Section 239 Loneliness
At night, I had a good dream.
In the dream, Jiaming and Mommy finally separated, Jiaming fell in love with her - this is also a matter of course - in the faint of holiness, she wore a white veil and followed Jiaming into the cathedral, just like in every TV series, they got married, and then lived happily together, and Jiaming, and mother, of course, a person as powerful as Jiaming, naturally there will be many other vixens like, but little Heidi used her beauty and wisdom to defeat them, In the end, they walked away one by one ashamedly.
I was very happy when I thought about it, and when I woke up, I still had a satisfied smile on the corner of my mouth.
Crawling out of the soft futon, she rubbed her eyes, it was snowing outside the window, the north wind was howling, the sky was gloomy, but the room across the wall was warm, it was a good feeling, barefoot, she got out of bed gently, no shoes, sneaky push the door out.
Can't alarm others, she wants to see the reaction of Jiaming and her mother first, will it be specially holding something in the living room waiting for her to kneel or beat her.
Although I have never been treated like this before, what happened this time is indeed a big deal, at least ...... It is the most important thing in her life force, to be cautious, to be careful...... Quietly walked to the door of Jiaming's room, she lay on the carpet, put her ear to the door, and listened like this for a while, but there was no movement inside, and she couldn't help but feel a little disappointed. She knew that Jiaming was powerful, and at this time it was the time when her heart was weak, so she pushed open the door and didn't dare, so she stood up quietly, and wanted to go to her mother's room to listen for a while, and when she walked to the staircase, there was a sound of making breakfast below, and it was clear that it was Mommy's actions when she heard it.
Carefully poked her head out to make sure that Jiaming was not in the living room, she slowly dived down, hid behind the sofa in the living room and looked at the kitchen, only to see Marilyn was wearing the nightdress from last night, frying eggs a little mechanically, looking from a distance, her face was a little pale and silent, and her eyes were a little sloppy. It looks like Mommy is really separated from Jiaming, Heidi thought to herself.
As she was watching, there was a sudden bang, and the shovel in Marilyn's hand seemed to have used the wrong force, and the egg flew out, but the hot oil droplets splashed on her fingers, and the shovel fell to the kitchen floor with a snap. She took a step back at a loss, and then crouched down, reaching for the shovel, but the hand shook in the air a few times, but the finger that had been splashed with oil reached into her mouth and sucked gently, and tears rolled down her eyes.
Heidi hid there, watching her mother sit on the ground while crying, wiping her tears, suppressing her whining cry, and suddenly felt some pain in her heart, without Jiaming, Mommy was so painful, but ...... This kind of thing...... She thought for a moment and quietly went upstairs.
When she came down again, Marilyn continued to make breakfast with red eyes, her hands moved mechanically, and when she saw Heidi coming from the side, she turned her face inward and reached out to wipe the corners of her eyes: "Up?" ”
Biting her lip, Heidi nodded, then walked over, grabbed her mother's right hand without saying a word, took out the scalding medicine to help her wipe it, and there was a burst of fragrance coming from the pot of the omelette, Marilyn looked at her daughter in a daze, and only after a long time did she hear her say: "Mommy, I also like Jiaming's ......"
With a complicated smile on her face, Marilyn hugged her daughter in her arms, and after a while, the smell of burnt gradually came out of the pot, Marilyn picked up the shovel, and Heidi came out of her mother's arms: "I went to see if Jia Ming got up." ”
"No need to scream."
"He's up?"
"He left last night."
"Uh......" turned around, and Heidi's face turned pale, "What...... How could it be ......"
In the sound of thumping footsteps, the little girl quickly went upstairs, and in a moment, the sound of the door opening, shouts such as "Jiaming ......" kept coming down, Marilyn held back her tears and put the breakfast on the plate, the little girl had already run down quickly, crying at her mother: "Impossible! He must just be out, he's got a lot of things to ......"
"His stuff is gone."
"I'll go find him!"
Heidi said, just like that, she was about to run out of the door, and as soon as she opened the door, the north wind whistled in with snowflakes, and Marilyn hurriedly went over and grabbed her: "It's so cold outside, you are wearing pajamas......"
"I'm going to find him!" Pulled by her mother, Heidi's body sat down on the ground suddenly, she was already crying loudly, she was not a fool, seeing her mother's appearance, listening to her voice, her heart had sunk directly, knowing that things were getting bigger, she cried for a while, and saw that her mother was also wiping her tears, and said in a dumb voice: "Then when will he come back......"
"I don't know...... Marilyn's voice was a little choked, and she went over to hug her daughter, "Maybe she won't come back......"
In the room, only Heidi's crying was left for a while, Marilyn put her arms around her, comforting: "Don't cry, it's that mom is not good enough......"
"Not really!" Heidi interrupted her and cried for a while before she looked at her mother with teary eyes, "It's my fault, I made him angry and hated, and he left, because I deliberately hurt him last night......"
She took a hard breath and cried: "He didn't touch me, I told him I liked him, and I ended up asking him to go back to my room to sleep, and when I went out, I saw you coming, so I hurriedly ran back to his room, deliberately took off my clothes to let you see, he was angry with me......"
"......" looked at her daughter, Marilyn's lips trembled a few times, and for a moment, she looked out of the window with snowflakes flying a little overwhelmed, "You, what you said is true......"
"I'm sorry, I don't dare......" Heidi cried, "You let him come back, where did he go, I won't dare in the future, you let him come back to scold me and beat me, you let him come back, I don't dare......"
"I can't come back...... "After a long time, she stroked her daughter's cheek, and a sad smile appeared on her pale face, "I can't come back...... It's not your fault, it's Mommy's fault, Mommy doesn't believe him...... It's Mommy's fault......"
In the sound of the wind and snow outside the window, the sound seems to be a thin line that wants to be broken at any time, hoarse and sad, gradually disappearing, only the girl's regretful cry remains, faintly, sluggish echoes......**************************************************** early in the morning of December 21, 98, a snowstorm fell on New York, low-pressure dark clouds, gloomy sky, howling north wind through every part of the city, snowflakes fluttering, Visibility was reduced to a minimum in the city, car horns were blaring everywhere on the roads, and even though all the drivers were slowing down, there were still inevitably several crashes in the city, and every New York TV station was reporting on the snow at half past seven in the morning.
"Yikes. How can this be done in New York? "The four sides are white, there is a green ornamental tree in the corner of the wall, and in the beautifully arranged ward, the woman who is dressed tightly but still can be called a showy woman is watching TV, and at the same time turning back to the woman sitting on the hospital bed and talking, "This is too unreasonable, every day is not a car accident, or a shootout or something, the night before yesterday, killing people on the street in front is the same as making a movie, and it snows so heavily today, I still think it is a good place, and the plan to go out to play today has been ruined again." ”
"Bad luck." The young woman in the white patient gown on the bed smiled, "Didn't Mr. Chen tell us that the mafia has been fighting again recently?" The man named Mantou also said yesterday that the one who lives in Ward 14 is a mafia. "Mr. Chen in the woman's mouth, is the captain of the guard on their trip, it is said that he used to be a mercenary, he is very good, and he is also well-informed in all aspects, and he usually likes to listen to these things as anecdotes, in order to show his knowledge, as for the guy nicknamed the steamed bun, he is naturally the little fat man with a baby face that he met only the day before yesterday.
"I like to hear about the mafia." The well-dressed woman smiled with interest, "That's the mafia, have you seen the godfather, do you really want to go to Hollywood to find Marlon?" Brando to be signed. You're sick anyway, how about we find time to go to Hollywood? ”
"That's just an actor, it's different from the real one, the real mafia does all kinds of bad things, human trafficking, protection money, murder, drug trafficking, you pick up a piece of scrap in New York and they will kill you."
"You know again."
"Of course I ......" The words came out of the mouth, and suddenly stopped, the woman in the patient gown showed a complicated look on her face, and the woman on the side asked strangely, "What's wrong?" ”
"Nothing, it's just...... Heh, nothing. "I vividly remember that I heard about the mafia, Colombian drug lords and the like, and heard it as an anecdote from someone's mouth, when I was playing the role of an iron-blooded teacher in school, but that person would enter his office that was considered a forbidden area every free time, use his own computer, eat his own snacks, occupy his own seat, sleep on his own sofa, and think about it is really a little aggrieved, but it feels like a room shared by the two of them. Such an intimate feeling...... Gone forever...... "Remembered that negative guy?" Immersed in thoughts, when the other party suddenly stretched out his face, he was startled a little, and couldn't help but smile and complain: "Mom! ”
"Nope! Want! Think! He! Waving his fingers, the little mother said word by word, "Isn't that the one I liked when I was young like that, you take him seriously, he doesn't take you seriously, after I married your father, he always came to me, cut, didn't bother to pay attention to him, let him regret it, tell you, men are cheap bones, if you want to have him, the only way is to never let him feel that he has you." ”
"Hmph." Pouted, "I told dad to go, you have another man......"
"I have his heart, though I'm not rare now." Smiling proudly, the little mother said frankly, "But your father owns me." Your dad is the most suitable man for me, if I am with the man before, I will still be separated in the end, and the closer I get, the more unbearable I will be. ”
"So you love my dad more?"
"You little girl only believe in love, that's one of the reasons why two people come together, but to live together, love doesn't make much sense, people who don't love can live together, but when two people live together for a long time, the feeling of being familiar with each other and treating each other as their own is the most comfortable."
"Cut." Rolled his eyes, "Mom, you're not old, why do you talk like an old man." ”
"It's strange to be old, ten years ago I was one of the staunch opponents of cosmetics, and now I end up looking at cosmetics all day long." patted his still round face, "So you'd better brush my teeth and wash my face quickly, let's go out for breakfast and say we're going to do some shopping today." ”
Although the two are nominally stepmothers and stepdaughters, they are like sisters, similar to personal emotional problems, Xiaoma has always been very frank, and the two often communicate when they are together, many things even Zhang Jingan doesn't know, but Yahan knows it clearly, for example, Xiaoma's love process with her former boyfriend, the two still have some broken things, several times the current down-and-out man came over, and the hot-tempered little mother scolded him away, almost called the security guard to beat people, or Yahan came forward to persuade the other party, The last time the man scolded the little mother for liking the new and hating the old, hating the poor and loving the rich, and greedy for the property of the Zhang family. Finally drove the man away. However, hearing that the other party still insisted on the idea of shopping, Yahan couldn't help but feel bitter.
"Isn't it, do you still go shopping in this weather?"
"Just go to the supermarket on the street next door, two big ones, one in the morning and one in the afternoon, the day is over, hurry up, grinding, are you older than me?"
"Uh...... All right. The woman in the patient's costume nodded helplessly, walked into the bathroom, picked up the toothbrush and toothpaste, and after a while, the little mother's face appeared by the door: "You are holding my toothbrush...... Who is the man who hid in your bed and knocked me unconscious once, let you be dumped and still miss it so much, you have been a little absent-minded since yesterday, say it, I won't trouble him because of that incident! ”
"Uh...... Hehe, it's a mistake, mom, you brush it again. ”
"Cut." Rolling her eyes, the little mother waved her hand and left the bathroom, Yahan pursed her lips, changed her toothbrush, squeezed the toothpaste, raised her head, and a beautiful and lonely face appeared in the mirror......*************
It's too dark, it's too dark, I'm just saying a word...... Fifteen thousand words and a hundred votes, you are all mafia...... Weep......
(To be continued)