Just like back then.

There are only two people up and down the city tower who can understand this-Yuan Guang and Lord Hua.

Yuan Guang's eyes widened, he didn't know whether he was shocked or angry, he just nodded again and again, "Okay!" Good! You still remember that incident, you really hold a grudge against your father. ”

What the father and son were talking about, Baiguan couldn't understand a word, only saw Yuan Qian laughing, laughing out of the sword light and blood, which made people can't help but feel a chill down their spines.

There are too many meanings in that smile, whether it is sadness or bitterness, resentment or hatred, others can't see it clearly, and even Yuanqian himself can't remember it clearly.

The memory of his childhood has been blurred, and he only remembers the people and things day after day, his grandfather who sat in front of the warm couch to take his pulse, the medicine bowl handed in front of him, the black and bitter decoction, and the smell of medicine in the house. The days are quiet and boring, only in the evening. He remembered the flowers on the windowsill of the west window, the quiet beauty of the red glow dyeing the branches, and the fact that his father would appear outside the house every day, with the sunset in the background, as tall as the sky.

At that time, my father was in his prime, and he was not in good health at that time, he rarely stayed, and he never left the South Courtyard, and what he looked forward to every day was someone from outside. Every evening, he would look at the windowsill, so that now when he remembered his childhood, he still remembered the flowers on the windowsill.

On that day, the house was full of lights, and even the trees in the south courtyard were hung with red lanterns, and he asked the maid if his father had been promoted, but what he saw was the maid's pitiful eyes. On that day, my father did not come to the South Courtyard, but the next morning he brought a bride, and my father said that this would be his mother in the future.

There is no mother's appearance in his memory, his mother passed away when he gave birth, and the new mother made him feel strange, from that day on, the stepmother came to the South Courtyard every day, shhhhhh A year later, the stepmother gave birth to Lin'er, and the father came even less.

The south courtyard is still the south courtyard, the food and clothing are the same as before, looking at the flowers on the windowsill every evening, but no one can come.

He asked his stepmother, why didn't his father come to the South Courtyard? ”

The stepmother said that her father was busy with affairs.

My grandfather also said that my father was busy with affairs, and if he wanted to see his father, he was feeling better, so he could go and ask for peace.

So, he endured the sting pain of acupuncture, and made an appointment with his grandfather to hide the fact that his body was getting better, just waiting for one day he could walk out of the south courtyard by himself and surprise his father. This concealment was three years, and finally on his father's birthday that year, he walked out of the south courtyard and took a small sedan chair to the flower hall.

That year, he was seven years old.

That night, he didn't get to see his father.

When the sixth brother reached the age of enlightenment, his father invited a teacher for him to teach him to practice words and recitation, but he refused to pay attention, and took advantage of the opportunity of his father's birthday banquet to sneak out of the school and follow the martial arts master to learn Zama step. At the banquet, my father ordered someone to summon the sixth brother to come, wanting to test him in public, but unexpectedly broke his sneaking incident. On that day, my father lost face, so he became angry, and locked the sixth brother in the ancestral hall to be blamed and repented, and the stepmother rushed to the ancestral hall to protect the sixth brother, and no one paid attention to the people waiting for the family banquet in the flower hall, and the meal was warm in the kitchen for two hours.

That night, he blew the wind in the flower hall for two hours, and when he returned to the South Hospital, he fell ill, but his father did not come to see him, and even his grandfather was late. The maid told him that the sixth brother was young, he was punished, and he knelt in the ancestral hall for most of the night, and he had a fever, and the empress dowager was alarmed, and came to the prime minister's mansion in person to watch the imperial doctors diagnose the pulse and prescribe prescriptions. My grandfather, as the head of the imperial hospital, asked for a prescription to come to the South Hospital to see him after he had diagnosed the pulse of his sixth brother, and it was already the second half of the night.

He clearly remembered his grandfather's look of lament and resentment and his compassionate gaze, and afterwards he heard the maid say that his grandfather was reprimanded by the Empress Dowager when he asked for the order, and the Empress Dowager scolded him for not knowing the severity of the matter, but allowed him to go out and walk around and contracted the cold.

This sounds like a concern for him, but in fact, it is because he is sick at the wrong time, right?

He was sad for two days, when his father came to see him in the South Courtyard, he didn't ask if it was the sixth brother's fever that had subsided, and his father came to see him, he only asked his father, the sixth brother was young, why did he have that thunderous anger on him? But is it because my father values knowledge?

Dad replied, yes.

Since then, in addition to enduring the pain of acupuncture and decoction every day, he began to read poetry and books hard, thinking that if he was good at learning, his father would be able to value him.

But once again, he was disappointed.

Since he was young, Shengjing's children all know that his literary talent is the best in the capital, and his father praised it at the beginning, but later he got used to it, so he mostly passed by with his head bowed. And for the sixth brother, the father rarely praised, but often angry, the study, the ancestral hall, the house can often hear the quarrel between the two, he asked his father to be in peace, because of the quarrel between the two and the number of times every few days.

Many times, he envied the sixth brother, and it was better to quarrel than to nod.

Many times, he wondered why his father treated the sixth brother so strictly, and why he cared so much about the sixth brother's preferences, words and deeds.

Gradually, he understood, from the eyes of the people in the palace, from the eyes of the ministers of the court. There is a difference between the concubines, from the moment his stepmother entered the mansion, from the moment the sixth brother was born, he was no longer the son-in-law. The sixth brother is healthy, loyal and righteous, excellent in martial arts, is a handsome man in the world, some people are in the posture of the dragon and phoenix, the father puts all the expectations on the sixth brother, teaches him strictly, and hopes that he will become a dragon, and the other weak son can not become a weapon It is not important.

Dad only has the sixth brother in his eyes, he would rather be angry at the sixth brother than say a word to him, no wonder his grandfather taught him to be patient after he gradually became sensible.

I don't know when his body got better, I don't know that my grandfather has studied the acupuncture in the fragments of ancestral medical classics for many years, and I don't know that in order to get better, he risked his life to let his grandfather apply needles on him, and he almost died several times. Dad also doesn't know when he got acquainted with the Jin King's party, when he got the help of the elders of the Lingnan faction to open up the meridians and pass on martial arts, and when he cooperated with the Lingnan King and Guanwai for many years.

The concubine of the Prime Minister's Mansion was originally him, and he should have been the one who should have been valued.

At first, he only resented his father, but he had no hatred.

Until after the death of Lan Yue's mother and daughter.

He got married late, and the original wife who was married by the order of his parents was born in a scholarly family, and his father had the heart of clinging to the Prime Minister's house. She hasn't done anything for many years, and she is probably still sad in her heart, but she is difficult to say to others because of her suffering, and she died depressed after a few years.

Nanyuan returned to the purity when he was alone, and he simply hid for three years on the pretext of his wife's funeral, and then, he met Lan Yue.

He rarely goes out of the house, and occasionally goes to Wangshan Tower on the grounds of gathering with literati, and he and Lan Yue met in Wangshan Tower.

It was early summer four years ago, the afternoon was quiet, people were lazy, and the sound of a zither was waking people's minds. He looked at the window and saw a girl covered with tulle sitting in the lobby stroking the piano, and the song "Linjiang San" actually brought out the unyielding realm of the big waves and sand competing for the current.

This song is composed by Qu Jing, who was born in a poor family, worshiped the scholars, and was full of economic wealth after being unrecognized, and was degraded, when he was a county, his life was up and down, and it was quite legendary. This song is when he was deposed when he took a boat to the south, after landing on the south bank of the river to look at the north of the river, when he made a poem of "Linjiang Fu", the song was composed later, its artistic conception can be heard far away from the sorrow of the north of the river, can be heard that the river wind and waves wash the hearts of the hearty, can be heard after the washing of the relief and calm, can hear the indomitable struggle for the stream, the whole piece of music inspires people to go upstream, is the favorite of the literati students.

He had never heard a woman touch this song, nor did he expect that there would be a woman in the world who stroked the artistic conception of this song, and the wonder of the song reminded him of the ups and downs of Qu Jingzhi's life, as if he was in the scene.

After a song, he still didn't come back to his senses in that artistic conception, and even improvised a poem and gave it to the girl. His poems and paintings are never given away at will, but after the girl received it, she asked for the value of silver, and was so shocked that the shopkeeper wanted to drive her away, he blocked the shopkeeper and asked her: "The girl can play this song, presumably she will not lose to the literati, the literati are indifferent to fame and fortune, why does the girl value it so much?" ”

The woman showed up to make a living in the teahouse, she must have encountered difficulties in her livelihood, he asked this deliberately, just to hear how she answered.

She said: "Indifference to fame and fortune is people's feelings, if people have no way to live, what do they care about? When Qu Jingzhi composed this song, I played this song "Linjiang San", and I had no feelings of indifference to fame and fortune, but I was afraid that the literati who loved this song in the world were like this. If so, why do you wish I had? ”

He was shocked at the time, and he didn't mean that he was indifferent, but he said it vaguely.

He has never met her, and there is really someone in the world who can understand his mind with a song?

"The little girl first entered Shengjing, and there was nowhere to settle down, so she sought wealth. Xie Gongzi gave the poem, and the little woman received it, but today she didn't have the heart of meeting friends with the qin, so she had to live up to the poem. She gave him back the poem, and then she picked up the piano and wanted to leave.

He ordered someone to go downstairs and gave her a silver ticket of one thousand taels, and she glanced at it, thanked her, and then left.

Since then, she has never come to Wangshanlou, he inquired secretly, and learned that she is the daughter of the former Shangling County Cheng, whose maiden name is Liu Lanyue. The Liu family is not a wang family, three generations of Ding is thin, Shangling County Chengliu only has a daughter of Lan Yue, after his death, Lan Yue has nothing to rely on, so he has to come to Shengjing to seek refuge with distant relatives. I don't know that a few years ago, there was a plague in Shengjing City, and the relatives of the Liu family could not escape and died. Lan Yue had to rent an old house in the outer city, and the housekeeper's family saw that she had no hope of living in this life, so they stole the jewelry and money she brought into Beijing at night and ran away, leaving only a maid by her side.

She came to her relatives, because she was not a person in Shengjing, she couldn't buy a house, so she still rented an old house in the north of the city, he heard that her stay in Beijing was about to expire, and she was going to leave Beijing to return to her hometown in the near future.

It was that side that determined his fate with her, and also determined her fate in the future.