Yesterday, I heard that the group was going to have a collective birthday party at eight o'clock tonight, and the manager asked me if I was in the group, and I said it depends, mainly because I think that if I take the lead, I may be beaten into a pig's head by my friends, and probably maybe carrying a red envelope will not play a role, so ...... Well, I didn't pat my chest yesterday and agree to join the group, I'm so wise. Pen fun and pavilion www.biquge.info

I think every word in this sentence has a murderous aura, and I think that after reading this chapter, the murderous aura of the little friend may be heavier, and the liver trembles/(tot)/~

The little friend said: "Oh, the first half of the year has passed, I'm talking about the second half of the year, the new year and the new atmosphere, what do you think?" ”

The day before yesterday, a little friend poked me and greeted me with a happy new year, I was stunned for a long time, but fortunately I was blowing a fan, so I asked: "I'm not good at geography, don't lie to me, which hemisphere is now celebrating the New Year?" ”

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She saw a pair of lazy smiling eyes, accompanied by the spring breeze, and she felt the breeze blowing in her ears, smelling the elegant and bitter rosin, and the afterglow at the end of her eyes glimpsed a pair of dragon brocade luans embroidered on the man's clothes, gold silk embroidery, dragon and phoenix Jiao, which made people happy and crazy.

The torches were like stars, burning the night sky of the distant mountains, and the man swept from the sky, his sleeves were torn, and his face was pale......

The red sun is like a plate, the yellow dust is all over the sky, a person comes on a horse, the horse is like a splashing wind, and the red sleeves are arrogant. Twilight Qing had empty eyes, I don't know if the sunset was too strong, or the fresh clothes were too dazzling, but when her eyes were empty, the sound of horses' hooves was close, and when she raised her eyes, the fierce horse was galloping in front of her, and the yellow dust was rolling in, Twilight's eyes suddenly darkened, and she saw Bu Xihuan sweeping down in the air, and the big sleeves of the robe covered the yellow dust of the day, but the sky behind her that was dyed red by the sunset suddenly reminded her of that night.

But as soon as Twilight opened the door of the carriage, she heard the sound of horses' hooves coming from where the army was encamped.

The rainy season is approaching, and setting up camp early today makes her a little worried, since her injuries have almost healed, it is time to go to the barracks. The soldiers of the sailor followed the holy driver to the south, presumably Han Qichu and Zhang Tong had been worried about her a lot these days, and she wanted to go to the military camp and meet them.

"There's no need to send someone to ask, it's a waste of time to come and go, I'll go to the barracks to take a look, and order the palace people to bring their robes." Twilight turned to get into the carriage.

Twilight pursed her lips, looking displeased, but there was a faint smile in her eyes. Although there are not many available people around Bu Xihuan, they are all loyal and good generals, whether it is Fan Tong or Moon Killing, they are all like old mothers, and they have the heart to all day long.

It's just nagging, and she took the opportunity to ask her to make a decree, and she wondered if the old eunuch was thinking about some queen cultivation plan in her heart.

As the saying goes, old and old, Fan Tong is good, people are old, but their hearts are not immortal. In the past few days, he has not left the queen every word, as if he was reciting scriptures, thinking that she couldn't see what kind of heart he was? Although she worshipped with Bu Xihuan, she was not used to the identity he brought her, and Fan Tongcun wanted to get used to her.

Just know!

"Unless the old slave has the will of Her Royal Highness the Queen."

"Unless what?" Twilight Qing's heart is like a mirror, accompanying Fan Tong to act.

The old eunuch lowered his head, seemingly low his eyebrows and pleasing to his eyes, but in fact, he didn't eat oil and salt, "Back to Her Royal Highness the Queen, the old slave didn't dare to be verbose, and he didn't dare to be presumptuous." In the afternoon, a guard came to pay respects, saying that His Majesty was at the military division, but at this time the army had already set up camp, whether His Majesty was still discussing the military situation with the military division, the old slave did not dare to be presumptuous, and did not dare to send someone to ask, unless he ......"

"What a rambling thing!" Although this shouting is not necessarily really annoying, it still reminds people of the power of the governor who commanded 50,000 troops in battle robes.

"Back to Her Royal Highness the Queen......"

"Where is Your Majesty?" Twilight asked, pinching her eyebrows.

Twilight Qing was suspicious, and when she thought about it, she found that her mind was full of Fan Tong's old face and the rigid "Her Royal Highness the Queen", and the tone of the old eunuch's speech was like chanting scriptures, which was very disturbing.

Twilight raised her eyes and saw that the army was camping in the distance, and the orderly appearance really didn't look like there was a military situation, so why did you camp early? The rainy season is approaching, so shouldn't we hurry up and march in a hurry?

So, the matter of setting up camp early today has been predetermined a long time ago?

It was decreed yesterday?

"Back to Her Royal Highness the Queen, the will was made yesterday evening."

"When was that decree given?"

"Back to Her Royal Highness the Queen, Your Majesty has a decree, and the old slave only obeys the decree and does not dare to ask about the military situation."

Twilight was not used to being called the queen, but she didn't dwell on it, and only asked, "But what is the military situation?" ”

Fan Tong pulled an old face, still expressionless, but he lowered his head and frowned, looking at how much more respectful he was when he served in front of the emperor, "Back to Her Royal Highness the Queen, this is Your Majesty's will." ”

Bu Xihuan knew that Twilight was quiet and didn't like to be served, and she was worried that she would inevitably learn about the day she left the city when she saw the old people in the governor's mansion, because she was worried that her heart would not be conducive to recuperating from her injuries, so she never allowed Yang and others to come to serve.

Usually we usually set up camp in the evening, but now that the sun is still high, why did we set up camp?

Twilight Qing looked at the sunset Jiangtian in the distance for a while, and asked Fan Daodao, "Why did you set up camp so early today?" ”

After getting out of the carriage, Du Qing saw that the place where the army was camped was flat and wide, the Lingjiang River was beautiful, the sun and dusk were high and far, and the sparkling river waves shone on the armor, and the heavy forest light was so dazzling that people couldn't open it.

The army has been out of the tomb for many days, and it will be possible to reach the lower tomb in three or two days, and then it will be able to reach the riverside after the lower tomb. The terrain of Xialing is low and wide, with many plains and lakes, so flooding is common in rainy years. It is now the middle of May, and seeing that the rainy season is coming, the army must cross the river before the rainy season, otherwise once it encounters heavy rain for several days, the water level rises sharply, and the waves are terrifying, and even the big ships of the Jiangnan Navy Division may not dare to venture across the river.

A few days ago, her injuries had not healed, except for Izugong, who never came down and walked around, and she didn't want to see anyone until these two days.

After her mood suddenly cleared up, Twilight felt much better, her injuries were no longer serious, and the cold poison in her body had been dispelled for seven or eight points in the rest of the month. Every evening after the army set up camp, Wu Jin would come to check Twilight's pulse, and on this day, as soon as the chariot stopped, Twilight got out of the carriage.

After that day, Twilight never mentioned the matter of the round house again, the worry of crossing the river was not gone, and the nightmare was still there, but she felt suddenly bright. Whether it's a step or a joy, or she, it's better to let go of yourself, a hundred years of cultivation in the same boat, a thousand years of cultivation to sleep together, suffering each other is to live up to fate, the rest of their lives they should make each other happy, so that they can live up to the encounter, not to live up to the time, and to live up to the fate of husband and wife given to them by God.

There are many inconveniences on the march, the military tent is not suitable for wedding tents, and the chariot is not a place for a cave house.

He smiled and asked her, "Where are you?" ”

She saw her shadow in his eyes, and the green scenery of the red window was not as good as the color of fireworks in the world at the bottom of her eyes, promising her to be gentle for a lifetime, and she was bound by the morning light.

Twilight lowered her head and stared at her eyebrows, and the sorrow in her heart was in her heart, and she did not dissipate it for a long time. After a long time, she found that Bu Xihuan had been silent for too long, and then she raised her eyes in hindsight, and as soon as she raised her eyes, she crashed into a pair of gentle eyes.

However, he may not agree, he has always insisted on marrying after being in power, she knows that this is out of love for her, but also out of pride in his heart. He was so proud that he didn't want to treat her or himself. In fact, she also felt that he should get married in a dignified manner, and it was worthy of the emperor's gift, congratulated by hundreds of officials, announced to the four seas, and celebrated by all the people. Therefore, she didn't mention the round house at the beginning, she tried it herself for many days, but the methods she tried had little effect. She was actually very hesitant to ask Yuanfang, hoping that he would agree, but also hoping that he would not respond. Maybe she should try again, after all, she hasn't reached the river yet, but last night she dreamed of a fire burning the river, and the scene made her feel unsteady. The days when she can recuperate with peace of mind are not long, if she wants to not give in and be distracted, it is better to get rid of the nightmare as soon as possible. However, at this time, she always felt that she couldn't live with him.

She needs a beautiful and deep memory to fade the psychological trauma, and she just wants him to help her.

These days, she doesn't ask anything, just to nourish her body, and now her injuries and old illnesses are getting better day by day, but the nightmare is hard to get rid of. When he was away, she tried many methods, but they all had little effect, and the psychological wounds could not be healed in a day, but fortunately, she knew the crux of the problem and knew that there was still one way left, that is, memory replacement.

At present, the situation in the world is grim, he abandoned half of the foundation of his ancestors, one is the danger of crossing the river, the second is the Jiangnan Navy and the Lingnan difficulty, and the third is to face the verbal criticism of the people of the world, these three things are at the moment, she naturally can't sit idly by. However, to fight the world side by side with him, she must first take care of her body, and she must also get rid of the nightmare first, so that she can devote all her energy to helping him. Even if it is a point of energy, she doesn't want to spend it on Hu Yanhao, only if she cheers up as before, Bu Xihuan will not be distracted, and can handle state affairs with all her heart.

She wasn't in a hurry, but she didn't believe that he wouldn't be bitter about herself. He blamed himself too deeply, and if she couldn't get out of that nightmare, he would blame himself for a day. She didn't want him to blame himself anymore, and she wanted him to be happy for the rest of his life.

There was no girl's voice behind the window, but the eye knife seemed to be able to penetrate the window.

The people outside the window are like turquoise, and only the sound of the birds is in the mountains. The man raised his hand slowly, attracting the breeze to cover half of the window, and the voice behind the window was low and smiling, as if to tell a love story, "The husband knows that the lady is direct, but this is too direct." ”

Bu Xihuan glanced out the window again, his gaze was very faint.

Cough!

"Less nonsense! Round house or not round house, give a happy word! She interrupted him, her voice breaking steel, her face not red or panting.

There was a chickadee outside the window, with a green feather and a golden beak, and the cry was crisp and very good. Bu Xihuan lowered her head and coughed, her side face was also very good-looking in the morning light, her expression looked embarrassed, but the smile on the corner of her lips couldn't be suppressed, "The next time the lady speaks, don't turn too fast, the husband can......'t keep up."

A few palace people holding grooming things accidentally knocked over the copper basin, and the green salt bath beans were sprinkled on the ground, Fan Tong was next to him, but he didn't seem to see it, he only held the dust and looked at the wooden man who was loading him on the tip of his boots. The palace maids hurriedly picked up their things and retreated, and the Shenjia army still turned their backs to the carriage and faced the mountains and forests, but when one person gave way, his legs and stomachs seemed to tremble, and he almost knelt.

Bu Xihuan saw it, but he rarely lost his reaction, and only coughed after a long time and glanced out the window.

"I want you." While Bu Xihuan was still stunned, Twilight raised her head and let him see her serious gaze.

“……”

"Let's round the house."

"Huh?"

"Okay." She replied, snuggling quietly in his arms for a while, and then called, "Take a happy step." ”

"Qingqing, life is eight hardships, birth, old age, sickness and death, resentment will be, I can't ask for it, love parting, you and I are fortunate to stay together, so let's not suffer ourselves anymore, okay?" He asked.

She didn't know how happy he was, and she was glad that in those difficult years, he had never given up on his will, otherwise even if they met, she probably wouldn't have fallen in love with him.

He originally valued the country, but in addition to the great cause of the country, he didn't know what to ask for in this life. Until he met her, her sentence of Mingjun, her believing eyes, messed up his heart lake that had been silent for 20 years, and since then he wants to be alone, he doesn't want to sleep alone, wake up from a dream every night, and lean on the window in the palace of Qionggong to look at the moon until dawn. Since the year he entered the palace, he has no relatives in the world, if he hadn't met her, he wouldn't know how much he wanted to be accompanied by a family member, with each other, walking through thick and thin, never leaving, not abandoning.

"No, no!" Bu Xihuan hugged Twilight, as if he was embracing the joy of a lifetime, "If you are desperate, you don't feel that the world is bitter." But Qingqing, I'm still happy, I didn't wear out my seven feelings in those deep palace years after all. ”

After a long time, a man's voice came from the window, calm and deep.

Twilight Qing asked rhetorically, Qingyin entered the mountains and forests, like the sound of gold and stone, the guards stood solemnly with their backs like pines, the palace people holding clothes and other things were in the distance, Fan Tong held the Buddha dust and looked at the tips of his boots, and the movement of the army in the distance seemed to be far away.

"If you and I are like Hu Yanhao, just trying to be at ease, regardless of the good, evil and suffering in this world, then you don't have to suffer today. However, thirty miles outside the imperial city, the Liao soldiers entered the village at night to kill people and destroy the door, killing the people of Daxing, your people! Can I watch them die, or will you let me watch them die? Those 3,000 soldiers are loyal to you, can you abandon them mercilessly, or will I let you do so? ”

"Twenty years after the death of the mother, you have been thinking for twenty years, such a nostalgia for the old, abandoning the country, how can you not feel ashamed of the soldiers who followed you? You can't abandon them, even your family has to take them, how many hours does it take for the people to pack their bags, and how many hours does it take to deal with Long Wuwei and the Praetorian Guards before leaving the city? How fast do you want to come? ”

Bu Xihuan can only take a few relatives out of the city, and after finding her, he disguises himself to go south, which is much easier than going south with a large army and people. Jiangnan has the trouble of having a family, and there is also the trouble of Lingnan, although bringing more troops is help, but there are many dangers on the road, and she does not take a walk to cherish the joy of this move in addition to national considerations, without half of her personal feelings.

Although she didn't ask about going south, Wu Jin came to check her pulse every day, and she could hear some of it from the few words she said during the casual conversation. There were people in the army who accompanied them, and these people could only be the family members of the Imperial Guards.

"If the old thing repeats itself, I don't think I can watch the eight innocent lives die under the scimitar of the Hu people, so I will still risk my life. If I despise the lives of the people because I think of you, I will feel guilty for the rest of my life, so I would rather gamble my life and do the most dangerous fight. What about you? You can abandon half of Daxing for me, and you can abandon the 3,000 soldiers who follow you? You may let yourself ride out of the city and abandon the soldiers and their families in the city, leaving them to be slaughtered? ”

Bu Xihuan was stunned.

Twilight frowned, raised her head and looked at Bu Xihuan, who was the first general, "Then I want to hear from you, how fast can you come?" ”

"......" did not.

I don't know how long later, the man sighed, light and long, more pleasant than the wind, "Don't blame that kid for saying that you are stupid, your husband just said a few words to you, you really blame yourself." As a husband, I want to hear you talk about it, life is on the blade, and there are eight lives between the knife and the knife, how many hours do you have to think about it? ”

The sound of people outside the carriage was faint, and the army was preparing to march south, and the guards stood a little farther away, leaving the morning mountain breeze at this moment to the pair of people embracing each other in the window.

Her forehead touched his chest, the vomit was hot, the mountain wind blew through the window, and the green silk scratched people, itching slightly. This itch entered his heart, and he hugged her back, gently and slowly, like the depth of the sea. On the day of farewell to the city, the wall of the night was seen, the march was more than a month, day by day, and finally sought this moment, put aside all thoughts, just embraced, and fell in love.

This situation was painful, and when Twilight came back to her senses, she had already hugged Bu Xihuan, and she didn't want to say sorry after all, "I'm sorry, I should have thought about it." ”

The window was half-hidden, the mountain wind blew through the morning light, and the man sat behind the window, his eyebrows were illuminated by the fine morning light, quiet and forbearing.

After all, he was obsessed with it for 20 years, and he couldn't give his mother and her a stable life, but let them suffer a lot of bullying.

He had been to Yizhuang that night, and the overturned charcoal basin and scattered brocade had become a disturbance in her dreams, and also a disturbance in his heart. He wanted to ask her, did she feel isolated and helpless at that time, but did she ever hope that he would come to her rescue? But he didn't dare to ask, for fear that she would remember the old story and hurt it again.

"Qingqing, the mother concubine is gone, if you also go, this dream for twenty years, the suffering of the rest of my life, I really don't know how many years I can survive." Bu Xihuan looked at Twilight, and there was no trace of pain between his eyebrows, only the silence after tasting all the flavors of the world.

"But I blame myself. These days, I often dream of the palace, and the coffin of my mother and concubine rests in the mourning hall, just like when I was a child, but when I approach, the person in the coffin becomes you...... A few years ago, I dreamed of my mother at night and asked her if she was sad and lonely when she was tortured, but blame me and my father for failing to protect her? But every time I asked, I couldn't hear my mother's words clearly, her face was covered with wet and heavy yellow paper, and she spoke to me through the yellow paper, and her voice was like a Weng, indistinct. ”

"If I blame you, where will I put you?" Twilight frowned. She knew that it was not the emperor's duty to abandon the people for the sake of her children, but even if everyone in the world blamed him, she would not blame him.

Blame me for not thinking about the people, blame me for coming too late.

This bright and glamorous attitude gave way to look at it for a long time, but it failed to dissolve his heart knot, there is a sentence that he has hidden in his heart these days, and today he finally asked, "Qingqing, you ...... Blame me? ”

Twilight turned her head, her smile faint as a green tree blossom, and her eyes were brighter than the morning glow.

At that moment, she remembered that she had suddenly believed in the doctrine of destiny.

"I've done countless autopsies, and I'm still a little afraid of pain when I go under the knife on myself." Twilight looked out the window and pulled the corners of her mouth at herself, her voice low, "Actually, I'm a little lucky. I know that Hu Yanhao will not watch me die, he will definitely stop me, but I can't hesitate, if he hesitates a little, let him see my thoughts, I will lose the bargaining chips to contain him, and the eight members of the Zheng family will die under the knife. I can only gamble that he is faster than my sword, and the winner or loser is determined by heaven. She doesn't believe in the destiny of heaven, this is the case in her past life and this life, only that night gave her life to the sky, so when she looked up at the night sky, when she saw him, at that moment, the sorrow of death suddenly disappeared, and only joy was in this world.

“……”

"I ......" Bu Xihuan's gaze made Twilight suffer deeply, and she turned her head to look out the car window, and a tender white scar on the snowy neck was red by the morning light, like blood. Bu Xihuan was suffocated, and subconsciously wanted to reach out to pull her, but she said, "The inner side of the sternocleidomastoid muscle, three inches deep under the skin, and five inches of the knife, can cut off the main blood supply system to the brain, and will not cause too much additional pain due to injury to the throat and other parts." ”

"I just want to know, what was going on in your mind at the time?"

Twilight looked down silently, only to feel that there was still the residual warmth on the man's chest on her cheeks, and it was as hot as fire. She didn't want to say that she had seen Beiwang Miyagi and hoped that he would be well for the rest of his life...... Why bother? Speaking out is just a pain.

That night, he blamed himself for failing to protect her, and he blamed her for being too decisive in killing herself. She values human life, he knows it, but he still wants to ask her, does she have a place for him in her heart? The lives of people in the world are not noble or cheap in her heart, but can there be intimacy? When she killed herself, did she think about him?

This is the way of a husband, and it is also the responsibility that a man should have, he thought that his heart was wide enough, but he didn't expect that he was still a little stingy after all.

He had never been able to rebuke her, because she was his wife. She seems to be as cold as frost, but in fact, her heart is as hot as fire, and if she is tied to the harem, she will not be happy. He doesn't want to see her like his mother who can't see her face all day long, and he doesn't want to be cowardly and incompetent like his father, who can't plan for the court, and can't protect his wife and children! She is his wife, but also his favorite woman, he is willing to wish her a happy and worry-free life, for her to block a hundred years of wind and frost, white head will never leave.

"Qingqing, did you think about me when you killed yourself?" Bu Xihuan let go of Twilight, and saw her head down, her face so thin that it was distressing.

Twilight was stabbed by these words, and felt guilty for a while, and the words of apology stayed on her lips, and she wanted to say it and swallowed it. The loneliness and loneliness of the rest of his life can be made up for by her apologies, so what's the use of saying it?

"You?" Bu Xihuan stiffened instead, and her voice was painfully deep, "You're almost gone." ”

The mother has been dead for 20 years, and in the days to come, she will accompany him.

Twilight was silent, her heart was like a falling stone, and the pain lasted for a long time, and she said after a long time: "I'm still here." ”

"Hmm." Bu Xihuan hugged Twilight, sniffed the fragrance in her hair, and said in a dumb voice, "I...... I dreamed of my mother. ”

"No, you don't." Twilight pillowed down on Bu Xihuan's chest, like a small boat, and once she entered a safe haven, she didn't want to go any further. She doesn't want to suffer him, even if she is trapped by demons, for him, she can fight, fight, and endure. She stretched out her hand to hug him, ignoring the hideous old shadows devouring from the shadows, and whispered in concern, "Didn't you sleep well?" ”。

"Qingqing, rest in the future, if you don't get used to it, I'll order someone to send the bed and futon again, okay? When I wake up, you'll be by my side. He whispered in her ear, hoping for something so simple that it was distressing.

After a long time, he suddenly reached out and hugged her into his arms, forgetting that she was still trapped by the demons of that night, and she didn't even notice that her reaction was stiff. The suffering in the world, he has endured numbness, has long been unable to taste the taste of sorrow, since he met her that year, since then his mind has remained in the rainy season, worry for her, sorrow for her, and now suffering for her.

Two words are worth a thousand words to him.

"Awake?" The girl lost his robe, and wore plain clothes to bask in the morning light, but her cheeks were pink, and her complexion was very good. She smiled lightly at him, cold and cold, but still silent, "Early." ”

The morning breeze slowed down, the robe fell lightly, the girl turned her head, she was still sitting by the window, holding a handful of green wood branches in her hand, the branches were long and white, the people were thinner than the jade branches, but the plain makeup was better than Qionghua.

A suspicious voice came from behind his robe, so subtle that it was almost inaudible, but it entered his ears and made him stunned.

"Huh?"

"Qingqing!" Bu Xihuan sat up violently, reached out to the window, grabbed a cool and slippery hand, and the wind of his clothes came to his face, but he penetrated his heart.

The man sat quietly by the window, the window was half open, the summer clouds were like fire, the girl was wearing his robe and bathed in the morning light, but it seemed to be in the red lotus fire, the mountain wind was blowing, the big sleeves were flickering, and the person was covered in an instant, as if the soul was returning and would enter the mountains and forests.

When Bu Xihuan woke up, he saw a back.