322 Fear of yourself
Of all things in the world, only a word of love cannot be forced or exchanged, if someone really marries her because of repaying her kindness, it is probably the biggest insult to her, and it is also the biggest trampling on her feelings.
Suddenly, I understood why Nangong Ling was so angry this time.
It's one thing for her to keep her promise, it's one thing for her to say goodbye without saying goodbye, it's one thing for her not to tell him, but I'm afraid the most important thing is that she knows she wants to leave, but she wants to give herself to him.
In her opinion, this is her heart to Nangong Ling, and it is also her apology and compensation, but for Nangong Ling, it is the biggest insult to his feelings.
No wonder he always said that she was doing his thing, it turned out that she really trampled his heart under her feet.
His arms tightened tightly, holding Nangong Ling's neck tightly, refusing to raise his head, and said softly and cowardly: "Ah Ling, I know it's wrong, I really know it's wrong." ”
There was a heavy nasal voice in his voice, and he couldn't tell the pitiful.
Nangong Ling is all kinds of anger, and she can't give out half a point when she hugs and admits her mistakes like this.
He bit the side of her neck, and said hatefully: "Stupid fish! ”
"Ahh Nangong Ling's bite was not light, Ruan Yanluo screamed in pain, but then she felt that Nangong Ling was picking her hand away.
"Where are you going?" Ruan Yanluo immediately asked, his hand around Nangong Ling's neck and refused to let go, with a little worry in his eyes.
Could it be that Nangong Ling still refuses to forgive himself?
"Let go." Nangong Ling said with a straight face.
"Don't." Ruan Yanluo shook her head like a little girl: "You tell me where to go first." ”
"This king wants to bathe." Nangong stared at her and said, "What, you want to come over and serve?" ”
Nangong Ling is a person with a slight cleanliness habit, as long as the conditions permit, he will bathe every day, otherwise he would not make such a big hot spring in the palace.
The bathing water was sent by the people of the inn in the morning, and he was going to wash it after he came up after eating, but he was troubled by Ruan Yanluo, and it is estimated that the water has already been cold.
Ruan Yanluo was shocked at this time, and was still frightened by Nangong Ling's actions just now, as soon as he heard him say this, he immediately let go, took two steps back into the bed, and said, "Don't need me." ”
Nangong Ling glanced at her, what about the courage when he seduced him in the first place? That's all there is left to do?
Stupid fish!
asked someone to bring in a few more buckets of hot water, and Nangong Ling didn't care about Ruan Yanluo, who was huddled on the bed, and went around behind the screen by himself.
I can't really see the people behind me through the screen, but I can see the movements clearly, Ruan Yanluo saw Nangong Ling casually take off his clothes, revealing a slender and sturdy body silhouette.
The water vapor rises through the screen, creating a cloudy atmosphere in the room, and a light but strong sense of masculinity spreads with the water vapor, filling every corner of the room.
Ruan Yanluo suddenly remembered that in the hot spring of King Ling's Mansion, she and Nangong Ling snuggled together quietly but sweetly, his well-proportioned body lines, his strong muscles, and his excellent skin touch suddenly poured into his mind, and the pictures were clear and clear, and even every detail was meticulous.
Ruan Yanluo found that her memory of this man was so deep, it had nothing to do with me, nothing to do with anything, she just remembered every time he was with her.
"Come here!" Nangong Ling's voice suddenly came from behind the screen.
Ruan Yanluo trembled unconsciously, remembering that he was thinking about his current appearance in his mind just now, such a jade tree in the wind, wanton and romantic.
"Come here!" Nangong Ling's voice was raised, with a domineering and slightly reluctant feeling.
"What did you do in the past?" Ruan Yanluo looked at the faint hazy image on the screen, and his heart jumped uncontrollably, but he was still affected by what happened just now.
"Help the king wipe his back." Nangong Ling was silent for a moment and said.
"Oh." Ruan Yanluo immediately got out of bed when he heard this, and was about to walk in without thinking about it.
Outside the screen, however, she suddenly stopped.
For the past few days, she has been feeling a faint panic in her heart, she is afraid, but she does not know what she is afraid of.
At the grave of the Sun family's sister-in-law that day, she thought she could sort it out, but in the end she still didn't succeed.
But just now, just now, she suddenly understood what she was afraid of.
What she was afraid of was herself.
It was the one who was low to Nangong Ling and flattered himself in every possible way.
It's the one who will be scared, frightened, and feel anxious just because of Nangong Ling's eyes and expression.
It was the self who reacted immediately when he heard Nangong Ling say something, and was overly obedient.
This woman is so strange, who is she? Is she really Ruan Yanluo?
Nguyen Yan Loh is the chief strategy officer of the Ministry of National Defense, a wisp of a rebellious soul.
She is always cold-blooded and calm, even in the face of the encirclement and suppression of national forces, she can come up with several appropriate and safe response plans in an instant.
She has absolutely calm judgment, self-control, and only trusts what she sees, hears, and analyzes, and never wavers by any appearance.
She is even more proud and independent, and will never deliberately please anyone, let alone be obedient and obedient like the women who were raised in the boudoir in ancient times.
But now it's changed, it's all changed.
These days, the woman who is facing Nangong Ling's anger and swallowing her anger, constantly revolving around Nangong Ling just to be able to ask him for a forgiveness, trembling and crying under Nangong Ling, the woman who is only afraid of being abandoned by him, is it really herself?
The joy that rose in my heart because Nangong Ling finally forgave her was instantly splashed from head to foot by a basin of cold water, and I couldn't stop chilling in my heart.
After leaving Beijing, she deliberately walked very slowly, looking behind hundreds of times a day, hoping that Nangong Ling could catch up.
After knowing that he would not catch up, she stayed in the car all day, not thinking about tea and food, and did not even bother to speak.
When she arrived at Wangshan Village, she listened to the words of the sister-in-law of the Sun family, and figured out the knot between her and Nangong Ling.
After knowing that Nangong Ling was angry, she hollowed out her mind every day, only thinking about how to please him and let him not be angry again.
I don't know when it started, Ruan Yanluo's entire world was full of Nangong Ling.
I don't know when it started, the previous Ruan Yanluo disappeared without a trace, leaving only a weak and worried woman who liked to be tortured.
The qualities she was proud of, the foundation on which she relied to establish herself, the things that made her Ruan Yanluo are all gone.
Is such Ruan Yanluo still Ruan Yanluo?