(22) So is my heart

At the end of the banquet, it was almost midnight, the climate in Beimu was cold, and at midnight it began to flutter with light snow, fortunately, on the way to the banquet, the maid who took Lan Susu to change clothes had already sent the washed clothes over, Lan Susu still did not sit in a small sedan chair, but rode a horse with Gao Changgong, in the previous life, Lan Susu could drive, drive, and even drive planes and other means of transportation, but he could not ride a horse, although he learned a lot, but after all, he was a human being and not a god, and he could not do anything. So after leaving the Yongping Marquis Mansion and going to Yancheng, Lan Susu enrolled in Yancheng Academy, and chose horseback riding lessons, which have been uninterrupted for seven years, but also practiced the art of horseback riding perfectly.

Walking with Lan Susu, Gao Changgong's mood was a little low, all because Lan Susu's words at the beginning of the banquet made his heart pinch and didn't know how to be good, although she had known each other for many years, her mind was not clear at all, she didn't love gold and silver, but she never stopped her progress in the business field, she didn't like to fight but always participated in the battle, although she had already known that she was arrogant, but never thought that she would say that she had sworn to the sky not to enter the emperor's family in this life, As a woman, no one doesn't want to be the most noble one in the world, but she doesn't care about it. Life is precious, love is more valuable, if it is for freedom, both can be thrown, is the so-called freedom in her eyes more attractive to her than the supreme glory and power, in this case, why did she never go to Fengdu, Tianyue and the Three Kingdoms have her business only Feng does not, but she clearly remembers that she once said that one day she will go back to Fengdu, her mind is really a thousand turns to see people can't see clearly, Gao Changgong sighed secretly.

Changgong, do you have something on your mind? You don't have much energy from the beginning of the party. Seeing Gao Changgong sullen Lan Susu asked softly, he didn't know that his face changed when he heard himself say that he swore that he would not enter the emperor's family in this life, but in this society, not to mention that he is a prince and may inherit the throne, even if he is an ordinary nobleman, which one is not three wives and four concubines, although he has not decided not to marry for life, but what he wants is a husband who loves him wholeheartedly, not a man who marries him based on various interests, so it is still the same sentence, Put a qiē in the cradle may be strangled in the cradle.

Susu, hearing Lan Susu's concern, a glimmer of light flashed in Gao Changgong's eyes, and quickly faded away, she also knew that she cared about herself, but with a smart person like her, it was not broken, and the glimmer of hope that rose in her heart was invisibly shattered. Nothing, just a little bored.

What can't you tell me? 、

Su Su, you said that your master wants you to swear that what you have learned in this life cannot be used in politics, and you also want you not to enter the court in this life. Gao Changgong still had a trace of luck in his heart, hoping that this was Lan Susu's excuse to resign Emperor Beimu.

It is true that Master only said this, but the idea that this life is inferior to the court is my own. After listening to Gao Changgong's questioning, Lan Susu spoke eloquently. Changgong, you were born in the emperor's family, I think you can understand, as the so-called entry into the Houmen is as deep as the sea, whether it is a woman in the ** or an ordinary woman in this society, they are all looking at the back of a man, relying on the man's pitiful pity, and I don't know when I will give others the favor to live, you are growing up with me, you naturally understand my heart, I have always been free and comfortable, I want to live with my husband for a lifetime, even if I am already an old woman, he still will not dislike me, Lao Zhuhuang will join hands with me to watch the sunset, Watching the sunrise, the most romantic thing I can think of is to grow old with such a person, even if I can't go anywhere when I'm old, he will still treat me as a treasure in the palm of his hand, such a mood is long, you may not be able to understand it as a man, after all, in this society, it is too normal for men to have three wives and four concubines, you all think that marrying a woman is just a means to win over the political alliance, or this woman is bewitching enough to marry her is a kind of show-off. Lan Susu said this, there was a faint sadness in his tone, and he didn't know whether to be sad for the women of this society or sad for his future.

Su Su, looking at Lan Susu Gao Changgong didn't know what to say for a while, he grew up in the palace since he was a child, and he was used to seeing today's newcomers laughing and tomorrow's old people crying, Lan Susu was right, if it weren't for the strong family behind his mother to rely on each other, maybe he wouldn't be able to live until now, even now, his brothers are planning to take their lives in their sleep, and the people of the family have always taught themselves to marry the woman of the family that is most helpful to them in their struggle for the throne when they marry a wife in the future, even if it is a concubine, there must be certain benefits, I have always thought like this, but today's words made me speechless, making me feel that my thoughts in the past 22 years were wrong, even if she has not married a wife or a concubine in the past few years, but she has always thought that she would accept herself when she was married, promised to marry herself, and would sacrifice herself to help herself in the future, but now it seems that she will not be willing, and she has no love for herself or herself.

Susu, do you know how shocking your words are now, and maybe no one can do such an idea. Gao Changgong said earnestly that he hoped that Lan Susu would change his mind, he used to think that he loved her enough and could wait for her, but he couldn't give up fighting for the throne, because he couldn't fight.

If you are willing, I will ask you to be my wife, and you can do whatever you want. Seeing that Lan Susu had been silent, Gao Chang was anxious, and he was anxious to tell her his sincerity, because he was really afraid, afraid that she would be like what he said, then he would really lose her.

Changgong, I won't agree, first, I have always regarded you as a brother since I was a child; Second, you are the prince of Fengchen Kingdom, you can't marry only one wife, even if you don't marry, but with your ability, the emperor will definitely support you, so he will give you a marriage and help you marry someone who will help you, and you can't refuse; Third, the backyard is a battlefield without gunpowder between women, even if I don't fight, it doesn't mean that others won't fight with me, if I fight with others, I will no longer be the real me. Changgong, if you really love me, then do you think you should marry me? Marry me and put me in the center of endless strife, emaciated, withered and dying in the mood for love, would you like to see me end up like this? Lan Susu categorically rejected Gao Changgong, he didn't have a good impression of them, he was an excellent prince, but he was not contaminated with the vice of cockfighting and walking dogs, and it was a good choice in this aristocratic circle, but it was a pity that he was not an ordinary aristocratic woman, and what he wanted was the first, and he couldn't do it.

I can't do it now, but one day I will do it. Gao Changgong's eyes were also firm.

Changgong, even if one day you ascend to the throne of God, the foundation is not stable, you will not be able to abandon the women who have helped you today, you still need to rely on their maternal family, so you have to rain and dew evenly, and when your position is stable, these women are already the mothers of your children, can you kill the mother of your own children? Day and day are relatively emotionless, and feelings will be born, and you can't do it. And what I want is freedom, not being trapped in the walls of the palace, and I can only look at the boxy sky every day in a daze.

Sugan

Chang Gong! Gao Changgong wanted to say anything more but was stopped by Lan Susu's words, Changgong, if you really have me in your heart, I want me to be happy, even if I don't marry in this life, what Su Su wants most is freedom, you have always been a good big brother in my heart, and we can't be friends if we continue to talk about it.

Well, Susu, I won't say much today, one day you will understand my sincerity, for me it is not up to women to fight for the throne. Gao Changgong's eyes were firm, and he didn't say anything anymore, and rode towards the post house with Lan Susu.

Back at the post house, the two of them had no extra words, but they each went back to their own small courtyard, and when they stepped into the courtyard door, Lan Susu saw Lan Ruofeng, who was sent back by himself, he was standing alone under the plum tree in the courtyard, and there was already a dense layer of snowflakes on his body, and he had been standing for a long time, and he didn't know what he was thinking about, and he didn't even notice that he came in.

Ruofeng why hasn't he slept yet. Walked up to Lan Ruofeng and reached out to help him brush the snowflakes off his shoulders.

Miss, you're back. Seeing Lan Susu, Lan Ruofeng saluted respectfully.

We don't have to worry about those false courtesies, I never treated you as outsiders. Lan Susu didn't care, just said indifferently.

It's Miss. Lan Ruofeng didn't say much, and the two of them stood quietly under the plum tree.

Ruofeng, have you arranged everything in the past few days?

Miss, one-third of the goods we brought this time have been exchanged for Beimu's unique pearls and gemstones, and two-thirds of the gold and silver paid by Beimu have been packed up properly.

Very good, we will leave for Tianyue in the near future, tomorrow you will send me an invitation to the prince's mansion, before leaving I will see Qingcheng again, and then negotiate a deal with him.

Yes, Miss, I'll do it early tomorrow morning.

It's late at night, rest early, you don't have to wait for me when I come back late in the future, my safety in Beimu is still temporarily guaranteed.

Yes, miss. Lan Ruofeng said according to her words, Miss didn't say anything and didn't blame herself, which made his psychology have a trace of warmth.