Seeing that my expression was numb and I didn't speak for a long time, Mi Cai asked with concern, "Are you uncomfortable drinking too much?" ”

"It's a little bit, it's blocked."

"No wonder I haven't said a word since now, don't drink so much in the future."

I nodded, and didn't say anything more, and just now I was brought over about Xiang Chen's cabinet in Zhuomei.

Back to the old house, I became more and more dizzy, I didn't have time to wash and lay on the bed, even if I closed my eyes, I felt that the whole room was rotating, I was a little uncomfortable, until there was a cold on my face to feel more comfortable, but when I opened my eyes, Mi Cai wiped my face with a wet towel.

I grabbed her hand and said to her, "It's not too early, you should go back and rest early." ”

"You've drunk so much wine, it's okay if no one takes care of you, I'll stay here tonight."

"I'm fine, you can go back."

"Zhaoyang, what's wrong with you? It used to be always me staying here, now ...... Now that we're together, why are you letting me go? ”

At the moment, I don't have the ability to think, but the alcohol seems to stimulate my instinct to not want to trouble her, and I vaguely urge, "You hurry back and rest, okay?" …… Before I met you, I lived like this every day, didn't I live a good life? ”

Mi Cai didn't speak, I rolled over, turned my back to her and didn't speak, I only felt a pain in my head, a dizziness, and then I lost the ability to communicate and fell asleep.

……

At night, my stomach began to churn, stumbled to the bathroom and vomited like a burst of self-emptiness, and then the whole person collapsed, sitting on the ground leaning on the toilet weakly, looking at the washstand opposite in a daze.

Finally felt thirsty, went back to the living room and picked up the teapot to pour himself a glass of water, but found it empty, and he didn't bother to boil a pot, so he directly took a glass of tap water, drank it all, but gradually sobered up under the stimulation of freezing, and remembered some conversations with Mi Cai when he was still conscious.

Under the influence of alcohol, people often express the truest thoughts in their hearts and deeds, so I will let Mi Cai leave without being dominated by consciousness, and I don't want to trouble her, but I can't remember that she is my girlfriend now, on the contrary, the better she treats me, the more accommodating I am, the more I feel empty-hearted!

In the chaotic divergence of thinking, I remembered the scene when Janeway drove me for a ride in the newly bought Cadillac many years ago, and I suddenly felt depressed, thinking that at that time I had already let the inferiority complex take root in my heart, and my own nothingness over the years was like fertilizer that continued to nourish this little shoot, and finally grew into a towering giant tree, and then firmly dominated my values and outlook on love.

In annoyance, he took out a cigarette from the cigarette case placed on the coffee table and lit it, took a tasteless puff, and lay tired on the sofa, habitually looking at the ceiling in a daze.

After smoking a cigarette, I went back to my room, only to find a warm water kettle on the bedside cabinet, it turned out that Mi Cai had already prepared hot water for me when she left, but I didn't notice it, and then went to drink a glass of tap water without temperature in a daze, which was somewhat ironic to me.

Even when she was in a hostile state with Mi Cai, she didn't ignore me, not to mention that we are now a couple! How could she walk away, at least prepare me a pot of hot water necessary for drinking, but I didn't think of this, subconsciously it was full of her beauty, her status, her wealth, and then imprisoned herself in a strange circle and touched her with her hands, but my heart struggled to escape.

Human nature is complicated after all, and I don't quite understand myself at this moment, but I am really troubled by a lot of negative feelings, so I ask myself: What is the reason that triggers my feelings at this time?

I think that after the ecstasy of being together gradually receded, the whole person began to return to rationality, and then inevitably measured this relationship with the gap in reality.

In the following time, I have been lying in bed thinking about how to improve myself this thing I have to do, but I have no idea at all, until the bell of the drum tower rang at 6 o'clock, I was shocked: no matter how good my entrepreneurial ideas are, in the absence of capital to support, it is just a fantasy, so the past few hours, just an idiot with an empty dream, so I am even more lost, more dazed.

……

Without a trace of sleepiness, I got up at seven o'clock, boiled porridge in the morning, put it in a thermos flask, bought some of Mi Cai's favorite pastries, and then drove to the community where she lives now.

After a while, I arrived at my destination, parked the car at the entrance of the community, and then dialed Mi Cai's phone, this time Mi Cai quickly answered the phone, she yawned, apparently still sleepy, she was woken up by the phone ringing, which surprised me a little, because she usually turns off her phone or mutes it when she is resting.

I asked, "Haven't you gotten up yet?" ”

"Well, why did you get up so early?"

"I can't sleep and I get up...... Why didn't you turn off your phone when you went to bed today? ”

"I'm afraid you'll be uncomfortable at night, call me!"

Mi Cai's words made me feel guilty and moved, and after a moment of silence, I said to her, "I'm worried about you...... By the way, I bought you a breakfast, and now it's at the gate of the community, and if you tell me which building I live in, I'll send it to you. ”

"Why are you buying me breakfast?"

"I'm used to you."

"Why are you used to me?"

"Because you're my girlfriend!"

"Do you remember that I was your girlfriend?"

Only then did I realize that I had fallen into Mi Cai's words, and she really cared about what I had asked her to leave last night, and she said after a period of silence: "I just don't want you to be too tired, and I am easy to lose my temper when I drink alcohol, and I don't want to destroy my image of grandeur in your mind." ”

After my somewhat far-fetched explanation, Mi Cai didn't dwell with me about last night's events anymore, and ended the call after telling me which building she lived in.

……

Entering the community, after finding the building number Mi Cai said, I found that she did not live in a suite, but a townhouse, and an independent courtyard, in which her car was parked.

Mi Cai still wore her cotton cartoon pajamas to open the door for me, I walked into the small villa with her, and was immediately attracted by the careful layout of the courtyard, looking at the flowing pond and rockery, I only felt that I was in a small garden in the south of the Yangtze River, and I was more curious why Mi Cai would give up such a good living environment and live in that old house.

As I walked, I sighed and said, "The environment here is very good, quite stylish!" ”

Mi Cai smiled and replied, "This house was given to me by my uncle on my birthday last year. ”

Mi Cai's answer made me even more incomprehensible about her relationship with Mi Zhongde, why did Mi Zhongde give her the best materially while still being so her in the shopping mall?

Think about it carefully, people are contradictory, just like myself, desperately trying to be good to her, but refusing her to be good to me, in the final analysis, Mi Zhongde's contradiction stems from desire, and my contradiction stems from inferiority, I understand, whether it is Mi Zhongde's desire or my inferiority, it has given Mi Cai harm in a certain way.