In those years, mail and parcels from abroad were routinely inspected, even if it was the "National Geographic" magazine sent to Li Deyuan like a light rain, but because it was a printed matter, it had to be checked by the recipient after opening it for inspection.

After tossing for a long time, I finally let Li Deyuan sign for it, and took it back to the training school, and the colleagues who attended the class together were quite rare.

That night, I was very grateful for the carefulness of the light rain, and I said a casual word, and the girl remembered it, and really sent such a heavy package.

"You can't send Coke, these magazines are bought at the flea market, they are very cheap, you have to like reading them, and you can send them." A few very plain words, but in Li Deyuan's eyes, they are very precious, in the real world, he is in it all the time, but he feels farther and farther away from him, and the network that he originally thought was ethereal has come to a real package.

"Thank you, I thought I was going to be born, but I didn't expect to be hit by the virtual world, don't you think the address I gave you is fake?"

"No, I believe that a person who can survive all night in the pit will not have a pale soul."

"Really? Are you sure you can see that my soul is not pale? We're all Beat Generation, I don't know what I'm going to do, what I'm going to do, I'm still consoling you, I'm like a waste myself. ”

"Waste is also a thing, who defines you as waste? What standard? Parents? Friend? Leadership? Or the law? ”

"You see, I'm in my twenties, my work is not satisfactory, I didn't succeed in talking about two girlfriends, I think I have a belly of books, but even a bowl of ramen people won't let you eat because you know that the word marrying has six meanings, what's the use of having so much knowledge, you can't report to the country, you can't find a partner to report your parents, isn't it a waste to be unfaithful and unfilial?"

"Is reading for others? If you want to show it to others, but also to show it to people who can appreciate you, and you want to show people who know how to appreciate you, you have written 10,000 words with gusto, and read it to a deaf person or an idiot, do they understand? ”

"I still think that our generation is over, how clear the belief used to be, now I can't see what it is, without faith, what is the difference between people and the walking dead?"

"Your faith does not mean that it is the faith of all mankind, just like love is like a tide, his faith is money, it is to live a good life, and you have to believe, you yourself said, altogether. Owner. Righteousness, you say ridiculous, not ridiculous at all! Even the white people of Lao Meizi think that it is a common. Materialism is by far the most beautiful ideal of all mankind. ”

"Isn't it true that the United States and imperialism also believe in communism?"

"You still boast that you read Capital at the age of 14, and the improvement process of the current social welfare system in the West, if you look for information, can you see the shadow in Lao Ma's book? The system is dead, the doctrine is alive, since the contradiction exists, and the person is alive, how can Lao Tzu say that everything has a spirit, then say that everything is changing. ”

This woman is not simple! Li Deyuan has always had the idea of enlightening her, but she didn't expect to be touched by the part of her soul that was gradually petrified!

Since his life gradually changed from the factory and the encounter of love like a tide, when it tends to be calm, the body seems to be quiet, and Li Deyuan's thoughts are undergoing unprecedented agitation, those aphoristic creeds that have supported him for more than ten years are being crushed by reality one by one, the new structure has not yet taken shape, and the heart has become a desert.

In fact, he is not the only one, the entire post-70s generation, although it is a little different years from the decadent generation in Europe and the United States, but the transformation of spirit and soul and the collapse of faith are the same.

Everyone was born and grew up in New China under the red flag, and that fixed growth model was infused into the brains of the post-70s, the motherland is the only spiritual sustenance for which they want to fight and dedicate themselves, and this motherland has undergone earth-shaking changes, which are too dazzling and chaotic!

Li Deyuan's ambition since he was a child was to become the prime minister, and it was his dream to be admitted to the National People's University and enter the Foreign Affairs Academy, and this dream was shattered in the first half semester of high school, and the result of going to the capital for more than a month was that after returning to the country, three months of quarantine and examination and dozens of confessions made the body of a young man who was only 16 years old tortured by his dreams.

What he couldn't stand the most was the cold eyes and avoidance of his classmates and teachers, in that summer, except for his parents, all that belonged to him was loneliness, and for the first time in his life, he tasted the price paid for his ideals.

In the third year of high school, the head teacher said: "The three of you can go anywhere during the day, don't affect the study of other students." Li Deyuan, Lao Hei, and Lao Wei were stimulated, they didn't know what it meant to be abandoned by the mainstream at that time, they only understood that this was discrimination, this was contempt, and the three teenagers began to fight back.

During the day, I went to the park across the wall to endorse the book, and at night, when the students had returned to the dormitory, I secretly used a wire to connect the electricity from the box under the street lamp pole, and then jumped into the classroom through the back window, covered the lamp with inked newspaper, and learned that it was almost dawn before I went to sleep in the dormitory.

In order to enjoy the scenes that have evolved countless times in their minds, the three of them also agreed that they would only answer enough passing marks for each exam, so that teachers and classmates would not be able to detect their secret actions.

After the college entrance examination, the three backward students who were least favored by the teachers were all admitted to more than two schools, and their homeroom teachers did not even check the students' grades and send score slips, so they hid.

Since then, Li Deyuan's personality has become flamboyant, and the soul and ideals that were suppressed and distorted in high school have begun to burst with new vitality as he enters college.

But what the colleges and universities under the impact of the whole era brought Li Deyuan was not the so-called ivory tower-like life, and he had not yet stepped out of the school gate, and all kinds of injustices and ugly appearances that he hated and disgusted wrapped around his heart like a layer of rubber skin.

Four years of social and factory life are simply hitting Li Deyuan's soul again and again with a big stick, not to drink and understand, but to drive him back to the entire post-70s group that accepts his fate and become a normal adult, and a normal adult does not need to believe.

Isn't it just a way to escape from the light rain? Li Deyuan put a big question mark in his mind!

"What do you have to believe? Did you go out because you were weak or out of anger? ”

"You yourself said that weakness is the best disguise for women, and if anger can be separated, what else are you talking about anger?"

"I don't think I'm ridiculous or pathetic, I just have water in my eyes and can't see the way."

"The road has long been in your heart, Hantan, your courage and self-esteem are the most shining places in you, don't give up!"

Li Deyuan's eyes moistened all of a sudden, he hadn't even said this to his old man, and no friend had said it, when he was the most hesitant, the most cynical, and the most unwilling to admit defeat and helpless, he actually saw it from the words of the light rain.

"Thank you, I haven't given up, and I won't give up, I will prove my worth in another way, remember the poem that was about to be used up, look up to the sky and laugh and go out, how can I be a Penghao person!"

"Okay, hehe, is this like a worker's big brother, there is a hero, go to the monkey country to have a good look, southern Hebei is a well, and the capital is also a well, but if hundreds of wells are connected, it will be a lake, and hundreds of well-like hearts are connected together is a lake-like heart, and you will definitely have a heart like the ocean!"

Ocean? Mountains? Desert? Jungle? How did I forget these old friends? Li Deyuan muttered to himself, looked at his hands that were white because he no longer picked up the sledgehammer, and looked at the leather shoes on his feet, yes, the body is decadent and compromised, and the soul is corroded!

"That's great! Thanks again! Light rain, good friends, enough buddy! I handed you over the landlord girl! After Li Deyuan excitedly typed the next line of words, it was really unexpected, and suddenly his eyes were dark, damn! There's a power outage! Morning and night, but in the middle of the night, we chatted happily, and there was no power!

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