Bai Ruoyun paused, gently stroked Lin Fei's tear-soaked cheeks, looked at this man she loved and hated, pursed her lips and whispered: "You stinky villain, do you know that my heart is soft, so I accumulated all my tears, and then ran in front of me to cry my nose, deliberately making me feel distressed?" ”

"No......" Lin Fei shook his head, snorted, and said softly: "Wife, I didn't mean to do this, when I heard you say that you want to leave me, my heart was extremely afraid and painful.

At the same time, my heart seemed to be hollowed out, and my whole person had no soul. I can't imagine, and I can't imagine, what life would be like without you. ”

Bai Ruoyun nodded, thought for a moment, and said softly: "Husband, since you say so, then let me ask you, if other women want to leave you, will you feel like this?" ”

"Wife, that's what I want to talk to you about today." Lin Fei snorted, let go of Bai Ruoyun's hand, and caressed the woman's pink face, "I know, they won't leave me." That's why I didn't think about how I would feel when they left me.

To tell you the truth, they are completely different from you when it comes to me, you can always take the initiative, while they will always be in a passive state.

Almost all of them are dictated by my wishes, and even if I want to leave them, they will refuse to let go as if I were pestering you.

Because my place in their hearts is as important to them as you are to me in my heart and how important you are to me. ”

Bai Ruoyun listened to Lin Fei's words quietly and nodded silently.

"They love me what I love you. It is completely a love that comes from the heart, cannot be extricated, and has no regrets. For your sake, I can not care about my own life and death. For my sake, they can also sacrifice their own qiē. ”

Lin Fei frowned, "There's no way, when we face the people we love, our thoughts and wills are no longer able to help ourselves, and we have completely fallen."

Let's take Xia Lan, who we are most familiar with, for example, when she didn't know my true identity, she didn't hesitate to bury her future in order to protect me and fear that I would be in prison.

In order to save my wife, that is, you, she did not hesitate to face danger and left the hope of life to her rival in love. The reason why she did that is because she remembers what I said to her, I love you more than my own life.

In order to escape from my feelings, and of course not to hurt you, she resolutely chose to leave here......"

Bai Ruoyun's face was full of emotion, and she frowned slightly and said softly: "I understand that Xia Lan went to a very dangerous place to carry out a mission, and when she made a choice, she was ready to sacrifice.

Moreover, she changed her name to Xia Lin, the meaning of which is easy to understand. She feels that she can't be with you in this life, and can only choose to let your name accompany her after death. As a result, she fell for the trick and nearly lost her life.

Husband, I can completely understand what you are saying. You can't bear to leave them, it's like I can't make up my mind to leave you......"

Lin Fei nodded lightly, "Wife, they are all good women just like you." On their terms, it is a breeze to find an excellent and good man.

However, they chose to commit themselves to me, and willingly became the little three who were spurned and despised by the world. Their actions do violate those traditional morals, but what they have to face and lose is much more than that of ordinary women. ”

"I know it in my heart." Bai Ruoyun sighed lightly, "For example, Teacher Erin and Xia Lan, their backgrounds and conditions are comparable to mine.

My mother is just an ordinary businessman, Xia Lan's father can be regarded as a high-ranking and powerful person, and there are many famous families who pursue her;

Teacher Erin's background is even more noble, her mother has the blood of the Spanish royal family. I saw it with my own eyes when I was a student, she turned down a prince from the Netherlands, and a German banker.

At that time, I also asked her if she thought there was a problem with the character of those two people, and the explanation given to me by Teacher Erin is still fresh in my memory. She said that the two men were very good, and they could be regarded as outstanding in terms of character and other aspects.

She refused because her heart was occupied by a man many years ago. Although the man rejected her repeatedly, she had already decided that she would only love that man in this life and this life, and her body belonged only to that man. Even if she waits for a lifetime, she has no regrets, and she will not marry other men against her will.

Her love for that man moved and shocked me. I once hoped that I could meet such a man in the future, and I could love it so deeply. ”

Speaking of this, Bai Ruoyun's face showed a complicated smile, and he said softly: "This is called creating people to make people, many years later, when Teacher Erin came to the East on the first day, I happened to go to register my marriage with the man she loved......

Lin Fei read a little apology in Bai Ruoyun's smile, and hugged the woman he regarded as a treasure into his arms, "Wife, you have also seen my life abroad with your own eyes, it looks very beautiful, but it is not.

Over the years, I have never taken anyone or anything into account, whenever and wherever I am. However, my emotional world has always been empty, confused, and in a state of confusion.

I was a loveless person since I was a child, and when I grew up, I worked in a bloody job. I didn't dare to let go of love, and I rejected too much love. Quite simply, it's because I'm afraid of losing it, so I don't expect to have it.

Before I met you, I never met a woman who had feelings for me, such as Erin, and Xia Lan, who I met after returning to China, and a woman you didn't know.

However, when I was abroad, I did spend time with many strange women, and those women were just a tool for me to vent my desires.

I don't have any affection for them, and they're just there to get what they need from me.

I've joked with my teammates about the women who had fun with me in bed at night when they got what they needed and left.

It was in the early morning of the next day that they saw my corpse lying on the street, dying in Huangquan, and they didn't feel anything in their hearts at all, at most they only had a little fear of the dead.

Because they and I are strangers in the first place, we can't talk about any feelings. Without me, they could have gone to other men.