I gave Mi Cai blessing with a smile, but she didn't respond to me with a smile, just looked at the fountain behind me in silence, still so unfeeling, so this unfeeling, gradually infected me, and just looked at the maple tree behind her, until a maple leaf fell on her shoulder

I don't know when I came to the sanatorium, carrying a thermos box and a few jars, he walked towards us.

I finally said to Mi Cai, "My dad is here, behind you." ”

Mi Cai looked back, then stood up from the bench, and it wasn't until Daddy Ban came to her that she showed a soothing smile and shouted, "Uncle." ”

Daddy lifted the thermos box in his hand and asked with a smile, "You haven't eaten lunch yet, have you?" ”

Mi Cai nodded, and Ban Dad smiled again: "Zhaoyang and I just rushed over from Xuzhou, the time is tight at noon, and we haven't cooked any good dishes, it's quite homely!" ”

"Uncle, I really like the home-cooked food you make!"

Ban Dad put the thermos box on the stone table under the maple tree, and asked Mi Cai with concern: "Xiaomi, how are you doing, do you still feel dizzy?" ”

"Uncle, don't worry, it's much better, maybe I've been a little tired lately!"

"Then you must pay more attention to rest, people are prone to anxiety and fragile physical functions in summer, plus they are tired and stressed at work, and it is easy to get dizzy!"

I interjected: "Daddy, she's a top student, can she not understand this common sense of life?" Don't nag her! ”

Mi Cai looked at me with a complicated face, and I said to the somewhat surprised Ban Dad: "You leave these meals, we are almost ready to go out to eat, this will be a little sooner!"

Ban Dad finally noticed that the atmosphere was wrong, and after a little silence, he said to Mi Cai: "That's okay, Zhaoyang and I will go out to eat first, the jar next to the thermos box is herbal tea made with prunella and honeysuckle, which has a calming effect, if you are bitter, add some honey, honey is in the smallest jar, and you must remember to drink it after eating later."

I interrupted Daddy again and complained, "Dad, when did you nag so much? I'm almost hungry, let's go eat quickly, okay? ”

Mi Cai looked at the large and small jars on the stone table, there were tears in his eyes, and my heart was also painful, I just wanted to leave the place as soon as possible, so I walked towards the parked car before my father.

In an instant, he drove the car to the side of the board father and urged him to get into the car

Ban Dad opened the co-pilot's door and sat in the car, I stared at Mi Cai again before starting the car, she seemed to want to say something, but bit her lip again, I finally said to her, "You have a maple leaf on your shoulder." ”

Mi Cai tilted his head and looked at it, took the maple leaf off his shoulder, I didn't say anything, closed the window, and drove the board dad to the outside of the nursing home, until I went out of the gate, I remembered that I didn't even say goodbye to her but so what, some people are born lonely, such as me, such as Mi Cai, so we don't need to say goodbye to each other, because goodbye can't save those loneliness, and this sadness stems from the fact that we have never really relied on each other, who is lonely, who is miserable, they all deserve it!

In the process of eating with Daddy, I didn't say anything, just told him: Mi Cai was ready to marry another man, and then he fell into silence completely, and he didn't say a word to me until he left Suzhou, presumably he was disappointed in his heart, but he also knew that the matter had come to this, no matter how much effort was made, nothing could be redeemed, it was better to accept this result in silence, at least he could leave some last dignity for his son.

I seemed to be used to the pain, so this afternoon, I had been calm, calmly smoking half a pack of cigarettes, sleeping peacefully for a few hours, and then calmly calling Janeway, intending to return the car to her.

As far back as I can remember, it seems like I haven't sung with a guitar in my arms for a long time, so this evening I went to the moat with my guitar, and I wanted to sing, because calm doesn't mean no emotion, I need a catharsis, something to do with the guitar, a catharsis that has nothing to do with alcohol.

Come to think of it, I was indeed much calmer than I used to be, so I didn't go to the bar, I didn't drink, I just came to this moat, and I could return Janeway's car to her by the way, isn't that sane enough?

lit a cigarette and plucked the strings of the guitar, but his voice felt dry inexplicably, so he sang the "Proverbs of Love" in a much hoarser voice than before, but the more he sang, the more he didn't understand, why did he risk heartache so much, and sang this song with many memories?

Perhaps, I fantasize about being able to have a conversation with Mi Zhongxin, and I want to ask him: do you recognize the qiē that his most beloved daughter is doing now, and do you recognize the qiē changes and efforts I have made for Mi Cai?

As I sang and sang, I felt a warm sensation in the corners of my eyes, and I couldn't sing anymore, just looked at the flowing river, slowly finished a cigarette in my hand, and then looked up at the sky, the sunset was already covered by thick clouds

Janeway finally came to my side, and after she sat down, she asked, "Didn't you say that the genius came back, why did you come early?" ”

I threw the car keys to her, and I also learned from Mi Cai's loveless appearance, and replied, "There is something wrong temporarily." ”

Jian Wei nodded, didn't say anything more, and as usual, took out a stack of Wen Jiàn from her handbag, as if she was about to enter the working state.

I looked at her, and she turned her head back to me and asked, "Why are you looking at me like that?" ”

"When are you going to marry Xiang Chen?"

Jian Wei was a little surprised by my sudden question, and replied after a while: "Next year, didn't I sue you before?" ”

"Hurry up and get married, you can only get married"

"Who spurred you into such virtue again?"

I smiled and replied dismissively, "Am I going to be stimulated?" Sue you, I can live smoothly until now, and I have long been invulnerable! ”

"If I am in charge of taxes, I will definitely include bragging in the scope of taxes, and look at you people, do you dare to brag so unscrupulously!"

I didn't respond, I lay straight on the lawn, stared at the somewhat dull sky for a long time, and finally asked Janeway, "What do you say we have now?" ”

Jian Wei was stunned for a moment, and replied: "Even if you are a friend, it can also be said to be a cooperative relationship." ”

"Actually, I've always wanted to ask, we always meet together so often, and now we have a business partnership, doesn't Xiang Chen care at all?"

Jian Wei shook her head and smiled, and said, "Zhaoyang, you and I are both good horses, who would still worry about the grass that needs to be eaten by turning back?" So Xiang Chen won't mind anything, and I've always felt that he is a confident man, he understands very well, what kind of mentality can keep his own woman! ”

After a while, I finally smiled with self-deprecation, if Jian Wei's statement is true, compared to Xiang Chen, I am really not a confident man, so Jian Wei and Mi Cai will leave me one after another, and I have also fallen into the crowd of Tiansha Lone Star I only feel that love and marriage are getting farther and farther away from me!

So, I saw through it, so I made up my mind, gave up those unrealistic fantasies about love, tried my best to find a woman, and got married! Then go all out to create that "literary road" and realize the value of life that you should realize!

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