Lin Wan'er resented Dabao, and then resented Chen Xiaoxiao, some things were given to each other by the two of them, Lin Wan'er could give money and materials, but after the two closed the door, Lin Wan'er was an outsider, she couldn't help Dabao, and she couldn't help Xiaoxiao, so she could only do nothing to watch the two of them live.

This powerlessness made Lin Wan'er a little annoyed in her heart, annoyed by Chen Xiaoxiao's choice, defining it as a "stupid and ridiculous choice", and then seeing Chen Xiaoxiao and Dabao's hands holding each other, this annoyance was even more irrepressible, hula, she stood up violently, and forcefully broke Chen Xiaoxiao and Dabao's hands: "Xiaoxiao, you're crazy, you're crazy, I don't agree, I don't agree." ”

Dabao looked at the appearance of the eldest sister, and his heart was timid, and tears were already rolling in the frame of his eyes. Chen Xiaoxiao patted Dabao's hand, signaled not to be afraid, and then turned his head, looking at Lin Wan'er with clear and firm eyes.

"Ha, Chen Xiaoxiao, don't look at me like this, I, Lin Wan'er, will not agree to you and Dabao's affairs, I think Hong Xiuyu is good, she is handsome, and sincere, and her skills in making tea are good, it is best to match you." Lin Wan'er didn't look at Chen Xiaoxiao with her eyes, and inserted herself between Dabao and her, stretched out her hand and slapped Dabao's hand that wanted to pull Chen Xiaoxiao's sleeve, preventing him from getting close to Chen Xiaoxiao: "Dabao, be obedient, Dabao, don't cry." The eldest sister is all good for you, and it's also good for laughing. ”

Chen Xiaoxiao handed Dabao a comforting look, and his tone was still gentle, but it contained an undeniable resoluteness: "Sister Wan'er, are you afraid?" ”

Lin Wan'er was slightly stunned, yes. She was afraid, afraid that Xiaoxiao and Dabao would come together. I'm afraid that the change of one day will bring harm to Dabao and Xiaoxiao, so keep your distance. Both of them still have room for maneuver and a chance to turn back, but if they come together, it will be a "point of no return".

She blocked Dabao behind her: "Laughing, love is not moving, nor is it a habit, and it is not like the hero and heroine in the novel who have different positions and oppose good and evil, which seems to be lingering and entangled. It's actually not worth mentioning. Have you ever thought that Dabao can't give you the most basic comfort and love, he won't caress you, he won't be considerate of you, but will keep asking for your tenderness and care, day after day, year after year, you can't get a little sweetness to recall. In order to continue, you have to deceive yourself. Exaggerate the trivial pleasures that are boring and boring, and the days will crush you, tear you to pieces, and fall to the ground. You can't pick it up, and you still have to face Dabao, a fool! ”

Yes, Dabao is a fool. Is there anything more sad and impossible to ignore? If Dabao can be normal, even if he is lazy and mixed. Lin Wan'er can accept the combination of Chen Xiaoxiao and Dabao, but the reality is cruel like a pot of boiling oil. Not only do you have to drink it while it's hot, but you also have to smile at it.

Lin Wan'er stretched out her hand and pulled Dabao behind her, Dabao was a little trembling with fright, and couldn't help but hold her head with both hands.

Seeing Dabao like this, Lin Wan'er was even more annoyed, she was quite unreasonable and tore away Dabao's hands, so that Dabao's stupid appearance was completely exposed in front of Chen Xiaoxiao, Dabao didn't comply, she also knocked Dabao hard, like a sister with the most vicious heart, Dabao was already scared to tears, but she couldn't match the eldest sister's stiffness.

"Chen Xiaoxiao, look at it, you open your eyes and take a look at the person you want to choose, what kind of person he is." Lin Wan'er scolded sharply: "Did you see it? See? Dabao, he, is, one, one, stupid, son, one, one, stupid, son, ah, one, one, stupid, child......"

One word at a time, one word at a time, every word is like a sharp sword, every sentence is like a knife cutting, only piercing the intestines of the person a thousand times, and the person who cuts is cold. Lin Wan'er was a little nervous and repeated "I'm a fool" over and over again, she wanted Chen Xiaoxiao to see clearly something that could never be changed, something she had to bear.

Chen Xiaoxiao's tears were like beads in the line of the city, surging out of her eyes, crossing her cheeks that were about to break with her fingers, and falling from her chin, the tears were like a crystal clear, carrying the memories of her life.

She can't remember what happened when she was a child, at first her background was still good, there were many maids in the family, many people called her "Miss", but suddenly one day, a large group of people broke into her home, saying that the house and real estate belonged to them, a little maid came over to her and said: "Miss, you are no longer Miss, you are the same as us." She smiled, not knowing why she was no longer a young lady.

Her father and mother, who couldn't remember her appearance clearly, took her hand and walked out of the mansion with a small burden on their backs, and looked back at the plaque on the mansion, it was no longer the previous "Chen Mansion", it had become another word she didn't recognize, it was so complicated, she couldn't write, but she also understood one thing - oh, it turns out that this is no longer my home.

My father can write a good hand, my mother can play a good pipa, although my life is not as rich as before, but my father writes family letters to others, and my mother plays the pipa for large families, and my life can be passed.

Once, when my mother returned to her former home to play the pipa, she took advantage of her mother's inattention and quietly ran to her former room, there was a small begonia tree in front of the room, and she buried a small box under the begonia tree, and there was a longevity lock in the box, which was made of gold and valuable! Before, she had no concept of money, but now she has.

But she was accidentally discovered by a little maid, she knew this little maid, and she used to always call her "Miss", but when the little maid saw the longevity lock in her hand, she was stunned, touched her bruised arm, and then shouted loudly: "Someone stole something, someone stole something." ”

She forgot what happened later, and only knew that when she came to her senses, she was the only one left in the family, herself and her mother, and she asked, "What about my father?" The mother said, "Go to a place and wait for us." She asked, "Where?" Mother pointed to the sky and said, "On the clouds." She nodded and said, "Got it." ”

The mother packed up her baggage, went to the grave, and saw the little maid kneeling there. The little maid cried and said, "Madame, Miss. I didn't expect things to turn out like this, they beat me. I don't see me as a human being, and my body is full of scars and bruises. I just wanted to live a little better, and make a small contribution. ”

The mother did not speak, but took a handful of loess to cover her father's grave, and took her hand without looking back.

She tilted her head and looked at her mother's side face: "Mother, where are we going?" ”

"Go for revenge!"

Her mother took her around in front of the former house for several days, and in the eyes of everyone with contempt, she went in to play the pipa for a few days for money. This time she learned to be obedient and stopped running around, but her mother was a little strange and always took advantage of the break to go to the toilet.

Finally, on the first seven nights of her father's life, in the middle of the night when there was no wind, she held the pipa, and her mother hugged the baggage, and took advantage of the middle of the night to quietly touch the front door of the previous house. The mother put a great lock on the door, blew the fire, lit the torch, and threw it into the courtyard. There was phosphorus powder that my mother had hidden for a few days, flammable, and it bloomed brilliantly when it met a spark.

And so the former home began to rise with a dazzling flame. Gradually, the house was burned, and the beams were set on fire. also burned the cherry tree in front of her door. Her mother covered her ears to keep her from hearing the screams in the courtyard. But her mother herself listened to the screams of ghosts and wolves with great vigour, as if she was listening to the most beautiful pipa song, gently twisting and slowly wiping and resuming......

The light of the fire shone on her mother's crazy face, and also on the tears on her mother's face, and she was a little scared and a little excited, so she tightened the lute in her arms.

The next day, all the people in the courtyard were burned to death, and each one was carried out like black coals, and the little maid did not die, for she knelt at his father's grave all night for the first seven nights.

The little maid looked up at her mother and herself in the crowd, and she chose to be silent this time when she spoke up for the first time.

Mother began to take her to the end of the world, since that night after the fire, her mother began to believe in Buddhism, while teaching her to write, while teaching her to play the lute, the first to write is the "version of the Prajnaparamita Heart Sutra", the first song to talk about is "The Great Confession of the Eighty-Eight Buddhas".

One day, the mother seemed to have been touched by something, called her to her side, and said, "Daughter, why don't you call Xiaoxiao in the future, you can grin every day in the future, how good!" So, her name became Xiaoxiao, and as for what her name was, she thought about it for a long time, but she didn't remember it.

Mother also went to the clouds, and went to find my father, in a dark night.

So she was lonely and alone, until she arrived in Lanzhou, she was tired and tired, and saw the sea, the river, and the painting street, so she used the money to buy a painting boat, and played the pipa, sang, and laughed all day long on the painting boat.

She often saw a girl with a big temper holding her stupid brother to sell tofu on a boat, and often heard the girl with a big temper arguing with others, and several times she moved her hand and hit the boat into the water. In her eyes, the big-tempered girl is like a fierce rooster guarding her cubs, and whoever dares to get close to her younger brother behind her will peck him to death.

She didn't know the grumpy girl well, she just nodded her head, smiled lightly, and handed the stupid big man a few peanuts or a piece of pastry, and that's it.

Perhaps it is the arrangement of fate, the turning point in Chen Xiaoxiao's life will always be on the night when she can't see her fingers, experiencing life and death, joys and sorrows.

Another night, she walked along the painting boat street, and on the corner of the street saw a scholar who had been frozen to death, his lips were blue and trembling.

She bought two steaming meat buns for him, and the scholar devoured them, not forgetting to say, "Thank you!" ”

She nodded, turned away, and returned to the boat, fidgeting from side to side, restless, tossing and turning in bed, unable to sleep. The perennial displacement had made her look down on life and death, but at this moment she was in a dilemma, and finally she sighed, and with all her strength, she carried the scholar back to the painting boat, wrapped him in a quilt, fed him a bowl of ginger soup, and the scholar grinned and passed out.

She invited Lang Zhong, prescribed a decoction, took care of it, and when the scholar opened his eyes, she was happy that she could save a life, and that's all.

The scholar's body gradually recovered, and the person became more and more energetic, as if unintentional and seemed to have a heart, the scholar often happened to be able to click on what she was thinking, and the unintentional body language and finger contact would make her pound her heartbeat, her face was as red as a red apple, and she had to open the curtain, run to the edge of the river, blow the sea breeze, and sober herself.

Feelings began to appear between the two, like a cat's tail, always inadvertently exposed in front of the cat, and when the cat went to catch it, it was always uncatchable, but it was real, like a dream and the west of Caixia, can't be caught, can't stay.

The scholar smiled warmly, closed her eyes and listened to her pipa, she plucked the strings lightly, but her eyes stared at the scholar's face, the scholar stared at her on weekdays, so that she was so blushing, only at this time, she dared to take a look, take a look, every now and then, the pipa in her hand is no longer just a pipa, but also a recorder, a flute, a zither, a row of bells, played out is no longer just a pipa song, but a set of mixed symphony, there is a sound of sorrow, there is also a sound of flowing water.

Zheng Tuo, the housekeeper of the painting boat street, once stopped outside her painting boat, smiled and praised: "Wonderful." ”

In the sound of music, she surrendered her heart and body, standing naked, shy and reserved in front of the scholar, like a flower stained with crystal water droplets waiting to bloom.

Later, scholars wanted to enter Beijing to take the exam, and they needed money.

She stood in front of Zheng Tuo and said with a smile: "Zheng Da is in charge, I want to sell myself." ”

Zheng Tuo raised his eyebrows, put down the teacup in his hand, and said softly: "Smile girl, it's not worth it." ”

She also raised her eyebrows: "Whether it's worth it or not, I know it in my heart." ”

Zheng Tuo shook his head and ordered his subordinates to write the contract, and after the ink was dry, he said, "Miss Xiaoxiao, you can think about it again, this matter is not in a hurry." ”

She smiled silently, and resolutely signed the deed of sale, as an oath and proof to show the scholar her purest self. She knew that she didn't need to prove anything, but doing so made her happy, happy from the bottom of her heart, like mastering a musical note when she was a child, writing a big letter and taking it to her mother, waiting for her mother's praise.

She handed over everything she needed except for the lute, and watched the scholar's back disappear at the junction of heaven and sea. Turning her head, she seemed to see the grumpy girl sighing silently. (To be continued......)