I stood on the guardrail against the wind, my eyes wide open to find the reflection of the "city in the sky" on the surface of the flowing river, and all I could see was the glitz and glitz of the city under the neon lights.

When I woke up, I realized that I was so afraid of death, of being drowned in a bottomless moat.

I looked back at Mi Cai, but she looked so indifferent.

"Are you really not going to persuade me?" I asked Mi Cai with a frown.

"Why should I advise you?"

"But I'm going to die if I jump!"

"It's you who dies, not me." Mi Cai still said with an expression of not being surprised or surprised.

I jumped off the guardrail and said angrily: "I didn't misunderstand you at all, you are a poisonous woman, in order to achieve your own goals, you do not hesitate to let others die." ”

"I don't have a purpose, you said you were going to jump into the river." Mi Cai still said very calmly.

I was even more angry, pointed at Mi Cai and said, "Can you not be so calm and put me to death?" …… I remember I called you to persuade me not to dance, according to the script I set, you shouldn't act like this! ”

"When I came, you were lying like a dead man, and you couldn't jump, so why did you call me so much? Is it fun to play me? Mi Cai's words finally had anger.

I was a little aggrieved, I did jump under the impulse, who knew if I should die, suddenly the strength of the wine rushed up and made me fall asleep.

I didn't know how to explain to Mi Cai and said nonsense, "I really want to jump the moat, when I was about to jump, I remembered that I still owe you more than 10,000 yuan and haven't paid it back, it doesn't matter if I die!" But no one will pay you back this money, so I didn't beat as soon as I was ruthless, because I am a person with a conscience and a moral bottom line, and I will never do that kind of immoral thing that I don't pay my debts. ”

"What a tragedy!" Mi Cai looked at me and said with a smile.

"Is it really tragic? You don't know how much I struggled at that time, on the one hand, the liberation after death, and on the other hand, the condemnation of conscience after not paying the debt, it is difficult to choose! …… Of course, in the end, I chose to keep the moral bottom line with great difficulty, so I am still alive. I said with an exaggerated expression.

Mi Cai seemed unwilling to listen to my nonsense anymore, and got up from the ground, ready to leave.

"Wait." I shouted to stop Mi Cai.

"What's wrong again?" Mi Cai was already very impatient between her words, and put on the coat she had just put on me.

"Have you been sitting here watching over me since the afternoon?"

"I'm here to collect your body, not to persuade you, so I'm here in the evening." Mi Cai said with her characteristic calmness.

"Who are you bluffing, you're coming to collect my body and help me put on my coat?" With a meaningful smile, I debunked Micai's lies.

Mi Cai looked back at me and said coldly: "There will be something on the corpse to cover the remains, don't you know?" ”

I was dumbfounded by Mi Cai's words, so I was stunned, and my attention jumped out of the bickering with Mi Cai, so the alcohol that had not been completely digested began to stir up in my body again, and I was dizzy, followed by a strong feeling of vomiting.

I lay on the guardrail, hollowing myself out and vomiting into the moat, and I drank too much wine at noon.

After vomiting, I collapsed and sat down leaning against the guardrail, closed my eyes, my consciousness became more and more conscious, so the picture of Fang Yuan and Yan Yan's wedding at noon reappeared in my mind, and then a tearing pain filled my body.

At that moment, Xiang Chen helped Jian Wei put on a diamond crystal necklace that meant a token of love, and how I wanted to ignore Jian Wei's confession: I want to go back to the past, the past that rejoiced in silence, the past that was affectionate and loving......

But I never went back to the past, I lost Janeway, and I could only watch her happy in someone else's world forever!

In the pain of tearing, there was a warm feeling from the corners of my eyes, and I felt like crying!

It must not be me crying, it is the city in the sky that is crying, and she is using her tears to break down the sorrow in my heart.

"You cried, wipe your tears."

When I opened my eyes, it turned out that Mi Cai had not left, and she handed me a tissue.

I didn't pick up the tissues, and it was better to let the wind dry the tears so that they wouldn't leave any traces.

Mi Cai squatted down and looked at me, and finally asked in a lighter tone, "Is it that what I just said was too heavy?" I shouldn't laugh at you for being a corpse. ”

I was silent for a long time and whispered: "Actually, it has nothing to do with you, even if it is really a corpse, it only hurts a little before dying, but the pain of being alive is heartbreaking...... You know how it feels? ”

Mi Cai shook her head and said, "I don't understand, all I'm thinking about now is when you'll move out of my house." ”

"Are you that annoying me?" I asked, smiling, tears drying out.

"Yes, your actions really don't give me a good impression, you're an out-and-out bastard!" Mi Cai said bluntly.

"Really? …… But you don't know that the bastard who has done all the bad things in your eyes once had a clean city in his heart! ”

"I don't quite understand what you're talking about."

"You don't need to understand...... Because today this city has been detached from my body and has become a city in the sky that I will never touch! ”

I looked down and fumbled in my pockets, but there was no cigarette left for me to burn away my melancholy and mend my broken soul.

Mi Cai didn't speak, she sat down next to me, leaning on the guardrail behind her in the same position, our surroundings became quieter and quieter, as if isolated from the hustle and bustle of the city by the night, a gust of night wind blew, blowing out the equality of all beings, blowing out the fireworks in the world!

I saw a cigarette on the ground that I had only half-smoked and then extinguished, picked it up, blew it, and lit it again, and the smell of the tobacco spread again, and then dissipated in the dim light......

I finally said to Mi Cai: "I know you want me to go, I will move out, just tomorrow." ”

"Is it real this time?"

"It's true...... If I have lost even a city, will I care about a room? ……”

Mi Cai seemed a little curious, I always mentioned the castle, and she asked me, "What is the city in the sky that you are talking about?" ”

I thought for a while and said: "She is a crystal clear but always silent city, she has a kind of magic, it will make people forget jì troubles, forget jì pain, forget jì flashy, when you live in it, nothing matters anymore, because you will incarnate into a crystal clear bird, breaking through a qiē shackles and shuttling in the wind of freedom......"

"But the bird will eventually land, will it still be crystal clear after it lands?" Mi Cai looked at me and asked.

"I don't know...... Because I haven't thought about what I'll look like when I land. ”

……

Perhaps my pitiful appearance aroused Mi Cai's sympathy, this night, she did not leave me alone by the river, I took her car to the bustling and somewhat illusory city, and I have made up my mind that after this night I will move out of that old house, anyway, my life will not be any worse, it is better to be Mi Cai, and return her to peace.

Along the way, we were silent, and this silence I understand is that Mi Cai is still dissatisfied with my deception to her several times today, and my current destitude and pity cannot completely extinguish the flame of her anger, and it is very humane to be able to bring me back from the suburbs.

Back in the community where we lived, Mi Cai parked the car, and she and I walked towards the entrance of the building one after the other, but unexpectedly found that Daddy was sitting on the steps of the entrance of the building, and next to him was the old-fashioned black briefcase that had been used for decades.