and stumbled out of bed.

"Dongfang Yu ......"

"Before, because of guilt, I promised to think about it. Now, is it because of guilt that you are willing to give it to me? ”

Mingzhu's words were interrupted by Dongfang Yu.

His voice was mixed with a trace of sadness, such a pure person, while crying bitterly, let others also feel his pain, and couldn't help but worry about him.

Thinking of Mingzhu's words just now, Dongfang Yu's heart was like a knife.

Mingzhu was silent, wanting to appease Dongfang Yu, but he felt that he had no qualifications...... How to appease? Obviously, the person who makes her sad is also her!

"Allure, you don't have to feel guilty. All along, it's not you, it's me, and I force you to stay by my side. Therefore, Allure, you don't have to feel guilty anymore, and you don't have to make up for me emotionally or even physically because of guilt. ”

After a pause, Dongfang Yu raised his eyes and looked straight at the bed: "Because of this, it hurts even more." It's hurting more than you don't love me, you know? ”

Mingzhu was stunned, and then got up from the bed.

"I ......"

Opening her mouth, Mingzhu was eager to say something.

However, Dongfang Yu's body trembled, took a few steps back, and staggered and stretched out his hand: "Please, Allure, don't say I'm sorry anymore!" Really don't say it anymore......"

After finishing speaking, under Mingzhu's gaze, Dongfang Yu slowly turned around.

Walked straight to the door.

During this period, it seemed to hit a table and chair or something, making a small breaking sound, and never stopped...... Mingzhu only had time to look, he opened the door, and the cold moonlight sprinkled down.

Shining by the door, Dongfang Yu's body is like a fairy.

Waiting to leave. In the room, Dongfang Yu seemed to have thought of something, and a wry smile appeared on his lips...... stayed for a moment, did not turn around, but turned his back to Mingzhu, and lost his mind for a moment.

"Allure, in your heart, it's not that you can't love others. It's because it's always pretending to be the old man, isn't it? ”

Thinking of all the things that Jun Mobai has arrived.

even thought that Jun Mobai cut off her two fingers for her, and she inadvertently revealed her care...... Allure, if you don't love it, no matter whether the Prime Minister's Mansion is related to Jun Mobai or not, you won't care about him.

And, you care about him, you care about him breaking two fingers.

Care about him, whether there is a existence zài.

Actually, Allure, you have always loved Jun Mobai, just like back then, otherwise, you wouldn't have heard that when he lost his memory, he was so unforgettable and painful.

You hate him because he might be a murderer.

But, why not, it is precisely because he is a murderer that he hates it so painfully.

What's more, he forgot about you, no longer remembered you, you still remember him, but there is no longer your existence in his memory...... You say, why should I bother with you, and why should you bother with Jun Mobai.

I can't forget him, but after I know the truth, I avoid him.

Allure, I think, I really don't understand you.

Dongfang Yu said this, no longer nostalgic, turned around and left outside...... Before leaving, I didn't forget to close the door of the room, so as not to let the slightly cold night breeze blow into the room.

And, the moment you step out of the door.

There was a drop of crystal, which slowly flowed out from Dongfang Yu's eyes, flowing over his face, until he reached his chin...... Leaving a wet thread, it eventually dripped to the ground, buried in the dust, silently.

Mingzhu sat in front of the bed, as if awakened by Dongfang Yu's words.

Stunned, I haven't come back to my senses for a long time.

The scattered hair fell down on the shoulders and chest, and the placket of the upper body was a little scattered, as if it had left the marks of the past...... She sat quietly, with the same pain in her heart, mixed with guilt and desolation.

And, Dongfang Yu's last words seem to reveal a long-hidden secret.

It turns out that my secret is none other than you.

This secret has been hidden for too long, so long that I have forgotten it, and I have forgotten the existence of this secret...... It was like waking up from a dream, and the hesitation that hit me had nowhere to hide, and I didn't dare to mention the memories that had been in my bones.

I was surprised that the lovesickness was not revealed, and it turned out that it was only because it had entered the bones.

I don't know what to do, and I go deep.