"Shirou, are you asleep already?"

I don't know how long it's been

The only thing that can be known is that it was already dark outside, and it was obviously the middle of the night.

Emiya Shirou sat beside her like this, burying his head between his arms in a daze, not saying a word, just waiting quietly

Maybe it's because the emotions that have been pent up in my heart for more than decades are released in one go?

After revealing his sincere feelings, indescribable fatigue came to his head from all directions, and he gradually became half-awake and half-asleep, and finally, without warning, Emiya Shirou fell into a deep sleep.

now

Walking up to Emiya Shirou's side, Saber half-crouched down and gently brushed off Emiya's bangs, revealing an extremely haggard face.

He was really tired.

For more than ten years, he has been tightly pressed by the fate of the previous two lives, and even his dreams are bound by the chains of memories, and he can't extricate himself

For the guilt that no one can save, for the self-blame that only he can be saved, for the sorrow of Saber and the others dying in front of them, for the anger of their own powerlessness, all kinds of emotions do not stimulate Emiya Shirou's nerves for a moment!

On the one hand, the reason why he was able to pretend to be casual was because the warmth from relatives and friends helped to alleviate these negative feelings, but on the other hand, it was also because Emiya Shirou used his strong willpower to drive these emotions into a corner of his heart, and then forcibly blocked them.

But he was really tired.

Suppressing one's emotions, pretending to be rational, and showing others with a mature and calm posture is as if one is born to be flawless, but who can know that under the surface of the hero, what is hidden is only the flesh and blood heart of an ordinary person?

"Emiya Shirou" is not a saint before, is not now, and will not be in the future.

Weakness is not that there is no zài, but it is hidden deep by him.

There are only a few girls who can detect this and wait for two ceremonies to stay with him for a long time, as well as Zhu Yue and Niang Shanshan, who are as intuitive as cheating.

Wise and calm at the same time, there will be stupid and cute times, mature and calm at the same time, but there will also be a child's side, there is the courage to sacrifice one's life but there will still be things to be afraid of, contradictions but not lose the truth, this is the truth of Emiya Shirou, a mortal who was forced by the environment and had to put on the skin of a hero!

It is precisely because he can understand this that in front of the two ceremonies, Emiya Shirou was able to open his heart, be himself unrestrained, and live as "Emiya Shirou", instead of getting along as the "Fourth Magician" or "Iron-smelting Hero".

But that's all.

Although they could sense the weakness in Emiya Shirou's heart, they could not go any further. Even in front of them, who were as close as family, Emiya Shirou still didn't say the deepest darkness in his heart, the emotions that were blocked by him.

It's not that Emiya Shirou thinks that they are not close enough to talk about these things with the two ceremonies, but he really doesn't want to let them worry about him for no reason.

The former is that they don't want others to worry and think that there is no need to say it; The latter is afraid of the former's mood and thinks there is no need to ask, and the result is that Emiya Shirou has always been tight-lipped and has always hidden his weakness in a place that others can't see

"Shirou I'm sorry"

There is only one exception.

In addition to the deep bond of the three lives, the memories of each other are also connected

As long as she is by her side, she will unconsciously feel at ease, although if she has a choice, Emiya Shirou's answer is still to hide things in her heart, but only in front of Saber will Emiya Shirou unconsciously reveal the deepest emotions and show his weakest side

A tear trail on Emiya's haggard cheeks remained on the edge of his closed eyes.

After taking off the strong armor, what is revealed is a little-known weakness

Even heroes are human beings after all

Even heroes will be like ordinary people, there are times of laughter and times of crying

Great strength, outstanding talent, and fame are overshadowed by these external brilliance, and people always unconsciously distinguish heroes into another creature, but not many people can remember that their essence is actually inseparable from the category of human beings

"I really don't know"

The nostalgia for honor is still there at the moment, but it has been diluted a lot unconsciously

On the contrary, the words that Emiya Shirou said with a half-crying voice still echoed in his mind to this day.

It's hard to imagine

Even if you cover your cheeks with your hands

The Emiya Shirou, who has always given people a sense of wisdom and maturity since they met, and the Emiya Shirou, whose strength can even rival the Heroic Spirit itself, would actually show such a weak posture

"This time I was derelict in my duties, it seems that I am far from mature enough?"

Although she was only frustrated unilaterally at first, she not only asked Emiya Shirou, who was the owner of the contract, to comfort her, but finally touched the sore spot of Emiya Shirou, who was the owner of the contract, and made Emiya Shirou cry

As a knight, this crime is more severe than incompetence.

"Well, if Shirou was awake, you would probably resist."

Posing as if he was facing a great enemy, Saber slowly reached out and gently wiped away the tears from the corners of Emiya's eyes.

"But as a knight, I can't let my master look like this."

After wiping away the tears from the corners of Emiya's eyes, Saber slowly sat down next to Emiya Shirou and looked up at the ceiling of the dojo.

"It seems like a little late, but you're really getting stronger, Shirou."

P.S.1: Well, this chapter is a transitional chapter, and the basic transformation of the character of FATE in this book has finally been completed! Sprinkle flowers ~ onboard ~ P.S.2: For some reason, when I wrote this chapter, I somehow remembered being forced to stay at the airport when I went on a trip (hugging my legs?) I hate the experience of being delayed by a plane

P.S.3: Thanks to "kcktp" for the tip, thanks to "Yunqi Qinggu" for the tip and evaluation votes.