I have been standing on the upper floors of the hotel, watching the brand-new Vincennes Group in the hands of the conspirators of Fang Yuan and Mi Zhongde, when the salute is fired in front of the square of the Vincennes Group, it seems to be an unbridled clamor of interest groups, I absolutely do not believe that this renamed group will be calm from now on, it will still be divided into several factions as before, and continue to fight for interests, as long as this dispute has always existed, then I have unlimited opportunities to infiltrate.

After the end of the media conference, I fell into a busy day and night, during this time, I seemed to become a machine born for work, I ignored people's emotions, and made the most precise calculations in front of the documents that needed to be approved, and time flowed away from me inadvertently like quicksand, and I lived alone for more than a month, until people on the street wore short sleeves, and I didn't know that even spring was coming to an end.

In this month or so, I went to Shanghai a total of 5 times, and Janeway still has no signs of waking up, she has been in a coma for almost 2 months, I am full of anxiety, even the doctors at the Mayo Clinic in the United States judged that her condition is not very good, during this time, two doctors have returned to the United States, only the attending Dr. Carter and Mo Zishi are still insisting, we have communicated several times, the two let us prepare for the worst, and the medical intervention is no longer meaningful, I could only hope that Janeway would wake up one day, but it was a kind of euphemistic despair, and I was in so much pain that I was about to lose that I turned into fear and swallowed me completely.

I began to work hard to run the road of literature and art, and kept going to various cities to give speeches, I hope everyone agrees with this road, if there is really a desire to save zài in this world, I hope that Jane Wei's idea of not knowing where to go can perceive the continuous growth of the road of literature and art, this road is not my own effort, if there is no her, there will be no store of this road at all.

Yes, I know that this will not lead to results, but I still try so hard, and then go and give myself some pitiful psychological comfort!

This evening, I walked by the familiar moat, and walked step by step to the familiar section of the river, I drank a few cans of beer along the way, I didn't want to get myself drunk, I just wanted to walk like this for a while, the pressure on my body was too great, and I could only rely on this way to relieve it.

Sitting on the guardrail of the river embankment, I threw away the beer can in my hand, and watched the sunset reflected on the river in a trance, as if dancing in the wind, and the city opposite was still the same as it used to be, as if it had shrunk into this world, turning into a weak line extending in all directions

After a while, the wind that blew for a day was tired, the world suddenly calmed down like a piece of glass, but it tore people's moods, I wanted to smoke a cigarette, but found that I had gradually quit smoking, and rarely carried it with me anymore, I was a little depressed and a little flustered

Before the night, I received a call from Le Yao, after more than a month, her film finally completed the filming in South Korea, she came to Suzhou, said that she wanted to find me and I sued her, I was by the moat, she hung up the phone, as if she knew which section of the river I would stay in, you know, this moat stretches for dozens of kilometers.

It turned out that even Le Yao knew which section of the river I liked to be sad about, she really came to me after 20 minutes, she removed a guitar from her back, handed it to me and said, "This guitar is for you!" ”

I smiled and said, "What do I want so many guitars for, you can send me something else, like Korean specialties!" ”

"This is the guitar I bought at a charity auction in South Korea, and I was going to give it to Robben, but I thought that he liked to smash the guitar when he was fine, and I still thought that forget it, charity things can't be ruined, so I gave it to you This is a good guitar, uh, I can't tell where it is, you try it first!"

I finally took over the guitar engraved with the wolf totem from Le Yao's hand, and the texture of the hand made me immediately feel that this is indeed a valuable guitar, this guitar has no brand, most of it is from the hands of a certain guitar master, no wonder Le Yao is reluctant to let Robben spoil it!

Le Yao said to me again: "Zhaoyang, sing a song you want to sing now." ”

I nodded, and after adjusting my guitar, I remembered the scene that had happened with Janeway on the bank of this river, and I was full of sadness, and before I could open my mouth, I felt that my nose was a little sour, and if Janeway didn't wake up, the moat in front of me would become a heavy history

I played a heavy melody on my guitar and sang: "One snowy evening, we came from the southern city to another southern city, the sleeping moon could not be seen on the streets of the city, and the river protecting the city flowed lonely at the edge, you cried and asked me, what else do we have left if we miss love, I said, this makes people panic, this makes people panic, this makes people panic One rainy morning, we walked from this end of the city to the other end of the city, the lights of the city flickered with the desire to jump, The umbrella that covers your body floats on the wet road, you cry and ask me, what is your life after parting, I say, this makes people panic, this makes people panic, this makes people panic Finally, your lipstick writes the wish to wait, my wine glass drinks out of the lonely melancholy, when can we see the sunshine See the sunshine Seeing the sunshine has never been able to free us, what is this life for? ”

I sang the song from a few years ago, but I really didn't want to sing this tearing song again, but I sang it anyway!

Janeway and I have come to this day because of the endless panic in our hearts, perhaps, it is meaningless to talk about these now, but those memories of laughing and crying have made my life nowhere to go again and again, and that kind of extremely sinking scene, how can I say forget it, so my only hope now is that she will wake up soon, and be happier than any of us soon, only in this way, I will not panic

No one knows my pain over the years better than Le Yao, she took back the guitar that had just sung sadness from my hand, and said softly: "Zhaoyang, be strong, even if you remember a lot of past things, it won't help"

I closed my eyes, wiped away the tears that were swirling in my eyes, and said in a deep voice, "It's been almost two months, and she hasn't woken up yet, you know?" Even the doctor said that she could only wait for a miracle, why didn't she wake up yet, was she afraid of something in this world? ”

Le Yao was silent for a long time before replying: "She is afraid that you are afraid to see you love another woman named Mi Cai so deeply, but she can only live in memory and suffer, maybe, when she finds the best solution, she will wake up!" ”

"Nonsense, you are nonsense without any basis!" I reprimanded sharply.

"I don't know, maybe so?"

"You don't tell me maybe!"

Le Yao said in a low voice: "Actually, as long as she can wake up, even if it is really like this?" ”

I lowered my head and was silent! As long as she can wake up, what are those emotional rights and wrongs, at this moment, I would rather what Le Yao said is true! And Janeway doesn't want to wake up, just looking for a solution to our past.

Le Yao pulled me off the guardrail again and said, "Zhaoyang, be happy, don't always think about what you have lost and what you are about to lose, you should look at what you have gained now!" In just the past few months, you have revitalized the project of the Road of Literature and Art, I have really seen a lot of changes in you, you have become a man with a sense of mission, so you have been running around the country in various cities to give speeches on the project of the Road of Literature and Art, these, you would not have done it before, now there are many people who agree with your thoughts, and regard what you are doing now spare no effort to do as your spiritual pillar, so you can't go back to the negative self you once was! ”

"I know that neither I nor anyone else around me will ever go back to the way I used to be."

Le Yao finally smiled and said, "Well, Zhaoyang, do you remember what I'm best at?" ”

I looked at her with some confusion

She laughed "haha": "You idiot, what I'm best at is what I'm best at wasting your time!" ”

I thought about it, and it was true, I couldn't remember how much time we wasted each other in the bar, we just sat like this, didn't laugh, didn't talk, so that we didn't feel the time saving, but time really passed, if she was going to say that, then what I was best at wasting her time, I finally said: "You are wasting my time, I am also wasting your time"

"It's different, I've never felt like I'm wasting my time with you."

"Really?"

Le Yao ignored my questioning, but said: "Now that I am a well-known star, you have also become a super speaker, and the CEOs of several companies, can make each other waste more and less time, I don't know if you are still interested in letting me help you waste time again in such a twilight?" ”

"What do you want to do?"

"Stupid, since we're wasting your time, of course we're not doing anything, so let's just walk around this moat and see how night comes to this city!"

I looked at her, I don't know what kind of faith supports her thin body, sticking to my side again and again, not only that, she always seems to like to magnify my achievements, I just gave speeches in a few cities, she proudly called me a super speaker, as if even if I become a miserable dog in this world, she will forget her star status, like an ignorant little fan regardless of the admiration of me

I remembered the anonymous aid to Simei's advertising of 15 million, could that person be her in front of me, but I mistakenly thought it was Mi Cai?