The Ferrari carrying the rice color quickly turned the corner and drove onto another road that I couldn't reach, and at this moment, standing in the huge square of Zhuomei, I was like a clown abandoned by the world, suffering from the ridicule of passers-by in pain.

I just hate that I don't have a mask to cover my shame at this moment.

I was really tired, but I asked myself over and over again: what was wrong with me, why did I experience the grief in love so repeatedly, with Janeway, and now Mi Cai.

Frustration, as if freezing my blood, I stepped into my car with stiff steps, and in the despair, let the car turn into a gust of wind, sweeping over the city and over the vanity......

Back in the old house, it was already 11 o'clock in the middle of the night, I didn't smoke again, let alone drink, just silently packed up my luggage, because when Mi Cai pushed me away and got into the car, I felt that it was over between us, as for the two words of breakup, not saying it, it was Mi Cai's last gift to me, so that I could retain the last trace of dignity.

Soon I packed my luggage, and the moment I was about to leave the old house, I only felt that I had a dream, because I never dreamed that the conflict would suddenly intensify to this point.

Think about it again, life is like a dream, life is impermanent, no one has the ability to let the world develop along the trajectory planned by themselves, so it is not worth suffering for the sake of this impermanent world, and after being played, we will one day learn to go against the grain, but I am a little late to learn.

……

The guitar that Mi Cai gave me, I really wanted to take it away, but I didn't have the face to take it away, and I ended up staying in the old house.

The moment I closed the door, I finally lit my first cigarette after I returned, took a heavy puff, and then walked down the stairway with my luggage.

As I walked step by step, I finally went down to the 3rd floor, but suddenly I heard the sound of high heels stomping on the ground from the first floor, this sound was exceptionally clear in the middle of the night, and I was more familiar with the rhythm of this stampede, only she could walk out of such confident steps in the image.

So we met each other on the second floor, but her face was so haggard and tired in the dim light that she walked confidently.

We had to stop our respective steps, because I, carrying a lot of luggage, was blocking her in the narrow hallway, and she was blocking my downstream.

She looked at me, then at the luggage I was carrying, and her eyes suddenly moistened.

"Where are you going?" She finally asked me.

"In such a big city, are you afraid that you won't find a place to live and live?"

She was silent......

"Could you please turn over and let me pass?"

She stood still.

I tried to push her away with my hand, but she reached out and grabbed the guardrail, still not wanting to leave her position.

I suddenly had the illusion that she had become me when we first met, and I had become her when we first met, and my heart that was about to leave was faintly loosened, and I unrealistically imagined that she would hold me and cry for me to stay.

Finally, as if she had made up her mind, she asked, "Does your departure from here mean that you want to break up?" ”

I remembered the scene when she pushed me into the car, and finally gritted my teeth and said, "...... I'm sorry, but I never learned the calmness and sanity you need...... Let's give it a go, okay? ”

Mi Cai's body slowly turned to the side, and she lowered her head to make room for me to leave.

I looked at her, obviously not wanting to leave, expecting her to hug me, but I was manipulated by an inexplicable force to step up the stairs to the next section.

I walked down step by step, but the heavier and heavier I walked, I was a little suffocated, a little out of control, I was crazy and wanted to throw away my luggage to hug her, and then kiss her in this flickering hallway, but the force still manipulated me to go down...... Until I felt the spring rain that was falling outside the corridor.

At this moment, I threw away a distracting thought, threw my luggage into the trunk of the car, got into the car without looking back, started the car, turned into the wind in the rain, and instantly drove away from this community where we met and fell in love.

……

I opened the car window and drove wildly, in the raging cold rain, I was no longer willing to look at our love rationally, there was no material gap at this moment, only two people who hurt each other.

I suddenly wanted to listen to a song that was appropriate for the occasion, so I turned on the player in the car and found the song "Bad Weather" by Stefanie Sun.

"I don't want to separate, why are you here, a play that I don't care about, we should talk about it not just about the weather, we can't solve the deadlock, since we have the strength to hurt each other, why don't we work hard, love makes people get too close, forget to leave some leeway, childish, in fact, I just can't afford to lose......"

This is really a song for the occasion, and every word seems to be interpreting me and Mi Cai tonight.

Maybe we don't want to be separated, but we performed a play in the corridor that we didn't care, we used to be so close, so close that we forgot to leave a little room for ourselves, so we cared so much about each other being with another person of the opposite sex.

But if we have the strength to hurt each other, why don't we make an effort to get to know each other and get closer to each other?

Thinking about this qiē, it's just that our childishness is at work, because we can't afford to lose, and we can't afford to lose, and we forget the story of the gardener and the flowers, the oil-powered racing car, the wooden horse that took us to shake, and the guitar that we gave each other......

I stopped the car with a sudden brake, got out of the car, sat on the rain-soaked curb, and finally cried, crying at the pouring of rain...... He lay on the ground in a cry, and then took out the bank card containing a huge sum of 500,000 yuan from his pocket.

So he laughed again, self-deprecatingly...... If, if she was willing to get to know me, shouldn't she be happy for me?

I struggled on the margins of society for several years, and finally relied on some luck and hard work to earn this money that was a relief for me...... Shouldn't she really be happy for me?

Why? Why? Why is she upset?

Because this mere 500,000 yuan is not bullshit in her eyes, all she can see is the entanglement between me and Jian Wei, but she doesn't see my efforts to study Jinding Real Estate all night for the last negotiation.

So I fell into childish calculations in the wind and rain again...... I'd rather die in this storm than go back to that old house.

I took out the rain-soaked phone from my pocket, found Mi Cai's number, and finally sent her a message: "I don't understand you...... You don't understand me! ”――

No matter how I write, there will always be readers who read with the intention to understand me, and this is the motivation for me to keep writing. To be honest, if you really understand this book, you will find that "My Best Girlfriends" is not a grade at all compared to this book. It's not that I'm belittling the best girlfriend, and there's no need, after all, it's all my own book.