1191 Not Love
Lin Fei had been silently listening to the emotional "story" told by the man, and there was no expression on his face, but when he heard Cui Xuerao's resentment, he smiled softly.
Cui Xuerao happened to turn her face and saw Lin Fei's smile, the girl frowned slightly, and asked puzzledly, "Uncle, why are you smiling?" ”
"Let's continue to hear this man tell his story." Lin Fei smiled at Cui Xuerao and said, "I'll explain to you later, how about it?" ”
"Okay." Cui Xuerao nodded.
The man's trembling voice came from the radio again, "Ms. Anchor, my heart is very uncomfortable now, and I need to take a little time to adjust my feelings." ”
"No problem." The anchoress's voice sounded sympathetic, and then the radio sounded soft and soothing background music.
Lin Fei chuckled softly again, and Cui Xuerao pursed her lips and asked, "Why are you laughing again?" ”
Without waiting for Lin Fei to speak, the man on the radio said, "I'm really sorry, I might have to spend a few minutes, otherwise, you guys should start the next show first." ”
"Okay." The female anchor said emotionally, "I am patiently waiting for you with the majority of listeners and accompanying you to fulfill your wishes." ”
"Thank you, thank you." The man's thanks were full of sincerity.
"You're welcome." The female anchor also adjusted her feelings, "Next, let's invite another friend......"
"It seems that his love is difficult to adjust for a while." Cui Xuerao said quietly.
This listener's singing skills are obviously insufficient, and Cui Xuerao is not in the mood to listen, so she gently turned her body sideways, looked at Lin Fei and said, "Uncle, you ......"
"I didn't mean anything else by laughing just now." Lin Fei knew what Cui Xuerao was going to ask, "I just think that this anchor shouldn't be very old." ”
"That's right, that's right! She's about the same age as me. Cui Xuerao hurriedly replied, the girl remembered hearing this female anchor mention in the show that she was a year earlier than she went to college.
"Huh!" Cui Xuerao stared at Lin Fei and asked, "Uncle, can you sue me, how do you know?" ”
"Feelings and experiences." Lin Fei said lightly.
"Feelings and experiences?!" Cui Xuerao pouted, shook her head lightly and said, "I don't understand, it's better for you to explain to me." ”
"Yes." Lin Fei nodded, still with a smile on his face, "Let's start with this anchor, she is the same age as you, and she has just entered society." From her words, I can sense that there are many similarities with you in her.
You are all kind-hearted and relatively simple girls. If you guessed correctly, she's still celibate. Even if she wasn't, she hadn't experienced love in the true sense of the word. Some girls like you are particularly easy to be touched when it comes to love. ”
"So, you're laughing at our simplicity?" Cui Xuerao interjected softly.
"Silly girl, that's not what I meant." Lin Fei raised his hand and touched Cui Xuerao's head.
"And what do you mean?" Cui Xuerao pursed her lips.
Lin Fei suppressed his smile, "The moving I am talking about here is different from the general sense of moving, as I said just now, it only refers to love."
Since your experience with this anchor in love is like a blank slate, you have no real experience and cognition of the emotional development between men and women, especially the subtle changes in the emotions of two people at different stages, so it is impossible to have deep feelings and understanding. ”
"I see." Cui Xuerao pursed her lips and smiled, "Then how do you understand this man's story when you hear it?" ”
"My understanding is completely different from yours, I think he said it sooner or later, and the result will not make much difference, at least until now, I will not feel sorry for him at all." Lin Fei said calmly.
Cui Xuerao frowned slightly again, "Is it because of his indecision or excessive cowardice in the face of love, that you are disgusted with him?" ”
"It's not." Lin Fei shook his head, "Love is mutual, and it can't be wishful thinking. The man said so much, he only expressed his own feelings, and did not talk about whether the girl had feelings for him at all.
If that girl doesn't love him, even if he says it, even if he lets everyone in the world know how much he loves that girl, what's the point?
If you really love each other, even if you don't say it, the other person can know it. Love, there is no need to always talk about it, you need to do it silently, and you need to feel it with your heart.
In addition, there is a fundamental difference between love and family friendship, so the emotional experience from relatives and friends cannot be copied and applied to love, because they are measured by completely different standards.
Just like I do to you, to your aunt, to your mom and grandpa. I am good to you and willing to do many things for you, and you are the same for me.
However, our friendship only shows that we all regard each other as good friends, or we can also say that we are like relatives. There are no other factors in our relationship. It's pure friendship, even family affection, but it's definitely not love! ”
Cui Xuerao bit her lower lip tightly and was silent for a moment before saying, "I understand." ”
At this time, the female anchor on the radio said, "The director reminded me that the previous friend should continue to share his heart with us, and we invited him again." ”
"Thank you. I'll hurry up and say it. Because I love that girl deeply, I think that as long as she can find a man who truly loves her, can have a happy marriage, and can spend this life happily, my heart will naturally be happy for her, and I will send her good wishes.
Although, I'm really unwilling. However, this was not the case, and the man with whom she was ......," the man paused here deliberately, "was a married man." ”
"How could this be?!" Cui Xuerao secretly shouted in her heart, and a sigh came out of her mouth, "Alas, ......"
"I really can't accept the reality that the girl I love is going to be a lover for someone else, but I can't control her thoughts. The only thing that can be done is to wait silently.
Wait for her to grow up and mature as soon as possible, wait for her to wake up and repent as soon as possible, wait for her to leave that man as soon as possible, and wait for her to return to my sight as soon as possible.
After all these years, my career is thriving, and I have always lived alone. Because I've been thinking about her in my heart, I don't have any feelings for any better girl. I can't even remember how many girls I turned down.
I was always hoping that one day, she would show up as I had imagined. When the time comes, I will confess to her regardless of the moment, hold my heart to her, and tell her that I want to give her a real home, and I will let her live a happy life.
And when she really appeared, I was shaken again, and buried the thousand words that I had been preparing for many years deep in my heart. Because she told me that she was doing well and was happy.
I could tell she wasn't lying to me. I also knew that the qiē I had been waiting for and hoping for could not be realized. I didn't confess to her, I just didn't want her to be unhappy, but I was unwilling.
So I figured out the platform of guò, told my heart, and sang a song that she also liked. I've sung and spoken, and I don't have any regrets anymore.
Thank you to the anchor and director, and thank you to the friends who shared my emotional journey. It's time for me to leave. ”