Yan Yan left the milk tea that Qin Yan gave her, and threw the bouquet to me, Mi Cai and I are both understanding people, we saw a signal in Yan Yan, this signal told us, wait for three days, when Qin Yan really comes to Suzhou again, Yan Yan is likely to invite him to eat alone, or will also give a name to the cup of milk tea that has not been drunk for a while.

The night was dark, the taxi was like a set machine, skillfully walking through this fragmented city cut by the viaduct, we vaguely heard the bell tower behind us ringing the bell at 10 o'clock, so I asked Mi Cai, who was holding a bouquet of flowers, "Believe it or not, Yan Yan must have parked the car somewhere at this time, drinking the cup of milk tea that Qin Yan gave her."

"Faith! Didn't Qin Yan say that only before ten o'clock can he drink the original taste of milk tea, he is a very professional barista, he should be very accurate. ”

I nodded, since Yan Yan chose to take this cup of milk tea away, then she will definitely drink it before ten o'clock, but I don't know what mood she was in when she drank it, and whether she would really drink a warm and happy feeling? I hope that I will, and I also hope that Qin Yan really has the opportunity to mend the wounds in her heart that are difficult to heal, as for the future, whether Qin Yan's family can accept her, a divorced woman, I don't want to think about it again, because I hate to artificially make love, a very simple thing, extremely complicated!

Furthermore, I have confidence in Yan Yan, even if she is a divorced woman, not everyone has the confidence to reject her, she is an excellent example of a woman, it's just that Fang Yuan didn't cherish her, I really don't know, when Yan Yan married another man and had children, would this sinful Fang Yuan regret it, would he soberly turn back and look at his distorted soul?

The car is still in the set route with the traffic lights to stop and go, the desertion in the middle of the night, as if the criss-crossing neon lights locked into the car, the clothes of me and Mi Cai are colorful, Mi Cai and I are gradually tired in this color, she grabbed my arm and leaned on my arms, I put my arm around her shoulder, and gradually looked indifferently at the city in front of me because of the darkness of the night, but I don't know, if it has a soul, what kind of posture will it look down on the small us? And will we laugh at the youth we have built here, disappearing into the absurdity of the years?

Back to the residence, tired of us, just a simple wash, then lay on the bed, soon I lost consciousness and fell asleep I began to dream in sleep again, I dreamed of Jing Xiaosi and Xia Fanye I saw tonight, they were very complete in my dream, I dreamed of Qin Yan and Yan Yan later, they also got married, Yan Yan became Qin Yan's virtuous helper, helping him to take care of the family's property in an orderly manner, and she became pregnant when she got married, and she gave birth to a girl for Qin Yan

The space in my dreams is getting wider and wider, and the time span is getting bigger and bigger, all the people who are commensurate with me as friends have appeared in the dream one after another, and I have become an engineer to contribute to their lives, I am so busy, this busyness makes me feel tired in my sleep, tired to put my future in the back of my mind, so I didn't dream of Mi Cai, nor did I dream of Janeway, or even of Le Yao, I only saw a woman in a transparent raincoat, walking around the fountain in the square in the rain, And I just followed her back and walked round and round, and I finally woke up in fatigue! I heard the wind and rain falling on the window, like breathing

I wanted to drink water, so I half-knelt on the bed and turned on the night light at the head of the bed, but I was surprised to find that Mi Cai had been awake, I yawned and asked, "Why haven't you slept yet?" ”

"I'm sleepy!"

The first time I heard the word insomnia come out of Mi Cai's mouth, it turned out that she would also have insomnia if she had always kept a good state of mind, so she forgot to pour a glass of water, and just looked at her cheeks, as if to find the cause of insomnia in her expression.

"Why are you looking at me on your knees?"

I came back to my senses, felt my mouth dry again, and got out of bed and said to her, "I'll go get a glass of water first, and come back and talk to you." ”

I sat on the sofa, drinking water, while thinking about some things, I think, the reason why Mi Cai has insomnia, stems from her mother Yan Zhuomei's return to China tomorrow, she is not ready to face Yan Zhuomei, and thinking of Yan Zhuomei, my mood also quickly fell, subconsciously took out a cigarette from the cigarette case on the coffee table and lit it, when the ashes of the cigarette fell to the ground, the light of the lamp made me blur in this confusion, desperately trying to pursue a simple! In this simplicity, Yan Zhuomei will not embarrass us, the wedding will be held as scheduled, the coffee shop has been running smoothly, and we have quickly established ourselves in Xuzhou

A glass of water was quickly drunk, a cigarette, only the cigarette butt was left to sleep in the ashtray, I finally went to the bathroom to rinse my mouth and returned to the room again, leaned on the pillow and asked Mi Cai, who was completely sleepless, "What can make you think of insomnia?" ”

"Do you really want to hear it?"

"Of course, I really want to hear all your thoughts, I'm afraid that you hide in your heart and don't want to talk to me."

After Mi Cai was silent for a while, she said: "Yan Zhuomei will never do things that are unprepared, my stay in China to get married has touched her bottom line, she may pick up what you have done before and every relationship experience, and then let me have nothing to say I hate to face these!" ”

A feeling of infarction suddenly blocked me a little lack of oxygen, and I also hated the wrong things I had done in the past, and I didn't like these wrong things to be turned over and over on the chopping board to chop them away, so I repeated the silence in silence!

I finally said to Mi Cai: "I know I don't deserve you, but we've been together for so long, I can't leave you!" ”

"Don't say that, I've already forgiven you for the past"

"I understand what you mean, and I can understand your hatred, because the past qiē is also like an unhealed wound to me that has been savagely torn open, sprinkled with salt water in it, I really want you to know that I, a butterfly with wings torn off, still want to fly around your flower"

Mi Cai looked at me for a long time before asking, "Sue me, are your pair of wings still with Jian Wei?" ”

"Let's stop talking about Janeway, shall we? You heard her say it today, and it won't be long before she disappears from our sight completely! ”

"I heard it, I can only say that she is a self-disciplined woman, but it doesn't mean that she doesn't love you anymore, and you don't care about her, I have a strong premonition, she is a time bomb buried between us"

I interrupted her, "You don't want to think so much just because it's night, can you?" She's leaving, she's leaving, she's really leaving! Let's stop going over and over again, I hate it! ”

"Why are you so excited? What is your subconscious sending to me? ”

I argued, "I'm excited because I don't want to be misunderstood by you, not because she's leaving!" ”

"Last night, when she said that she was going to immigrate abroad, I clearly saw your lost expression, and after she got out of the car, you looked at her hard Zhaoyang, these micro-expressions and body language can't deceive people, I'm not afraid that Jian Wei still loves you, the most afraid is that you still love her, but you deceive yourself and don't want to admit it, so I will feel that I am a sinner, it is my appearance, ruining the relationship between you!"

I gasped, my brain was hot, cold for a long time before I said, "I want to know what signal you are sending to me by saying this to me now?" When we came back, it was clear that we were still fine, why did Janeway say that she was going to emigrate abroad, but instead became the fuse of our quarrel? I don't understand? Or, do you think I don't love you? But will I, Zhaoyang, be a man who is willing to marry a woman he doesn't love? ”

"The calm of the night reminds you of details that you haven't paid attention to before!"

"Now that you think about it, what do you want to do if you sue me?" I asked with trembling words, I never dreamed that on the last night I was about to face Yan Zhuomei, she and I would have such a quarrel This quarrel is not a normal quarrel between lovers, it is a quarrel that will make our relationship crack! This made me feel palpitations, infarctions, and helplessness!

Mi Cai finally replied: "I don't know what I'm going to do, and I don't know who I can rely on in my life besides you."

"If you've already identified me, why do you have to think so much about it?"

"It's the nature of women, isn't it? We are afraid that we will not be able to get a sense of security from the man we love deeply, and I am no exception, I am just a sensitive and somewhat neurotic woman, I hope that there is no Jian Wei by our side, no Le Yao, and no women who always give you temptation! ”

I smiled helplessly, choked up in laughter: "Why, why are there so many suspicions between us, why have we experienced so much together, and we can't wipe off those stains in life, but it's more like a crumpled piece of waste paper?" Do we have to be in the same bed and dream like this in our lives, lying on the window, looking at the happiness of others, but we continue to be suspicious and continue to make life a war? ”

Mi Cai was silent

I choked up again and said: "I'm just a fool, I don't have the talent of Xia Fanye and Robben, I don't have the strategizing of Fang Yuan and Xiang Chen, and I don't have the illustrious family background of Wei Ran and Cao Jinfei, I will only live in my own spiritual world in this life, intoxicated, and unrealistically pursue those who don't belong to me, including you!" I'm not worthy of you, I'm not worthy of your outside discussions, I can only listen to it in my heart, and then grind it into my stomach and swallow it Maybe our encounter is the beginning of a mistake, why should I possess you? Why? ”

Mi Cai looked at me with tears in her eyes, she finally couldn't hold it back, she cried out of her voice, hugged me tightly, and whimpered and said, "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, Zhaoyang, it's my fault, I shouldn't have suspected you so much!" You're so nice to me, really nice, that's enough I love you! Today I'm making a fuss! Don't question yourself because I'm wrong, you're the best in my eyes! Other people's words are gossip, you must not take it to heart! ”

I looked at her, hugged her again, we cried together, reviewed together, and waited for dawn together for this relationship, we really paid too much, and no one wanted to lose it so lightly, but this extreme concern was not our burden, and I didn't be able to figure it out until the real dawn!

It was still raining outside the window, but the sky was already a little brighter, and Mi Cai and I didn't fall asleep anymore, just hugged each other and lay on the bed, and then looked for limited comfort in this extremely limited space.

I finally said to her, "What do you want to eat?" I'll buy it and make it for you to eat. ”

"Is it okay to porridge with preserved eggs and lean pork?"

"Well, if you sleep for a while, I'll go to the supermarket to buy preserved eggs and shredded meat"

"I'll get up with you." Mi Cai said that she had already dressed before me

In the bathroom, Mi Cai picked up some hot water in the water heater and helped me wash my hair, she washed it very lightly and seriously, and after washing, she used a hair dryer to help me dry it little by little, and then used hair wax to make a hairstyle that was most suitable for me, making me look very energetic

This morning, after we had done our personal hygiene, I went to the supermarket, and she stayed at home to clean the house, and the time for us to meet Yan Zhuomei was getting closer and closer, just waiting for a phone call to inform us, maybe after we had breakfast, maybe in the afternoon

After buying back the ingredients for making preserved eggs and lean porridge, I put on an apron and was busy in the kitchen, after controlling the heat, I looked at the rain outside the window and splashed one after another on the windowsill My love is still not rescued from the quarrel last night, I seriously asked myself whether the relationship between me and Mi Cai will really be as white as we imagined?

Doesn't seem so confident anymore? Because the difference in class will be a lingering shadow between us, so every time we have a quarrel, I am so unconfident, so scared, afraid of losing, afraid that she thinks that following me for the rest of my life is a stupid decision after so repeatedly, I really feel a little tired!

And I have also experienced these feelings in Jian Wei's body, I am cranky, if one day, Mi Cai also talks to me about breaking up, will I also reply to Jian Wei as I once did, give her a completely unburdened reply?

I didn't dare to think about it anymore because I couldn't imagine my life without her to write, I would be very boring, boring, very missed, very difficult

This is a big 4,400-word chapter...... I haven't written a quarrel chapter for a long time, and when I wrote it well, I combined the two chapters into one chapter

I think this kind of plot is the most realistic embodiment. When there is a huge class difference between the two people, they will definitely break out because of some things they are about to face, which is the true embodiment of human nature. Not to explode is a kind of detachment from reality.

Until now, there is still such an argument, the reality is already very cruel, reading novels is easy, let me not abuse, let alone abuse for the sake of abuse. I want to say, even the plot in the book makes you collapse, when the pain of life really hits you, what do you do to face it? A glass heart? My book is not abusive, but it just tears up some of the wounds in life for you to see...... Everyone, think of it as a kind of cultivation, okay? When you finish reading my book, avoid the mistakes made by those characters in the book, and become a master of life, that is the meaning, the gain, and the meaning and harvest of me!