It took an hour,I wrote that stack of about 20 postcards,The mood is with the content of what I wrote on the postcard and go through the ups and downs,I almost used a lifetime of cultural accumulation,Convert my mood,Turned into the form of lyrics and verses,Written on these postcards,Although I am very satisfied,But I don't know if Mi Cai will understand these many or pretend to be profound or sincere messages when he receives a bouquet of star films。

Xiaoyun carefully tied up the postcards I wrote with a rubber band, and then asked me for Mi Cai's address in the United States, and helped me take responsibility for sending bouquets, and I said: As long as I have time, try to make time for myself to send, I feel that I can send it by myself to be sincere.

At ten o'clock in the evening, Xiaoyun closed the flower shop as usual, and after spending so long on this night, I finally felt hungry again, so on this old street, Xiaoyun pushed a bicycle and I was smoking a cigarette again.

We walked very silently along the way, after all, Xiao Yun who was pushing the cart couldn't use his mobile phone to type out at this time, so I smoked while turning the lighter over and over again between my fingers in boredom, and I was indeed a master of playing with lighters, so Xiao Yun had been very interested in watching the lighter change all kinds of non-repetitive patterns in my hands.

I finally asked Xiaoyun, "What do you want to eat?" ”

Xiao Yun looked at the noodle shop across the street and asked me if I would like to eat a bowl of water with eggs

In the noodle shop, we sat by the window, waiting for the good pasta, Xiaoyun took out his notepad as usual to settle today's accounts, and I looked at the night scene outside the window a little distractedly, so my eyes were full of the dryness and dilapidation of the old town, and the bulldozer that was still working!

I finally asked Xiao Yun on the other side, "Xiao Yun, do you like this old town?" ”

Xiaoyun directly used a pen to write on the notepad to communicate with me this time: "I don't like it, but I belong here"

I nodded, and then turned my head to look out the window, but the world seemed to be about to take on the mood of this old city on this night, so a beggar holding a bamboo pole and looking for food in a garbage can appeared in my sight, but in a flash, he walked to another garbage can that I could not see, only the bamboo pole and sack dragged a puff of dry dust on the ground.

The world has become three-dimensional in my mind again, just a few hours ago, I saw a group of people who are in the entertainment industry, as well as Le Yao and Cao Jinfei, the golden boy and girl who were born with a golden key, never thought that in the next block, there are these people who are on the edge of life, and they don't even know what loneliness and loneliness are, and the meaning of their life is just to find food scraps that can solve their hunger in the garbage can.

I pinched my nose that was a little itchy because of dryness, and after lighting a cigarette, I didn't want to talk anymore, I suddenly didn't like this world that was divided into three, six, nine and so on in the burst, and I didn't want to think of Le Yao and Cao Jinfei, the golden boy and girl who shone with the edge of high society, so my world became silent in the boiling noodle soup around me, and finally scolded "This world of pretending to be forced", and the shopkeeper sent two bowls of clear soup and egg noodles

I took my bowl of steaming noodles to the beggar who was still rummaging through the food in the garbage can, although it was winter, his body still exuded a disgusting smell, I took a sharp puff of cigarette to try to cover the smell, and said to him, "Dude, turn around and give you a bowl of noodles." ”

The beggar turned his head, looked at me timidly, thought I was going to hit him, and quickly turned back to his body, and continued to rummage through the dumpster, and I realized that his nerves might be abnormal, so I put my face on the ground, and sat down not far away, watching him from a garage full of worn-out tires.

I didn't feel the danger of my departure, and at last I turned around, looked at the bowl on the floor, and then I lay down on the ground and stuffed the eggs and noodles into my mouth with my hands, and I had to approach him again and tell him: You can actually sit up and eat with chopsticks!

But he ran away in a puff of smoke

I don't know what kind of mood I feel, I kicked the bowl that was still containing the soup noodles and smashed it, I felt that it was extremely tormenting to live in this "world of pretending to be forced", isn't this world pretending to be forced? Since it has a kind of division of living people into three, six, nine and so on, high-class and low-class, why didn't it plant it for those high-level people, an immortal life?

So according to my logic, this is a world of pretending, because it gives a certain group the ability to pretend to be coercive, but arranges the same ending as that beggar, and in the end we are just a handful of dirt lying in the urn! But our children and grandchildren are still thriving in this world of coercion

In the cold wind, I gasped for breath at the roar of the steamrollers

Xiaoyun didn't know when she came to my side, she seemed to see this scene in her eyes, and asked me with the text typed on her mobile phone, "Are you in a bad mood?" ”

I calmed down, rubbed my temples heavily with my palms, and said to Xiaoyun with some apologies: "I just hate a certain phenomenon!" ”

"I always feel that you are living a very restless life, and you are very struggling, could it be that you are suffering from anxiety?"

Xiaoyun didn't know my true reaction at this time, so she suspected that I was suffering from anxiety, but in fact I didn't, what I just did was to smash the guitar angrily with some rock singers when they were fighting and tearing in the performance of songs, which is a similar expression, and once, if it weren't for the guitar that Jian Wei gave me was too precious, too much to carry my own feelings, I would have been smashing it when I sang in a bar!

Xiaoyun looked at me worriedly a few more times, I shook my head at her, signaled that I was fine, and then took off the leather clothes on my body in the heat after release, and untied the rings and necklaces on my hands and necks that gave me a sense of restraint, and then extinguished the cigarette in my hand in the pant Looking at the brightly lit giant hotel standing in the new city in the distance, how many people who live a sense of luxury in this world will find the most primitive physiological pleasure in the luxurious rooms that reflect the distortion of human nature.

Who else would lay their soul on the glass and see the beggar who buried himself in the trash in search of food scraps under a broken tire?

The night became deeper in the sound of the road roller!

The mobile phone in my pocket, with an incomprehensible attitude, broke the depth of the night, I wiped off the cold sweat in my hands, and took the phone out of my pocket, but I felt that the world and the flickering neon in the distance were frozen at this moment This call was from Le Yao.

I unbuttoned the cuff of my shirt again, answered her phone, and asked, "Is there something wrong?" ”

"You come to the restaurant in the empty city and send me and Jinfei to the hotel, he drank too much!"

"What about Robben, you let Robben send it, or CC, Wei Manwen!"

"You have drunk too much, not only do you have to send us, but you also have to send them back safely one by one, this is the pre-wedding party I held with Jinfei, everyone must go back safely, come quickly! Hurry up! ”――

After reading this chapter, many people may think that I have a chapter of water...... But it's my favorite chapter since I wrote the book, and I need such a release @!