Janeway looked at me, waiting for me to tell me about the agreement I had with Robben, but I didn't know where to start, because taboo would say something that shouldn't be said, and Janeway urged me to ask, "What is the agreement between you?" ”

I finally said to her: "Robben and I met shortly after you went to the United States, you know, at that time I didn't have a serious job, I had been running in bars, and then I met Robben, and we worked together on what should be the most difficult period of my life materially, I like music, but music can't give me what I need urgently, and the same is true for Robben, the money we earned at that time was not enough to rent a recording studio. I was so desperate to buy a MIDI device at that time, I was really desperate! ”

"What did you need so badly?"

I was silent for a long time, not looking at Janeway's face and replied, "A platform where you can prove yourself." ”

Janeway was silent longer than I did, and asked again, "Do you need that platform for the love we once had?" ”

"It doesn't matter at all," I continued, after a pause, "and then I finished that Ferocious. In fact, that album is at best the level of underground rock, but it is the most memorable for me and Robben, because this is an indelible symbol in our lives, recording the shame, unwillingness and suffocation that life has given us, so we agreed that whoever succeeds in their field first must perform the song "Fierce. Reptile and then smash the guitar to pieces, forgetting about those dry and gray days in catharsis"

I swallowed in pain as I spoke, and then fell silent, and just as Janeway was about to speak, I said, "It's so desperate!!" The two of them sang numbly in the underground passage with their guitars all day long, and they didn't even dare to think of the word future in their heads, even if they think about that period of time now, they were all the taste of instant noodles and the dry, stupid tunes played by various instruments, and I just felt that a gust of wind blew us to death. Exercise! ”

My love xù fell into that period of time again, seeing myself full of holes, I think Robben on the stage is also the same love as me now, so I will smash the guitar so roaring, this kind of love xù people who have not experienced it will not understand Fortunately: now Robben has succeeded, he has become a rock star with a great market appeal with his musical dream, and I am tossing and turning in the Polaroid Department Store, and people are about to decay, so the person who smashed the guitar today is Robben, not me Zhaoyang!

The wind became more and more violent, and the sound of dead leaves running on top of dead leaves in the distance sounded all around, making the two of us scattered here extremely quiet, I closed my eyes, clenched my hands into fists to support my forehead, and didn't let myself cry, it's been so long, I shouldn't have cried for that time, at least I gritted my teeth and survived, and I didn't use tears to pity myself, I don't need tears in my life, but my beloved dreams are really gone

"I'm sorry, I shouldn't have left you and went to the United States alone I know that you worked hard for the love we once had, and even gave up your dreams!" Janeway looked ahead, she didn't cry, but the tears fell without warning, it turned out that tears could not mean crying, except for the falling tears, she looked so calm.

"Don't talk about this, one day, every qiē will turn into a cloud of smoke, so the pain that has been endured is all false deception!"

"Do these false deceptions include love?"

"Including love, it's all fucking hypocritical, it's like the moon, there's one hanging in the sky, there's a fucking one lying in the lake, who knows which one is real!"

Back to the hotel, I lay on the white bed, watched Robben's concert tonight again, and then, the whole person shook up, dissociated, at this time I longed for a person to lie in my arms, to make up for the emptiness of the lost dream in my heart, but the person I love may be more difficult than me at the moment, I realized: our ups and downs do not come from love itself, but the hindrance given by life, she is willing not to love the fullness, but also to keep the glory of Zhuo Mei This is nothing, I have long accepted it! It's just that sometimes I still imagine each other taking two bodies without burdens to live some ordinary days, and in my opinion, some pursuits are really tiring and frightening!

Finally, the long-awaited phone rang again, and I hurriedly picked it up and looked at it, this time it was really Mi Cai calling, I exhaled heavily before I connected the phone, and said first: "Receiving your call before going to bed is the most joyful thing today!" ”

She was silent on the other end of the phone for a while before asking, "Why haven't you slept yet?" ”

"I'm watching Robben's concert today, do you want to watch it, if you want, I'll forward a copy of the video to you."

"Well, is his performance still smooth today?"

"You'll know when you watch the video," I said slowly, thinking about whether to talk to her about the crisis that Jumei's listing was experiencing.

Mi Cai couldn't answer, and fell into silence, this silence made me feel her bad feelings now, this predicament hit her too hard, after all, this is the fate of the success or failure of Zhuomei's listing.

After some weighing, I finally said to her: "I had dinner with Mr. An of Tianyang Group tonight, she told me something, I am very worried about you, and I want to help you share some of it, but what should I do?" If you sue me, I will do it even if I try my best. ”

Mi Cai's voice suddenly choked: "I don't even know what to do myself, how can I tell you, what are you going to do?" You can do your own business, I don't want you to be distracted, the current situation is really not something that someone can reverse"

"If you feel tired and helpless, just cry, don't let those feelings that can't be vented suffocate yourself out of the hurt, at least I will always be by your side with you, no matter what you will become in the future."

After a moment of silence, Mi Cai really cried, she sobbed, I gasped, gasping because I really felt the pain and unwillingness in her heart, she was really too difficult!! I told myself over and over again that there must be a way to turn the situation around, there must be, things are man-made, as long as I am willing to think and do

The expression in the book is related to people's feelings.,When I wrote the first book, it was the most positive stage of my life.,So it's very uplifting.,The second book can't remember what the state is.,This book always likes to look back at what I've experienced before.,So I like to write some memories.,For example, today's chapter.,Zhaoyang has experienced.,I've experienced it.,It's just in a different way.,He's making music and I'm doing other things.,But the love xù is the same...... I am indeed a person with heavy negative energy, and I am not very willing to change my state, so if I used to be awesome, I am still awesome, I was stupid before, and I am still stupid. The most despised are some people who pretend to be known with shameless faces, pretending to be forced