Four hundred and thirty-two

Although the idea of feeling that she is not suitable to stay by the side of the young lady she has always respected is only a momentary thing, but Mei Ying feels that this idea is very reasonable, the original intention of the young lady to bring her back is because she has lived in such a deep mansion compound since she was a child, and she also understands a lot about all kinds of things in this back house, but now she has returned to the Yongping Marquis Mansion with the young lady, but she has no way to help the young lady, on the contrary, she is still making trouble for the young lady, It's good that the young lady is in charge of many things, otherwise I'm afraid that I will cause a lot of trouble, such a self is useless at all, where is the demeanor and courage when I managed the hundred ghosts at night for the young lady, such a self has become less and less like myself, maybe it is the best choice for me to leave the Yongping Marquis Mansion and return to the hundred ghosts to go to the night. The more Mei Ying thought about it, the more she felt that her idea at this time was correct, Mei Ying really wanted to say that she wanted to go back, because she found that she couldn't help Miss do anything here, maybe she would cause something because of impulse, maybe it would be more appropriate for herself to appear next to Miss and never stand behind Miss.

"Mei Ying, I said that in my eyes, I never regarded you as my subordinate or because I saved your life in the first place, so I hope you will repay me something, I have never thought about it like this, so even if I let you follow me, you don't need to have any mental burden because of this matter, and don't feel that what you have done will make me embarrassed. Because everything you do is for my sake, and I know that very well, and you don't need to be burdened by it. The reason why you have some ideas now is not because you are not doing well, but because you are still too young, so you can't understand the truth of many things, so you have such thoughts, I believe that you will do well in the future, you and Mother Liu are my right-hand men. In my heart, you and Zhishu are the same, I have never had any idea of favoring one over the other, but when I do something, I will bring people who can really help me together. Do you understand that? ”

Lan Susu naturally felt the emotional changes in Mei Ying's heart, and at this time, she knew that if she said anything euphemistically, Mei Ying would only be hurt, because as a woman, Lan Susu naturally knew how delicate and sharp a woman's mind was. At such a time, it is a little bad to make it yourself. It will make people who trust them sad, so at such a time, it may be better to be outspoken than to lie with white intentions, so Lan Susu didn't say anything comforting, but directly expressed his idea that he needed Mei Ying to stay by his side. The reason why Lan Susu did this was not because of how much she relied on Mei Ying deep down in her heart, or because she was very statusless, even the people around her could do whatever they wanted to do to her. The reason why Lan Susu did this is because she is not a person of this era, even if she is now a noble lady, but in her heart, the idea that everyone is equal has never changed. The reason why she is like this is just to exchange her own sincerity for the sincerity of others, although Lan Susu has also experienced too much betrayal or helplessness in her two lives. But she always firmly believes in one thing, that is, as long as she treats the people around her with a sincere heart, then the people around her will not be ruthless to her, after all, there are very few characters like white-eyed wolves. So this is not that Lan Susu is condescending to her dignity, the second is that she really regards Mei Ying as her own relatives, wants to get her approval, and wants to change Mei Ying's deep thoughts of dignity and inferiority, Lan Susu also knows that such a thing cannot be done in a day or two, so she will bring up such a thing at the right time.

"Miss, everything is Mei Ying is not good enough, Mei Ying is too superficial, fortunately what Mei Ying did is not too big, if Miss does not punish Mei Ying, please let Mei Ying go back to the night of the hundred ghosts, Mei Ying feels that she may get some money by Miss's side, but in this life, Mei Ying will always live with a remorse in her heart because of this matter, Mei Ying stayed by Miss's side not only did not help anything, on the contrary, There have been several times because of Mei Ying, and she was almost about to make a big mistake, so even if the young lady didn't blame herself and didn't punish Mei Ying, Mei Ying's heart was always difficult to feel comfortable. So Miss still agrees with Mei Ying to go back, Mei Ying did live in this deep mansion compound for the past fifteen years, but Mei Ying at that time never thought that one day she would be able to do things like today, and she could discuss it with her master, but after all, this is the Yongping Marquis Mansion, even if Miss doesn't care about these things, but if it goes on like this for a long time, I'm afraid it will have an adverse impact on Miss. Therefore, Mei Ying felt that if she stood by Miss's side, she might not have stayed behind Miss to help Miss more, and she wouldn't worry about being told the secret between me and Miss. Mei Ying didn't blame herself for hearing Lan Susu, on the contrary, Mei Ying only felt that she was even more self-blaming, maybe she never thought about anything else when she came, she wanted to follow Miss and repay Miss for saving her life and cultivating her, but now she is not only not helping, on the contrary, she is still making trouble for Miss, so Mei Ying feels that she can't accept it at all, maybe going back is her best choice.

"Mei Ying, now you said you want to go back to the Hundred Ghosts Night Walk? Since I took you with me, I won't give you a chance to leave, and now you have encountered a lot of things by my side that you wouldn't encounter in the Night of the Hundred Ghosts, and I also know that when you go back to a place like this, all you can do is help me well, didn't I say it, the reason why you are like this now is entirely because you are still too young, and many times maybe you think that what you are doing now is right. But in the end, you realize that you are really doing things too inconsiderately, and it is not for other reasons. It's because your current thinking is not mature enough, just like what you see now, you will understand later that it is not that we are too ruthless, but that we are too young, and that we have just done what is most beneficial to us under the circumstances. Lan Susu put down the booklet he was holding in his hand, reached out and grabbed Mei Ying who was standing in front of him, at this time Lan Susu could clearly feel the guilt and self-denial in Mei Ying's heart. At such a time, Lan Susu also knew that her thoughts really made Mei Ying feel a little unacceptable, after all, Mei Ying was taught that as long as she felt that she was doing something wrong, the master would not easily blame herself. Such a good person, even if he has already figured it out, Mei Ying still feels that she can't make up her mind to stay, because she doesn't have any time to help her master when she stays.

"But miss. Even if the young lady said so. I also still want to go back to the Hundred Ghosts Night Walk, I think that there is my stage, and no matter what I do, I will not drag the young lady back, but if I stay, I am afraid that it will not only cause something to my Miss Gao, so the young lady still let me go back to the Hundred Ghosts Night Walk, it will be better to go back. Although Mei Ying also felt that it would be too irresponsible to let herself leave at such a time, Mei Ying still wanted to leave. Because here she felt that she had no way to seriously think about anything, so she acted recklessly. Maybe it's because of my luck.,Maybe it's because there's Miss 1 behind me thinking about such a thing for herself.,So no matter what, Mei Ying hopes that she still leaves.,In this way, after her mood recovers somewhat.,I can help Miss to complete what Miss wants to do.,In fact, if Miss nods.,Mei Ying even thinks that she can kill the eldest lady now.,In that case, Miss won't have to worry about anything in the future.,But it's a pity that Miss doesn't think this thing can be done., Although she didn't know what the specific reason was, Mei Ying also knew in her heart that Miss had her own considerations for this matter. So this is not something that I can interfere with, although I also know that sooner or later Miss will let the people of the hundred ghosts who walk at night turn out to be the eldest lady, but not now, so since returning to Miss's side, I can almost say that I haven't done anything, maybe the decision to leave is right, that is, even Mei Ying herself is not sure if Lan Susu wants her to stay, she can't help but stay like this, because her life is too gray and colorless, It can be said that the young lady he respects is the only color in his life, so no matter what the young lady says, he will do it, but this time the young lady wants her to stay, Mei Ying is really a little hesitant.

"Mei Ying, you also know that I have never been a person who will force others, but I really want you to stay, not only because you can be exposed to many things that you have not been exposed to, but also I hope that you can observe carefully, and then learn some new things from these things, although this time I came back to avenge my mother, but I also want you to know, I don't want you to sacrifice your life for me for the rest of your life, The original things have passed, you are a good girl, you deserve someone to treat you better, one day you will have your own happiness, at that time you need to do all that is to manage your own happiness, so I hope that after this thing you can learn and understand some problems, not only because I also need your help, but the more important thing is that you have to learn to grasp your own life in the future, you don't spend your whole life on me, but also plan for yourselfAlthough I'm not sure what kind of person you will be with in the future, I know that you will have a happy life in the future, but because there are too many uncertain factors, I hope you will also observe the world a lot, and remove the dross and leave the essence of everything. ”

Lan Susu didn't know if saying this would make Mei Ying understand that no matter who stayed by her side, she would want the other party to have a good future, and she could live as she wanted in the future, and she had little time in her previous life, so she didn't know how to communicate with people at all, usually she decided what she did, and the people under her would do it, and although she said that there were many people around her in this life, they also grew up under their own influence. So they all know what they mean very well, but Mei Ying is not the same, because Mei Ying has lived in a completely different environment since she was a child, so no matter what happens at such a time, Mei Ying will think about what she did wrong at the first time, which is where Lan Susu hopes Mei Ying will change, because Lan Susu knows that even if Mei Ying will meet a person who treats her wholeheartedly in the future, then Lan Susu will not want Mei Ying to live so humbly in the future. Whatever you do is wrong, you put the responsibility on yourself, and if you go on like this, it will only crush Mei Ying's thin shoulders, the reason why she brought Mei Ying back at the beginning is indeed because such an environment is familiar to Mei Ying, she will give herself great help here, and the facts have proved that her choice is not wrong, Mei Ying stays by her side, and she thinks about everything for herself, but Lan Susu also clearly feels Mei Ying's deep uneasiness, Lan Susu also understands that Mei Ying is worried about her own affairs, but Lan Susu herself understands very well that the eldest lady is not an easy character to deal with, so she is not in a hurry about this matter, after all, she has been waiting for ten years, and there is nothing to wait for a few more years, but what worries her now is Mei Ying's current situation. Lan Susu doesn't want Mei Ying to look at her back for the rest of her life, after all, she is not a person of this era, since she will come without warning, maybe she will also leave without warning, in that case, Lan Susu is most worried about the life of the person who lives by her side in this life. (To be continued.) )