Cao, who just took a piece of watermelon from the corner of the table, looked at the bickering of several people in the field, smiled at the corner of his mouth, and muttered envy: "It's so good!" ”

Cao has been married to Cao Wei for many years, the first time I met was Cao Wei, who was still a little thin, climbed over the courtyard wall to steal the fruit on his own fruit tree, just happened to be seen by Cao, desperately chased for a long distance, and finally in the dilapidated land temple outside the village, saw Cao Wei was terminally ill, emaciated like a withered mother, my heart was soft, and I couldn't help crying.

Later, Cao Wei's mother died of illness, and Cao gave Cao Wei a lot of money to put him in the ground. Cao knew that she was ugly, which was famous for being ugly in all ten miles and eight towns, but when she got along with Cao Wei, she vaguely felt a little happy and happy, and her inferiority complex was also a little shy.

Cao Wei said that in this troubled world, there is no chance for the poor to live, and he wants to join the army to fight. Cao Shi hid the reluctance on his face, nodded, a manly husband should be like this, and then stole money from home for Cao Wei to entangle. Cao Wei looked at her and said, I won't forget you. Cao nodded, it doesn't matter if you forget, it's best to live.

That night, Cao Shi dressed up slightly, applied rouge gouache, put on the half-new and half-old cyan wrinkled skirt, stood in front of Cao Wei's door, hesitated and did not knock on the door, she left and said to herself: "If I look a little pretty, this door will knock open." ”

The next day, Cao Wei's figure disappeared in the snowstorm, like a person who had never appeared, only appearing and disappearing in a dream, reappearing, disappearing, and repeating, like a smoke screen, endless.

She went to the village every day to look, avoiding the strange eyes of the villagers. Escaping the scolding of his parents, he stood on tiptoe at the head of the village, looking at the road that stretched to the horizon. Until night approached, everything was covered in blue and white.

Or standing under the fruit tree where Cao Wei once stole fruit, looking up, he couldn't help but steal fun, it seemed that he was back to the day when he fled in front. I chased after him, and many things have changed, and many things have not changed.

The leaves are green and yellow. It fell again, the fruit was ripe and ripe, the days were moving forward step by step, and time flowed forward like flowing water.

Her heart, which still had a little illusion, began to slowly extinguish. She didn't know where Cao Wei was. What are she doing, a few times when she prepared her baggage and walked to the village, she suddenly worried: "What if he comes back and can't find me?" ”

So she went back the way she came, past the more dilapidated earth temple, past the fruit tree that was still green and shady.

Three years later, a lame blind man came to the door to propose marriage, and her parents were very happy, and finally someone came to the door to marry their own ugly girl. But she shook her head, and her angry father slapped her. Kicked her and scolded her.

While crying, she plunged into the heavy rain, walked to the head of the village with one foot deep and one foot shallow, knelt on the ground, and cried silently, the cry was mixed with grievances and thoughts, echoing in the rainy day, and it was not far away, it was cut into pieces all over the ground by the wind and rain, scattered on the ground, shattered and broken.

When he was still there, she didn't feel anything, he left, and she knew that there were some things that she couldn't control, and if she could really control them, she would choose first...... Forget him, forget him completely, and grow old until he dies.

She was sick, lying in bed, unable to open her eyes, only in the corner of her eye, she could see the sporadic sunlight coming from the windowsill, warm, like his smile.

She heard the sound of "crackling" firecrackers outside the house, and then the joyful suona, oh, someone in the village is married again, is it the little phoenix with a thin waist in the south of the village that can be held with both hands, or the little red with graceful feet in the west of the village? Both of them are handsome.

Thinking about it, she smiled, she wanted to put on a red hijab, and she also wanted to step into the red sedan chair, but who would marry me, who would marry an ugly monster, her brain burned out, right?

"Squeak", the door was pushed open, and a general in iron armor pushed the door in, the sun shone from behind the general, and the clothes and armor on his body collided with each other, "Ping Pong", so annoying, and blocked my sunlight.

She struggled to open her eyes, only to see a blurry outline, trying to see, as if he were ah.

She rubbed her throat and smiled bitterly: "I'm dreaming again." ”

Cao Wei, who was already full of tears, stepped forward to hold her hand: "I'm back." ”

She smiled: "This dream is so real." With all her strength, she reached out and poked his head, with resentment, hatred, and thought in her tone, and said thoughtfully: "You still know to come back." ”

In dreams, it's good in dreams, and in dreams you can do things that you want to do but don't dare to do on weekdays.

Later, when she got better, she knew that it was not a dream, but a real thing, she was so ashamed that she covered her face with a quilt, listening to the conversation between her parents and Cao Wei outside the house, his voice was still the same as before, but with a little more majesty and confidence, and then listen to the content inside, it was really embarrassing, what if she didn't marry, the sooner the better, how could this kind of thing be said.

Cao Wei bought a lot of rouge gouache for her, and blatantly took her hand and walked around the village. She was so ashamed that her face was flushed, but she couldn't break free, there was a lot of sweetness in her heart, and she said angrily: "How can you be like this? ”

"What's it like?" Cao Wei glared and said, "General Xu Xiao and Bai Su, military officers Fan Li and Rong'er are all like this, why can't we be like this?" ”

After a sweet time, she sat in front of the bed, took out the mirror that had been hidden for many years, reflected her face, frowned, the woman in the mirror was too ugly, she had to admit it herself, and remembered Cao Wei, who was now tall and burly, she let out a long sigh, pointed to herself in the mirror and said, "You have to be content, you can't be too greedy." ”

So, she took out the burden hidden under the bed, put it on her shoulder, walked out of the courtyard alone, stopped for a moment under the fruit tree, walked to the head of the village, and looked back, where the smoke was curling, where the grass was green, farewell, I would go away.

However, as soon as he turned around, he crashed into his arms.

"You're leaving?" Cao Wei asked.

She nodded, like a child doing something wrong.

"Where are you going?" Asked again.

She shook her head. I don't know, I don't know where I go.

"I don't agree." Cao Wei picked her up from his waist and strode into the village.

She struggled. But he couldn't take it off, so he could only say, "I'm not worthy of you." ”

Cao Wei put her under the fruit tree: "It's not up to you to have the final say. The night I joined the army and left, you didn't have the courage to open the door, I didn't have the courage to open the door, and I won't let you go back tonight. ”

Her eyes widened with amazement.

Bright stars flashed in the sky, blinking and blinking. From the north, a cool breeze blew with a faint fragrance.

She knew it was the scent of pear blossoms, waiting until autumn. Sweet and crunchy pears will grow there, hanging on the branches, swaying in the wind, cute and fun. When he stole fruit, he stole pears. Hold in your arms. Running wildly, fleeing in the wilderness.

Cao Wei felt like a brave charging warrior, and she felt that she was really a night boat constantly drifting in the wind on the great river.

After that night, she married him, and the people of the village said, "How blessed she is." Cao Wei said: "I am blessed." ”

Every time on the eve of his expedition, the two of them lingered to death, like life and death.

But she was not pregnant, and her lower abdomen never bulged. It seems that God has been good enough for her, and there is no need to give her more grace.

Afterward. The Great Wei State was the leader of the world, and Cao Wei was named the leader of the Imperial Forest Army.

She became more and more conflicted in her heart, thinking about giving Cao Weina a concubine, giving birth to children to the Cao family, and continuing the incense. She personally saw the woman, decorated the flower room, bought candles, prepared wine glasses for handing over glasses, sewed fiery red quilts, and purchased peanuts, melon seeds, and round bell jujubes that symbolize the early birth of a noble son.

But when she prepared a thing and sat on the bed with a long sigh, she suddenly found that there were some things that could not be shared, such as love, such as Lao Cao.

She suddenly found that she loved Lao Cao more than she imagined, she hadn't read any books, and she didn't know that "there are three unfilial pieties, and no queen is great", she only knew that she couldn't let people share a husband with her, some things she could be generous, she could cede them, but some things could only be hers.

So she overturned the red candles, cut up the sewn quilt with scissors, smashed the dresser with a large mirror, and crumpled the peanuts and dates.

She became obedient and willful, she began to criticize Cao Wei, began to be hysterical, unreasonable, and held all the silver coins of Cao Mansion in her hands, covering the smell and hiding the rotten could not let Cao Wei have any spare money.

She didn't allow Cao Wei to go out to drink flower wine, didn't allow him to stay up all night, didn't allow him to go out early and return late, didn't allow him to eat and drink with his colleagues, didn't allow him to look at the maid in the house more, if Cao Wei looked at anyone more, she would whip that vixen and little slut with a whip as thick as rattan.

Cao Wei snatched the whip from her hand and picked up the maid who was already covered in bruises: "Why are you so unreasonable." ”

She was hoarse: "I'm right, are you having something unsightly with this little girl, ha, Cao Wei, you can do it, you really can!" ”

"Cao Wei, don't forget who gave you a bite to eat when you were at your worst."

"Cao Wei, don't forget who gave you the money to join the army, you can have today, it's all my credit."

"Cao Wei, did you think I was ugly, and now I think I'm ugly, what did you do in the first place."

"Cao Wei, you have the ability to beat me, aren't you the leader of the Royal Forest Army, you beat me."

"Cao Wei, if you are repaying my kindness, I will sue you for your kindness, and we don't owe each other."

……

Her words were like the most merciless stingers, piercing one after another.

"Vexatious!" Cao Wei dropped the whip and turned to leave.

She is fierce, unreasonable, vicious, a famous tigress in the capital, and ugly.

After Cao Wei's figure could no longer be seen, she knelt on the ground, covered her face with her hands, and cried helplessly.

Some words, when they are spoken, have not hurt anyone, but they have pierced themselves in the heart first.

She is ashamed, helpless, painful, she is not beautiful, and she can't give Cao Wei a son and a half daughter, so she sometimes looks forward to Cao Wei being annoyed and ashamed, jumping like thunder, drawing a line between a letter of resignation and herself, and from then on, strangers in the world will not know each other.

She had already thought about it, and when Cao Wei took a break from herself, she took out the burden that had been prepared under the bed a long time ago, returned to her hometown, and continued to plant her own fruit trees.

She has a pair of big hands, she is not afraid to do heavy work, she has endless strength, and she can do it by herself to fertilize and water.

She would wait until autumn to pluck fresh fruit from the pear tree, push a simple cart, pass by the ruined earth temple, walk to the market, shouting and selling, it doesn't matter how much you sell, you can eat the rest yourself, and if you can't eat it, you can give it to the poor.

She missed her childhood, no child wanted to play with her, she could spend a whole day in the orchard, chatting with each fruit tree, imagining the white clouds in various shapes, but then she went farther and farther away, and never returned to the place where she started.

She has no sense of security, she is lonely and lonely, she pins all her retreat on a burden, hides under the bed, and when things come, she can't solve it, she can leave immediately with the baggage.

Cao Wei went to join the army, she could carry her baggage to find him, but she was afraid that he would not find herself when he came back, and she did not succeed.

Cao Wei came back, she wanted to escape, and she wanted to leave with her baggage, but she was stopped by Cao Wei, so she saw the most beautiful starlight, but she didn't succeed.

Now if Cao Wei gets bored one day and takes a break from her, she can still pick up her baggage and leave.

Holding that burden, she felt that she had the initiative, held the strength, and held her own destiny, so that she could hold her tears and let it never be revealed in front of Cao Wei.

Cao Wei didn't know the preservation of this burden, which was his biggest failure as a husband.

No one knew what was inside, but she often opened it, at first there were a few clothes in it, and a few taels of silver, as time went by, the silver in the baggage turned into a silver ticket, and then there were many more messy things, the comb that Cao Wei bought for himself for the first time, a small rouge box, and a small pearl, and a musty ginseng.

She didn't know that ginseng was meant to be soaked in wine, and she thought that putting it in a bag was the safest thing in the world.

She knew that every time Cao Wei stole wine and drank, she knew that sometimes she would mess around and scold, and sometimes when she saw Cao Wei who was slightly drunk, she couldn't bear it, sighed, set up a confused Cao Wei, helped him to the bed, took off his shoes, washed his feet, held his hands on his chest, stared at a certain place, and in a flash, several hours passed.

When Cao Wei woke up, she would ask Cao Wei sharply: "Where did you go to drink, who did you drink with, say, hurry up." "The image of a tigress alive.

She can also cry, mess around, and spill, and she will talk and behave like a vixen.

Sometimes she wanted to kneel in front of Cao Wei: "Please, leave me." ”

However, Cao Wei did not divorce her, returned home on time every day, never drank flower wine, never talked about concubines, and did not hide private money.

It was a torture for her, from physical to mental.

Today in the palace, when the Cao family saw Lin Wan'er and Chen Nuonuo, they would envy them, envy their beauty and carefreeness, and they were even more happy to see Zhao Ting, Baoyu, Yubao and Rong'er, she thought to herself: "How good it would be if I could have such a child!" (To be continued......)