I love you too much, my heart hurts deep in love, I hate you too much, I hate you too much, I hate you better than I hate myself for being weak. Great literature

Ximen Yonghao trembled with his hands and opened the letter that Rujin wrote to himself, and slowly pulled out the letter bag from the envelope, it was a thin piece of paper that was folded neatly, as if it would be broken when touched, Ximen Yonghao carefully unfolded the piece of paper gently, and what came into view under the light was Rujin's delicate handwriting, Ximen Yonghao's eyes stared at the few lines of intermittent text without blinking, and his vision was blurred unconsciously.

"Senior brother, please forgive me for still pestering you, because as long as I live for a day I can't let go of you, I can't forget you, although I know that we are deeply related, but I still struggle to force this may not really belong to my fate, my aunt persuaded me to become a monk and take refuge in Buddhism, but I can't make up my mind, because you are my deepest and deepest bond in the red dust, the person who can make me smile in this life is you, the person who can make me give my soul and body is you, the person who can make me die is you, the person who can tie me up is also you, and the person I love the most is you, The person I hate the most is also, although I hate you to the core, it is because I have long loved you to the core. I will wait for you in our hut, and I have learned some things about the palace, which may be useful to your Simon family, whether you are here to see me or what news you have received from me, I don't care, as long as I can meet you. People knock the wrong person, only for whom, the red leaves and flowing water do not follow. Acacia trees, flowing for the year, are mistaken by the west wind for no reason. ”

Ximen Yonghao read the letter, but his eyes stayed for a long time, and the words on the paper were slowly pieced together in front of his eyes, and slowly pieced together, pieced together into the flower-like face, the affectionate eyes, the weak and boneless body, and the tears like crying.

Ximen Yonghao pinched the letter and his heart was a thousand times and could not be calm for a long time, his heart was hurting, and he said countless times that he was so stupid, you were so stupid, he knew that he owed nothing in this life and could not repay it anyway, in this case, he should make a decision immediately, not to be entangled with her in the slightest, so that she can get out of this love of no return as soon as possible, but think about the expectations of Rujin, her affection is deep, and she can't bear to be completely cruel to her, she is the sister she cherishes the most, she is the woman who loves her the most in the world, She was willing to give her body and soul for herself, she was willing to conceive for herself, she did not hesitate to drink that bowl of fetal pills for herself, she went to the extreme step by step for herself, wrote down her life, and what did she do for her? Nothing has been given to her except those vows that cannot be seen or touched, and she has no intention of disappointing anyone, but she still disappoints the person who loves her the most. Great literature

"Yonghao, can I go in?" Ximen Yonghao pinched Rujin's letter back and forth when Chen Yingying's soft voice broke the qiē, and he hurriedly stuffed the letter into the drawer, "Come in." Ximen Yonghao tried to calm his mood, trying to make his expression as calm as his lips.

Chen Yingying pushed open the door and saw that Ximen Yonghao was still reading under the lamp, she was very distressed, now it was time for dinner, but Yonghao was still studying hard, as his wife, Yingying was moved, "Yonghao dinner is ready, I came to ask you to eat, see you read and forget to eat, how can the body stand it in the long run, don't let the food be cold, let's go quickly." Yi Yingying came to Yonghao's front and smiled and snatched the book in his hand, and her gentle words revealed a deep love and thoughtfulness.

Simon Yonghao faced his wife Chen Yingying's tenderness and the deep concern in his eyes, his heart was not a taste, God knew that he was sad for other women just now, God knew that he hurriedly picked up the book when she Yingying knocked on the door, but what could he do? At this time, I can only continue to continue the lie.

"It's hard for you, Yingying wants you to come back in person, you just let Holly or Tingting call me over." Ximen Yonghao slowly stood up from the chair, and walked towards the outside of the study with Yingying, facing Yonghao's so-called concern Yingying's heart tightened slightly, the more polite the other party was with himself, the more he felt that it was not a taste, because husband and wife are not separated from each other, if the other party is always polite to you, it means that he does not have you in his heart at all.

Although Chen Yingying didn't have a taste in her heart, she didn't bring it out at all on her face, she was still smiling and tender, "Yonghao looked at what you said, why are we both husband and wife so polite, you are working so hard now for the future of our Ximen family, but also for the future of the two outside, I should do whatever I do for you, because the outside is husband and wife." "A sentence outside is a husband and wife who slowly pulled Ximen Yonghao's heart to the eyes, yes, he and Yingying are indeed husband and wife, but they have been married for several months, but they still don't feel like husband and wife, and their feelings for each other seem to be as plain as water. Ximen Yonghao couldn't ignore Leng Rujin's letter for the time being, at this time his heart was extremely conflicted, he didn't know whether to drink Rujin to see each other, but he was ruthless, but what could he do, maybe it was better to see each other than to miss it, but if he really didn't go to see her, would it make the contradiction between the Ximen family and the Leng family deeper, and it would make them hate each other because of love? Also, at the end of the letter, she mentioned what happened to Leng Cui'an yesterday, what does this have to do with the Ximen family? Is there really a secret in this?

Ximen Yonghao was not in a state to eat the whole meal, his eyebrows were slightly locked, and he was always entangled in whether he met or did not see Rujin, as well as the affairs of the palace, so he also ignored the taste of the meal.