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said that he was tired and wanted to rest, but in fact, Yahan didn't sleep on the whole road, sitting there lazily watching Jiaming drive, and didn't know what he was thinking. Pen @ fun @ pavilion wWw. ｂｉｑUｇE。 ｉｎｆｏ

The rain was heavy, and the sky outside was gloomy, but it also washed the world thoroughly, so that everything became clear in this heavy rain, some neighborhoods lit up with street lamps, the light was shining, the cars that drove by turned on the headlights, the flower beds and trees on the roadside were all verdant, and before long, the familiar scenery came into view.

The Sacred Heart College is in the summer vacation at this time, everything is cold and deserted in the heavy rain, the road and residential area surround the whole school, and the main entrance square of the Sacred Heart College is separated on both sides, one side goes to the small building where Jiaming, Lingjing, and Shasha live together, and the other side goes to the villa where she lived in the Sacred Heart, and the two sides are not far apart. When Jiaming was in high school, the four of them often moved around, and then Jiaming had a relationship with her, and then Lingjing and Shasha left, and the two lived in the villa, Jiaming went back to do the final cleaning of Xiaolou, and she also went over to help, and the scenery now looks like that year.

Once at the Sacred Heart, there was not much left to do, and when we arrived at the villa, the house still looked the same as before, with the rain washing away the exterior walls. When the door was opened, the key in Yahan's hand was not aligned with the keyhole several times. When the door opens, everything covered in white comes into view.

"Mom said this is where Taotao was born." The little girl looked curiously at everything in the room, and then jumped in front, she had not been here much, if the time had been earlier, she had forgotten about it, although no one lived, but the accumulated dust was not much, and all the furnishings remained the same as they were a few years ago.

"Come and clean every six months......"

Yahan pulled out the white cloth covering the sofa and spoke softly, Jiaming also went over to talk about these things and lifted them again, Taotao occasionally went over to help, occasionally sat on the sofa, rolled a few times, upstairs and downstairs, and asked: "Mom, in which room was I born?" Something like that.

“…… That year, I was pregnant with Taotao, and I fell out with my family, so I invited an aunt to come and take care of me...... It's okay to be pregnant with Taotao for a few months, and I didn't vomit too much...... It's just that I always kick my ......" Speaking of the pregnancy, Yahan showed a gentle smile on her face, "I didn't cause anything to be pregnant in October, but I was born half a month earlier than the due date, and this child ...... That afternoon, I suddenly felt that I was going to give birth, so I called the doctor, and when the doctor came, I simply delivered the baby in the clean room prepared here, because the birth was fast, and in two hours, Taotao came out and cried so loudly......"

While cleaning up, Yahan said this, Taotao opened her eyes wide and listened to it, such a thing is fast, more than ten minutes, up and down have been restored to their original appearance, Yahan took a lot of pillows, went to the living room sofa on the pillowcase, Taotao sat in the soft pillow pile and whispered to the big white bear, she naturally has no shortage of dolls, but I think Yahan or others will not give her this kind of toy that is two or three times larger than her size, it is quite novel for a while. Jiaming went to the commissary outside to buy a few packs for easy return, boiled boiling water in an electric kettle and ate them, and put two ham sausages in it.

"I didn't eat at noon, make do with it."

Xiao Taotao looked at him with bright eyes on the other side.

Instant noodles are not a precious thing, but under Yahan's care, Taotao has grown so big, and naturally there is no chance to eat this junk food. Yahan couldn't help but smile when she looked at her daughter's gaze, and then brewed a bowl for Taotao, and in the steaming heat, the little girl held the big bowl and gulped down the noodles she had eaten for the first time.

After eating a small half bowl of instant noodles, Taotao talked with Bai Xiong on the sofa for a while, and fell asleep. She was bored for a long time this morning in order to accommodate her mother, and although she arrived in a new place, she couldn't find anything to play after all, and after she was full, she took sleeping with the white bear as a pastime. When Yahan carried the sleeping little girl to the inner room, Jiaming finished eating the remaining noodles from Taotao and went to the kitchen to wash the dishes. The room was quiet, there was Yahan's small singing voice coaxing her daughter to sleep, her footsteps were slight, and after a while, the familiar woman was close to his back, her hands went around her chest, and hugged him.

The atmosphere tended to be quiet, neither of them spoke, Jiaming slowly put the porcelain bowl back in the cupboard, and Yahan took his two hands and asked him to hug her.

"Your hands are still wet......

"I don't care...... Yahan's voice was as soft as in a dream.

"Huh."

Jiaming smiled, wiped the water stains on his hands with a new towel, then turned around, reached down his knees and picked her up, although he went to the sofa and let her lie on his lap, the winter four years ago, every night, they were often like this, Ya covered the blanket, hugged the pillow and talked to him, always unwilling to go to bed early. Jia Ming hugged her, and after a while, he spoke: "In the past few years...... It's been a hard time, isn't it? ”

"If you have Taotao, you won't be bitter." Yahan took a pillow in her arms and curled up gently beside his lap.

"I'm ...... thinner than before"

"I often go to exercise." Yahan looked up at him, "Remember how heavy I am?" ”

"Remember you're sturdy here."

Fingers passed through the hem of the shirt, gently pressing the skin of her upper abdomen, the first skin contact four years ago, there was like a fire burning between the fingers, Yahan's body trembled, closed her eyes, and then opened it, and one hand was gently attached to the back of Jia Ming's hand: "I have already given birth to a child, where is there still the same as before." ”

"Taotao was taught well by you."

"I used to think that this life was for her...... she was silent for a moment, "just like the song you sang to me before, I hope to grow up with her all the time, watch her finally get married, live happily, want to live a little longer, give her the best things, maybe ...... You can still be seen in her. The illness is not cured, so I do maintenance more regularly than before, and I can't get my surname, and I can't cry in front of Taotao, sometimes I go to your grave and cry for an afternoon......"

Her eyes were tightly closed, and she pressed Jiaming's hand on her lower abdomen, and it took a long time before she whispered: "The night you left...... I know...... Crying on the balcony watching you walk ......"

"I understand ......"

"I've been so tired in the past four years, Jiaming ......"

"I understand...... It's all right......"

Whispering softly, gently comforting, Yahan recalled all these things, and spoke in Jia Ming's arms, as if he wanted to tell everything about the past four years.

“…… After you left, I didn't dare to tell anyone about my pregnancy, so I resigned from the Sacred Heart Academy, so I could only live here, and I didn't dare to go back at home......"

“…… After my father found out about the pregnancy, he forced me to beat Taotao, but I still thought about being strong, and I almost died to show him......"

“…… Taotao was angry, and after seeing her, my father didn't have anything to say, so he asked me to go back and forced me to say your identity......"

"Taotao Qizhi ...... early"

"Then I went to work in the company......

"Taotao is always my shield......"

"Get up every morning, sing to her, and learn to talk to ......"

“……”

"A lot of messy things, but every time I see Taotao, I feel like everything is worth it......"

The time was close to five o'clock, and in the faint murmur, Yahan finally fell asleep deeply, Jiaming looked at the sky outside and darkened, hugged Yahan for a long time, and finally carried her to the room next to the master bedroom, let her lie on the bed, and cover her with a thin blanket. He sat on the edge of the bed and watched the woman sleep, then got up and left.

When she came to the master bedroom, Taotao also took one of the white bear's hands and slept soundly, and the little girl's sleeping position was very quiet, which was like a mother. This is his daughter, the daughter born to Yahan with him, and when he thinks of this, he has a rather unfamiliar emotion in his heart, and he feels that it is a little unrealistic.

In any case, he didn't think about what would happen after he became a father, and the reunion with Yahan was what he expected, but this daughter, even though he knew about her existence before, still felt a little helpless when they met.

It's a little troublesome for small people and children. It's not such a caring person, Jiaming, who used to be more annoying to children, thought about it and pulled the quilt for his daughter. This is a brand new person, like a blank sheet of paper, you are responsible for her future, there is no pattern to follow, there is no chance to repeat, all kinds of past experience are useless in front of you, and you have to ensure that she can be happy - he doesn't like this feeling, it is foreseeable that the future will become extremely troublesome, he is not the material to be a teacher, the last student who put him in charge of Kaoru can only be said to be a half-finished product, and the prospect he once expected, it is really very different.

"No way, this kind of thing ......," he thought, and finally sighed and muttered to himself, "There is a difficulty to go, there is no difficulty...... Creating difficulties must also be carried out...... "This is the result of sowing seeds...... I don't want to disturb Taotao's continued sleep, and I don't want to worry about this anymore, Jiaming walked out of the room and began to tidy up some common things, although sofas, beds, cabinets, electrical appliances and other things can be used by lifting a white cloth, but many things, after all, are still unusable at this time. Toilets, bathrooms, garages...... After walking around the place, about half an hour later, when he came to the storage room on the second floor with a few things, he suddenly noticed that there seemed to be some slight movement in the room where Yahan was resting at this time.

Gently pushed open the door, only to see that on the big bed, Yahan's body was moving restlessly, his eyebrows were frowning, and he didn't know what nightmare he had, and his originally neat hair was messy on the pillow at this time. He glanced twice, ready to put his things back in the storage room and come down to take a look. The things were just put away, and suddenly Yahan shouted below: "Jiaming!" ”

Walking quickly to the staircase, what she saw in her eyes was the scene of Yahan suddenly rushing out of the room, the sound of opening the door was very loud, she looked anxious, her face was covered with beads of sweat, she glanced left and right, obviously swept over the top of the stairs, but she didn't seem to see Jia Ming standing there at all, she stood breathlessly for a few seconds, she opened the doors of the rooms downstairs, her eyes swept out the window a little blankly, and then ran to the door of the villa.

Jia Ming was stunned there, he could almost clearly hear the murmuring and shouting in Yahan's mouth, it was all his own name, he was standing in front of her, but she couldn't see herself, just crying like that, while looking in the room, pushing open the door and running a few steps, about to enter the rain curtain before stopping, she cried in the rain looking for the figure she wanted to see, and after a while, she ran back again, ran towards the stairs, probably going upstairs, until she went up two steps, she suddenly stood there, looking at him above the stairs.

Jiaming suddenly understood that on the snowy night she left four years ago, when she left in a state of headache to nightmarishness, what happened in the room may be everything in front of her, she then went to the balcony and watched the scene of her leaving in the snow, she could only cry, but she couldn't catch up. Today, from the meeting to the later narration, she was trying to calm down and suppress her mood, and in the dream at this time, everything finally broke out.

After four years, she stood at the top of the stairs, her eyes finally separated the past from reality, she saw the figure above, with tears and beads of sweat on her face, reaching out and grabbing the placket on her chest, for a moment, the face full of tears struggled out of a smile, this relieved smile finally collapsed in the deepening grievances and palpitations. She knelt down on the stairs and cried out with a "...... ha", but this time, she couldn't hold it back any longer.

Slowly, Jiaming hugged her.

"It's okay, I'm back, it's okay, it's okay......"

"Don't leave me again......"

A sad cry that went straight to the soul.

(To be continued)