Chapter 322: Confession
"I didn't talk in my sleep, I knew what I said, and I was awake." Chen Junhan walked over and took Ning Xin's hand.
"The courtiers cry and shout in my ear every day to let me get married, and I really want to cry and shout to tell them that I want to marry too. It's useless for you to cry with me, I still have to cry with her. Chen Junhan didn't give Ning Xin a chance to interject at all.
"I'm not a big boss, but I can't delay it any longer. Don't worry, it's no problem if you want to get married at seventeen, let's settle the marriage first, and then choose a good day after the ceremony, which can almost wear out a year. I only ask you, will you marry me? ”
Ning Xin was a little afraid to look at Chen Junhan's eyes, his eyes were all herself, and this kind of concentration made her a little unaccustomed. She knew that Chen Junhan had made a lot of changes for herself over the years, because she didn't like his moodiness and dragged people down at every turn and knocked out half his life, and he had been restraining himself. Impulsiveness is in his nature, and he doesn't feel any guilt about what he doesn't like garbage. Wen Guogong once said that he was a real emperor, and he had the momentum of an emperor more than his ancestors. He seems to have been born with the temper of a superior, and he loves the people like a son, and he never cares about this kind of words, which are never in his dictionary.
The students Wen Guogong has taught are all dragons and phoenixes, and Chen Junhan is definitely the most special among his students. He is smart, although his students are very smart except for Emperor Yongming, who was forced to be stuffed, but Chen Junhan's cleverness still makes him look sideways. If a smart person doesn't have the corresponding restraints, he doesn't care about anything, everything can become a pawn in his hands, he only cares about winning or losing, and the other costs don't matter, such a person is really terrible, he has no bottom line and no weaknesses, only do what he wants, as long as he is happy.
Such a person can't like it even if he is smart, Wen Guogong's feelings for Chen Junhan, a student, have always been faint, some things are born with some people, and some things cannot be changed by man. What Wen Guogong didn't expect was that there was a Ning Xin in this world, a person who could make Chen Junhan put away his rebelliousness and try to pretend to be harmless and gentle. Wen Guogong is becoming more and more distracted by fame and fortune, the hand of Providence is too wide, and there are too many things to manage, all he can do is to conform to the will of Heaven, conform to the rules of this world, and move towards a predestined result.
"I, it's useless for you to ask me, it doesn't matter what Daddy and Auntie mean if they don't agree to me." was confessed again, Ning Xin said that she was still a little panicked, she didn't know what to say, every time she encountered this kind of thing, she wanted to avoid it, and subconsciously changed the topic to replace the target person with someone else.
"They don't have to worry about you, don't worry, I will let them hand you over to me willingly. All I care about is you, do you like me, do you want to spend your life with me, are you willing to marry me? Chen Junhan asked continuously without interruption.
Ning Xin's face was hot, is this a marriage proposal, age, okay, this place can already be a mother and a baby at his own age.
Chen Junhan was waiting for her answer, the usual hippie smile or seriousness was gone, replaced by a slightly nervous and serious look, as if the world was only the two of them, but the person in front of him could decide his life and death.
"I ......" Ning Xin's mind has gone through many pictures, herself at different ages and friends of different ages. Are you happy with him, want to be with him forever? These questions naturally popped up in Ning Xin's brain. Chen Junhan invaded Ning Xin's life too early with a cool and crazy attitude, and she was even used to his strength, his unreasonableness, and his gentleness from time to time.
If it weren't for him, he would have spent his life with strangers, and before the picture appeared in his mind, Ning Xin had already shaken his head and let them dissipate.
"I just imagined living with someone else, it's awkward and uncomfortable, I think I like you a little." As soon as Ning Xin's words fell, Chen Junhan's joyful expression had not yet had time to change to his face, and Ning Xin continued.
"But when I think of you and how you will be with other women in the future, I think it makes me more uncomfortable than living with strangers. I know your heart, and I believe that you like me now, very much. But who can know in the future, I thought that my uncle would really love Concubine Rou alone, I was afraid, I was really afraid. ”
Ning Xin decided to express the concerns in her heart, she has always lived happily in her life, but the happy place cannot hide the reality that the life of the woman here is not easy. Although the status of women is not as low as in the Ming and Qing dynasties, compared with men, they can enjoy too little power and have too many obligations to pay.
"It's normal that you like me now, I'm telling the truth." Ning Xin did not humbly praise herself at all.
"I am good-looking, have a good personality, and my parents have put a lot of effort into me since I was a child, educating me as an adult so that I can always grow up gracefully and happily. The Anguo Mansion is one of the top families in the Great Chen Dynasty, and I am the treasure in the palm of their hands. I'm pretty good myself, both inside and outside, in addition to being good-looking, I know a lot, I know a little about astronomy and geography, weapons, crops, I can say something about almost all topics, I'm so good, you like me, it only means that you have the vision to appreciate it. Ning Xin raised her small chin and said proudly.
But these are not irreplaceable, no matter how good the color is, it can't withstand the years of struggle, but the fresh flowers outside are blooming one after another. Not only do they open gracefully, but they also show you their beauty, hook you to pick these flowers. When my color is just right, I am not afraid of these small flowers outside, but there will always be small flowers that bloom better than myself, and there will always be one or two who see your heart. I'm not sure, I'm not sure I'll be able to hold your heart at that time. In fact, once the heart wants to run, no matter what you do, it has to go, and the more you do it, the more unpleasant it is, and the more annoying it looks like it's hateful. ”
"I don't want to be like that, but I don't know if I'll be able to talk as lightly as I do now. I'm afraid of the palace, I'm afraid of the imperial power, I'm afraid of these unequal status gaps, I'm afraid that one day I'm not me. ”
"I've been very careful to protect my heart from being stolen. But if I really protected it, I would have rejected you a long time ago and refused to contact you, and concentrated on finding Xiao Langjun, who was pleasing to the eye and easy to bully. ”
"You don't want us to be friends all the time, you want too much, but I can't refuse ruthlessly, and I don't have the courage to face it, what do you say I should do, I really don't know."
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