Chapter 16: Self-blame
Bai Yanyan was choked by Cheng Nanwei and didn't know what to say.
Cheng Nanwei raised his eyes to look at Bai Yanyan again, his expression had regained calm, "Don't worry, after Jiajia wakes up, I won't say anything serious to her, and I won't criticize her, she must be very sad when she loses her child, as for the matter of her going to visit Song Chenfei, we shouldn't know, and no one should mention it to her in the future..."
Bai Yanyan breathed a sigh of relief and looked at Cheng Nanwei gratefully, "Thank you..."
Cheng Nanwei reluctantly touched the corners of his lips, but he couldn't squeeze out a smile, so he could only say: "Ye Xiang, you send Miss Bai home, I will call you when Jiajia wakes up." ”
Ye Xiang nodded and walked out with Bai Yanyan.
The ward finally quieted down, Cheng Nanwei leaned on the back of the chair weakly, staring blankly at Cong Jiajia on the hospital bed, his heart ached like a knife was constantly cutting, Cong Jiajia's behavior made him feel painful, he was already so good to her, for her, he did not hesitate to turn his face with his mother, and completely broke with Yu Zhan, he held Cong Jiajia in his hands for fear that she would hurt, and held it in his hands for fear that she would fall, but Song Chenfei was still so important in her heart, and she came to the hospital to visit Song Chenfei in this case.
How can he not be jealous, how can he not be lost, he is just an ordinary man, not a saint...
Cheng Nanwei knew that Cong Jiajia and Song Chenfei had always maintained a relationship, and he knew that their relationship was very good, but he didn't ask much before a word, he wanted to give Cong Jiajia enough respect and space, but she repaid him like this...
Thinking of the lost child, Cheng Nanwei couldn't help clenching his fists, that was the treasure he had been thinking about for many days, that was the expectation he had been worrying about day and night, and now, it was gone...
Cong Jiajia has been restless these days, a shrewd person like Cheng Nanwei can of course see that she has something on her mind, he asked her, she didn't say it, this kind of thing that must be hidden from him is, of course, Cheng Nanwei very upset.
Cheng Nanwei can't force Cong Jiajia, he only hopes that Cong Jiajia can take the initiative to sue him, but Cong Jiajia is like a thief, desperately guarding her secrets, she can't sleep every night, tossing and turning, finally falling asleep, and waking up from nightmares again and again, what is she thinking? Why don't you tell him what is in your heart?
There is only one reason here, Cong Jiajia's secret can't see the light, and what does the wife's secret mean to the husband?
Now, she is nervous, she finally tossed the child in the process of running to see Song Chenfei, Cheng Nanwei looked at Cong Jiajia, who loved and hated on the hospital bed, and he couldn't wait to strangle her...
At this moment, he is really angry, if it is not illegal to kill people, he will immediately go upstairs and kill Song Chenfei to pay for his child's life...
Cong Jiajia woke up the next morning, she realized that she immediately reached out to touch her belly, even if that place had never bulged, she also knew that she had lost the little baby who had been cared for by virtue of a mother's unique intuition.
How unwilling she was to believe this fact, she turned her face to the side, hoping to find an answer, her eyes were on Cheng Nanwei's haggard and gloomy face, Cong Jiajia's tears fell, she knew that the child must be gone...
Cheng Nanwei touched her hair and said softly: "Don't cry, it's not a big deal, we are all young, and we will have children..."
Cong Jiajia was comforted like this, and felt infinitely bitter and painful, buried her head in the pillow, and cried bitterly, her child, after all, there is still no more...
Cheng Nanwei sighed lightly, sat on the bed, hugged Cong Jiajia into his arms, and comforted him softly, "Jiajia, don't cry, the child can be no more, don't cry, you will cry and break your body......"
The grievances and resentment in Cong Jiajia's heart surged up like a tide, she knew in her heart how this child didn't have it, if she didn't have Yu Zhan's words, if she wasn't scared, nervous and afraid, if she didn't trot to see Song Chenfei, this child would not be gone, she killed her own child...
She grabbed Cheng Nanwei's clothes, buried her head in his arms, and cried bitterly, and her tears wet a large piece of the clothes on Cheng Nanwei's chest.
Cheng Nanwei has seen Cong Jiajia crying sadly, but he has never seen her so fragile, he feels extremely sorry for her, her tears drop by drop, like hot molten iron, are poured into his heart, burning his heart and pain, no matter how he comforts him, Cong Jiajia just cried, until the crying voice was hoarse and had no strength, and then slowly stopped crying.
Cong Jiajia's head was crooked in Cheng Nanwei's shoulder socket, her eyes were red and swollen, there were two teardrops on her long eyelashes, and her face was covered with tears, and a lot of messy hair was stained on it, looking extremely pitiful and weak.
Cheng Nanwei sighed softly in distress, put Cong Jiajia on the bed gently, he went to the bathroom and wrung a warm towel out to wipe Cong Jiajia's face.
Cong Jiajia half-tilted her face, letting Cheng Nanwei wipe her, she had never spoken, and suddenly said in a dumb voice: "Song Chenfei had a car accident yesterday, I came to the hospital to see him, and then he fainted, and the child was miscarried, which has something to do with this matter." ”
Cheng Nanwei didn't expect Cong Jiajia to take the initiative, and suddenly talked about this matter, he was stunned, looking at Cong Jiajia's sad and resolute face, vaguely realizing that things were not good, he smiled, "Everything is predestined, we shouldn't have this child, even if you don't come to the hospital to see Song Chenfei, we can't keep this child." ”
Cong Jiajia stared at the big empty eyes and shook her head in distraction, "No, I know, I hurt the child, I am a sinner, I am sorry for you, I have no way to continue living with you..."
Cheng Nanwei nervously hugged Cong Jiajia into his arms: "I don't allow you to talk nonsense like this, I will never part with you, Cong Jiajia, I don't allow you to say this..."
"If it weren't for me, this child wouldn't be fine, your mother is right, I really shouldn't be with you..."Cong Jiajia still muttered to herself no matter what Cheng Nanwei said.
Cheng Nanwei hugged Cong Jiajia tightly, his chin against her head, as if he was afraid that she would suddenly turn into smoke and fly away, "Don't scare me, I've lost my child, I must not lose you again, Jiajia, you can't think nonsense..."
Cong Jiajia didn't seem to have any consciousness, she just said to herself, she had an abortion yesterday, lost a lot of blood, and experienced such a painful cry, and under exhaustion, she slowly fell asleep in Cheng Nanwei's arms.
Cheng Nanwei heard that Cong Jiajia finally stopped talking, and his panicked heart calmed down a little, he still carefully hugged Cong Jiajia who was asleep, for fear of alarming her, and he would be sad when he woke up, and he would say that he would leave him.
Cong Jiajia slept very deeply this night, and slept until the afternoon, when Bai Yanyan and Ye Xiang came, waking her up.
Cong Jiajia, who woke up again, was in a much better mental state than in the morning, and her face was still pale, but she would look at Bai Yanyan and smile reluctantly.
Bai Yanyan looked at Cong Jiajia's haggard little face, her eyes were sour, she held back her tears, held Cong Jiajia's hand tightly, and wanted to give her a little warmth, "Jiajia, don't think about it, the newspaper said that almost all women of childbearing age have at least one miscarriage experience, it can be seen that this is not a thing, you have a good rest, take care of your body, and the child will still have it." ”
Cong Jiajia smiled miserably, if the child was flowing out normally, she would admit it, but this child was indeed because she was not strong enough and not careful enough, how could she not blame herself, but for the specific reason, she had no way to tell Bai Yanyan, she just nodded weakly,
Bai Yanyan saw that Cong Jiajia was extremely tired and weak, she didn't stay in the hospital too much, and left with Ye Xiang after staying for a while, Cong Jiajia saw that Bai Yanyan was gone, lay on the bed and continued to fall asleep, subconsciously avoiding Cheng Nanwei's caring and loving gaze, the more Cheng Nanwei treated her, the more guilty she felt.
Cong Jiajia stayed in the hospital for three days, slept groggily for three days, and on the fourth day, she took the initiative to ask to be discharged, the child was gone, her body was fine, she could no longer stay in the hospital, let Cheng Nanwei accompany her day and night, Cheng Nanwei still had work to do.
Cheng Nanwei did not agree with Cong Jiajia's discharge, he felt more at ease to stay in the hospital, but Cong Jiajia insisted on being discharged, Cheng Nanwei was helplessly found by the doctor, and the doctor gave Cong Jiajia a detailed examination, and then told Cheng Nanwei, "Mrs. Cheng is recovering well, you can go home and raise it, you can live more comfortably at home, and relax your spirit." ”
After listening to what the doctor said, Cheng Nanwei was relieved to take Cong Jiajia out of the hospital, he asked the maid to send Cong Jiajia thick clothes, before going out, he personally put on a hat and a scarf for Cong Jiajia, and finally, I don't know where to take out a mask and put it on Cong Jiajia's face.
Cong Jiajia, who had been indifferent for three days, finally smiled helplessly by his action, "Why are you covering me so thickly, it's not cold outside..."
"I've heard people say that you are afraid of the wind and cold when you have a miscarriage like this, and you have to do confinement." Cheng Nanwei said very seriously: "After you get home, you can't get cold water or eat cold things for a month." ”
Cong Jiajia's eyes widened in horror, "You won't want me to stay out for a month, right..."
"Clever..."Cheng Nanwei rubbed Cong Jiajia's head.
Cong Jiajia was really devastated at the thought of not being able to go out for a month.
She walked out with Cheng Nanwei, and couldn't help but think of Song Chenfei, in fact, not long after she woke up that day, she remembered Song Chenfei, I don't know what happened to Song Chenfei? Is it life or death? She was very worried about this matter in her heart, but Cheng Nanwei had been staying by her side, and she didn't dare to arrogantly ask anyone about Song Chenfei in front of Cheng Nanwei.
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