"Don't!" Kaede watched as the iron spear in his hand pierced into Diandian's chest again, and let out a heart-rending howl, finally waking up from the dream, and it was indeed another nightmare. In other words, the memories of that day were like nightmares, destroying Kaede's nerves, which were not strong. It's been a few weeks since the incident, and Kaede still keeps waking up from the same nightmare, sweating and soaking the quilt, and never want to fall asleep again this night.

Kaede smiled miserably, took out a cigarette from the bedside, the crisp sound of the lighter spread far away in the middle of the night, looked at the watch, it was not yet three o'clock, Kaede couldn't remember how many times he woke up in the night, anyway, the recent eye circles have been black. I heard a noise in the next room, and after a while, Tang Mengli, who was wearing pajamas, knocked on the door and came in.

"Nightmares again?" Tang Mengli looked at Feng's pale face and the beads of sweat on his forehead, and he had already guessed seven or eight points. It's also thanks to her light sleep, almost every time she can detect Kaede's abnormality, wake up from a nightmare at night, and have a beautiful girl to chat with you, it doesn't seem too miserable.

"No way, I've been repeating that nightmare, or that memory, lately." It doesn't seem accurate to say that the nightmare is true, it is indeed a fact that has happened, but it is constantly reinforced in Kaede's brain.

"If you continue like this, your body will collapse." The seven emotions and six desires of people are originally secretly in line with the way of heaven, but indulgence and indiscriminate desires have dry heavenly harmony, and eventually lead to the collapse of the homeostatic cycle.

Feng really didn't know how to answer, Tang Mengli was also a temperamental, how could she turn a blind eye to her hot feelings? I have a bad fate, and I am destined to not be able to spend my life ordinary and happy, how can I bear to drag such a girl in the mood for love into the wheel of my destiny? They should make a difference in the rivers and lakes, and they should find their own happy home, instead of drifting between ideals and reality like themselves, and being devastated by fate.

"Second sister, do you know what 'five disadvantages and three deficiencies' are?" Kaede diverted the topic and proposed a word related to metaphysics.

Although Tang Mengli was born in the old surname of Jianghu, he had not studied metaphysics, so he couldn't understand it. "I don't understand, you explain." To put it simply, the so-called five disadvantages and three deficiencies refer to numerology. The five disadvantages are "widowhood, widowhood, loneliness, loneliness, and disability", and the three deficiencies are nothing more than "money and life rights", which is originally a very mysterious saying, but it also contains the avenue of yin and yang conservation and profit and loss reincarnation. All beings in the world are pursuing perfection, don't you know that perfection itself is a kind of imagination, the ruler is long and the inch is short, if all the abilities in the world are occupied, that person is almost enlightened; If all a person's wishes are satisfied, there is no **, there is no pursuit, and he will lose the meaning of living. "I still don't understand." It's easy to understand, but what does it have to do with us mortals? Is it true that someone is cursed for being too outstanding?

"I'll give you a simple example. Nowadays, girls like to pierce their ears, but few people know that the original meaning of piercing is timidity. In other words, to make what is perfect no longer perfect. Legend has it that after Su Daji was born, it was difficult to achieve both civil and military affairs since ancient times, a generation of great sage Zhuge Kongming, who was a ghost with seven waist cards in a thousand doors, and had a strange door escape and strange door armor, and there were thirty-six thousand games in his chest, even so, Zhuge Liang did not dare to practice martial arts, that is, he was afraid of attracting jealousy, but Zhuge Kongming worked hard all his life, but his body became worse and worse, so that he had to be pushed to the battlefield later, this is what we call five disadvantages and three deficiencies, his life is damaged because of wisdom, and his life is declining. Later, I wanted to deceive the ghosts and gods with the kung fu of Qimen Dunjia, and borrowed my life for a season, but it was just a big dream after all. Feng Yang said a lot, and Tang Mengli became more and more dizzy when he heard it.

"What does all this have to do with us?" Tang Mengli still didn't understand, why did he say this at night?

In fact, Jianghu people also have their own five disadvantages and three shortcomings, but everyone is reluctant to say it. Think about it, how many famous characters have a good death? mutilated limbs should be mutilated; There are no children and no daughters, and they should be alone; The widow of a single man who lost his wife should be a widower; The heroine is widowed and widowed; As for loneliness, how many heroes in the rivers and lakes did not enter the rivers and lakes after experiencing misfortune at home? As soon as Feng finished speaking, he lit a cigarette again, "The rivers and lakes are a big grinding plate, grinding how many people's youth, mixing blood and tears, turning into dazzling red, turning into cruel red." "Brother, these things are too mysterious, people have their own ambitions, the children of the rivers and lakes are old, from the day they stepped into the rivers and lakes, everyone didn't think that they could die well, the road to pursue their dreams may be bumpy, maybe it is paved with blood and tears, and even we didn't get any results in the end, but the scenery along the way is our biggest harvest." Tang Mengli only then understood that Feng had been talking for a long time, and it turned out that he believed that the death of Lin and Diandian was his responsibility, and it was the "five disadvantages and three shortcomings" of his fate.

Kaede didn't defend himself, he knew very well that his nightmare was indeed a demon at the root. He took the responsibility on himself, if he could let go of this guilt, he would naturally not have so many troubles, but unfortunately Feng is not a wooden hedgehog, he has no epiphany ability, and he is up and down in the red dust, and this suffering is inevitable.

"The reason why I say so much is just to let you see that I am a person who is destined to be unblessed, and there is no good end with me." Kaede paused and looked at Tang Mengli's autumn-like eyes, "I know you like me." If I can't even see this thought, I'm too stupid. Tang Mengli never dreamed that Feng would be so direct to find out his careful thoughts, and two red clouds flew on his face, "You, what nonsense are you talking about." Besides, you're not smart in the first place. "I don't have any confidence in saying this.

"It's not that I don't accept your love, it's that I can't afford it." Feng looked at Tang Mengli, who was blushing, and felt a little sad for a while. "If you follow me, you will inevitably be implicated, so it's better to ......" "If you want to say anything about the nonsense of withdrawing and retreating to the hometown of Tangmen, don't talk about it as soon as possible, although I am not good, girl."